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Din Djarin x Reader:
Healing Pains 5.3k : after suffering a bad injury on a quarry, you and din both navigate new territory in your partnership and must face truths youâve both been ignoring.
Road to Recovery (part two of Healing Pains) 4.8k : the aftermath of what happened in the cockpit weighs heavy on both you and the mandalorianâs mind and youâre both left with questions that need answers.
Distraction 6.2k : the only other thing being built up besides mandoâs new ship is the tension between the two of you. inspired by tbobf episode 5.
â„ïž Attachment (part two of Distraction) 6.5k : the mandalorian confides with you about something thatâs been weighing heavily on his mind and you remind him of what truly matters
â„ïž Keep Up With Me (oneshot) 6.9k : thereâs always been a competition between you and mando. so the one time he asks for your help, he proves that he can keep up with you.
â„ïž First Time for Everything (one shot) 20+k: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
Asks:
Anything For You 2.6k
Rest 1.7k
Javier Peña x Reader:
â„ïž Old Habits Die Hard WIP Masterlist : When Javier met you, he felt as though heâd been punched. He had no idea how hard he would fall for you. He wants you more than anything but he has to stop. It canât happen. Youâre nearly half his age. And youâre his best friendâs daughter.
â„ïž Home (one shot) 2k: Ten years and two kids later, Javier still finds himself falling harder for you.
Joel Miller x Reader:
â„ïž Consequences (one shot) 4.1k: Playing around with joel is like playing with fire, so when you play a small trick on him you face the consequences for it.
Artwork:
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the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.
summary: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
tags/warnings: dual pov, no use of y/n cuz ew, alcohol consumption, mentions of medicine/contraceptives, a very tiny mention of being chased/hunted down, hella chemistry, fluff, language, jealousy, sexual tension, yearning, dirty talk, heavy makeout, biting, fingering, clit play, cunnilingus, breast play, slight choking kink, piv unprotected sex, praise kink, breeding kink, cream pie, helmet off, dark room sensory focused.
authorâs note: listen listen LISTEN... I know, it's been a hot minute đ„Č Life happened and all that jazz. Tbh this has been in my drafts for a while but I decided to finish it now that the movie is out so this is probably canon divergent at this point lol. But when I tell you I ran away writing this, bitch I raaaan. To everyone who wondered what happened to that bottle of liquor in s3, this is for you pookiesđ«”đ»đââïž
**update** this fic is now on AO3! It's my first work on there at the moment but feel free to drop some love đâš
When you decided to make Nevarro your home, you expected it to be a rough place. A far off den of thieves, bounty hunters, and a sleazy connection to the old empire. Nonetheless, it was cheap so you convinced yourself you could put up with it. It wasnât anything new to you. Plus, at the time, you really didnât have anywhere else to go.Â
Thankfully, the reputation has drastically improved over the past few years. Itâs not Naboo, but thereâs a sort of gritty charm to it. Rebels became marshals. Bars became schools. Thieves became honest vendors. Hell, thereâs even kaf shops here now.
Youâre no stranger to drastic changes in this galaxy. Youâve beared witness to the rise and fall of an empire after all.
But receiving a bottle of wine at night from a notorious ex-bounty hunter is definitely a first for you.
âYouâre⊠giving this to me,â you ask, dragging the question out.
The Mandalorian stands at your doorstep. Unreadable beneath hard shiny metal and illuminated only by the entry light of your home above your door. The chilly night air bites your cheeks but he stands unfazed.
âAs a thank you,â he explains. âYou were a big help to my kid and this was the only thing I had that seemed like something youâd enjoy.â
All you did was give his little green kid some medicine. Itâs not like it was even your first interaction with the infamous hunter. Heâs stopped by your apothecary a couple times. Passing by so swiftly you hardly even knew he was there if it wasnât for the lingering stares from other customers. If you recall correctly, he only ever picks up supplies to replenish a med pack or bacta spray for wounds.
Until you suddenly found him at your doorstep the other night with his adorable little green baby in his arms. The poor little guy was running a fever, coughing up a storm, and had even refused food for over a day. Any parent would be frantic. And so you didnât even think twice to let them inside.
Luckily your small shop is attached below your home, so you were quick to find the right tinctures for his illness. The Mandalorian paced circles in your kitchen as you administered the medicine and blotted his kidâs little forehead with a cool damp cloth. It took some time and a lot of reassurance to a very nervous father, but after a few hours the fever broke.
You sent them home with some herbal tinctures and even some homemade hard medicinal candies for stubborn coughs and that was it. Hardly any words were exchanged between you that night that didnât pertain to the child. Only a heartfelt thank you, goodnight, and a promise to pay you back somehow. You assured him that it really wasnât necessary, that you were glad to help.
Youâve admittedly always been curious about the man. With his stoic demeanor and a reputation that preceded him like lightening preceded thunder. Heâs somewhat of a local legend, menace, and hero all wrapped up in one. And now heâs at your door. With booze. Definitely a man of his word, this guy.
âYouâre giving this,â you repeat with astonishment. âThis whole bottle, to me?â
âYes,â he answers again. âIs it a special one or something?â
âThis is Andoan wine,â you emphasize, holding out the clear glass bottle. âYou can only find these on Coruscant now. Very delicious, very rare, very expensive.â
âIs it,â he asks nonchalantly. âIâve never tried it before. But I hope you enjoy it.â
âYou really donât have to,â you tell him.
âI insist. I didnât know the first thing to do so I appreciate your help.â
You chuckle. With your limited interactions, youâre starting to see that heâs short and to the point with his words. Almost like heâs not entirely used to speaking with people.
âIâŠâ You nearly argue it again but decide against it. He really didnât have to give you such a lavish gift for something any good person would do in a situation like that. It was only natural. But at this point, refusing him might come off as rude soâŠ
âThank you very much.â
The Mandalorian acknowledges your gratitude with a tilt of his helmet, then turns on his heels to leave without another word. And for some reason, you linger at the door. You watch him go down one step, then another, then-
âH-hey, Mando?â
Your sudden call stops him in his tracks on the stair case and he turns to look back over his shoulder. The dim light gleaming over his steel.
âYes?â
âIâŠ. w-wellâŠâ
Youâre stammering. Just come out and say it.
âIf youâve never tried it⊠would you like to share it with me?â
He stands there silently looking at you and the awkwardness crawls your skin.
âIâm not busy at the moment and itâs not really in my culture to drink alone.â
Culture your ass. You just want to drink with him. Itâs unclear why in particular but⊠youâre curious about him. Other than the company of his kid, he seems alone. You wonder if he prefers it that way or if itâs for another reason entirely. Either way, the offer was worth a shot.
Thereâs more silence and the only noise in the air comes from the gentle chirp of some lava crickets and the breeze brushing the trees in the street. And itâs in that moment that regret starts to burn in your stomach
Heâs gonna say no. A pause like that doesnât necessarily mean yes. But it would be rude not to offer, right? A bottle this nice doesnât come by these parts and itâd be a shame to drink it alone. Itâs reasonable to offer the gesture. After all, he went out of his way to come here from across town. Itâs the least you can do to show your appreciation in return.
âAlright.â
The word that falls out of him so effortlessly hits you like a punch to the chest. Are you nervous? Absolutely. But how many people can say they shared a drink with the Mandalorian?
A few minutes later, you find yourself standing on your tip toes, grabbing a couple earthenware ceramic cups in your kitchenette cabinet while Mando stands in your living room. His helmet follows the various potted plants, momentos and knick knacks from your travels littered around your home. Even tracing his gloved fingers over some of them.
âYou have a nice home,â he says. âI didnât notice before. Very lived in.â
âLots of junk,â you joke. âYou can say it Mando, I wonât mind.â
âMy place is still new. Doesnât feel like a home just yet.â
âThatâll change over time,â you assure him. âAfter a while, your home becomes a collection of memories.â
His attention gets drawn to a particular item on your wall. Itâs an old worn down canvas satchel bag that hangs on the wall. At one point it was a life line. Now it serves as a reminder that no matter how hard life gets, showing a little kindness can go a long way for someone.
âWhatâs this memory?â
âThat? That memory is what got me here.â You smile to yourself as you wipe down the cups with a clean kitchen rag.
âA few years ago, I was on Pantora with just some spare change and the clothes on my back. I was desperate to leave so I ended up hitching a ride on a freight ship. I worked on the ship in exchange for a ride to Corellia. Their language was difficult to learn and I had a rough time getting things done because for some reason everything was written in the native language and not aurebesh. On a stop to Tattooine, I accidentally labeled a pallet of coaxium as a pallet of scrap metal. That âscrapâ was sold to some Jawas and by the time everyone realized my mistake we were already halfway to the next planet.â
âWas that before you came the Nevarro?â
âThat was the reason I came to Nevarro,â you clarify. âIt was their next stop so they dropped me here.â
âOuch.â
âYeah, ouch,â you laugh. âAnyway, I guess one of the workers felt sorry for me and left me that satchel with a couple credits and some ration bars inside. Buuut my mistake turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Nevarro turned itself around. I have my own little business. Iâm even able to save a little bit of money now. For the time being, things are comfortable. Iâve hopped around the system a lot as you can see. But⊠this is a place I can always come back to.â
âSomething reliable,â he adds.
âExactly,â you say softly, smiling at the sentiment.
You look up at him. And you didnât notice as you were cleaning those cups that heâs now completely facing towards you. His visor is trained on you. And itâs then that you realize how small your home really is. Because Mando is broad.
His crossed arms accentuate his wide shoulders. His chest plate follows the lines of his trim torso. Even those plates of beskar armor can barely hide the bulk of his biceps. Your eyes briefly, briefly take a tour at his waist line before you realize how incredibly rude youâre being.
Heâs a guest. And a customer. Donât. Check. Him. Out.
Heat starts to rise in your cheeks. Focusing back on the cups, you round the kitchen counter and walk over to him.
âIâm sorry. All this talking suddenly got deeper and I feel like I havenât really introduced myself. Weâve only ever passed by each other before,â you chuckle, shaking away the nerves.
In hindsight you shouldâve just introduced yourself the other night, but truthfully you were in care-taker-mode and it didnât occur to you at the time. Plus you didnât think youâd have an encounter with the man again other than seeing him briefly in your shop every so often. But he seems like a nice enough person with the limited knowledge you do have with him. And after tonight youâre bound to cross paths again. So you happily extend your hand out and give him his cup along with your full name.
Thereâs a couple beats of silence and youâre starting to see thatâs his default. But it doesnât stop you from second guessing your words as if youâre crossing an unknown boundary. Thereâs a slight tilt downward with his helmet and he responds with a regretful âIâm sorry, but-â
âYou donât have to tell me your name,â you immediately add. âI know thereâs⊠principles you must have. I just wanted you to know me. Thatâs all.â
Another beat passes before he finally reaches out to take the cup in his hand. He repeats your name and the way it comes out of his voice holds a whole new flavor. Soft and curious even through the warble of his vocoder. Itâs almost like heâs seeing how it tastes.
You like it. You like it a lot.
âItâs nice to meet you.â The voice wears the vocoder like a veil but you still catch a hint of a smile by his relaxed tone. No real logical way to know for certain, just a gut feeling.
âLikewise,â you smile back.
âSo,â he exhales. âYou want to know how two Mandalorians drink?â
âSure. Sounds educational,â you joke.
With a tilt of his helmet, Mando steps further into the living room area and you follow behind, cup and bottle in hand. Walking over to the couch, his gloved hand reaches for the small round pillow resting there. His smokey grey cape flows over his shoulder and for a moment youâre mesmerized by the movement. As he turns on his heel, his fingers release the pillow. Letting it fall to the thin rug with a muted poof.
âRight here.â Mando gestures to the floor and you waltz over to take a seat on the cushion, crossing your legs. It doesnât escape your notice how he doesnât grab the only pillow for himself. Opting for your comfort over his own.
He takes a minute to look around the room. Probably checking for anything reflective. Then with a swish of his cape to the side, Mando settles in the floor behind you. When his back presses against yours, you expect a wall of cold hard metal beneath the cape. But instead thereâs warmth. Strong and firm, but still warm and giving.
âItâs customary to sit on the floor when drinking with a war band. Usually outside around a fire. When itâs just two, itâs back to back.â
âAaah,â you drawl. âVery practical. I like it.â
The top of the bottle comes off with a pop and the rich scent caresses your nose like a hug. After pouring about two fingers worth into Mandoâs cup you pour one for yourself and settle in.
âAre we drinking to anything tonight ,â you ask him.
âNot sure. How aboutâŠ,â he pauses for a moment before deciding. âTo that Pantoran who gave you the satchel.â
That makes you laugh out loud. But you canât help but feel a little pleased at that. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât be on Nevarro, wouldnât have a home. And you definitely wouldnât be drinking with Mando tonight. For that youâre especially grateful.
âYou know what, yeah,â you chuckle. âTo the Pantoran.â
Mando extends his arm back to reach your cups and you meet him halfway. Letting them touch with a soft clack.
âCheers.â
âCheers.â
Thereâs an unclicking sound and you sense that heâs probably tilting his helmet back to drink. You ignore the small tinge of disappointment that he didnât take it completely off. But itâs understandable. He doesnât know you well. Even drinking like this with an outsider is probably a big deal for people of his creed. His back presses a little further against yours as he takes his first sip and you take yours.
The wine is rich and dry, and a bit smokey. But the underlying taste of tangy fruit blends well with the flavor. Going by the color, it has to have been bottled for a decades. The alcohol runs warmly down your throat and settles like smoldering ember in your stomach. Itâs like no other alcohol youâve ever tried before. Not even close.
âHoooh,â he hisses after that sharp bite of alcohol.
âYeah,â you agree knowingly. Already sensing that this bottle is getting finished tonight.
The conversations flow pretty easily after the first drink. He tells you about how his boy came into his life and how he suddenly found himself being his father. You tell him that you can only dream of having a parent like him because you never got to know yours. You half expected he would cut the interaction short and only accept one drink. But when you offer a refill, he gladly accepted which warmed you from the inside.
Admittedly you ask a few curious questions about his creed and he indulges you a bit. And he asks about how you got into medicine making. But for the most part you both stick to easier topics like current events on Nevarro, work, and food. Eventually two drinks turn into three and somehow youâve both dipped into topics like past relationships. Which is dangerous territory after drink number three.
âIt was baaad, Mando. Iâm telling you. I mean, really! Who gives two shits who makes more money than who? Or am I in the wrong here?â
âNah, definitely not,â he replies. His speech now more relaxed but a little raspy from the alcohol. âHonestly, he sounds like a little bitch if that was his main concern.â
âYeah! Like, what is it with these men and needing to feel superior in such bullshit, inconsequential ways?â
âYou seem strong willed. Weak men are intimidated by that.â
âYeah well, then every man Iâve met in this galaxy was weak,â you groan. âI mean, câmon. Am I that intimidating? Is it the yapping? Itâs probably the yapping.â
âI think someone whoâd be deterred by something that trivial doesnât sound worth a damn anyway.â
With that, you let out a deep sigh and slump against the man behind your back.
âEh, youâre probably right,â you exhale. You toss back the last little sip in your ceramic cup, savoring the flavor.
âYou know what, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Iâll just be that shop girl around the corner who throws herself into her work, makes her little remedies, and stays happily independent. I think I can live with that.â
A pause streches between you.
âYou donât sound too convincing, Shop Girl,â he teases.
âShit,â you tsk.
You both wheeze with laughter, your bodies rumbling against one another and itâs so⊠relaxing. Heâs surprisingly easy to talk to. Perhaps itâs because he doesnât say much. Or that what little he does say is said with a sincerity youâre not used to. Or youâre drunk. It could very well be that.
But in a galaxy full of deceit and unknown dangers, itâs refreshing to talk with someone as honest as him. Heâs authentic, unapologetically so.
âHey so⊠can I ask you something?â
âYouâve been asking things this whole time,â he teases.
âI know, but⊠itâs technically a helmet question. And you can tell me to fuck off if itâs too much.â
Mando hums and the rumble reverberates through your body, nesting warmly in your chest. Heâs settled comfortably against you and it makes you feel close enough to ask what you want to ask. After thinking it over he gives you permission.
âCanât wait to hear this,â he sighs with a little amusement.
You smile. To your surprise, he actually has a good sense of humor. A dry, blunt one . But humor nonetheless. You run a finger over the rim of your cup, finding a little more courage.
âMando⊠Have you ever kissed anyone before?â
Itâs a simple enough question, right? Itâs within the ballpark of the topics youâve been discussing. And youâre both adults. Itâs not like itâs inappropriateâŠRight?
Oh god, you really are drunkâŠ
Regret rises with each passing second and you wonder why you even brought it up. Itâs probably some kind of insult to his creed to ask something like that.Â
âToo much,â you broach gently.
âNo,â he says softly. âYouâre not exactly the first person to ask that. Doubt youâll be the last.â
He pauses for a moment to find the right words. Then with a heavy exhale he gives you an answer to your insanely intrusive question.
âI was pretty young when I took the creed,â he states. âTen, twelve maybe? Too young to be interested in those kinds of things. Never looked back since. To be completely honest, itâs not even something I really think about in adulthood. Never understood the hype.â
âSooo, Iâll take that as a no.â
âNo,â he breathes. âNever kissed anyone.â
Never kissed anyone? Never felt a personâs soft lips against his own or graze his skin? Does that mean he hasnât gotten to experience more than kissing? Licking? Biting? OrâŠ
Do not finish that thoughtâŠ
âHuh⊠Well, thatâs a shame,â you say without thinking, quickly adding â-but at the same time, I completely understand it too! I mean, it shows a lot of self discipline, you know? To resist that kind of⊠temptation. Most people donât have any reason to be disciplined enough to stay chaste. I can admire tha-"
âI said Iâve never kissed anyone, I didnât say I never fucked.â
Thank⊠the Maker⊠youâre not face to face. Because the way your eyes bulged just now wouldâve been downright embarrassing had it been caught. He didnât just say sex or even screwing. The Mandalorian fucks. The alcohol in your blood seems to conjure a brief glimpse of what that might look like before you find enough coherence to shew it away.
ââŠoh,â you breathe out, effectively stopping your rambling. âI-I guess I just assumedâŠâ
A deep exhale blows out of his nose. He hums, seemingly entertained by the foot youâve put in your mouth. But also making the air light between you.
âWell, you assumed wrong.â
The humor in his voice settles your nerves a bit. Thankfully there isnât an awkward air at the sudden change to such a topic despite hardly knowing each other. And oddly enough, it feels easy to talk about it for that very reason.
âYouâre rather chatty when you drink, Mandalorian. I feel like Iâm learning all sorts of things about you tonight.â
âYouâre right,â he breathes. âI spoke without thinking, I apologize.â
âNo, Itâs fine. I donât mind at all. Itâs a relief to know thereâs a man under all that armor and not solid metal.â
He hums again and the noise stirs something in your chest.
âWell, even so⊠Itâs late⊠Probably best if I stop drinking.â
You look into your empty cup. Then glance over to the bottle with barely a drop left inside. Something inside you wilts. Thereâs nothing to keep him here any longerâŠ
âYeah⊠Me too.â
Youâre not sure if you wait for him to move first or if heâs waiting for you. But both of you remain still for nearly a whole minute. Silent and hesitant to end the night. As comfortable as it is, you feel Mandoâs back lean away from yours and you miss the warmth. You turn on the floor to find him standing up as he adjusts his helmet clasp and places his empty cup on the table.
âYou were right. It tasted better shared,â he admits. A satisfied smile curls your lips.
âIf you learned anything about me tonight, Mando, itâs that I am always right when it comes to liquor.â
âI appreciate the hospitality.â
âI appreciate the company.â
You place a hand on the table as an anchor in an attempt to stand up and follow him to the door. But as you try to stand straight, the room spins and your knees buckle.
Nope. Not doing that.
You sit your ass right back down on that cushion before you make an even bigger fool of yourself. Quick to respond, Mando catches your free arm. Making sure you land back down safely.
âYou ok,â he asks, concerned but with a hint of humor.
âPfft. Yeah, Iâm good. I think Iâll just stay down here for a minute,â you chuckle, running a hand through your hair and closing your eyes for a moment.
For sure youâll have a hangover tomorrow. Shit. You work tomorrow. Thereâs a couple things youâre running low on, too. Youâll have to request an order through the trading guild. Thatâll cost credits. Maybe if you get that Chiss man again you can manage a trade and he can throw in those dried flower buds for that tea that keeps getting sold out.
You know youâre already a bit dizzy. But behind closed eyes you feel like your head is swaying. Or rather⊠that itâs being moved. Something warm and firm holds your jaw up and when your eyes flutter open again youâre met face to face with dark silver.
The Mandalorian stands barely a foot in front of you. Visor fixed down on your face. Maybe the wine has made your brain slow but itâs only when you follow the path from his shoulder and down his outstretched arm that you realize whatâs holding your jaw⊠is his hand.
With a subtle pass of his thumb along your cheek you can feel warmth starting to pool in your face. Awareness pricks the hairs on the back of your neck when you realize your position. Sitting on your knees, face barely level to his waist as a wall of steel and muscle towers over you.
âYour cheeks get flushed when you drink,â he mutters.
When I drink. Suuuure.
âNow you know,â you mumble without thinking. It grants you a satisfied hum from his helmet and you feel it travel through your ears and under your skin.
âNow I knowâŠ,â he repeats.
Thereâs no movement, no words. But thereâs something thick in the air. Itâs heavy and enticing. Itâd be so easy to get wrapped up in it with any sudden movement. You look up at him through half lidded eyes and you get a gut feeling that theyâre meeting his. Youâre not sure what his are giving away. But yours have to be hinting something youâve been trying to hide all night.
With a sharp intake of air, Mando steps back and releases your face. Your head drops a little at the loss of support and it follows his direction as he walks towards the front door with quick, heavy steps. With a press of a button on the wall panel, the door panels slide open and just before he steps outside⊠he stops. Not looking back, just standing there at the edge of your home with his stand still resting on the doorway.
âDonât invite me in again.â
And then heâs gone. The door panels shut swiftly, leaving you alone and more confused than when he showed up at your door.
âŠwhat?
âą
Din wishes he could say that the first thing he thinks about when he got home that night was his sleeping kid safe in the crib. Or at the very least about how incredible that wine tasted. But after he undressed and collapsed down onto his bed half drunk, the only thought he couldnât stop thinking about as he stared at the ceiling wasâŠ
Damn⊠itâs been a while.
For the past few years, Dinâs life has flipped around a number of times. Between barely scraping by as a bounty hunter, saving an orphan kid from an imperial psychopath, losing said kid, then having him return and be by his side to reclaim the Mandalorian home-world, thereâs not much time to indulge those kinds of needs. But just because Din found himself being a busy father later in life doesnât make certain things dead.
No. Everything felt very much alive and kicking by the end of that bottle.
Behind closed eyes, his room feels like it swirls. After that wine, his body feels loose and relaxed. Something he rarely gets to experience these days. Images dance across his closed lids. Delicate, slender hands around a handmade cup. A pink flush on smooth skin. Plump tinted lips between his fingers, softly parted and begging to be touched. The intrusive impulse to dip a finger between those lips was so strong he could feel his hand move into the action before he could even think to do so.
All thanks to that one question. That simple, innocent question activated a deep part of his brain that lay dormant. And then he decided to shatter the care free atmosphere by with a crass remark about sex.
Never in his life has he regretted saying something so fast. You barely even know each other. Admittedly, Din isnât exactly a refined person, far from it actually. But after his third glass, any semblance of manners flew right out the window. His mouth did the walking with little thinking involved.
Yet, you didnât get uncomfortable. You handled the slip up with humor instead of getting offended or something just as bad. Using humor to make the air light again. It surprised him how easily you did it. How easy the conversation was all night, really. Itâs not everyday heâs able to let his guard down with another person.
Once he was aware of that, he became aware of everything. How late the hour was, how drunk you both were, and how your bed was right behind where you both sat. Only separated by a simple room divider. Even when he tipped up his helmet, there was a heady herbal scent from you that kept swimming in his nose and it was just as intoxicating as the wine. He couldnât trust himself to stay any longer. And now, in the safety of his own home, he finds himself preoccupied with a mountain of questions.
What kind of person are you? Whatâs your daily life like? What other places have you seen? What troubles you? You seem to be rooted here in Nevarro for the time being. But from what youâve mentioned about your past, you have a kind of nomadic life. What happens if he⊠if the kid gets attached and you decide to move on to another planet? But then again, itâs not like heâs not one to talk though is he?
Loyalty. Solidarity. These are things that have been etched to his core since childhood. But giving those things to something that could be fleeting? Thatâs a risk heâs avoided for most of his life. Those kinds of wounds never heal.
But as much as he tries to distance himself, itâs not always in his control.
Three weeks go by and they couldnât end soon enough. When he offered to work with Teva (or Blue as he usually calls him) on a case-by-case basis, he figured theyâd be more involved than the bounty hunting trade. Heâs spent up to a month off planet at times in order to capture a quarry so itâs not exactly new to him.
But that was when he had the Razor Crest. With a cot to rest in, a weapons locker, and supplies readily at hand. In that regard, the N-1 leaves much to be desired. Plus Dinâs back isnât what it used to be and long rides in that ship are killer. And to add insult to injury, this last case with Zeb was especially complicated to resolve. It left him and the kid completely drained.
After finally landing back in Nevarro with fresh credits, there is absolutely nothing Din wants more than to just go home, bathe, and sleep for at least a day. But heâs got a very hungry green mouth to feed and thereâs no way Din is fixing up any dinner tonight.
Street food it is.
âAlright, weâre making this quick. In and out. Iâll get you as much food as you want and you can pick out one sweet. Not five. One. Got that?â Grogu tilts his head at Din curiously from where he follows behind on the cobblestone street and heâll just take that as a yes.
Dozens of food stalls are gathered at the main square in town as he approaches. Adorned with all sorts of neon signs, string lights and colorful banners. Itâs a busy atmosphere filled with people laughing, vendors calling out for customers to stop by, and sounds of clanking and sizzling as they cook.
Din gravitates towards the skewers stand. He knows Grogu is going to down ten of them by himself so he opts for something easy, filling, and cheap. He catches sight of those spicy chunks of fatty meat searing over lava coals and his mouth waters.
âOkay, which onesss-â
Din reaches down to pick up his son only to find the street bricks.
â-Sssshhhhit,â he hisses under his breath, glancing around. This fucking kid. He knows better than to run off.
The crowd is thick and itâs getting dark. He scans through the sea of people and vendors but doesnât find that familiar pale green.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
With a tap of his helmet side panel he switches to the tracking beacon screen. After enough scares like these heâs learned to have a tracker sewn into his clothes at this point.
Blinking red arrows come into his view and he follows the path. Not caring whose shoulders he budges or what food he knocks out of someoneâs grip to get through. The red arrows turn yellow. Heâs getting close but thereâs still no visual of the kid and heâs starting to panic. He pushes through, scanning side to side and calling out his name in an orchestra of noises without reply.
Yellow turns to green and heâs still out of sight. Heâs tiny and easy to miss. Grogu could be anywhere, he could be in any one of these stalls. What if heâs taken? What if someone else is tracking him? He could be picked up by a total stranger and taken away again.
Just as that thought crosses his mind, thereâs a small separation in the crowd. Big floppy ears come into view and heâs definitely been picked up. But itâs no stranger that holds him.
âAnd here comes dad~â A voice soft as silk rings inside his helmet.
Relief floods his body as well as caution when he taps his screen clear. Only him. Situations like this only happen to him. It couldâve been Karga. It couldâve been anybody. But it had to be you that found him.
It was barely two minutes. But within those two minutes Dinâs head flooded with every worst case scenario possible. And here he is. Happily babbling in your arms like he didnât just give his dad a fucking heart attack.
âI know, I know,â you assure him like you can already tell where his headâs at, trying to speak over all the noise. âDonât be too hard on the little guy. I already gave him a bit of a lecture for running around at night.â
Din wants to. Itâs honestly his first reaction. But a cooler head prevails and he decides against it after a second thought. He reminds himself (once again) that Grogu is still young and that getting angry would only make things worse. What matters is that heâs safe and that he managed to find you.
âAt least he wonât have to hear it twice,â he exhales, pushing out the stress sitting in his lungs. âSorry about him.â
âNo, no sorry needed. Heâs smarter than he lets on. At least he ran to someone he knew. Iâm glad I was around.â
Din opens his mouth to speak but ends up falling short with his words. Now that some of the stress has left his body, his eyes take you in at a second glance. Unclouded by the adrenaline.
Your hair is tied up with a pin with a few loose pieces falling at the nape of your neck and around your face. With the heat persisting into the night, you decided to wear a thin strap tank top that hangs low on your chest. It exposes miles of smooth skin, from your shoulders all the way down the arms wrapped around his kid. A dusty blue apron wraps around your waist over some baggy cargo pants so you mustâve came here right after work. Thereâs a glow from all the neon lights that adorns you and he has to will his mouth to move before he gets caught staring.
âHere.â He extends his hands to you. âI can take him back. Thank you for catching him. Câmon, bud. Let her get back to shopping.â
âItâs no problem,â you assure him with a smile. Your hands hooks under Grogus tiny arms and start to pull him off your torso. âBack to dad you go.â
But the moment heâs barely lifted, he cries out in protest with a shrill whine. Refusing to leave your side. You pull him back in instantly and run a soothing hand on his back.
âOh! Okay, okay. You can stay with me for a minute,â you giggle in a sugary voice to Grogu. Bouncing him on your hip.
You both exchange a look of surprise (as much as his visor can give off anyway). What kind of person are you that Grogu prefers your embrace over his own father? He doesnât know whether to be jealous or impressed.
But itâs getting late, they need to eat and get home and you probably need to get back to your own errands. Dinâs hands extends again to take Grogu but you shake your head with a little smile. Letting him know itâs not an inconvenience to you.
âHere, wanna help me pick out some sweets?â
Grogu coos at your request, toying with the glittering silver chain pendant on your neck. You rest his kid on your hip effortlessly and the motion of it pinches something deep in Dinâs chest. Turning to the assorted trays of sugared fruits on skewers, you list the various kinds for Grogu to pick out. Talking back with him like you can actually understand his little babbles. You answer him with âooh, thatâs a good choiceâ and âthese are my favoritesâ.Â
Din just stands aside, watching the way you both interact and itâs admittedly a bit pleasing to see how natural you are with him. Most people think heâs a pet at first glance. Karga treats him like a newborn. Talking gibberish and doting on him despite him handling a 50 year old. You, on the other hand, just treat him like a regular kid. And itâs refreshing to see.
His sonâs head spins back at his father with the biggest set of sparkling inky eyes and Din can see the pleading question in them. He tilts his helmet at him and reminds him âoneâ. Those large ears deflate a little and you giggle at the interaction. Din offers to pay for your skewer along with Groguâs as another thank you for looking after his son (again). The vendor gathers the treats in paper wrappers to take to go.
You turn to ask Din something, but itâs covered by the noise of yelling and cooking. He tilts his head a bit lower to try and catch what youâre saying. Then, without hesitation, your hand finds purchase on the pauldron on his shoulder. Prompting him to lean in closer to you so you can speak within earshot.
âItâs been a minute since I saw you last,â you remark with a raised voice. âEverything good?â
Shit.
For a second he freezes. Partly at the lack of distance between you, but mostly because the last time he saw you he stormed out of your place like it was on fire without so much as a goodnight. Youâre probably wondering what the hell that was about and he honestly canât answer that himself. Although your expression seems more cheerful than troubled. He crouches closer to your ears and replies with caution, hoping to avoid the direction of that conversation.
âYeah, weâve been um⊠traveling a lot lately. I get contracted by the new republic pretty often these days. Leaving him behind with someone whenever Iâm off planet for too long doesnât seem fair to him so heâs always by my side no matter what.â
âAh, that makes sense. You usually stop by for medkit supplies so when I didnât see you last week I figured you were away.â
Din mentally smacks his forehead. Right. Of course you meant the shop. Because what else would you be implying to a fucking customer? Youâre just making small talk. Something he has never really gotten the hang of. Seems pretty damn easy when heâs drinking thoughâŠ
âWe actually just got back. Too tired to fix something up so I figured Iâd grab us something quick and easy before heading home.â
âUgh. I feel that. When I get home Iâm crashing on the first soft surface I see,â you groan, still bouncing Grogu on the curve of your hip. Those hipsâŠ
No. Stop it.
âBusy day,â he asks and your eyes roll upwards.
âBusy week,â you exclaim. âI swear I think about quitting at least once a day. But I like it too much. Plus itâs the only thing Iâm any good at. Otherwise Iâd probably be some kind of criminal.â You pause then laugh at the thought before adding, âthen youâd probably have to hunt me down, huh?â
That⊠is a scenario that he already knows is going to stick in his brain for a while. Itâs such an enticing thought that he doesnât bother to tell you heâs not in that business anymore. A tiny part of him would much rather have you think heâd chase you. Obviously youâre not serious, but he canât help but lean into the joke.
âI donât know,â he says unconvinced. âMight be pretty easy to find you. All I have to do is look wherever thereâs street food.â
A laugh bubbles out of you and thereâs a strange feeling that radiates in his chest at being able to make you laugh. Pride maybe? No, more like⊠satisfaction.
âDonât underestimate me, Mando. I know my way around the outer rim. Iâd make you work for it,â you say. Taunting him with a knowing smirk.
A smile tugs higher on his hidden face. The thought of you making him work for anything will no doubt be food for thought later. And instinct tells him that mightâve been your intention. But two can play at this game.
Youâre already nearly face to face but he inches even closer, almost close enough for metal to meet skin. Ensuring you catch every word right into your ear.
âIâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.â
Your eyes grow a little wider at the sound of your nickname and he takes pleasure at just how effective it is. Itâs another reminder of that night. A name that was spoken within an intimate atmosphere that only the two of you occupied. And by your expression, that same thought crosses your mind too.
You bite your bottom lip in a smile. The same lips that were between his hands. The only lips he canât seem to forget. The shape, the color, and how fucking edible they look. Heâs even noticed how they pout a little when youâre concentrated on a task. More questions surface.
What do they feel like? What do they taste like? What makes a kiss so good that everyone can recall their first?
The bubble created is suddenly burst by the outside world. The stall vendor gleefully hands over the candied fruit over the counter in their wrappers and you take them with your free hand. Handing the mixed one to Grogu because he couldnât decide on just one flavor. Reality returns to Dinâs head and his thoughts immediately sober up.
What the hell is he doing?
He tears his eyes away. Even if you canât tell, looking at you like that for too long feels wrong. Youâre a good person, youâre trying to live a normal life, and what youâve told him youâre not looking to get involved in any drama. He has to keep reminding himself of those things.
That same instinct to leave hits him again. Because that urge to do something he canât take back flares up again and itâs best to not give that feeling any more energy. For both your sakes. He gestures his hand in a hand-him-over motion, signaling to you and Grogu that itâs time to go.
âAlright, time to go kid. Say goodnight.â
Grogu whines with a mouthful of sweets and a face covered in sugar and it makes him chuckle to himself. Din would normally find the defiance a little cute, if it wasnât for the stunt he pulled earlier. You carefully hand him over with both arms leaning in close and again he feels another pinch in his chest at how carefully you exchange him.
Your bare arms graze against his clothed ones and he pulls away the second he has hold of his kid. He ignores the small current of electricity from the contact and maneuvers Grogu into the crossbody bag to his hip. Which, of course, makes him protest.
âNope. You had your chance. Now you get the bag.â
âAw câmon,â you scold âHe was just playing around. Now heâs in bag jail?â
First the kid and now you? He can tell his son no, but it might be a little harder to tell you that.
âYeah, yeah. Maybe next time heâll think twice about running off in a crowd,â he groans.
Once the kid is settled in the bag, you follow him down. Crouching down, you sit face to face with Grogu as he stuffs his face with the candied fruit. Resting your free hand on his fuzzy head as the other holds your own skewered treat.
âKay, little rebel. Go stuff your face with some good food. And take it easy on your poor dad, alright? Heâs not built for that kinda stress.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean,â he asks, kind of amused by your ribbing. He can count on one hand the people who are undaunted enough to make playful jabs at him.
Your lips twist and your eyes take a tour up to your brows as you think of your reply.
âHmm⊠just the way you get a little impatient sometimes. You were like that when you brought him over and paced my living room for an hour,â you chuckle. âYou seem like the kind of man who gets antsy when somethingâs not in your control.â
A smile threatens to crawl his face. Pretty presumptuous. But he canât deny how true that statement rings. Especially nowadays when itâs not just himself he has to worry about.
âMaybe so,â he replies with a hint of humor in his voice. âPatience isnât really my strong suit. Although this one seems to enjoy testing it.â
âPatience is bitter,â you muse as you rub the top of Groguâs head with your thumb. He coos with delight and the softest gaze glows on your face. Then from your crouched position, your eyes glance back up at Din and add, ââŠBut the fruit is sweet.â
His jaw flexes beneath his helmet, and heat now courses through his veins.
That canât be a good sign. He already enjoys your banter too much as it is. But that look just now was dangerous. It dredges up thoughts he shouldnât have about you. Thoughts like kissing someone he barely knows. Feeling skin on skin. Showing you what a man like him can do to you compared to the boys of your past.
He saw it all over your pretty face when he held it in his hand. That flush on your cheeks, your dilated pupils. Hell, he even saw your heat signature rising in his helmet screen for fuck sake. Thereâs an attraction and thatâs fine (and not completely unreciprocated) but it canât be anything more than that.
You and him live completely different lives. Thereâs no need to uproot your peace and get involved in his complicated affairs. Even if something happened, it wouldnât be long before the allure of the suit and mystery people usually perceive of Mandalorians would turn into repulsion.
Thatâs how itâs gone before. Thatâs the way it is.
âą
Youâre a bad person. A horrible human being and a shameless lowlife. Downright beyond saving.
Iâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.
The damn sentence wonât stop replaying in your head. Itâs not just a nickname. Itâs a nickname he gave you. One thatâs covered in underlying context and memories that only the two of you share. One that peppers your skin with goosebumps when it comes out of that raspy modulated voice. Itâs even worse when your brain starts intrusively placing it in all sorts of sentences.
Thatâs it, Shop GirlâŠ
Youâre doing so well, Shop GirlâŠ
Bend over for me, Shop GirlâŠ
That last one has crawled into your dreams more often than youâd care to admit lately.
You need to get a grip. Itâs just an attraction. Youâve been alone for too long and youâre getting all wound up over a smidge of attention. Heâs just a regular decent person with a kid to take care of who also just happens to have an amazingly muscular body and a voice of sin. Simple as that.
Right. Simple.
After that night at the food stalls, the Mandalorian and Grogu have been visiting your humble Clinic Shop on a more frequently. Usually you'll see them a couple times a week if they're not on one of their long haul trips. Missions? Jobs?
It's not like Mando has any reason to let you know ahead of time. But when a week or so passes with no sign of silver or green, you can't help but feel a little down. You've come to look forward to seeing your regulars. But they grown to being your favorite customers.
And if you're being honest, theres a growing part of you that feels tied to the man in silver beskar. When he's here, the part blossoms. And when he's gone, it feels... wilted. It's unexpected and confusing to say the least. The closest feeling you could label it is homesickness. And truthfully, you're not really sure if you want to feel such a heavy thing towards anybody right now.
There's a lull in the store this hot muggy afternoon. You've already finished your prescription orders, restocked your shelves, even watered all the potted plants outside the entrance. Since you finally have some down time, you figured you might as well get to making some of your popular tea mixes.
On the back counter, you have a variety of dried herbs, flower buds, tea leaves, and a few large mixing bowls. The scent in the shop is incredible right now. Swirling around on the wind propelled by the metal fans around the shop. Spiced and aromatic with a hint of fruitiness. You let the smell fill your lungs and relax your body as you place measured scoops of the mix into small paper bags. A bead of sweat tracks down the back of your neck. Even with pinning your hair up and the strapless wrap you chose to wear today, the heat of the day still clings to your damp skin.
A cool glass of that Andoan wine would be so good right about now...
Maybe it was instinct, or maybe there really is some kind of invisible tie. But something makes your head tilt to the side and glance at the open entrance. And it's then that a glint of sliver light reflects on the stucco walls. A flutter of anticipation strikes through your chest and your eyes are locked at the entrance. Then, that familiar Silver T-visor and a pair of floppy green ears peek around the corner.
The smile that spreads across your cheeks is so big it almost hurts.
"Hey," you exclaim from the back of the store. You leave your station and excitedly make your way across the store to the pair as they step inside.
âItâs been a whi-â
âAh ah, sorry," you cut Mando off mid greeting, halting him with your pointer finger. "Grogu gets first dibs.â
Mando shakes his head but you can tell he's humored. Turning his hip to the side and giving you access to the canvas crossbody where Grogu resides.
âEven though I'm a regular customer," Mando retorts.
If you didnât know any better, youâd think that sounded a teensy bit like jealousy. You smirk, giving eyes only to the little green baby.
âNot when youâre as cute as him.â You say, placing Grogu on your hip and giving him little scritches on his wrinkled head.
âIsnât that right, Kid. Mando wishes he could be half as cute as you.â The child coos at you and Mando shakes his head. But you can tell by his body language that he's at least a little amused.
You walk back to the back counter with the kid in your arms and Mando in tow behind you. And the feeling you have in this moment is oddly... domestic? You're not entirely sure if that's the right word. In your life you've never experienced domesticity. But you figure it's similar to that homesick feeling you get.
You place Grogu on top of your station and pull out an herbal lollipop from your apron for him. You like to keep a few handy for kids and they also help with coughs. The kids inky eyes gleam as he babbles and plunges the sugary candy in his mouth.Â
"Any chance that delivery for those new Pharmakits arrived yet," Mando asks, leaning a hand on the counter next to you.
"They did," you nod. "Any chance you're planning on taking on an army on your next trip?"
He shrugs, tilting his helmet to the side in that way he does when he's being aloof.
"Doesn't hurt to keep one on hand. You never know."
You hum in acknowledgment but inside a pit forms in your stomach. The danger he faces whenever he goes on these "jobs" isn't lost on you. Lately, it's been on the back of your mind more often than not. On his last visit, when he asked about ordering stronger meds and triage supplies, it hit you just how much his long absences affect you. And just the thought of never seeing him or his little boy again stirs up something vile inside.
âYou seem to be busy today,â he remarks, pointing out all the open jars and mixing bowls with various dried leaves and herbs.
His remark takes you out of your thoughts. You must've been silent a second too long for him to change the subject like that. With a deep inhale and slight embarrassment you shrug off the negative thoughts and ground yourself back to reality.
âYes and no. Iâve been restocking while itâs dead to keep busy.â
He leans in a bit to get a closer look at the contents of the bowl. Close enough for you to catch the scent of smoke and musk on his clothes.
âYouâre mixing⊠tea?â
You hum a yes and nod.
âTea can be used for lots of medicinal purposes. Many people prefer natural remedies to pharmaceutical ones. I try to have a mix of both.â
âSo this is medicine?â You sway your head to the side, trying to think of the best way to explain the purpose of the tea.
âKiiind of. You could say itâs preventative.â
âWhat does it prevent?â
âPregnancy.â
A clearing of his throat follows your answer. You turn toward him with a smirk and a raised brow but his visor has now turned away your face.
Most fearsome bounty hunter in the outer rim, everybody.
âYou asked, man,â you chuckle with a shrug.
âGuess thatâs on me,â he says.
âThis is actually one of my best sellers,â you tell him. You grab the wooden scoop and raise up the floral mix, letting the various petals and herbs rain back down into the bowl. The motion makes the sweet scent drive up in the air. âI have customers tell me they donât leave the house before their daily brew.â
âIâm glad business is going well for you,â he deflects, making you fold your smile in your teeth. And suddenly your brain sees a prime opportunity.
âYou know, MandoâŠ,â you drawl as you mix the petals. âIf youâre ever in a pinch and you need some, I could give you a sample.â The way his helmet jerks to face you almost breaks your nonchalant smile.
âThatâs um⊠very generous but itâd be wasted on me.â His body straightens stiffly and you can tell the topic makes him a bit uneasy. But you press on anyway.
âYou sure? You can never be too safe. Iâm sure any visitors would appreciate it.â He sighs deeply and turns away, shaking his head in annoyance.
God, this is too much fun. Teasing him is so easy. If it wasnât for the helmet you bet heâs sweating right now. He might look cool and collected. But after drinking with him, you know thereâs in fact a man under all that metal.
âIâm sure,â Mando confirms. âI'm not seeing anyone at the moment.â
And thereâs the answer youâre looking for.
Was it a bit sneaky? Yeah. Yeah, it was sneaky. But it rules out the theory that reason he told you not to invite home again was because heâs currently taken. Itâs still an enigma as to why. But honestly thereâs still the gut feeling that you did something to make him uncomfortable that night.
Maybe you crossed a line with one of your questions. You tend to ask a lot of questions. Your filter also isnât everybodyâs flavor. Even so, you had a great time talking, even joking around with him. Youâve come to cherish that night in your memory. And the thought that you obliviously mightâve said something to offend Mando in any way makes your chest ache.
But if that was the case then why has he been stopping by your store more frequently since then? He always says heâs restocking his med kit but you get the feeling thereâs more to it than that. Almost as if heâs checking up on you. Making sure youâre doing ok. And above all, thatâs what scares you.
Itâs scares you how good that thought makes you feel.
âPicking up an order!â An unfriendly voice bellows from the entrance where a Trandoshan man in fine robes stands waiting. âNameâs Samir Tâar.â
It takes a second to snap back into action. But you slap on your best customer service smile and leave your task for later. Rounding the corner past Mando and the kid and walking to the Medicine Cabinet. Wiping the non-existent dust on your hands on your waist apron.
âHi, yes! Iâll grab that for you right now.â
The Trandoshan stands waiting at the counter as you sort through the assorted orders in the glass case. Looking for the right name tag and plucking the tied linen bag. You dont turn your eyes toward him, but Mandoâs pressance is all your body is aware of. You can tell heâs miandering through the shop, looking at various items on the shelves. Which, to you, is a bit funny since hes been here plenty of times by now.
Is he playing the curious customer right now because thereâs someone here?
You rest the tied bag next to the register as you run the total. All while the Trandoshan taps his clawed fingers impatiently on the check out counter.
ââKay with the compounded medicine and the herbal soak salts, that puts you at⊠fifteen credits today.â
âIt was twelve the last time.â
âYyyeesss, some of the ingredients for the meds were hard to come by this time around. Outer rim shipping routes, and all that,â you smile, trying to humorously reason with the man.
âAnd thatâs supposed to be my fault? Just make it the same price as before and Iâll be on my way already.â
Ugh, great. One of those.
âI understand where youâre coming from, really. But fifteen is pretty fair considering the initial cost of acquiring ingredients of this high quality. Canât beat the price compared to those New Republic clinics-"
âNonononono," he waves with both hands in disapproval. âIâm not paying a single credit more for something I can make myself.â
Thatâs kind of the point of it buying here, right? To save yourself the trouble of making it?
âSorry. Price is firm," you say confidently but kindly. "Buuut, how about if I throw in a couple sample heating pain patches. Free of charge,â you chirp, unfazed by his condescension.
Work with me, guy. Thereâs a man packing heat in the backâŠ
âHow about I give you ten for the order and leave? I donât need you to peddle your-â
Itâs a hand that shuts him up. Not yours, as much as it twitches to swipe that bag and toss in it the trash. No. This hand is big. Leather clad. And planted firmly on the counter between you and the customer.
âYou can pay the fifteen or you can leave. But what you wonât do,â Mando leans in towards the Trandoshan for effect. â-is talk to her like that again. Make your choice.â
With his chest pressed to the back of your shoulder, you struggle to not squirm. You can feel his heat on your body. His frame eclipses yours from behind. The smell of gun smoke and musk caresses your nose and you die a little inside. But itâs his words that make you want to melt into a puddle.
He didnât just ask, he demanded for you to be treated with respect. Not that you canât hold your own when it comes to defending yourself against snarky customers. But the way Mando didnât even hesitate to intervene on your behalf. It stirs up all sorts of thoughts.
Oh maker, you really are a shitty person. The man stands up for you and all you can think about is how hot he sounded.
The Trandoshan swallows hard. Mando might as well a knife to the guyâs throat with the look of silent terror on his reptilian face. Without even breaking eye contact with Mando, he stuffs his clawed hand in his pockets, and pulls about 20 credit chips without counting. Letting them clatter on the counter as he tosses them.
âH-here,â he stutters. âFifteen is fair.â With that he snatches his order from the countertop and makes a hasty exit.
âHave a nice day~,â you sing-song as he scurries out onto the street.
You shift your eyes up to Mando, his palm still pressed flat against the counter with his other hand thumbing his belt. His visor follows the customer as he leaves and you can tell that his body language doesnât relax until the heâs completely out of sight.
âFuckerâŠ,â he mutters under his breath. When he finally turns his visor to you, he finds a knowing little smirk on your face.
âWhat?â
âYou know, if you really wanted to scare him, you couldâve just pulled out your blaster.â
His visor turns away and he takes a step back as if heâs been caught doing something out of character. And if it wasnât for his confident stance, youâd almost say he got a little flustered just now.
âI didnât like the way he spoke you,â he grumbles. Which only makes you giggle.
âYouâre right,â you agree with a serious tone. Slamming your palms on the counter. âThatâs the last straw! Iâll have to close and resort to a life of crime after all!â
Although you canât read his face, his body language says it all. He tilts his head to the side in a way that can only mean âare you fucking kidding meâ and it only makes you smile harder.
âCâmooon, itâs funny,â you say. But heâs still not charmed.
âDoes he always treat you like that,â he asks like he needs to know for certain.
You fold your lips between your teeth to hide your smile. Heâs concerned for you and you canât help but bathe in it. At least for a little bit.
âAnd if I said yes?â
âIâm being serious.â
âItâs fine, Mando. Itâs really not a big deal for me. Look, if I let every snippy customer get to me, I wouldnât have a business. Iâm a big girl. I can fight for my honor all on my own, donât you worry.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âYeah? What is your point then?â
He steps in closer. Forcing you crane your neck to face him. Your backside unconsciously presses against the back of the counter and youâre pinned. Heâs impossibly close. Close enough to see your eyes reflected on the inky black screen. Knowing heâs captured your full attention, he hits you with a bombshell that devastates you.
âI wouldnât let anyone disrespect you when I can do something about it,â he says crystal clear, lowering his voice. âIf someone gives you trouble, theyâll deal with me before they mess with you... Understand?â
That shuts you right up. Your playful expression falls, now replaced with silent astonishment. He keeps saying things that reach deep inside you, making your chest tight. Words like that make it hard to breathe.
You feel utterly captured and itâs no wonder he was the best hunter in the outer rim. Because even though heâll defend your honor and call you sweet nicknames⊠all he has to do is stand his ground in front of you to make you feel like prey. And fuck, do you wanna be caughtâŠ
âOk,â you breathe when you find the courage. âI understand now.â
âGoodâŠâ
Silence streches between you and it feels as though youâre both waiting for something to happen. Something that feels like itâs been teetering on the edge since the night you drank together. Itâs connected and deep in a way youâve never experienced before. You can tell itâs something heâs afraid to say out loud.
What youâre both afraid to say out loud.
He doesnât move. Doesnât add anything to his statement. Heâs got you locked in his gaze with no escape. And for a moment you wonder if heâll take hold of your jaw again. Goosebumps rise to your skin because it wants so badly to close the gap.
Suddenly, a call rings from the vambrace on Mandoâs forearm, abruptly breaking the tension. At first he hesitates to address it, still locked onto you. But after the second ring he lets out an aggravated sigh and steps away to check the incoming call.
You walk back to your work table and mixing bowl of tea to give yourself something to do while your breathing returns to normal. Scooping a measured cup from a large jar of dried leaves before adding it in.
Grogu sits with his little feet dangling over the table, now finished with the lollipop and looking at the candy-less stick with droopy ears. And before Mando turns to look, you sneak his son another herbal lollipop from your apron.
"Don't tell your dad," you whisper, pressing your index finger over your lips. Which earns you a happy little "Batu" in understanding.
Mando is pacing around now. Conversing with a gruff sounding Lasat. You donât eavesdrop per se, but words like ânew leadâ, âinvestigationâ, and âhigh-riskâ get your ears to perk up.
âShit,â he sighs deeply once the call is done. Planting his hands on his hips.
âWork call?â
âThey like to keep me busy, thatâs for sure. Best not keep them waiting.â
âR-right! The pharmakits."
You walk towards side of your shop in the back closet where your new inventory sits in their delivery crates. Grabbing one case but then after a second thought grabbing another before turning back and handing them to Mando. When you return Grogu is already back in his father's tote still nursing his treat.
âCouple things," you disclaim, handing the cases to him. "Keep these in a dark cool place if you can. Heat can spoil some of the medicine. And if you ever find yourself needing the epibacta, Iâd advise you to take in a safe place. This dose will knock you out cold for a while. Emergencies only.â
He takes the cases by the handles and gives you a nod of understanding.
âI appreciate it. Iâll try to avoid needing it.â
âJust⊠be safe.â
âI willâŠâ
Another beat of silence. At this point it's starting to feel like you're waiting on the other person to break the ice. But after a moment, he clears his throat.
âWell... Until next time, Shop Girl.â
âUntil next time,â you repeat.
He really should stop calling you that. But you just canât bring yourself to stop him. What do even tell him if he asks why?
You turn to the holopad on the front counter and check the inventory list to give your hands something to do. Chewing your bottom lip as walks towards the exit. One step, then anotherâŠ
âAnd thank you,â you quickly add before he steps out. His foot stalls just before reaching the street and you tap on the screen pretending not to notice. Your eyes glance up to him, catching his helmet peer at you over his shoulder ââŠfor stepping in.â
âAnytime,â he says softly. He step out into the street and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. You lean on the counter with your chin propped in your palm, now free to watch them go without notice.
Grogu turns back to look at you one last time, his tiny arm fighting against the fabric of his bag before popping out and waving at you. The adorable gesture makes you giggle. The little guy must know exactly how stinking cute he is. You wiggle your fingers back at him from behind the counter. Mando takes notice of his kid, turns his head back, and finds your gaze.
For a moment, everythingâs frozen. People cross and mix in the street between you. Life seemingly goes on like any other day for everyone in town. But in your eyes, thereâs only him. Only bright silver fills your vision. After a moment, Mando raises a hand for a final farewell, and in the next, heâs gone. Blended into the crowd.
An ache spreads in your chest, and that confirms it. You canât deny that what youâve been pushing down for months isnât just an attraction. Strangers can be attracted to each other but he feels like anything but.
You like him. You like how you feel when heâs around and how safe his presence feels. You like that little skipped beat you get when something you said earns even the smallest chuckle from him. You like that he trusts you around his kid.
And you love that he keeps coming back.
Youâve tried to rationalize as just a simple customer acquaintance. But you canât keep kidding yourself. Its always felt more than that. And you want to know more about him.
At the end of the day, you roll down the metal doors of your humble apothecary and walk the same 15 steps up to your home as you do everyday. You bathe, put on your most comfy shirt and sleep shorts, make yourself a simple meal, and wind down for the night. Itâs been your routine everyday since you made this place your home.
Only tonight, despite all your trinkets, all your memories, and all your comforts, tonight your home feels a bit empty. Like something important has been removed and you canât place what it was. With your dinner bowl in hand, you almost take your seat on the couch before thinking twice on it and choosing the floor of your living room instead tonight.
You actually find it to be pretty comfortable. More grounding. You only wish you had something warm to lean back on.
âą
Din thought Guild Master Greef Karga had an inflated ego. But High Magistrate Greef Karga makes that Karga look like a Jedi monk.
He finds himself sitting on a leather chase with his legs propped on the window ledge in Kargaâs high tower office. He watches him spread and maneuver a 3D hologram model of Nevarro and the town. His voice filled with ambition as he explains all his new projects for the upcoming year.
âWeâll put the lodges here, here, and here. Theyâll have access to the hot springs in the crawling canyons and docks will be built around the water edges. Iâve spoken with that lovely Twiâlek bathhouse owner and sheâs spending her best architects to Nevarro as a personal favor to me. Itâs going to be the jewel of the rim I tell you!â
Much of the dialog goes over Dins head. Mostly because heâs dead tired and currently operating on less than four hours of sleep. They only landed a couple hours ago from another grueling mission. He partly listens to Kargaâs plans, partly watches Grogu quietly sit on the hologram table as he stuffs his mouth with blue cookies his âuncleâ has given him. But mostly, Din gazes out one of the many windows in his 360 degree office. Watching the sun set over the canyons and turn the sky a dusty pink.
The shiny bronze protocol droid shuffles around the office with a silver tray with two crystal glasses of spotchka. He offers a glowing glass to Karga who gladly takes it. Then the droid starts to approach Din with the platter, offering him a glass as well.
âUh no no, he doesnât drink,â Karga quickly corrects, taking a momentary pause from his plans. The shiny droid fumbles a bit, flustered, then offers an apology before scuttling away with the tray.
Mando doesnât even bother to correct them. Too much energy. Itâs true, heâs never accepted alcohol in front of Karga. Especially in those early guild days when trust was low. But even to this day, Din doesnât drink around people.
Well⊠most people, that is.
An image of last time Din saw you pops into his head. That thick, slightly mussed hair tied up with a hair stick. Dewy skin. All smiles and laughter. You wore a deep blue torso wrap that time, His eyes kept following the lines of your collar bones and all that exposed skin seemed to glow in the reflected sunlight in the shop.
And those lips. Those goddamn pink tinted lips that he canât get out of his head. If thatâs not the definition of beauty he doesnât know what is.
Your teasing is something heâs growing used to. But that day you pushed too far. You werenât taking him seriously and you shouldnât be the only one who gets to tease, right? When he cornered you against the counter, he made it known just how serious he was about defending you. That flush came back to your cheeks and your breathing had picked up. You had no idea, but your eyes had found his and it made heat pool in his lower abdomen as he got lost in the color of them.
In that moment, Din wrestled back the impulse to lift you up on that countertop, spread those perfect legs and-
â-Right, Mando?â Kargaâs voice interrupts just as that train of thought was getting good. Din turns his visor over to him.
âHmm?â
âYou just agreed to let the kid spend the night here.â
âRight. Yeah,â Din scoffs. âWas that before or after I sold my ship to the Jawas,â he replies in a gruff tone. Karga doesnât find the sarcasm amusing.
âAlright, alright.â
âMaybe Iâll sell them my armor while Iâm at it.â
âI get it,â he exclaims. âYou werenât even listening! I was talking about the space port proposal and I canât even tell where you clocked out. That's not like you, Mando.â
âIâm tired. I just got back from a long trip.â Kargas eyes glance between Din and the window he's been looking out from.
âI wouldnât say tired. More like⊠Distracted.â
He says the word with an insinuation Din would rather do without.
âItâs nothing,â he deflects.
âHey, you know me, Mando. Iâm not one to judge,â Karga says, throwing his hands in the air. âIf thereâs anything on your mind Iâm all ears. Money, politics, work, women-â
âThereâs nothing to discuss. Iâm fine," Din deadpans.
Kargas covers Grogus ears, who is too preoccupied by his munching to mind.
âSounds like you need to get laid.â
Maker...
âYouâre sordid,â he grumbles, shaking his head and turning back to the window. Karga just laughs. Amusement written all over his wrinkled face.
The arguments were one of the main things that changed between them over the last few years. Now they bicker like two old friends instead of two business associates. But one thing that has never changed is the way Karga tries to pressure him into revealing things out of him. Imperfectly human things.
Heâd offer Din all sorts of things like spice or Twiâlek bathhouses just to see if he was capable of being tempted. And right now⊠thereâs only one other person Din can think of capable of doing that.
âYou know what I think? I think youâre starting to outgrow this lone wolf lifestyle of yours,â he speculates. âYouâre a father now. Donât you think the little one needs a mother?â
Dins helmet swivels back to Karga.
âDonât you think you should stick to governing your town?â
âI was just getting to that," Karga exclaims excitedly. "You know we really should consider moving a few of the-â
âHere we goâŠ,â Din sighs to himself.
What shouldâve been a quick visit has turned into a one sided yap session. Itâs been a couple weeks since he left and heâs eager to re-supply for his next run with Zeb. Heâll need to head to the square at some point as well. His home is in desperate need of a re-stock. And of course, a visit to the clinic probably wouldnât be a bad idea if heâs already in the area.
Even from up here, your store can be seen at the far corner of the plaza. And every couple minutes, he can see you. Popping in and out of the small store and rearranging some of the potted plants outside. People greet you from the street and you turn to wave back.
Itâs getting harder and harder to find excuses to go there that sound necessary. Last time he was there he picked up two new pharmakits, even though another two regular medkits sit unopened in his home. Heâs been buying that energy tea you make, despite him being a kaf drinker his whole life. He keeps going back for shit he really doesnât need. But if he was pressed to give a better reason, itâs mostly because he feels a need to check on you.
True, Nevarro has become significantly safer, but that doesnât make it safe. Especially for a woman living completely on her own. Youâre a kind hearted, giving person in a galaxy that does nothing but take. And someone like that should be protected. Heâs looked the other way too many times in the past and he doesnât want to be that person anymore. And plus the kid enjoys the visits.
Sure, the kid. Keep telling yourself that, DinâŠ
A chiss man with a floating pallet of goods approaches your shop entrance and your attention turns from watering the plants to greet the vendor with a bright smile. You speak animately. And it would normally be endearing, if it wasn't directed towards another man. In the privacy of his helmet, Din grimmaces.
He shouldnât be surprised. Youâre well traveled, knowledgeable. Itâs no wonder youâre able to buy products from so many places. But this particular vendor is getting a bit too close for Dinâs comfort.
As usual, you talk with much enthusiasm. Sparking a conversation with the man. Itâs clear youâre familiar with each other by the body language you both give off. And heâs not sure if itâs because you regularly get inventory from the man, or something beyond that.
You turn around on the balls of your feet to dip back inside the shop and as you do youâre completely oblivious to the way the Chissâs head tilts to the side so his crimson eyes can roam your backside. And the only reason Din caught it was because the binocs in his visor seem to have unconsciously been turned on by his finger on his vambrace.
You return to with a small wooded box and open the lid to show him mineral salts, the kind heâs seen you make herbal soaks with. The vendor offers a large lidded glass jar of some kind of dried purple flower buds from his cart. With the added exchange of some credit chips, thereâs more talking and smiling. Something he said makes you laugh as you sign his holopad and Din has to flex his fingers to stop them from clenching into a fist.
Enough. Stop watching.
The mental check forces Dins attention to shift back to whatever Karga keeps droning on about. You can associate with whoever you damn well please. Itâs none of his concern who you do business with or what your personal life is like. Din nearly turns his visor away. But out of the furthest corner of his eye, he catches something he canât tear away from.
The distance between the Chiss and you has suddenly shrunk. The moment unfolds in slow motion as his eyes chew on every second. The Chiss steps closer to lean down thenâŠ
Dinâs arms uncross when the Chiss leans in close to your face. And before he knows it, the fucker plants a quick peck on your cheek. And you return it! The whole exchange lasts less than a second before you wave each other goodbye and he goes his separate way. You return inside with the product like nothing and Din sits there, completely rattled.
What⊠the fuck?
Was it a casual kiss? Did you even know that he was checking you out? If you did, was that a friendly goodbye gesture or was it flirtatious? That son of a bitch gets to walk around with bliss on his cheek all day now. Oddly enough, thatâs what puts Din over the edge. A complete fucking stranger knows how your lips feel and he doesnât.
Never in his life has he harbored thoughts like these. Itâs downright pathetic. He feels corrupted.
âFuck it,â he growls to himself beneath his breath.
â-Anyway, back to my point. I was considering having a port built for- hey!â
Before Karga has a chance to monologue further, Din has picked up his son from the edge of the deskâgrubby hands still clinging to the bag of cookiesâand has placed him right into Karga arms.
âI need you to watch over him for the night. Iâll come back for him in the morning.â
âOkay then? Fine by-.â Din doesnât bother to listen because thereâs no ending to that sentence that matters to him in this moment. He makes his exit, the slide doors opening as he nears them.
âHey! Where do you think youâre going all puffed up like that?â
âI need to settle something,â he tosses back before letting the doors shut behind him.
The sun is getting low and a few other vendors are starting to take down their signs and close their doors. Youâre probably getting ready to close up for the day yourself. Hopefully heâs able to catch you before then.
Each step on the cobblestone is heavy with purpose. And it's not unoticed the way several people on the street see an armor clad Mandalorian and scurry out of his way with a petrified look on their faces. But right now he doesn't particularly care. Right now everything in his head is clouded with the exception of one objective.
From a couple stores away, you catch him approaching from your peripheray. And he's not sure how to describe it, but it's like something in your body language softens when you see him. Your shoulders become less tense, your eyes gleam, and you cast him that bright toothy smile that could stop any man's heart.
âAh! Hey! Itâs been a while, Mando! Howâs-â
âI need to have a word with you.â
Both your expression and your hand freeze momentarily in place, minus a suspicious quirk in your brow.
âOkaaay, you have my attention,â you chuckle, but thereâs a nervous tone riding on it. âWhat can I do for you today?
âI need to speak with you," you tells you bluntly. "Privately.â
Confusion paints across your face and your smile falls a bit. Understanding how serious his request is.
âLike, right now,â you ask hesitantly.
âPreferably, yes,â he answers.
âOk, yeah sure. Um⊠Iâm just about to close up and we can head upstairs in a minute.â You start to turn away but then quickly turn back to him and immediately add âor we can go somewhere youâre more comfort-â
âItâs fine,â Din quickly interjects, stopping that train of thought. âThis wonât take long anyway.â
You blink at him a couple times and give him a quiet âok thenâ before turning around and preparing your shop to close.
Seems that Dinâs command from his last visit was taken seriously. Regret over those words washes over him. If heâs being honest, being inside your home again sets off several red lights in his head. But heâs already on the verge of blurting out something teetering on the edge of his brain. Better to wait until heâs behind closed doors and away from any prying eyes. Or flirtatious vendors. This shouldnât be complicated. Heâll make it quick.
He decides to wait around the corner of the shop where the stone steps meet your front door. He leans against the wall with his arms crossed and his finger nervously tapping his arm brace. After a few minutes you round the corner with your bag over your shoulder and lead the way into your home. Instinctively, he looks around for any eyes before entering and closing the door behind him.
âSo whereâs your boy,â you ask, tossing your bag on the couch and walking towards the kitchen. âI have to say Iâm kind of surprised not to see him on your hip. You seem inseparable.â
Your voice is chipper but he can tell by your stiff body and lack of eye contact that youâre not entirely comfortable. For a moment Din reconsiders this encounter. But no. The sooner he this bug out of his system the better.
âHeâs⊠spending the night with a friend,â he answers. Grabbing one of those ceramic cups from the cabinet, you fill it with water from the sink and heâs starting to think that youâre only doing that to keep your hands busy.
âAaww, a sleepover? Is it his first-â
âIf you donât mind,â he cuts off. âIâd like to get to my point.â
âOh⊠Y-yes, I'm sorry. Iâm rambling,â you say sheepishly. âIâm justâŠ,â you take a deep breath, rest the cup of water on the counter, and lean back against it. Eyes fixed to the floor.
ââŠitâs just what you said the last time you were here. And the way you approached me earlier, you seemed kinda⊠I donât know, upset? I know you donât wanna be here so Iâm wondering what I did to upset you that youâd come here.â
Damn it⊠Heâs such an asshole.
He shouldâve never said that. You've been thinking this entire time that youâre at fault for his shitty social skills. Truthfully, with the way that wine had his head so deliciously foggy, he had to leave before his body did something it was aching to do, begging him to do. But how does he even begin to explain that?
âYou didnât do anything,â he answers immediately. But thinks on it once more. âWell⊠technically you did. But Iâm not upset with you.â
âYouâre not,â you ask him sheepishly.
âIâm not,â he assures.
A beat passes in silence as you chew over his words.
âOkaaay,â you say with a smirk, ânow you really got my attention.â
That mischievous tone travels through Dinâs helmet, in his ears, and settles warmly in the pit of his stomach. Something about the combination of your sweet voice and relaxed shift in your body language makes this whole interaction even more nerve wracking.
âSooo, you wanted to talk to me about something I did?â
âRight.â
âOkay, sooo...â He feels you urging him to continue but now Din finds himself more cautious of his words now. If youâve been silently worried about offending him the last thing he needs is for this to come off wrong way.
âItâs⊠a bit hard to explain,â he exhales. If he could pinch his brow right now he would. âTo put it plainly, the night we drank together, you said something thatâs been⊠stuck in my head.â
âWas it the thing about the name?â
âN-no.â
âWas it the Pantora story?
âNo.â
âWas it the comment about knowing my liquor? Because I like a drink from time to time but I donât have like a problem or anything-â
âNo- Can I finish,â he asks impatiently.
âOkay, okay. Sorry. Go ahead.â
âWhen we were drinking, and talking⊠we said a lot of things and got into some deep conversations. And at one point, you asked me if I ever kissed anyone before. I said no back then because⊠I've never given it any thought in the past. But now itâs got me⊠curious.â
Your quirk your brow at him.
âCurious how?â
âI want to know what itâs like,â he answers plainly.
â⊠Sorry, what?â
âI need this⊠curiosity out of my head. Itâs driving me crazy and I need it out of my system. So I figured⊠since youâre the one who mentioned it in the first place, you can help me kill it.â
âYouâre⊠Okay so, hold onâŠ,â you say with a shaky breath. âAre you⊠asking me to kiss you?â
âThatâs⊠an oversimplification. But yeah.â
âYouâre asking me to be your first kiss? Am I understanding you right?â
Maker, you ask a lot of questions. Are you always like this? You did the same exact thing when he gave you the wine. On any other day it wouldâve been endearing but he didnât anticipate the conversation lasting longer than a minute. Now his request sounds more and more lecherous with each passing second.
âI wonât bother you again after this. You have my word. Itâs completely casual. Just killing a curiosity.â
âThereâs a preeetty common phrase about curiosity and loth cats that goes differently.â A giggle tumbles out of your mouth on the tail end of that sentence and humility crawls under his skin.
âSorry to waste your time.â He starts to turn towards the nearest exit when you step in to stop him. Placing a hand briefly on his arm in the space between his armor and the contact sends a current of electricity up his spine.
âNo wait, donât be like that,â you toy with him.
âIâm not laughing,â he spits. But you still have the nerve to giggle.
âItâs okay, Mando,â you laugh assuredly.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs ridiculous. I hate it. I hate that you put this in my head.â
You fold your lips between your teeth to try to hide your amusement. But you still canât help but crack a smile a little at his frustration. He basically just confessed to having this obsession for months and he can tell by your smug expression that youâre enjoying how incredibly uncomfortable he is about this.
âYouâre right. Iâm⊠sorry,â you say under your breath. Trying to fix your face.
Thereâs a beat of silence. Stepping in closer, he tilts his head down to you. Locking you in his gaze. He takes pleasure in being nearly a full head taller and the way your breathing picks up before he says in a low gruff voiceâŠ
âNo, youâre not.â
You smile behind your hand as your eyes dance across his visor, unknowingly locking eyes with the man beneath. You know youâre not sorry, just like he knows heâs not particularly sorry either. Itâs not just this moment. It goes back to every interaction youâve had together. The banter, the nicknames, the visits. Heâs as much to blame as you are. And then⊠you slowly you shake your head, agreeing with him and confirming his suspicion.
Fuck, youâre cute. He hates that he loves how cute you are. He hates himself for not being stronger.
âOk,â you nearly whisper. Looking up at him with the sweetest eyes. âIâll help you.â
âą
âIs all this really necessary?â
Din currently sits on the floor of your living room. The same spot as last time in fact. Your were the one that insisted on it and honestly he couldn't bring himself to tell you no. Since he sat down in the soft carpet, you've been flitting around your home turning off lamps, closing blinds, and covering any reflective items. Which, admittedly, he's greatful for. But the more time he spends here, alone with you, the more he's not going to want to leave.
âItâs not everyday you get your first kiss, Mando. I wanna make sure itâs a good one. I wish I could re-do mine.â
Gloves fingers flex and stretch restlessly on his knees as you approach the last lamp sitting on a side table in the living room and pause.
âAre you sure about this?â
Fuck no heâs not. But the sooner he does this, the sooner he can find some normalcy in his head again.
âFlip the switch," he says in a low modulated voice.
You fold in a growing smile before taking a deep breath and flicking the switch. Bathing the entire home in inky darkness. The silhouette of you through turns to hues of thermal green and red, carefully maneuvering through your living room by memory before finding your seat in the floor in front of him. And with slight hesitation, Din reaches up to remove the last barrier he has.
âCan you see anything?â
âNot a bit,â you answer.
With that confirmation, he unclasps the chin strap and slowly lifts the helmet up and off. He blinks several times to adjust his vision before finding the outline of the table and placing his helmet there. On the return, his head bumps into your outstretched hand. Not knowing that you had moved.
âAgh.â
âSorry sorry,â you pull away. âGive me a moment, Iâll find you.â
Your hands search in the dark for him. He canât see much but he can tell your hands land on nothing by the way the air between you moves and he doesnât feel any contact on his person. So he reaches out, bumping into your arms and taking hold of them. Following the line of your forearm until he reaches your hands.
âHere," he murmurs. Gloved hands wrap around your wrists and gently lift them up. He guides your hands forward untilâŠ
You let out a small gasp when your hands find the warmth of his bare face. Soft and giving as opposed to the cold, unyielding beskar. Their movements are slow and explorative. Running your thumbs over his stubble. Surprisingly his hands donât release their grasp. His leather clad digits press against the racing pulse in your wrist as his thumbs run over the back of your palm.
âThis help?â
âYes, thank you,â you whisper.
From sound of rustling on the rug, Din can sense your body leaning in. Your breath brushes over his skin for a moment before something warm presses against his chin and it takes a second to register that itâs your mouth. You ease him into the build up and heâs greatfull for it. Jaw. Then cheek. Then just grazing the furthest corner of his mouth.
And then⊠contact.
At first it doesnât feel like much. Just something soft and warm pressing against his mouth. What most people refer to as a peck, he assumes. But itâs when you barely pull back and return for another that a shiver wracks his skin. Your lips lock in the return, molding together in perfect unison. And itâs fucking electric.
Just by feel alone, he senses that your lips are slightly open. So he mimics you. Giving his jaw just enough slack to respond as you go in again. The sensations have his mind in a thick fog. The soft flesh, the sweet taste, the faint suction. His skin feels like thereâs live wires going off underneath. Giving in completely, he finally returns the kiss. Pressing into it with more confidence.
You hum against his mouth, and he dies a little inside.
Thatâs when the real hunger builds. Thereâs a slow simmering heat rising between you now. Without thinking, his hands grip your wrists a little harder. Pulling you in closer. The kiss grows a bit stronger with each return back into each other with no loss of contact. Lingering longer and breathing against one another.
He feels your head tilt more to the side and again he mimics your movement. The break only lasts a fraction of a moment. But in the re-entry, the tip of your soft tongue happens to brush his mouth. Sweet wetness coats his bottom lip and itâs in that instant Din feels all restraint leave his body.
Taking your face in his hand, he kisses you open mouthed, inviting you in. Your tongues slowly graze one another and if he fucking died in this moment heâd be ok with it knowing that he got to know how you taste.
The hunger becomes unbearable. Soon enough the breathing becomes heavier and the air becomes hot. Your arms end up wrapping over his shoulders, pulling him deeper and heâs more than happy to dive further. Another small noise escapes your throat and the vibration travels through his entire body.
He needs to feel you. To taste you. Devour you. He needs you.
A break for air is the only thing that throws him back into semi-consciousness as you pull away. The heat built up between you makes him dazed. Hot breaths fill the small space between your lips as you lean your forehead against his.
âMando?â
âYes,â he responds in a raspy whisper. A few moments pass as you collect your words and catch your breath.
âIs this really just about curiosityâŠ?â
Your words lean more towards a statement than a question. Thereâs no point in denying it now. As much as he tried to convince himself or rationalize his strange request, he does feel a pull towards you. Much more complicated than just attraction. The more he sees you, learns about you, and talks with you, the more⊠inevitable you feel to him. Thereâs a gravity to you that he canât escape from. Nor does he want to.
âYes and no.â
âWhat does that mean?â The breath of your question brushes the heated skin of his cheek. And right now, he can't think of any answer that wouldn't give him up.
So he lets it fly.
âItâs not just the kiss Iâm curious about.â
The silence in the air is thick. The only thing between you are the sounds of both of you catching your breath. Itâs possible he might have ruined everything with that one sentence. But itâs the truth. It had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with you. Your kindness, your banter, your hospitality. All of it.
Thereâs no way of telling what youâre thinking at the right now. Itâs in this moment that he wishes the lights werenât out so he can at least read your expression. But then after what seems like an eternity, your forehead nudges against his and you blow a deep sigh of relief. Arms still draped over his shoulders.
âOh good⊠I thought it was only me,â you confess with a skittish laugh.
And that tightly pulled restraint finally snaps inside him when he hears that.
Without any hesitation, he dives back in. Kissing you like a man starved. Just like that night, he feels drunk. Only this time itâs on the taste of you and the feeling of your hands finally on him. Itâs that thought that drives him to rip off his leather gloves and toss them aside without breaking contact once. His bare hands find your waist and the strip of bare skin between your shirt and linen pants.
âIs this what you meant,â you pant. âWhen you told me not to invite you in again.â
âYeah... it is.â He pants the confession as his mouth trails down the line of your jaw and finding your neck in the dark.
âThatâs a relief,â you chuckle. âI was worried I offended you.â
âThe only thing thatâs offensive is that I canât see that pretty pink flush on your face right now.â
âShould I get a blindfold,â you tease.
What a fucking woman. The mental image of you in a blindfold, only a blindfold, pours fuel on an already blazing fire. But for now, heâs more than ok feeling his way around tonight.
âNext time.â
It comes out of his mouth confidently and without hesitation. Because you both know there will be a next time. Heâs bitten into the forbidden fruit and now heâs addicted to the taste.
With a simple shift, his hands dip beneath the thin fabric of your shirt and find the delicious heat of your soft belly.
"Lay down for me."
With your arms draped over his shoulders, you eagerly comply. Slowly dragging him down with you. He careful not to press all his weight on youâbeing crushed by beskar would definitely kill the moodâbut it doesn't stop you from pulling tighter. Craving connection. All while Din rains wet kisses and soft bites upon your pulse.
So this is what your skin tastes like. Slightly salty, sweet, and smooth between his teeth. He might eat you whole if heâs not careful. He nips at the skin of your exposed collar bone and you writhe. Arching to press your chest to his. So he decides to give it some attention.
âTake it off," you pant with an neediness that drives him pull the damn shirt off in one swift motion.
His bare hand crawls up your sternum. Exploring the valley of soft skin free of any restricting fabric. The moment his fingers find the stiff peak of your bare breast he pinches eagerly. Earning the sweetest little whimpers from you as his mouth works on the other nipple. Biting and sucking the soft point. He canât see a thing in the dark, but whatâs lacking in sight is made up by sound with the delicious breathy moans you let out for him.
âMandoâŠâ
Fuck, does he love the way you call out for him. Every touch, kiss, and suck he gives elicites the most gorgeous sounds out of that perfect mouth. The sounds to straight to his cock, now painfully stiff. It's tempting to just dive into you right now. But he's waited this long. So why not take his sweet time with you. With his face still burried between your breasts and you fingers raking through his hair, Din feels a press of your hips against his armor. And he needs more.
âShop GirlâŠâ
The nickname doesnât catch your attention. Youâre either too lost in the moment or too breathless to answer. Itâs only when he uses your given name that your body perks up and you give him a raspy âyeah?â.
âDo you want this," he asks.
His right hand has found its way to the waist band of your work pants. Ready and waiting for your answer. You try to grind against his hips but he presses your hips down firmly. He knows damn well neither of you want to stop. But he needs to hear it. There's no going back after this.
"Is this ok?"
He doesn't know if you're unsure. Or if maybe your trying to meet his eyes through the darkness. But there's a long pause. Only the sounds of heavy breaths and the pulse beating hard in his ears. And every second that passes has him hanging on the edge of madness.
"Yes...," you finally breathe. "I need you."
She needs me.
The words leave him winded. Months of questions and pining suddenly feel well worth the wait just to hear those words. They not only affirm going further, but the bond that's been steadily growing between you. Not a single ounce of hesitation survives after he hears that. And with one hand, Din loosens the tie of your pants and dives in beneath the fabric of your underwear.
By feel alone, Din manages to pull your pants down to your thighs and you kick them off your feet. His hands roam over all the smooth exposed skin and he can only imagine how perfect you must look if you feel this good. The tips of his fingers finds the dampness between your legs, running along the seam, and he slowly pushes inside until his knuckles meet your entrance.
You release a soft gasp and he swallows it with a deep kiss. You both sigh into each other's mouth. As if you need the other to even breathe. Din's lips never leaves yours as he does an experimental curl against the fleshy part of your walls and you arch your body against his.
âThis where you need me," he huffs against your lips. "Right here?â
âRight there... Perfect..."
"I wanna taste you." The confession comes out before he can even think about it.
"Then taste me, Mando."
He can hear the smile in your voice. The taunt. And he's more than happy to reciprocate it.
He rises above you and you whine from the lack of contact. But the loss doesn't last long. Because before you even can register what he's doing, his head has already lowered between your legs.
"What are you- ah."
That gasp you let out when his mouth envelops your pussy is downright tortured. Good too know you were just as desperate as he was.
"Fuck! I thought you meant... You were gonna... Shit..."
No fucking way would he be satisfied tasting you on just his fingers. The sweet tangy flavor explodes over his tongue and he groans. Fucking hell, you taste good. He doesnât even know what the hell heâs doing but thatâs sure as shit not stopping him. He drowns in you. Lapping and sucking on your swollen little bud and loving the way it makes you cry out. Two thick fingers pump into your wet heat as you melt in his mouth. Such a fucking treat.
You writhe beneath him. Squirming and clawing at anything to hold on to as he works you up. Eventually your hands finds his hair again. Taking a fistful and pressing his face further against your cunt. The sting on his scalp makes his cock twitch in his flight suit and he groans.
âYou want me to make you come, Shop Girl," he mumbles against you.
âYes.â
âSay it.â
âMake me come, Mando... PleaseâŠâ
He doesn't break pace, doesn't falter, doesn't change a damn thing what he's doing because he can feel close to the edge you are. You tighten around his digits as the pump in and out. And with a firm suck on your clit you let out a strangled gasp.
"Oh Fuck! Fuck! Mando!"
Your breathing becomes short and shallow. Panting so hard right before holding your breath and tipping over the edge with a strangled cry. You come long and hard. Trembling so much he has to hold you steady by the hips.
Through the waves of your climax, Din continues to eat you. Lapping at your perfect pussy like it's wine and he doesn't waste a single drop of you. Even sucking and licking his fingers clean as you lay breathless before him. They come out of his mouth with a wet pop and he canât help but let out a small breathy laugh.
âIâve always wanted to try thatâŠâ he confesses.
You let out your own exhausted little laugh and he can already tell he wants more. More laughter, more of those pretty sounds, more of you.
It's with that in mind that Din starts pulling his cape off.
Piece by peace, he silently removes his armor. And after a few moments, a second pair of hands joins in. You fumble in the dark with his chest piece first. Helping him out of his armor one section at a time. They fall to the carpet with a soft thud along with the crumbling pieces of the restraint heâs built since that first night.
Thereâs no signs of stopping. You keep giving him more. More heat. More yearning. More questions.
What makes you laugh? What gives you pleasure? What makes you feel good and whole and satisfied? He needs to know.
And now that heâs gotten a taste, thereâs no way heâs leaving here tonight until youâve both had your fill.
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If this is what happens when you invite the Mandalorian into your home, let your door never close.
Getting to your bed was easier than you thought itâd be in pitch black darkness. The only thing keeping your âbedroomâ separate from the rest of the home is a wooden lattice divider from the ceiling to the floor.
He lays you down on the soft futon on the floor and you open for him like a flower. Two strong palms drag and paw all over your body as his mouth works magic on yours and it makes you dizzy with desire.
Maker, heâs so good with his hands.
His body separates from you only to remove his flight suit and you whine at the loss of contact. Naked and panting for him. Within seconds heâs back on top of you and the feeling of his bare skin against yours makes your head spin. With everything so dark you wonder if this is even real. Maybe this is all a fever dream.
âAre you gonna show me how Mandalorians fuck this time,â you tease against his lips. Calling back to when he showed you how they drink. With your bare legs around his hips, you tease his resolve by running your inner thighs over his sides and youâre rewarded with a low hum. The hand supporting your neck slowly drags forward to find the base of your throat.
âYou donât need to know how Mandalorians fuck.â His wide grip gently squeezes the sides of your throat, just enough for you to feel the power in those hands. âJust how I fuck.â
Holy shit. You thought him gripping your jaw was hot. But this? This mightâve awakened something you didnât even knew you wanted.
A whimper escapes you only to be muted by his mouth again. His tongue swirls with yours with a hunger youâve never knew was there these past months and itâs such a relief to know that you werenât the only one pining.
Mandoâs mouth travels to your cheek, then jaw, finally finding purchase on your neck. Biting and sucking as his body presses into yours. Heâs insatiable right now. There's no doubt that you'll find yourself covered in marks when the lights come back on.
Youâre so lost in the moment that you almost donât notice when something hard and warm presses against your inner thigh. Out of nowhere, a thought you havenât even considered before decides to pop into your head at the very last minute.
âH-hold on!â
Your hands find his shoulders, urging him to pause. His lips unlatch themselves from your neck the second you blurt it out. Instantly propping himself above you with his hands on either side of your head.
âYou want me to stop?,â he pants.
âNo⊠Hell no. Itâs justâŠâ
How do you even begin to ask this?
âUm⊠I know I probably shouldâve asked earlier but⊠youâre human, right?â
Mando blows out a low chuckle, understanding your underlying meaning. He feels human, from what your hands can tell anyway. He could be like his kid for all you know. Itâs not that youâre not willing to go Inter-species, but your experience is mainly human. Plus with the lights off itâd be pretty difficult to figure out fitting things.
Taking your hand from his shoulder, he presses it against his chest where you can feel a dusting of hair. His skin is hot, damp with a thin layer of sweat and his breathing is heavy. He continues to lead your hand further down his torso so you can feel every hill and valley of his muscles. Eventually your hand hits a trail of hair down the middle and thenâŠ
Oh shit.
His hand guides you along the length of his cock. Encouraging you to explore every ridge from the thick base all the way up to the damp tip. Heâs stiff and hot in your palm. When you give him a firm squeeze he groans and twitches in your grip.
Oh shit.
âDoes that answer your question?â
The human part, definitely. Fitting is still debatable.
He lets you handle him. Giving you free rein to tug and tease as he bucks into your hand. He groans with pleasure and the power trip you feel knowing exactly how you affect this fiercely disciplined man makes the pulse between your legs throb harder. After a minute, his hand snatches yours to a halt, making your grip around his cock tighter.
âShow me where you want it,â he demands in a gruff breath. And you do just that. Pressing the damp tip against your clit. The contact sending a jolt of pleasure up your spine.
âInside,â you plead. âI need you inside me.â
With an impatient huff, his hand comes down to take hold of your leg behind the bend of your knee. Spreading you wide and teasing your entrance before pushing himself inside. You gasp at the initial stretch, digging your nails into his shoulders. Mando curses under his breath and as he pushes you worry for a moment if thereâs an end to him.
Itâs slow, deliberate. Feeding his cock into your tight cunt until heâs pressing the limits of your walls. You shudder together when heâs completely sheathed and his hands grip your hips so hard his fingers dig into your flesh.
âMandoâŠâ You throw your head back. Arching your whole body, waiting it to adjust to him. âFuck!â
âI knew it,â he pants. âFucking knew youâd feel goodâŠâ
He splits you in half and before youâre even ready the first hard thrust hits you. You whimper from impact and he thrusts again. Pinning you down by your hips to keep you at the perfect angle. Soon he sets a steady pace as he fucks you into delirium. Itâs too much, heâs too much. Yet you moan and whine for more like each thrust might be the last. He feels incredible and you can only claw at his trim waist as it moves for you.
âThatâs it⊠Good girl⊠Taking me so well⊠I wanted this⊠I want you to know every part of me.â
His words plunge into your chest like a dagger. Laced with a meaning that goes far beyond sex. Because you feel it too. You wanted him to be closer. You wanted him to know your name, know you. Even if it took this long to get here.
You feel one hand find your leg. Hiking it up so the back of your thigh lays flat against his chest. His hand drags up and down, caressing the soft flesh without losing a beat with his thrusts. A kiss presses on your calf and your head feels like itâs spinning. One moment heâs rearranging your insides and the next heâs giving your body sweet affection.
Tension builds in your core. Growing tighter and tighter with each hard thrust. Usually the second orgasm is more elusive to chase on your own. But this man is about to push you right into the next one not five minutes after the first one.
âDonât⊠StopâŠ,â you pant. âDonât stop, Iâm so close, MandoâŠâ
âCome for me... Let me feel you."
Then it comes. Tensing your entire body before coming down like a crashing wave. Itâs spreads through every inch of your body, making you pulse and shake beneath his frame. You cry out in the midst of the euphoria, clinging to his shoulders, and everything feels so right. He moans along with you, feeling every tight pulse around his cock and letting you ride out the remaining waves.
âThatâs two now, Shop Girl. You gonna give me a third?â
You let out a breathy laugh, still coming down from the clouds.
"I... I'm not sure I can," you chuckle.
"Yeah, you will," he pants. Amusement lacing his raspy voice.
Without out warning, Mando takes both your legs. Placing your calves over his shoulders as his leans forward. Folding you in half. And with one hard thrust, his cock drives back into you at a deeper angle. Your back bows and you swear you see stars in the blackness of the room. His lips land on the corner of your mouth and kiss their way to your lips. Offering a soft apology after the roughness. His strong arms are propped around you and you feel eclipsed under his broad body.
Soon his rhythm picks up. Becoming more desperate as he chases his own release. The room fills with the sound of your bodies meeting and you don't think you've ever heard anything more perfect. His panting picks up, his moans become louder, and the quivering breaths he makes when he finds a particularly deep spot will no doubt live in your mind rent free forever.
âYou wanted me bare, didnât you,â he huffs, pressing his damp forehead to yours.. âWhen you offered me that tea? You thought about me coming inside this perfect cunt, didnât you.â
Caught red handed. Sure, you wanted to know if he had a partner as well. But the thought did cross your mind when he cornered you against the counter. You wanted to know how he felt bare, with nothing between you. Even dreamt a few times about it.
âYes⊠Fuck, yes! Please! I want it!â
âYou gonna come with me, Shop Girl? Hmm?â
âMaker, Mando! Iâm right fucking there, please! I⊠Iâm⊠ah-â
His firm hand grips your jaw. Whipping your face back to him so he can cover your mouth his. He kisses you deep, open and messy. No technique, just raw desire as he eats you alive. You moan and whimper against his mouth with each debilitating thrust he makes. He drives into you faster, harder. Relentlessly pushing you closer to the edge.
When it arrives, the orgasm hits you at full force. Wracking your whole body in convulsions as you scream, actually scream against his mouth. Your toes curl, your nails dig into his back and your cunt squeezes on to him for dear life like heâs never allowed to leave again.
Mando hisses through his teeth and he's right there with you. Ramming into you with relentless force as he chases his own release. His face dives into the crook of your shoulder and his arms scramble to take hold of you and he loses control. Letting out a sharp groan as he comes.
âFuck.. Fuck,â he shudders in your ear. âAgh!â
His hips jerk against your body, driving himself as deep as you can take him. You feel his cock throb as he pumps into you again and again. Filling you to the point of spilling out and itâs... everything. Connected in such a profound way youâve never felt before. In this moment, itâs hard to tell your bodies apart. Youâve melted and mixed and you never want to separate.
You ride it together, mold together, lose control together because you both knew itâd come to this. In the end this was inevitable. And in a galaxy filled with unknowns, in this you can be certain. A connection like this is few and far between. Itâs real and raw and rare. Resisting that feeling was never an option, so why try?
Even in the climb down he doesnât stop. Those hard demanding thrusts slow to a gentle drags as if he doesnât want to finish yet. Hands glide all over each otherâs bodies, soothing the other. All along his tense shoulders, you pepper soft kisses to his skin. Easing you both down from the clouds. He hums in the decent and it lulls you into an exhausted bliss.
Everything feels hazy and soft. Youâre not sure how long you stay melted together like this. Minutes? Hours? But itâs needed. After a while, the breathing becomes steady and a soft, drowsy satisfaction settles between you.
âThatâs the first time someone's come inside me,â you quietly confess. For a moment, Mando absorbs what you just said. Then you feel him prop himself in his elbows above you.
âReally?â
âYeahâŠ,â you breathe. Running your hands up the sides of his neck and resting them on his stubbled face.
âYou know⊠since weâre sharing firsts tonight.â
He smiles and this time youâre able to know for certain by the feel of it in your hands. Leaning down, his forehead finds yours in the dark and you donât think youâve ever felt so whole before.
âIâm your first, huh,â he breathes. âI like that.â
Thereâs so many layers to this man. Quiet and withdrawn. Rough and demanding. Soft and caring. Each one is a trait youâve come to cherish. Youâre not sure if you love this man. But youâre definitely starting to fall for him. You can explore that treasure box later though. For now, youâll take tonight for tonight and let whatever comes next between you arrive in its own good time.
âMe too, Mando...â
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One thing youâve come to learn about being with Joel Miller is that he does not bluff. If you mess with him, expect to receive it back ten fold. He is the living embodiment of âfuck around and find outâ. The only thing equal to his commitment is your insatiable curiosity.
An unstoppable force meeting an immovable object.
Itâs a game you both play. You want to find out what heâs capable of so you toy with him. To dive deeper into that darkness inside of him. And you make sure he knows it. If you push him, you want to know how hard heâll push back.
And you mightâve⊠maybe⊠perhaps⊠pushed him a little too far this time.
Last night, Joel was out on a night shift at the outskirts of Jackson. Leaving you by yourself at home. Being on rotation yourself, you know itâs usually a long and quiet assignment with maybe an occasional infected stumbling too close to town. Basically, uneventful.
So, you thought it would be nice to call him on his walkie-talkie late at night and keep him company. And maybe the conversation skewed a little spicier than normal. Words became moans, hands traveled south. Aaaand maybe you made yourself come after he explicitly told you not to without him. Effectively leaving him hanging as you fell asleep peacefully.
When you woke up, the memory of last night flooded in and a wide sleepy grin spread across your face. Today is one of those rare occasions where you didnât have any assignments and no patrol today. So, you slept in. Something you havenât been able to do for weeks.
Surprisingly though, Joel hasnât been back at the house yet. Itâs already past 9am and the night shift usually comes back into town around 6am. Maybe you did push it too far and heâs pissed. In that case, maybe itâs a good idea to let him cool off for a bit.
There are a couple things you wanted to get done today. Best not to waste a day like this. After throwing on some cargo pants and a tank top, and grabbing one of the grocery baskets from the kitchen, you head out to town.
The early autumn breeze is cool and welcome after this particularly brutal summer. And some of your favorite foods are coming into season. You spend a lot more time than intended trading and talking with people in town. When winter hits and the snow starts piling up, itâs usually a struggle for the town until the snow melts. So you enjoy these small comforts while you can.
On your way back with a basket full of groceries, walking down the street is the patrol group from last night getting off their shift. Minus Joel. But amongst the group is Tommy. He glances your way and spots you across the street from within the crowd and waves at you. You wave back and walk over to greet him. Maybe he knows where Joel is.
âWe missed you this time around,â he jokes with you. Taking the strap of his rifle off his torso.
âIâd say Iâd feel guilty but honestly sleeping in this morning was fan-fucking-tastic,â you tell him with a laugh. âYou guys are coming back late. Anything happen?â
âNah, nothing major. There was a meeting afterwards about prepping for winter, thatâs all.â
âOh, so Joel was there too?â
Tommyâs smile weakens a bit, and his eyes slightly glance around him. Almost as if heâs found himself walking on eggshells. He takes the clip off his rifle and unloads the bullets to store in his bag. Probably just giving his hands something to do.
âYeah, he was there,â he says plainly. Thereâs no other explanation that comes after, just a couple beats of silence. Making you suspicious.
âIs he ok,â you prod.
âYeah yeah yeah, heâs⊠fine, I guess.â
You guess?
âŠOk?
After another moment of awkward silence, youâre about to give him a courteous smile and a âsee ya laterâ. But before you do, Tommy glances back at you.
âHey can I-â He pauses for a beat and you raise your eyebrows at him , waiting for him to continue. But he shakes his head and returns to his task. âActually, never mind.â
âTommy, youâre looking at me all weird,â you tease him with a smirk. âSpit it out.â
âI was gonna ask you about something but I donât think itâs any of my business to be honest.â
Well, this oughta be goodâŠ
Placing a hand on your hip, you give him a raised brow. Signaling to him that youâre waiting for an explanation here. He notices and swallows hard. Looking around one final time before leaning in and lowering his voice.
âDonât tell him I asked this, âKay?â
âOh, I canât wait to hear this,â you say with a mischievous smile.
âDid,â he pauses again. âDid you and Joel have like⊠a fight or somethinâ?â
You raise a suspicious brow at his question but it still makes you chuckle under your breath.
âA fight?â
âFor some reason, when he came back from patrol this morning, he seemed⊠pissed.â
âPissed is pretty much his natural state, Tommy. Youâre gonna have to be a bit more specific.â
âWell, it was dialed to a hundred this morning,â he explains. âHe came back to the base with this look on his face like he was âbout ready to kill anyone in his path. He unloaded all his guns like he had something against âem. He was boiling through the whole damn meeting. And he completely forgot about the stable duty he volunteered for afterwards. Which prompted a really interesting tantrum. Itâs been weird. You know anything âbout that?â
You bite back your smile. But inside, youâre so fucking pleased with yourself. Knowing you got that menacing, stone-hearted, guard dog of a man so sexually frustrated that heâs been walking around town pissed all morning just warms your heart.
âUh, nope. Canât say I do.â
âWell, he should be home by now. Just be careful he doesnât bite your head off at the door when you get back.â
I hope he bites somethingâŠ
âThanks for the warning,â you tell him, all too giddy to find out whatâs waiting for you.
Walking up the steps of the porch, you find Joelâs boots and backpack sitting on the floor beside the door. A flare of excitement and nervousness shoots up your body. Before you twist the door handle, you take a deep breath and compose yourself.
âIâm home~,â you greet as you open the door. âJoel?â
Thereâs silence in the house. You look around and wait for a response but it doesnât come. Maybe heâs taking a shower or something. Shrugging it off, you sit on the entryway bench and kick off your boots. You take the basket to the kitchen sink and begin washing some of the fruits and veggies you got this morning.
âThat wasnât nice.â Joelâs voice carries from across the room, making chills run up your spine.
Youâre in for it. You know it. You played with fire, and now your skin buzzes in anticipation. Waiting for the consequences. You bite your lip to hold back your smile, knowing if he sees it itâll only piss him off more. But against your better judgment, you peek at him over your shoulder anyway.
He stands at the entryway of the kitchen with his hands on his hips. His salt and pepper hair is damp and messy like he just came out of the shower and quickly ran a towel through it. No shirt, just a clean pair of jeans as he stands there. Bare chested and puffed with fury.
âIâm waiting,â he growls.
âFor what? A cookie,â you ask with sweet sarcasm.
He breathes a heavy exhale through his nose, seething across the room. The hands on his hips almost twitching with anger.
âApologize,â he says sternly.
âMe? What did I do?â
âYou know what.â
Drying off your hands with a kitchen towel, you turn around to face him completely. Leaning back with your hands resting gracefully on the counter. His eyes pierce you like arrows and itâs honestly such a turn on when he gets like this. You always get a deep satisfaction knowing that only you can get him like this with just a few choice words.
âI have no clue what you mean,â you purr. âIn fact, I think Iâve been very sweet with you.â
âDonât get cute with me,â he snaps back. âIâve had all morning to think of what to do with you and I donât wanna hear any arguments. You get your ass upstairs, take off your clothes, and get in that fucking bed. Now.â
A cocktail of emotions rush through your bloodstream. Excitement, arousal, fear, and a little anger. Youâve always been quick to snap back whenever someone raises their voice at you or bosses you around. But thatâs with normal people. And Joel is not a normal person.
Knowing this doesnât stop you from facing that danger, though. He might not be playing around, but the game never really stops for you. So, like you always do, you keep pushing. Testing the walls of his limits. So you answer him wearing that wicked little smile of yours.
âI don't know where you got it that you can boss a woman around like that, Joel. You know better than that.â
âI wonât ask again, little girl.â
Here it comes. Your final push.
âOr what?â
Those two simple words make him snap. His heavy footfalls close in on you, and suddenly his hand takes hold of your hip. Whipping you around so he can rush you. Lifting you up, he throws you over his shoulder. The air leaves your lungs in a yelp as you dangle behind him like a child getting disciplined. Making your blood boil as you bang your fists against his back.
âWhat the fuck, Joel?! What are you doing?!â
âTeachinâ you a lesson.â
He stomps aggressively up the stairs and you feel like youâre about to slip off and fall at any second. When he reaches the bedroom, Joel kicks the door wide open. Making it hit the wall with a loud bang. He tosses you on the bed face first like a rag doll. You gasp at the sudden drop and before you can even get a grip on anything to escape, his hands grab both of your arms and holds them behind your back. Pressing you face down into the mattress.
âApologize,â he grits out. You try to squirm out of his grip to no avail.
âNot a chance,â you spit back at him.
He switches his grip to hold your wrists with one hand as the free one yanks the hem of your cargo pants down and off your legs. Exposing your ass and the thin straps of your black panties for him. You only feel the cool air for a moment before his hand comes down to your cheek with a hard and swift spank.
You gasp into the bed, trying to hide the moan crawling up your throat from him. Your whole body tingles beneath him. Your cunt squeezes around nothing and the pulse in your clit instantly starts to throb. As good as it feels, it also pisses you off even more
Who the fuck does he think he is spanking you like a goddamn child?
âApologize,â he growls again, firmer and louder this time. Your thighs rub together trying to relieve the growing ache between your legs. Arching your back, you raise your hips and give him a little wiggle to taunt him.
âFuck. You.â
His hand comes down again with a loud thwack and this time you canât hold back the depraved moan from escaping. The sting on your ass sends a jolt of electricity up your spine and a pool of warmth down to your core. You squirm under him, this time toying with him instead of trying to escape again.
âYouâre making it harder for yourself, sweetheart,â he taunts, taking a handful of you in his hand and squeezing the raw flesh. You mewl into the mattress, trying to push yourself into him for more. You need more. But youâre just as stubborn as he is.
âIf you're going to act like a little brat then I'm going to treat you like a little brat.â
âDonât you dare,â you snarl at him.
But he doesnât answer you. Instead the hand on your ass leaves you and you can hear a growling âfuckâ fall past his lips. Thereâs some jostling noises and you can tell heâs trying to untie his jeans. And something about the sound of his belt buckle being pulled off his jeans makes you absolutely feral for him.
God, yes. Please just let him fuck you and then youâll be so sweet for him.
But thatâs not what heâs preparing for. Suddenly thereâs only one strong hand holding your arms and you feel the leather strap loop around your wrists. He ties the belt loose enough that it doesnât hurt but thereâs no way youâre able to wiggle your way out of it.
âYou know I would never do anything to you that you didnât ask for,â he huffs, and for a second you think heâs going to be sweet with you and give you what you so desperately want but wonât say. But he goes on. Leaning over your body and caging you in between his arms. He presses his hips against your clothed pussy and you can feel his hard cock underneath his jeans.
âIâll give you everything you want. And Iâll do it so good and so goddamn hard that youâll be begging to come. And maybe Iâll let youâŠâ he leans in closer and you can feel his hot breath against your ear. âAll you have to doâŠâ
Yes?
ââŠis be a good girlâŠâ
Yes? AnythingâŠ
ââŠand apologize.â
Fire burns itâs way throughout your whole body. You press into his groin and he pushes back but itâs not enough. You crave at least the tiniest bit of friction between your legs and heâs right there, ready to give it to you.
The apology is on the tip of your tongue and you almost let it fly out. But honestly⊠you kind of like this little game. Thereâs something so devious about not immediately giving into his demands thatâs so fucking erotic. And youâre curious to see what heâll do to you if you donât comply.
âBite me,â you mew.
Joel sighs a deep breath through his nose like the air in his lungs is hot steam and you smile to yourself. Loving how much you have an effect on him. And you kind of get the feeling he was hoping you would say that.
He stands up on his feet and you can feel his eyes peer down to you, no doubt taking in how disheveled you look right now. Suddenly his hands come down on your hips, gripping them hard and pulling you to the edge of the bed and you gasp. Equally scared and aroused. His hands come up to your ass, grabbing and pinching the flesh before his mouth comes in to bite it hard.
Fuck, you didnât think heâd literally bite you, but ok.
He sucks on the skin to soothe the sting and the ache between your legs is unbearable. When his mouth leaves, itâs quickly replaced with a hard smack and your whole body jolts up. Joel chuckles to himself and you can only imagine the dirty little grin on his face right now. You feel his fingers dip underneath the little band of your panties and gently tug.
âLook at you. Soaking wet for me and Iâve barely touched you,â he huffs.
He slowly tugs the thin fabric again and again. Deliberately rubbing your clit with your own panties. You moan helplessly into the mattress and your thighs start to tremble. His pace is steady and calculated. And in less than a minute of that amazing friction, you can feel your orgasm begin to crest.
âYou want more?â His voice is dripping with lust and you can feel yourself getting close. When you hum âyesâ, he groans low in his throat. Giving you another tight smack on your ass and making you yelp.
âUse your words,â he demands. His smile is heard clear in his tone.
âY-yes,â you gasp.
His pace quickens, teasing your throbbing clit deliciously while your body starts to burn from the inside out. Your moans and whimpers echo in the room while he works magic on you. And you can feel your warm slick juices slowly drip down your inner thighs.
Itâs so fucking close. Itâs right there. Just a little more.
âNot yet.â
He stops completely. Even going as far as unhooking his fingers from the fabric. You groan loudly with impatience. Your hips blindly search for his hands, trying to chase the feeling again.
No. Shit shit shit. Please, you were right there!
âI know, baby,â he sympathizes, tracing his fingers up your inner thigh where heâs made a mess. âYou were breathing so hard just now. I know you wanna come so bad. But you know what you gotta do.â
âPleaseâŠ,â you whimper, so fucking lost in your own heat. Everythingâs burning, aching. You need him.
âPlease what?â His palm smooths over your right ass cheek. Slowly caressing and kneading the plump flesh.
ââŠFuck me⊠please.â
He hums at your request. His hands leave you entirely and after a couple seconds you hear the sound of his jeans being undone. He mumbles a few low curses under his breath. Suddenly, he yanks the panties to the side and you feel something warm and stiff press against your pussy. You gasp, almost scared of what he has planned for you. But fuck, do you want it.
âYou look so good like this.â His hand holds on to the belt binding your hands. Pulling your arms and arching your back so he can push you further against his cock. He slides back and forth between your lips, coating himself with your arousal and making you writhe. You wish you could see it. What does he look like right now? What kind of expression is he wearing?
Fitting the tip to your entrance, one hand takes hold of the belt while the other grips your hip. And in one long push, he feeds you his cock. Sinking into you until the root of him meets your entrance. You flutter around him. Gasping his name as he stretches you out.
âOh, GodâŠ,â
âFuck, youâre so tight⊠Holy shit,â he groans, almost losing his composure entirely. He feels so perfect. So fucking hot and hard inside you. But you need him to move. Itâs almost unbearable to keep waiting.
He pulls back leisurely, then with one quick motion, his hips snap forward. Slamming back into you and eliciting a guttural moan from both of you. He does it again, and again, until his pace becomes steady and unrelenting.
Your eyes roll back closed and you're pretty sure you start to drool on the sheets. You completely give in to him. The sounds youâre making roll out of you without any control and the curses under your breath are barely coherent. All while Joel loses himself inside you. Huffing your name and groaning at the fucking pleasure heâs taking from you.
The pressure starts building again. This time deeper and more intense than just on your clit. He fucks into that perfect spot inside you with each hard thrust and youâre not sure how much longer your going to last. Your breathing becomes more shallow, your moans choke your throat, and the throbbing inside your pussy is at its highest. This is it. Youâre gonna come. Just one more thrust andâŠ
He pulls out completely. Panting like he just ran a mile and leaning his hand on the bed for support.
âUh-uh. Brats donât get to come,â he pants.
âWhat the fuck?!â You cry out for him because now this is just plain mean. Your eyes start to well with tears, so frustrated with this game. Itâs honestly the hottest sex youâve had with him so far, but youâre both too fucking stubborn and itâs starting to piss you off.
The next second, youâre being pulled back off the bed by your binds. Forced to stand on weak, trembling legs as Joel presses his bare chest to your back. Your only support. His free hand snakes up your tank top to take a breast in his hand. Squeezing and pinching, making you whine for more.
âSay it,â he growls in your ear.
His words burn you from the inside out. And you donât want to give in. But you just donât have it in you anymore to resist. That damn stubbornness of yours crumbles at his feet and you just fucking want him.
âSay it,â he repeats, tugging tighter at your binds.
âI-Iâm sorry,â you breathe out. Blowing away the stray hair sticking to your damp face.
âSorry for what?â He pinches your nipple harder, making you gasp at the delicious pain.
âIâm sorry, ah⊠Iâm sorry I teased you last night.â
âAnd?â
âAnd⊠for coming without you⊠Iâm sorry.â
His lips spread into a smile against the skin of your neck. And you almost miss it, maybe he thought it wasnât noticeable. But as he exhales a deep breath, you catch the small, devious little laugh riding on it.
âI accept your apology,â he taunts low in your ear.
âYou gonna untie me now?â
âFuck no.â
Before you can protest him, Joel forcefully shoves you down face first back on the bed. And you know heâs done holding back. He rains down on you and youâre all too eager to welcome him. With one hand, he presses down on your shoulders. With the other, he lifts your ass up. And in one swift plunge, he thrusts hard back inside you with no mercy.
You cry out for more. Your body, trembling under his hands as he starts at a fast and rough pace. Heâs all hard muscle and wild grunts as he fucks you into the bed. Savage and unrelenting. Everything you love about him.
âAtta girl, fucking take it,â he pants behind you.
You cry out for more and Joel is more than happy to give it to you. Pounding your poor little cunt the way he sees fit, no holding back. It doesnât take long for that wave of pleasure to rise again. Each deep thrust hits perfectly against your core. He teases you against that edge and youâre dying to let yourself fall.
âJoel! Joel, please,â you pant in heat.
âYou wanna come, sweetheart?â
âYes! Donât stop, please donât stop!â
âThen fucking come for me,â he groans. Taking your hips in his hands, he revs at full throttle. Your breathing is erratic, your thighs shake, and finally he allows you to reach that blissful tipping point. Your whole body trembles as the orgasm wracks through your body.
Joel fucks you through it, not far behind you as his pace becomes fast and shallow. His moans are feral and his fingers dig into the flesh of your hips as he reaches his own tipping point.
âFuckâŠ,â he groans. âFuck! Ah!â
He chokes and lets out a wild noise as he drives himself deep inside your cunt. Spilling into you and losing himself in the moment. His hips rock against you hard, until his pace eventually slows to a stop and heâs utterly spent. And the only sounds that echo in the room is the heavy breathing of your mutual satisfaction.
Your body is absolutely done. When Joel slowly takes his belt off your wrists, thereâs nothing to keep your arms from falling limp on either side of you. Gently, he flips you into your back and you finally get to see him. Not angry, not with his walls up. Just the man youâve come to love. His cheeks are flushed, and a layer of sweat coats his hot skin. His bare chest heaves as he catches his breath. And he just stands there, drinking you in as you lay on the bed thoroughly fucked.
When he leans over you, you donât waste a second to connect his lips to yours. You both savor each other as if itâs been months instead of hours. It occurs to you that itâs the first time youâve kissed since he left last night, which makes it all the more sweeter. As he separates, a smile spreads on his face, making you do the same.
âSee,â he breathes against your lips. âThat wasnât so hard, was it?â
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summary: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
tags/warnings: dual pov, no use of y/n cuz ew, alcohol consumption, mentions of medicine/contraceptives, a very tiny mention of being chased/hunted down, hella chemistry, fluff, language, jealousy, sexual tension, yearning, dirty talk, heavy makeout, biting, fingering, clit play, cunnilingus, breast play, slight choking kink, piv unprotected sex, praise kink, breeding kink, cream pie, helmet off, dark room sensory focused.
authorâs note: listen listen LISTEN... I know, it's been a hot minute đ„Č Life happened and all that jazz. Tbh this has been in my drafts for a while but I decided to finish it now that the movie is out so this is probably canon divergent at this point lol. But when I tell you I ran away writing this, bitch I raaaan. To everyone who wondered what happened to that bottle of liquor in s3, this is for you pookiesđ«”đ»đââïž
**update** this fic is now on AO3! It's my first work on there at the moment but feel free to drop some love đâš
When you decided to make Nevarro your home, you expected it to be a rough place. A far off den of thieves, bounty hunters, and a sleazy connection to the old empire. Nonetheless, it was cheap so you convinced yourself you could put up with it. It wasnât anything new to you. Plus, at the time, you really didnât have anywhere else to go.Â
Thankfully, the reputation has drastically improved over the past few years. Itâs not Naboo, but thereâs a sort of gritty charm to it. Rebels became marshals. Bars became schools. Thieves became honest vendors. Hell, thereâs even kaf shops here now.
Youâre no stranger to drastic changes in this galaxy. Youâve beared witness to the rise and fall of an empire after all.
But receiving a bottle of wine at night from a notorious ex-bounty hunter is definitely a first for you.
âYouâre⊠giving this to me,â you ask, dragging the question out.
The Mandalorian stands at your doorstep. Unreadable beneath hard shiny metal and illuminated only by the entry light of your home above your door. The chilly night air bites your cheeks but he stands unfazed.
âAs a thank you,â he explains. âYou were a big help to my kid and this was the only thing I had that seemed like something youâd enjoy.â
All you did was give his little green kid some medicine. Itâs not like it was even your first interaction with the infamous hunter. Heâs stopped by your apothecary a couple times. Passing by so swiftly you hardly even knew he was there if it wasnât for the lingering stares from other customers. If you recall correctly, he only ever picks up supplies to replenish a med pack or bacta spray for wounds.
Until you suddenly found him at your doorstep the other night with his adorable little green baby in his arms. The poor little guy was running a fever, coughing up a storm, and had even refused food for over a day. Any parent would be frantic. And so you didnât even think twice to let them inside.
Luckily your small shop is attached below your home, so you were quick to find the right tinctures for his illness. The Mandalorian paced circles in your kitchen as you administered the medicine and blotted his kidâs little forehead with a cool damp cloth. It took some time and a lot of reassurance to a very nervous father, but after a few hours the fever broke.
You sent them home with some herbal tinctures and even some homemade hard medicinal candies for stubborn coughs and that was it. Hardly any words were exchanged between you that night that didnât pertain to the child. Only a heartfelt thank you, goodnight, and a promise to pay you back somehow. You assured him that it really wasnât necessary, that you were glad to help.
Youâve admittedly always been curious about the man. With his stoic demeanor and a reputation that preceded him like lightening preceded thunder. Heâs somewhat of a local legend, menace, and hero all wrapped up in one. And now heâs at your door. With booze. Definitely a man of his word, this guy.
âYouâre giving this,â you repeat with astonishment. âThis whole bottle, to me?â
âYes,â he answers again. âIs it a special one or something?â
âThis is Andoan wine,â you emphasize, holding out the clear glass bottle. âYou can only find these on Coruscant now. Very delicious, very rare, very expensive.â
âIs it,â he asks nonchalantly. âIâve never tried it before. But I hope you enjoy it.â
âYou really donât have to,â you tell him.
âI insist. I didnât know the first thing to do so I appreciate your help.â
You chuckle. With your limited interactions, youâre starting to see that heâs short and to the point with his words. Almost like heâs not entirely used to speaking with people.
âIâŠâ You nearly argue it again but decide against it. He really didnât have to give you such a lavish gift for something any good person would do in a situation like that. It was only natural. But at this point, refusing him might come off as rude soâŠ
âThank you very much.â
The Mandalorian acknowledges your gratitude with a tilt of his helmet, then turns on his heels to leave without another word. And for some reason, you linger at the door. You watch him go down one step, then another, then-
âH-hey, Mando?â
Your sudden call stops him in his tracks on the stair case and he turns to look back over his shoulder. The dim light gleaming over his steel.
âYes?â
âIâŠ. w-wellâŠâ
Youâre stammering. Just come out and say it.
âIf youâve never tried it⊠would you like to share it with me?â
He stands there silently looking at you and the awkwardness crawls your skin.
âIâm not busy at the moment and itâs not really in my culture to drink alone.â
Culture your ass. You just want to drink with him. Itâs unclear why in particular but⊠youâre curious about him. Other than the company of his kid, he seems alone. You wonder if he prefers it that way or if itâs for another reason entirely. Either way, the offer was worth a shot.
Thereâs more silence and the only noise in the air comes from the gentle chirp of some lava crickets and the breeze brushing the trees in the street. And itâs in that moment that regret starts to burn in your stomach
Heâs gonna say no. A pause like that doesnât necessarily mean yes. But it would be rude not to offer, right? A bottle this nice doesnât come by these parts and itâd be a shame to drink it alone. Itâs reasonable to offer the gesture. After all, he went out of his way to come here from across town. Itâs the least you can do to show your appreciation in return.
âAlright.â
The word that falls out of him so effortlessly hits you like a punch to the chest. Are you nervous? Absolutely. But how many people can say they shared a drink with the Mandalorian?
A few minutes later, you find yourself standing on your tip toes, grabbing a couple earthenware ceramic cups in your kitchenette cabinet while Mando stands in your living room. His helmet follows the various potted plants, momentos and knick knacks from your travels littered around your home. Even tracing his gloved fingers over some of them.
âYou have a nice home,â he says. âI didnât notice before. Very lived in.â
âLots of junk,â you joke. âYou can say it Mando, I wonât mind.â
âMy place is still new. Doesnât feel like a home just yet.â
âThatâll change over time,â you assure him. âAfter a while, your home becomes a collection of memories.â
His attention gets drawn to a particular item on your wall. Itâs an old worn down canvas satchel bag that hangs on the wall. At one point it was a life line. Now it serves as a reminder that no matter how hard life gets, showing a little kindness can go a long way for someone.
âWhatâs this memory?â
âThat? That memory is what got me here.â You smile to yourself as you wipe down the cups with a clean kitchen rag.
âA few years ago, I was on Pantora with just some spare change and the clothes on my back. I was desperate to leave so I ended up hitching a ride on a freight ship. I worked on the ship in exchange for a ride to Corellia. Their language was difficult to learn and I had a rough time getting things done because for some reason everything was written in the native language and not aurebesh. On a stop to Tattooine, I accidentally labeled a pallet of coaxium as a pallet of scrap metal. That âscrapâ was sold to some Jawas and by the time everyone realized my mistake we were already halfway to the next planet.â
âWas that before you came the Nevarro?â
âThat was the reason I came to Nevarro,â you clarify. âIt was their next stop so they dropped me here.â
âOuch.â
âYeah, ouch,â you laugh. âAnyway, I guess one of the workers felt sorry for me and left me that satchel with a couple credits and some ration bars inside. Buuut my mistake turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Nevarro turned itself around. I have my own little business. Iâm even able to save a little bit of money now. For the time being, things are comfortable. Iâve hopped around the system a lot as you can see. But⊠this is a place I can always come back to.â
âSomething reliable,â he adds.
âExactly,â you say softly, smiling at the sentiment.
You look up at him. And you didnât notice as you were cleaning those cups that heâs now completely facing towards you. His visor is trained on you. And itâs then that you realize how small your home really is. Because Mando is broad.
His crossed arms accentuate his wide shoulders. His chest plate follows the lines of his trim torso. Even those plates of beskar armor can barely hide the bulk of his biceps. Your eyes briefly, briefly take a tour at his waist line before you realize how incredibly rude youâre being.
Heâs a guest. And a customer. Donât. Check. Him. Out.
Heat starts to rise in your cheeks. Focusing back on the cups, you round the kitchen counter and walk over to him.
âIâm sorry. All this talking suddenly got deeper and I feel like I havenât really introduced myself. Weâve only ever passed by each other before,â you chuckle, shaking away the nerves.
In hindsight you shouldâve just introduced yourself the other night, but truthfully you were in care-taker-mode and it didnât occur to you at the time. Plus you didnât think youâd have an encounter with the man again other than seeing him briefly in your shop every so often. But he seems like a nice enough person with the limited knowledge you do have with him. And after tonight youâre bound to cross paths again. So you happily extend your hand out and give him his cup along with your full name.
Thereâs a couple beats of silence and youâre starting to see thatâs his default. But it doesnât stop you from second guessing your words as if youâre crossing an unknown boundary. Thereâs a slight tilt downward with his helmet and he responds with a regretful âIâm sorry, but-â
âYou donât have to tell me your name,â you immediately add. âI know thereâs⊠principles you must have. I just wanted you to know me. Thatâs all.â
Another beat passes before he finally reaches out to take the cup in his hand. He repeats your name and the way it comes out of his voice holds a whole new flavor. Soft and curious even through the warble of his vocoder. Itâs almost like heâs seeing how it tastes.
You like it. You like it a lot.
âItâs nice to meet you.â The voice wears the vocoder like a veil but you still catch a hint of a smile by his relaxed tone. No real logical way to know for certain, just a gut feeling.
âLikewise,â you smile back.
âSo,â he exhales. âYou want to know how two Mandalorians drink?â
âSure. Sounds educational,â you joke.
With a tilt of his helmet, Mando steps further into the living room area and you follow behind, cup and bottle in hand. Walking over to the couch, his gloved hand reaches for the small round pillow resting there. His smokey grey cape flows over his shoulder and for a moment youâre mesmerized by the movement. As he turns on his heel, his fingers release the pillow. Letting it fall to the thin rug with a muted poof.
âRight here.â Mando gestures to the floor and you waltz over to take a seat on the cushion, crossing your legs. It doesnât escape your notice how he doesnât grab the only pillow for himself. Opting for your comfort over his own.
He takes a minute to look around the room. Probably checking for anything reflective. Then with a swish of his cape to the side, Mando settles in the floor behind you. When his back presses against yours, you expect a wall of cold hard metal beneath the cape. But instead thereâs warmth. Strong and firm, but still warm and giving.
âItâs customary to sit on the floor when drinking with a war band. Usually outside around a fire. When itâs just two, itâs back to back.â
âAaah,â you drawl. âVery practical. I like it.â
The top of the bottle comes off with a pop and the rich scent caresses your nose like a hug. After pouring about two fingers worth into Mandoâs cup you pour one for yourself and settle in.
âAre we drinking to anything tonight ,â you ask him.
âNot sure. How aboutâŠ,â he pauses for a moment before deciding. âTo that Pantoran who gave you the satchel.â
That makes you laugh out loud. But you canât help but feel a little pleased at that. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât be on Nevarro, wouldnât have a home. And you definitely wouldnât be drinking with Mando tonight. For that youâre especially grateful.
âYou know what, yeah,â you chuckle. âTo the Pantoran.â
Mando extends his arm back to reach your cups and you meet him halfway. Letting them touch with a soft clack.
âCheers.â
âCheers.â
Thereâs an unclicking sound and you sense that heâs probably tilting his helmet back to drink. You ignore the small tinge of disappointment that he didnât take it completely off. But itâs understandable. He doesnât know you well. Even drinking like this with an outsider is probably a big deal for people of his creed. His back presses a little further against yours as he takes his first sip and you take yours.
The wine is rich and dry, and a bit smokey. But the underlying taste of tangy fruit blends well with the flavor. Going by the color, it has to have been bottled for a decades. The alcohol runs warmly down your throat and settles like smoldering ember in your stomach. Itâs like no other alcohol youâve ever tried before. Not even close.
âHoooh,â he hisses after that sharp bite of alcohol.
âYeah,â you agree knowingly. Already sensing that this bottle is getting finished tonight.
The conversations flow pretty easily after the first drink. He tells you about how his boy came into his life and how he suddenly found himself being his father. You tell him that you can only dream of having a parent like him because you never got to know yours. You half expected he would cut the interaction short and only accept one drink. But when you offer a refill, he gladly accepted which warmed you from the inside.
Admittedly you ask a few curious questions about his creed and he indulges you a bit. And he asks about how you got into medicine making. But for the most part you both stick to easier topics like current events on Nevarro, work, and food. Eventually two drinks turn into three and somehow youâve both dipped into topics like past relationships. Which is dangerous territory after drink number three.
âIt was baaad, Mando. Iâm telling you. I mean, really! Who gives two shits who makes more money than who? Or am I in the wrong here?â
âNah, definitely not,â he replies. His speech now more relaxed but a little raspy from the alcohol. âHonestly, he sounds like a little bitch if that was his main concern.â
âYeah! Like, what is it with these men and needing to feel superior in such bullshit, inconsequential ways?â
âYou seem strong willed. Weak men are intimidated by that.â
âYeah well, then every man Iâve met in this galaxy was weak,â you groan. âI mean, câmon. Am I that intimidating? Is it the yapping? Itâs probably the yapping.â
âI think someone whoâd be deterred by something that trivial doesnât sound worth a damn anyway.â
With that, you let out a deep sigh and slump against the man behind your back.
âEh, youâre probably right,â you exhale. You toss back the last little sip in your ceramic cup, savoring the flavor.
âYou know what, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Iâll just be that shop girl around the corner who throws herself into her work, makes her little remedies, and stays happily independent. I think I can live with that.â
A pause streches between you.
âYou donât sound too convincing, Shop Girl,â he teases.
âShit,â you tsk.
You both wheeze with laughter, your bodies rumbling against one another and itâs so⊠relaxing. Heâs surprisingly easy to talk to. Perhaps itâs because he doesnât say much. Or that what little he does say is said with a sincerity youâre not used to. Or youâre drunk. It could very well be that.
But in a galaxy full of deceit and unknown dangers, itâs refreshing to talk with someone as honest as him. Heâs authentic, unapologetically so.
âHey so⊠can I ask you something?â
âYouâve been asking things this whole time,â he teases.
âI know, but⊠itâs technically a helmet question. And you can tell me to fuck off if itâs too much.â
Mando hums and the rumble reverberates through your body, nesting warmly in your chest. Heâs settled comfortably against you and it makes you feel close enough to ask what you want to ask. After thinking it over he gives you permission.
âCanât wait to hear this,â he sighs with a little amusement.
You smile. To your surprise, he actually has a good sense of humor. A dry, blunt one . But humor nonetheless. You run a finger over the rim of your cup, finding a little more courage.
âMando⊠Have you ever kissed anyone before?â
Itâs a simple enough question, right? Itâs within the ballpark of the topics youâve been discussing. And youâre both adults. Itâs not like itâs inappropriateâŠRight?
Oh god, you really are drunkâŠ
Regret rises with each passing second and you wonder why you even brought it up. Itâs probably some kind of insult to his creed to ask something like that.Â
âToo much,â you broach gently.
âNo,â he says softly. âYouâre not exactly the first person to ask that. Doubt youâll be the last.â
He pauses for a moment to find the right words. Then with a heavy exhale he gives you an answer to your insanely intrusive question.
âI was pretty young when I took the creed,â he states. âTen, twelve maybe? Too young to be interested in those kinds of things. Never looked back since. To be completely honest, itâs not even something I really think about in adulthood. Never understood the hype.â
âSooo, Iâll take that as a no.â
âNo,â he breathes. âNever kissed anyone.â
Never kissed anyone? Never felt a personâs soft lips against his own or graze his skin? Does that mean he hasnât gotten to experience more than kissing? Licking? Biting? OrâŠ
Do not finish that thoughtâŠ
âHuh⊠Well, thatâs a shame,â you say without thinking, quickly adding â-but at the same time, I completely understand it too! I mean, it shows a lot of self discipline, you know? To resist that kind of⊠temptation. Most people donât have any reason to be disciplined enough to stay chaste. I can admire tha-"
âI said Iâve never kissed anyone, I didnât say I never fucked.â
Thank⊠the Maker⊠youâre not face to face. Because the way your eyes bulged just now wouldâve been downright embarrassing had it been caught. He didnât just say sex or even screwing. The Mandalorian fucks. The alcohol in your blood seems to conjure a brief glimpse of what that might look like before you find enough coherence to shew it away.
ââŠoh,â you breathe out, effectively stopping your rambling. âI-I guess I just assumedâŠâ
A deep exhale blows out of his nose. He hums, seemingly entertained by the foot youâve put in your mouth. But also making the air light between you.
âWell, you assumed wrong.â
The humor in his voice settles your nerves a bit. Thankfully there isnât an awkward air at the sudden change to such a topic despite hardly knowing each other. And oddly enough, it feels easy to talk about it for that very reason.
âYouâre rather chatty when you drink, Mandalorian. I feel like Iâm learning all sorts of things about you tonight.â
âYouâre right,â he breathes. âI spoke without thinking, I apologize.â
âNo, Itâs fine. I donât mind at all. Itâs a relief to know thereâs a man under all that armor and not solid metal.â
He hums again and the noise stirs something in your chest.
âWell, even so⊠Itâs late⊠Probably best if I stop drinking.â
You look into your empty cup. Then glance over to the bottle with barely a drop left inside. Something inside you wilts. Thereâs nothing to keep him here any longerâŠ
âYeah⊠Me too.â
Youâre not sure if you wait for him to move first or if heâs waiting for you. But both of you remain still for nearly a whole minute. Silent and hesitant to end the night. As comfortable as it is, you feel Mandoâs back lean away from yours and you miss the warmth. You turn on the floor to find him standing up as he adjusts his helmet clasp and places his empty cup on the table.
âYou were right. It tasted better shared,â he admits. A satisfied smile curls your lips.
âIf you learned anything about me tonight, Mando, itâs that I am always right when it comes to liquor.â
âI appreciate the hospitality.â
âI appreciate the company.â
You place a hand on the table as an anchor in an attempt to stand up and follow him to the door. But as you try to stand straight, the room spins and your knees buckle.
Nope. Not doing that.
You sit your ass right back down on that cushion before you make an even bigger fool of yourself. Quick to respond, Mando catches your free arm. Making sure you land back down safely.
âYou ok,â he asks, concerned but with a hint of humor.
âPfft. Yeah, Iâm good. I think Iâll just stay down here for a minute,â you chuckle, running a hand through your hair and closing your eyes for a moment.
For sure youâll have a hangover tomorrow. Shit. You work tomorrow. Thereâs a couple things youâre running low on, too. Youâll have to request an order through the trading guild. Thatâll cost credits. Maybe if you get that Chiss man again you can manage a trade and he can throw in those dried flower buds for that tea that keeps getting sold out.
You know youâre already a bit dizzy. But behind closed eyes you feel like your head is swaying. Or rather⊠that itâs being moved. Something warm and firm holds your jaw up and when your eyes flutter open again youâre met face to face with dark silver.
The Mandalorian stands barely a foot in front of you. Visor fixed down on your face. Maybe the wine has made your brain slow but itâs only when you follow the path from his shoulder and down his outstretched arm that you realize whatâs holding your jaw⊠is his hand.
With a subtle pass of his thumb along your cheek you can feel warmth starting to pool in your face. Awareness pricks the hairs on the back of your neck when you realize your position. Sitting on your knees, face barely level to his waist as a wall of steel and muscle towers over you.
âYour cheeks get flushed when you drink,â he mutters.
When I drink. Suuuure.
âNow you know,â you mumble without thinking. It grants you a satisfied hum from his helmet and you feel it travel through your ears and under your skin.
âNow I knowâŠ,â he repeats.
Thereâs no movement, no words. But thereâs something thick in the air. Itâs heavy and enticing. Itâd be so easy to get wrapped up in it with any sudden movement. You look up at him through half lidded eyes and you get a gut feeling that theyâre meeting his. Youâre not sure what his are giving away. But yours have to be hinting something youâve been trying to hide all night.
With a sharp intake of air, Mando steps back and releases your face. Your head drops a little at the loss of support and it follows his direction as he walks towards the front door with quick, heavy steps. With a press of a button on the wall panel, the door panels slide open and just before he steps outside⊠he stops. Not looking back, just standing there at the edge of your home with his stand still resting on the doorway.
âDonât invite me in again.â
And then heâs gone. The door panels shut swiftly, leaving you alone and more confused than when he showed up at your door.
âŠwhat?
âą
Din wishes he could say that the first thing he thinks about when he got home that night was his sleeping kid safe in the crib. Or at the very least about how incredible that wine tasted. But after he undressed and collapsed down onto his bed half drunk, the only thought he couldnât stop thinking about as he stared at the ceiling wasâŠ
Damn⊠itâs been a while.
For the past few years, Dinâs life has flipped around a number of times. Between barely scraping by as a bounty hunter, saving an orphan kid from an imperial psychopath, losing said kid, then having him return and be by his side to reclaim the Mandalorian home-world, thereâs not much time to indulge those kinds of needs. But just because Din found himself being a busy father later in life doesnât make certain things dead.
No. Everything felt very much alive and kicking by the end of that bottle.
Behind closed eyes, his room feels like it swirls. After that wine, his body feels loose and relaxed. Something he rarely gets to experience these days. Images dance across his closed lids. Delicate, slender hands around a handmade cup. A pink flush on smooth skin. Plump tinted lips between his fingers, softly parted and begging to be touched. The intrusive impulse to dip a finger between those lips was so strong he could feel his hand move into the action before he could even think to do so.
All thanks to that one question. That simple, innocent question activated a deep part of his brain that lay dormant. And then he decided to shatter the care free atmosphere by with a crass remark about sex.
Never in his life has he regretted saying something so fast. You barely even know each other. Admittedly, Din isnât exactly a refined person, far from it actually. But after his third glass, any semblance of manners flew right out the window. His mouth did the walking with little thinking involved.
Yet, you didnât get uncomfortable. You handled the slip up with humor instead of getting offended or something just as bad. Using humor to make the air light again. It surprised him how easily you did it. How easy the conversation was all night, really. Itâs not everyday heâs able to let his guard down with another person.
Once he was aware of that, he became aware of everything. How late the hour was, how drunk you both were, and how your bed was right behind where you both sat. Only separated by a simple room divider. Even when he tipped up his helmet, there was a heady herbal scent from you that kept swimming in his nose and it was just as intoxicating as the wine. He couldnât trust himself to stay any longer. And now, in the safety of his own home, he finds himself preoccupied with a mountain of questions.
What kind of person are you? Whatâs your daily life like? What other places have you seen? What troubles you? You seem to be rooted here in Nevarro for the time being. But from what youâve mentioned about your past, you have a kind of nomadic life. What happens if he⊠if the kid gets attached and you decide to move on to another planet? But then again, itâs not like heâs not one to talk though is he?
Loyalty. Solidarity. These are things that have been etched to his core since childhood. But giving those things to something that could be fleeting? Thatâs a risk heâs avoided for most of his life. Those kinds of wounds never heal.
But as much as he tries to distance himself, itâs not always in his control.
Three weeks go by and they couldnât end soon enough. When he offered to work with Teva (or Blue as he usually calls him) on a case-by-case basis, he figured theyâd be more involved than the bounty hunting trade. Heâs spent up to a month off planet at times in order to capture a quarry so itâs not exactly new to him.
But that was when he had the Razor Crest. With a cot to rest in, a weapons locker, and supplies readily at hand. In that regard, the N-1 leaves much to be desired. Plus Dinâs back isnât what it used to be and long rides in that ship are killer. And to add insult to injury, this last case with Zeb was especially complicated to resolve. It left him and the kid completely drained.
After finally landing back in Nevarro with fresh credits, there is absolutely nothing Din wants more than to just go home, bathe, and sleep for at least a day. But heâs got a very hungry green mouth to feed and thereâs no way Din is fixing up any dinner tonight.
Street food it is.
âAlright, weâre making this quick. In and out. Iâll get you as much food as you want and you can pick out one sweet. Not five. One. Got that?â Grogu tilts his head at Din curiously from where he follows behind on the cobblestone street and heâll just take that as a yes.
Dozens of food stalls are gathered at the main square in town as he approaches. Adorned with all sorts of neon signs, string lights and colorful banners. Itâs a busy atmosphere filled with people laughing, vendors calling out for customers to stop by, and sounds of clanking and sizzling as they cook.
Din gravitates towards the skewers stand. He knows Grogu is going to down ten of them by himself so he opts for something easy, filling, and cheap. He catches sight of those spicy chunks of fatty meat searing over lava coals and his mouth waters.
âOkay, which onesss-â
Din reaches down to pick up his son only to find the street bricks.
â-Sssshhhhit,â he hisses under his breath, glancing around. This fucking kid. He knows better than to run off.
The crowd is thick and itâs getting dark. He scans through the sea of people and vendors but doesnât find that familiar pale green.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
With a tap of his helmet side panel he switches to the tracking beacon screen. After enough scares like these heâs learned to have a tracker sewn into his clothes at this point.
Blinking red arrows come into his view and he follows the path. Not caring whose shoulders he budges or what food he knocks out of someoneâs grip to get through. The red arrows turn yellow. Heâs getting close but thereâs still no visual of the kid and heâs starting to panic. He pushes through, scanning side to side and calling out his name in an orchestra of noises without reply.
Yellow turns to green and heâs still out of sight. Heâs tiny and easy to miss. Grogu could be anywhere, he could be in any one of these stalls. What if heâs taken? What if someone else is tracking him? He could be picked up by a total stranger and taken away again.
Just as that thought crosses his mind, thereâs a small separation in the crowd. Big floppy ears come into view and heâs definitely been picked up. But itâs no stranger that holds him.
âAnd here comes dad~â A voice soft as silk rings inside his helmet.
Relief floods his body as well as caution when he taps his screen clear. Only him. Situations like this only happen to him. It couldâve been Karga. It couldâve been anybody. But it had to be you that found him.
It was barely two minutes. But within those two minutes Dinâs head flooded with every worst case scenario possible. And here he is. Happily babbling in your arms like he didnât just give his dad a fucking heart attack.
âI know, I know,â you assure him like you can already tell where his headâs at, trying to speak over all the noise. âDonât be too hard on the little guy. I already gave him a bit of a lecture for running around at night.â
Din wants to. Itâs honestly his first reaction. But a cooler head prevails and he decides against it after a second thought. He reminds himself (once again) that Grogu is still young and that getting angry would only make things worse. What matters is that heâs safe and that he managed to find you.
âAt least he wonât have to hear it twice,â he exhales, pushing out the stress sitting in his lungs. âSorry about him.â
âNo, no sorry needed. Heâs smarter than he lets on. At least he ran to someone he knew. Iâm glad I was around.â
Din opens his mouth to speak but ends up falling short with his words. Now that some of the stress has left his body, his eyes take you in at a second glance. Unclouded by the adrenaline.
Your hair is tied up with a pin with a few loose pieces falling at the nape of your neck and around your face. With the heat persisting into the night, you decided to wear a thin strap tank top that hangs low on your chest. It exposes miles of smooth skin, from your shoulders all the way down the arms wrapped around his kid. A dusty blue apron wraps around your waist over some baggy cargo pants so you mustâve came here right after work. Thereâs a glow from all the neon lights that adorns you and he has to will his mouth to move before he gets caught staring.
âHere.â He extends his hands to you. âI can take him back. Thank you for catching him. Câmon, bud. Let her get back to shopping.â
âItâs no problem,â you assure him with a smile. Your hands hooks under Grogus tiny arms and start to pull him off your torso. âBack to dad you go.â
But the moment heâs barely lifted, he cries out in protest with a shrill whine. Refusing to leave your side. You pull him back in instantly and run a soothing hand on his back.
âOh! Okay, okay. You can stay with me for a minute,â you giggle in a sugary voice to Grogu. Bouncing him on your hip.
You both exchange a look of surprise (as much as his visor can give off anyway). What kind of person are you that Grogu prefers your embrace over his own father? He doesnât know whether to be jealous or impressed.
But itâs getting late, they need to eat and get home and you probably need to get back to your own errands. Dinâs hands extends again to take Grogu but you shake your head with a little smile. Letting him know itâs not an inconvenience to you.
âHere, wanna help me pick out some sweets?â
Grogu coos at your request, toying with the glittering silver chain pendant on your neck. You rest his kid on your hip effortlessly and the motion of it pinches something deep in Dinâs chest. Turning to the assorted trays of sugared fruits on skewers, you list the various kinds for Grogu to pick out. Talking back with him like you can actually understand his little babbles. You answer him with âooh, thatâs a good choiceâ and âthese are my favoritesâ.Â
Din just stands aside, watching the way you both interact and itâs admittedly a bit pleasing to see how natural you are with him. Most people think heâs a pet at first glance. Karga treats him like a newborn. Talking gibberish and doting on him despite him handling a 50 year old. You, on the other hand, just treat him like a regular kid. And itâs refreshing to see.
His sonâs head spins back at his father with the biggest set of sparkling inky eyes and Din can see the pleading question in them. He tilts his helmet at him and reminds him âoneâ. Those large ears deflate a little and you giggle at the interaction. Din offers to pay for your skewer along with Groguâs as another thank you for looking after his son (again). The vendor gathers the treats in paper wrappers to take to go.
You turn to ask Din something, but itâs covered by the noise of yelling and cooking. He tilts his head a bit lower to try and catch what youâre saying. Then, without hesitation, your hand finds purchase on the pauldron on his shoulder. Prompting him to lean in closer to you so you can speak within earshot.
âItâs been a minute since I saw you last,â you remark with a raised voice. âEverything good?â
Shit.
For a second he freezes. Partly at the lack of distance between you, but mostly because the last time he saw you he stormed out of your place like it was on fire without so much as a goodnight. Youâre probably wondering what the hell that was about and he honestly canât answer that himself. Although your expression seems more cheerful than troubled. He crouches closer to your ears and replies with caution, hoping to avoid the direction of that conversation.
âYeah, weâve been um⊠traveling a lot lately. I get contracted by the new republic pretty often these days. Leaving him behind with someone whenever Iâm off planet for too long doesnât seem fair to him so heâs always by my side no matter what.â
âAh, that makes sense. You usually stop by for medkit supplies so when I didnât see you last week I figured you were away.â
Din mentally smacks his forehead. Right. Of course you meant the shop. Because what else would you be implying to a fucking customer? Youâre just making small talk. Something he has never really gotten the hang of. Seems pretty damn easy when heâs drinking thoughâŠ
âWe actually just got back. Too tired to fix something up so I figured Iâd grab us something quick and easy before heading home.â
âUgh. I feel that. When I get home Iâm crashing on the first soft surface I see,â you groan, still bouncing Grogu on the curve of your hip. Those hipsâŠ
No. Stop it.
âBusy day,â he asks and your eyes roll upwards.
âBusy week,â you exclaim. âI swear I think about quitting at least once a day. But I like it too much. Plus itâs the only thing Iâm any good at. Otherwise Iâd probably be some kind of criminal.â You pause then laugh at the thought before adding, âthen youâd probably have to hunt me down, huh?â
That⊠is a scenario that he already knows is going to stick in his brain for a while. Itâs such an enticing thought that he doesnât bother to tell you heâs not in that business anymore. A tiny part of him would much rather have you think heâd chase you. Obviously youâre not serious, but he canât help but lean into the joke.
âI donât know,â he says unconvinced. âMight be pretty easy to find you. All I have to do is look wherever thereâs street food.â
A laugh bubbles out of you and thereâs a strange feeling that radiates in his chest at being able to make you laugh. Pride maybe? No, more like⊠satisfaction.
âDonât underestimate me, Mando. I know my way around the outer rim. Iâd make you work for it,â you say. Taunting him with a knowing smirk.
A smile tugs higher on his hidden face. The thought of you making him work for anything will no doubt be food for thought later. And instinct tells him that mightâve been your intention. But two can play at this game.
Youâre already nearly face to face but he inches even closer, almost close enough for metal to meet skin. Ensuring you catch every word right into your ear.
âIâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.â
Your eyes grow a little wider at the sound of your nickname and he takes pleasure at just how effective it is. Itâs another reminder of that night. A name that was spoken within an intimate atmosphere that only the two of you occupied. And by your expression, that same thought crosses your mind too.
You bite your bottom lip in a smile. The same lips that were between his hands. The only lips he canât seem to forget. The shape, the color, and how fucking edible they look. Heâs even noticed how they pout a little when youâre concentrated on a task. More questions surface.
What do they feel like? What do they taste like? What makes a kiss so good that everyone can recall their first?
The bubble created is suddenly burst by the outside world. The stall vendor gleefully hands over the candied fruit over the counter in their wrappers and you take them with your free hand. Handing the mixed one to Grogu because he couldnât decide on just one flavor. Reality returns to Dinâs head and his thoughts immediately sober up.
What the hell is he doing?
He tears his eyes away. Even if you canât tell, looking at you like that for too long feels wrong. Youâre a good person, youâre trying to live a normal life, and what youâve told him youâre not looking to get involved in any drama. He has to keep reminding himself of those things.
That same instinct to leave hits him again. Because that urge to do something he canât take back flares up again and itâs best to not give that feeling any more energy. For both your sakes. He gestures his hand in a hand-him-over motion, signaling to you and Grogu that itâs time to go.
âAlright, time to go kid. Say goodnight.â
Grogu whines with a mouthful of sweets and a face covered in sugar and it makes him chuckle to himself. Din would normally find the defiance a little cute, if it wasnât for the stunt he pulled earlier. You carefully hand him over with both arms leaning in close and again he feels another pinch in his chest at how carefully you exchange him.
Your bare arms graze against his clothed ones and he pulls away the second he has hold of his kid. He ignores the small current of electricity from the contact and maneuvers Grogu into the crossbody bag to his hip. Which, of course, makes him protest.
âNope. You had your chance. Now you get the bag.â
âAw câmon,â you scold âHe was just playing around. Now heâs in bag jail?â
First the kid and now you? He can tell his son no, but it might be a little harder to tell you that.
âYeah, yeah. Maybe next time heâll think twice about running off in a crowd,â he groans.
Once the kid is settled in the bag, you follow him down. Crouching down, you sit face to face with Grogu as he stuffs his face with the candied fruit. Resting your free hand on his fuzzy head as the other holds your own skewered treat.
âKay, little rebel. Go stuff your face with some good food. And take it easy on your poor dad, alright? Heâs not built for that kinda stress.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean,â he asks, kind of amused by your ribbing. He can count on one hand the people who are undaunted enough to make playful jabs at him.
Your lips twist and your eyes take a tour up to your brows as you think of your reply.
âHmm⊠just the way you get a little impatient sometimes. You were like that when you brought him over and paced my living room for an hour,â you chuckle. âYou seem like the kind of man who gets antsy when somethingâs not in your control.â
A smile threatens to crawl his face. Pretty presumptuous. But he canât deny how true that statement rings. Especially nowadays when itâs not just himself he has to worry about.
âMaybe so,â he replies with a hint of humor in his voice. âPatience isnât really my strong suit. Although this one seems to enjoy testing it.â
âPatience is bitter,â you muse as you rub the top of Groguâs head with your thumb. He coos with delight and the softest gaze glows on your face. Then from your crouched position, your eyes glance back up at Din and add, ââŠBut the fruit is sweet.â
His jaw flexes beneath his helmet, and heat now courses through his veins.
That canât be a good sign. He already enjoys your banter too much as it is. But that look just now was dangerous. It dredges up thoughts he shouldnât have about you. Thoughts like kissing someone he barely knows. Feeling skin on skin. Showing you what a man like him can do to you compared to the boys of your past.
He saw it all over your pretty face when he held it in his hand. That flush on your cheeks, your dilated pupils. Hell, he even saw your heat signature rising in his helmet screen for fuck sake. Thereâs an attraction and thatâs fine (and not completely unreciprocated) but it canât be anything more than that.
You and him live completely different lives. Thereâs no need to uproot your peace and get involved in his complicated affairs. Even if something happened, it wouldnât be long before the allure of the suit and mystery people usually perceive of Mandalorians would turn into repulsion.
Thatâs how itâs gone before. Thatâs the way it is.
âą
Youâre a bad person. A horrible human being and a shameless lowlife. Downright beyond saving.
Iâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.
The damn sentence wonât stop replaying in your head. Itâs not just a nickname. Itâs a nickname he gave you. One thatâs covered in underlying context and memories that only the two of you share. One that peppers your skin with goosebumps when it comes out of that raspy modulated voice. Itâs even worse when your brain starts intrusively placing it in all sorts of sentences.
Thatâs it, Shop GirlâŠ
Youâre doing so well, Shop GirlâŠ
Bend over for me, Shop GirlâŠ
That last one has crawled into your dreams more often than youâd care to admit lately.
You need to get a grip. Itâs just an attraction. Youâve been alone for too long and youâre getting all wound up over a smidge of attention. Heâs just a regular decent person with a kid to take care of who also just happens to have an amazingly muscular body and a voice of sin. Simple as that.
Right. Simple.
After that night at the food stalls, the Mandalorian and Grogu have been visiting your humble Clinic Shop on a more frequently. Usually you'll see them a couple times a week if they're not on one of their long haul trips. Missions? Jobs?
It's not like Mando has any reason to let you know ahead of time. But when a week or so passes with no sign of silver or green, you can't help but feel a little down. You've come to look forward to seeing your regulars. But they grown to being your favorite customers.
And if you're being honest, theres a growing part of you that feels tied to the man in silver beskar. When he's here, the part blossoms. And when he's gone, it feels... wilted. It's unexpected and confusing to say the least. The closest feeling you could label it is homesickness. And truthfully, you're not really sure if you want to feel such a heavy thing towards anybody right now.
There's a lull in the store this hot muggy afternoon. You've already finished your prescription orders, restocked your shelves, even watered all the potted plants outside the entrance. Since you finally have some down time, you figured you might as well get to making some of your popular tea mixes.
On the back counter, you have a variety of dried herbs, flower buds, tea leaves, and a few large mixing bowls. The scent in the shop is incredible right now. Swirling around on the wind propelled by the metal fans around the shop. Spiced and aromatic with a hint of fruitiness. You let the smell fill your lungs and relax your body as you place measured scoops of the mix into small paper bags. A bead of sweat tracks down the back of your neck. Even with pinning your hair up and the strapless wrap you chose to wear today, the heat of the day still clings to your damp skin.
A cool glass of that Andoan wine would be so good right about now...
Maybe it was instinct, or maybe there really is some kind of invisible tie. But something makes your head tilt to the side and glance at the open entrance. And it's then that a glint of sliver light reflects on the stucco walls. A flutter of anticipation strikes through your chest and your eyes are locked at the entrance. Then, that familiar Silver T-visor and a pair of floppy green ears peek around the corner.
The smile that spreads across your cheeks is so big it almost hurts.
"Hey," you exclaim from the back of the store. You leave your station and excitedly make your way across the store to the pair as they step inside.
âItâs been a whi-â
âAh ah, sorry," you cut Mando off mid greeting, halting him with your pointer finger. "Grogu gets first dibs.â
Mando shakes his head but you can tell he's humored. Turning his hip to the side and giving you access to the canvas crossbody where Grogu resides.
âEven though I'm a regular customer," Mando retorts.
If you didnât know any better, youâd think that sounded a teensy bit like jealousy. You smirk, giving eyes only to the little green baby.
âNot when youâre as cute as him.â You say, placing Grogu on your hip and giving him little scritches on his wrinkled head.
âIsnât that right, Kid. Mando wishes he could be half as cute as you.â The child coos at you and Mando shakes his head. But you can tell by his body language that he's at least a little amused.
You walk back to the back counter with the kid in your arms and Mando in tow behind you. And the feeling you have in this moment is oddly... domestic? You're not entirely sure if that's the right word. In your life you've never experienced domesticity. But you figure it's similar to that homesick feeling you get.
You place Grogu on top of your station and pull out an herbal lollipop from your apron for him. You like to keep a few handy for kids and they also help with coughs. The kids inky eyes gleam as he babbles and plunges the sugary candy in his mouth.Â
"Any chance that delivery for those new Pharmakits arrived yet," Mando asks, leaning a hand on the counter next to you.
"They did," you nod. "Any chance you're planning on taking on an army on your next trip?"
He shrugs, tilting his helmet to the side in that way he does when he's being aloof.
"Doesn't hurt to keep one on hand. You never know."
You hum in acknowledgment but inside a pit forms in your stomach. The danger he faces whenever he goes on these "jobs" isn't lost on you. Lately, it's been on the back of your mind more often than not. On his last visit, when he asked about ordering stronger meds and triage supplies, it hit you just how much his long absences affect you. And just the thought of never seeing him or his little boy again stirs up something vile inside.
âYou seem to be busy today,â he remarks, pointing out all the open jars and mixing bowls with various dried leaves and herbs.
His remark takes you out of your thoughts. You must've been silent a second too long for him to change the subject like that. With a deep inhale and slight embarrassment you shrug off the negative thoughts and ground yourself back to reality.
âYes and no. Iâve been restocking while itâs dead to keep busy.â
He leans in a bit to get a closer look at the contents of the bowl. Close enough for you to catch the scent of smoke and musk on his clothes.
âYouâre mixing⊠tea?â
You hum a yes and nod.
âTea can be used for lots of medicinal purposes. Many people prefer natural remedies to pharmaceutical ones. I try to have a mix of both.â
âSo this is medicine?â You sway your head to the side, trying to think of the best way to explain the purpose of the tea.
âKiiind of. You could say itâs preventative.â
âWhat does it prevent?â
âPregnancy.â
A clearing of his throat follows your answer. You turn toward him with a smirk and a raised brow but his visor has now turned away your face.
Most fearsome bounty hunter in the outer rim, everybody.
âYou asked, man,â you chuckle with a shrug.
âGuess thatâs on me,â he says.
âThis is actually one of my best sellers,â you tell him. You grab the wooden scoop and raise up the floral mix, letting the various petals and herbs rain back down into the bowl. The motion makes the sweet scent drive up in the air. âI have customers tell me they donât leave the house before their daily brew.â
âIâm glad business is going well for you,â he deflects, making you fold your smile in your teeth. And suddenly your brain sees a prime opportunity.
âYou know, MandoâŠ,â you drawl as you mix the petals. âIf youâre ever in a pinch and you need some, I could give you a sample.â The way his helmet jerks to face you almost breaks your nonchalant smile.
âThatâs um⊠very generous but itâd be wasted on me.â His body straightens stiffly and you can tell the topic makes him a bit uneasy. But you press on anyway.
âYou sure? You can never be too safe. Iâm sure any visitors would appreciate it.â He sighs deeply and turns away, shaking his head in annoyance.
God, this is too much fun. Teasing him is so easy. If it wasnât for the helmet you bet heâs sweating right now. He might look cool and collected. But after drinking with him, you know thereâs in fact a man under all that metal.
âIâm sure,â Mando confirms. âI'm not seeing anyone at the moment.â
And thereâs the answer youâre looking for.
Was it a bit sneaky? Yeah. Yeah, it was sneaky. But it rules out the theory that reason he told you not to invite home again was because heâs currently taken. Itâs still an enigma as to why. But honestly thereâs still the gut feeling that you did something to make him uncomfortable that night.
Maybe you crossed a line with one of your questions. You tend to ask a lot of questions. Your filter also isnât everybodyâs flavor. Even so, you had a great time talking, even joking around with him. Youâve come to cherish that night in your memory. And the thought that you obliviously mightâve said something to offend Mando in any way makes your chest ache.
But if that was the case then why has he been stopping by your store more frequently since then? He always says heâs restocking his med kit but you get the feeling thereâs more to it than that. Almost as if heâs checking up on you. Making sure youâre doing ok. And above all, thatâs what scares you.
Itâs scares you how good that thought makes you feel.
âPicking up an order!â An unfriendly voice bellows from the entrance where a Trandoshan man in fine robes stands waiting. âNameâs Samir Tâar.â
It takes a second to snap back into action. But you slap on your best customer service smile and leave your task for later. Rounding the corner past Mando and the kid and walking to the Medicine Cabinet. Wiping the non-existent dust on your hands on your waist apron.
âHi, yes! Iâll grab that for you right now.â
The Trandoshan stands waiting at the counter as you sort through the assorted orders in the glass case. Looking for the right name tag and plucking the tied linen bag. You dont turn your eyes toward him, but Mandoâs pressance is all your body is aware of. You can tell heâs miandering through the shop, looking at various items on the shelves. Which, to you, is a bit funny since hes been here plenty of times by now.
Is he playing the curious customer right now because thereâs someone here?
You rest the tied bag next to the register as you run the total. All while the Trandoshan taps his clawed fingers impatiently on the check out counter.
ââKay with the compounded medicine and the herbal soak salts, that puts you at⊠fifteen credits today.â
âIt was twelve the last time.â
âYyyeesss, some of the ingredients for the meds were hard to come by this time around. Outer rim shipping routes, and all that,â you smile, trying to humorously reason with the man.
âAnd thatâs supposed to be my fault? Just make it the same price as before and Iâll be on my way already.â
Ugh, great. One of those.
âI understand where youâre coming from, really. But fifteen is pretty fair considering the initial cost of acquiring ingredients of this high quality. Canât beat the price compared to those New Republic clinics-"
âNonononono," he waves with both hands in disapproval. âIâm not paying a single credit more for something I can make myself.â
Thatâs kind of the point of it buying here, right? To save yourself the trouble of making it?
âSorry. Price is firm," you say confidently but kindly. "Buuut, how about if I throw in a couple sample heating pain patches. Free of charge,â you chirp, unfazed by his condescension.
Work with me, guy. Thereâs a man packing heat in the backâŠ
âHow about I give you ten for the order and leave? I donât need you to peddle your-â
Itâs a hand that shuts him up. Not yours, as much as it twitches to swipe that bag and toss in it the trash. No. This hand is big. Leather clad. And planted firmly on the counter between you and the customer.
âYou can pay the fifteen or you can leave. But what you wonât do,â Mando leans in towards the Trandoshan for effect. â-is talk to her like that again. Make your choice.â
With his chest pressed to the back of your shoulder, you struggle to not squirm. You can feel his heat on your body. His frame eclipses yours from behind. The smell of gun smoke and musk caresses your nose and you die a little inside. But itâs his words that make you want to melt into a puddle.
He didnât just ask, he demanded for you to be treated with respect. Not that you canât hold your own when it comes to defending yourself against snarky customers. But the way Mando didnât even hesitate to intervene on your behalf. It stirs up all sorts of thoughts.
Oh maker, you really are a shitty person. The man stands up for you and all you can think about is how hot he sounded.
The Trandoshan swallows hard. Mando might as well a knife to the guyâs throat with the look of silent terror on his reptilian face. Without even breaking eye contact with Mando, he stuffs his clawed hand in his pockets, and pulls about 20 credit chips without counting. Letting them clatter on the counter as he tosses them.
âH-here,â he stutters. âFifteen is fair.â With that he snatches his order from the countertop and makes a hasty exit.
âHave a nice day~,â you sing-song as he scurries out onto the street.
You shift your eyes up to Mando, his palm still pressed flat against the counter with his other hand thumbing his belt. His visor follows the customer as he leaves and you can tell that his body language doesnât relax until the heâs completely out of sight.
âFuckerâŠ,â he mutters under his breath. When he finally turns his visor to you, he finds a knowing little smirk on your face.
âWhat?â
âYou know, if you really wanted to scare him, you couldâve just pulled out your blaster.â
His visor turns away and he takes a step back as if heâs been caught doing something out of character. And if it wasnât for his confident stance, youâd almost say he got a little flustered just now.
âI didnât like the way he spoke you,â he grumbles. Which only makes you giggle.
âYouâre right,â you agree with a serious tone. Slamming your palms on the counter. âThatâs the last straw! Iâll have to close and resort to a life of crime after all!â
Although you canât read his face, his body language says it all. He tilts his head to the side in a way that can only mean âare you fucking kidding meâ and it only makes you smile harder.
âCâmooon, itâs funny,â you say. But heâs still not charmed.
âDoes he always treat you like that,â he asks like he needs to know for certain.
You fold your lips between your teeth to hide your smile. Heâs concerned for you and you canât help but bathe in it. At least for a little bit.
âAnd if I said yes?â
âIâm being serious.â
âItâs fine, Mando. Itâs really not a big deal for me. Look, if I let every snippy customer get to me, I wouldnât have a business. Iâm a big girl. I can fight for my honor all on my own, donât you worry.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âYeah? What is your point then?â
He steps in closer. Forcing you crane your neck to face him. Your backside unconsciously presses against the back of the counter and youâre pinned. Heâs impossibly close. Close enough to see your eyes reflected on the inky black screen. Knowing heâs captured your full attention, he hits you with a bombshell that devastates you.
âI wouldnât let anyone disrespect you when I can do something about it,â he says crystal clear, lowering his voice. âIf someone gives you trouble, theyâll deal with me before they mess with you... Understand?â
That shuts you right up. Your playful expression falls, now replaced with silent astonishment. He keeps saying things that reach deep inside you, making your chest tight. Words like that make it hard to breathe.
You feel utterly captured and itâs no wonder he was the best hunter in the outer rim. Because even though heâll defend your honor and call you sweet nicknames⊠all he has to do is stand his ground in front of you to make you feel like prey. And fuck, do you wanna be caughtâŠ
âOk,â you breathe when you find the courage. âI understand now.â
âGoodâŠâ
Silence streches between you and it feels as though youâre both waiting for something to happen. Something that feels like itâs been teetering on the edge since the night you drank together. Itâs connected and deep in a way youâve never experienced before. You can tell itâs something heâs afraid to say out loud.
What youâre both afraid to say out loud.
He doesnât move. Doesnât add anything to his statement. Heâs got you locked in his gaze with no escape. And for a moment you wonder if heâll take hold of your jaw again. Goosebumps rise to your skin because it wants so badly to close the gap.
Suddenly, a call rings from the vambrace on Mandoâs forearm, abruptly breaking the tension. At first he hesitates to address it, still locked onto you. But after the second ring he lets out an aggravated sigh and steps away to check the incoming call.
You walk back to your work table and mixing bowl of tea to give yourself something to do while your breathing returns to normal. Scooping a measured cup from a large jar of dried leaves before adding it in.
Grogu sits with his little feet dangling over the table, now finished with the lollipop and looking at the candy-less stick with droopy ears. And before Mando turns to look, you sneak his son another herbal lollipop from your apron.
"Don't tell your dad," you whisper, pressing your index finger over your lips. Which earns you a happy little "Batu" in understanding.
Mando is pacing around now. Conversing with a gruff sounding Lasat. You donât eavesdrop per se, but words like ânew leadâ, âinvestigationâ, and âhigh-riskâ get your ears to perk up.
âShit,â he sighs deeply once the call is done. Planting his hands on his hips.
âWork call?â
âThey like to keep me busy, thatâs for sure. Best not keep them waiting.â
âR-right! The pharmakits."
You walk towards side of your shop in the back closet where your new inventory sits in their delivery crates. Grabbing one case but then after a second thought grabbing another before turning back and handing them to Mando. When you return Grogu is already back in his father's tote still nursing his treat.
âCouple things," you disclaim, handing the cases to him. "Keep these in a dark cool place if you can. Heat can spoil some of the medicine. And if you ever find yourself needing the epibacta, Iâd advise you to take in a safe place. This dose will knock you out cold for a while. Emergencies only.â
He takes the cases by the handles and gives you a nod of understanding.
âI appreciate it. Iâll try to avoid needing it.â
âJust⊠be safe.â
âI willâŠâ
Another beat of silence. At this point it's starting to feel like you're waiting on the other person to break the ice. But after a moment, he clears his throat.
âWell... Until next time, Shop Girl.â
âUntil next time,â you repeat.
He really should stop calling you that. But you just canât bring yourself to stop him. What do even tell him if he asks why?
You turn to the holopad on the front counter and check the inventory list to give your hands something to do. Chewing your bottom lip as walks towards the exit. One step, then anotherâŠ
âAnd thank you,â you quickly add before he steps out. His foot stalls just before reaching the street and you tap on the screen pretending not to notice. Your eyes glance up to him, catching his helmet peer at you over his shoulder ââŠfor stepping in.â
âAnytime,â he says softly. He step out into the street and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. You lean on the counter with your chin propped in your palm, now free to watch them go without notice.
Grogu turns back to look at you one last time, his tiny arm fighting against the fabric of his bag before popping out and waving at you. The adorable gesture makes you giggle. The little guy must know exactly how stinking cute he is. You wiggle your fingers back at him from behind the counter. Mando takes notice of his kid, turns his head back, and finds your gaze.
For a moment, everythingâs frozen. People cross and mix in the street between you. Life seemingly goes on like any other day for everyone in town. But in your eyes, thereâs only him. Only bright silver fills your vision. After a moment, Mando raises a hand for a final farewell, and in the next, heâs gone. Blended into the crowd.
An ache spreads in your chest, and that confirms it. You canât deny that what youâve been pushing down for months isnât just an attraction. Strangers can be attracted to each other but he feels like anything but.
You like him. You like how you feel when heâs around and how safe his presence feels. You like that little skipped beat you get when something you said earns even the smallest chuckle from him. You like that he trusts you around his kid.
And you love that he keeps coming back.
Youâve tried to rationalize as just a simple customer acquaintance. But you canât keep kidding yourself. Its always felt more than that. And you want to know more about him.
At the end of the day, you roll down the metal doors of your humble apothecary and walk the same 15 steps up to your home as you do everyday. You bathe, put on your most comfy shirt and sleep shorts, make yourself a simple meal, and wind down for the night. Itâs been your routine everyday since you made this place your home.
Only tonight, despite all your trinkets, all your memories, and all your comforts, tonight your home feels a bit empty. Like something important has been removed and you canât place what it was. With your dinner bowl in hand, you almost take your seat on the couch before thinking twice on it and choosing the floor of your living room instead tonight.
You actually find it to be pretty comfortable. More grounding. You only wish you had something warm to lean back on.
âą
Din thought Guild Master Greef Karga had an inflated ego. But High Magistrate Greef Karga makes that Karga look like a Jedi monk.
He finds himself sitting on a leather chase with his legs propped on the window ledge in Kargaâs high tower office. He watches him spread and maneuver a 3D hologram model of Nevarro and the town. His voice filled with ambition as he explains all his new projects for the upcoming year.
âWeâll put the lodges here, here, and here. Theyâll have access to the hot springs in the crawling canyons and docks will be built around the water edges. Iâve spoken with that lovely Twiâlek bathhouse owner and sheâs spending her best architects to Nevarro as a personal favor to me. Itâs going to be the jewel of the rim I tell you!â
Much of the dialog goes over Dins head. Mostly because heâs dead tired and currently operating on less than four hours of sleep. They only landed a couple hours ago from another grueling mission. He partly listens to Kargaâs plans, partly watches Grogu quietly sit on the hologram table as he stuffs his mouth with blue cookies his âuncleâ has given him. But mostly, Din gazes out one of the many windows in his 360 degree office. Watching the sun set over the canyons and turn the sky a dusty pink.
The shiny bronze protocol droid shuffles around the office with a silver tray with two crystal glasses of spotchka. He offers a glowing glass to Karga who gladly takes it. Then the droid starts to approach Din with the platter, offering him a glass as well.
âUh no no, he doesnât drink,â Karga quickly corrects, taking a momentary pause from his plans. The shiny droid fumbles a bit, flustered, then offers an apology before scuttling away with the tray.
Mando doesnât even bother to correct them. Too much energy. Itâs true, heâs never accepted alcohol in front of Karga. Especially in those early guild days when trust was low. But even to this day, Din doesnât drink around people.
Well⊠most people, that is.
An image of last time Din saw you pops into his head. That thick, slightly mussed hair tied up with a hair stick. Dewy skin. All smiles and laughter. You wore a deep blue torso wrap that time, His eyes kept following the lines of your collar bones and all that exposed skin seemed to glow in the reflected sunlight in the shop.
And those lips. Those goddamn pink tinted lips that he canât get out of his head. If thatâs not the definition of beauty he doesnât know what is.
Your teasing is something heâs growing used to. But that day you pushed too far. You werenât taking him seriously and you shouldnât be the only one who gets to tease, right? When he cornered you against the counter, he made it known just how serious he was about defending you. That flush came back to your cheeks and your breathing had picked up. You had no idea, but your eyes had found his and it made heat pool in his lower abdomen as he got lost in the color of them.
In that moment, Din wrestled back the impulse to lift you up on that countertop, spread those perfect legs and-
â-Right, Mando?â Kargaâs voice interrupts just as that train of thought was getting good. Din turns his visor over to him.
âHmm?â
âYou just agreed to let the kid spend the night here.â
âRight. Yeah,â Din scoffs. âWas that before or after I sold my ship to the Jawas,â he replies in a gruff tone. Karga doesnât find the sarcasm amusing.
âAlright, alright.â
âMaybe Iâll sell them my armor while Iâm at it.â
âI get it,â he exclaims. âYou werenât even listening! I was talking about the space port proposal and I canât even tell where you clocked out. That's not like you, Mando.â
âIâm tired. I just got back from a long trip.â Kargas eyes glance between Din and the window he's been looking out from.
âI wouldnât say tired. More like⊠Distracted.â
He says the word with an insinuation Din would rather do without.
âItâs nothing,â he deflects.
âHey, you know me, Mando. Iâm not one to judge,â Karga says, throwing his hands in the air. âIf thereâs anything on your mind Iâm all ears. Money, politics, work, women-â
âThereâs nothing to discuss. Iâm fine," Din deadpans.
Kargas covers Grogus ears, who is too preoccupied by his munching to mind.
âSounds like you need to get laid.â
Maker...
âYouâre sordid,â he grumbles, shaking his head and turning back to the window. Karga just laughs. Amusement written all over his wrinkled face.
The arguments were one of the main things that changed between them over the last few years. Now they bicker like two old friends instead of two business associates. But one thing that has never changed is the way Karga tries to pressure him into revealing things out of him. Imperfectly human things.
Heâd offer Din all sorts of things like spice or Twiâlek bathhouses just to see if he was capable of being tempted. And right now⊠thereâs only one other person Din can think of capable of doing that.
âYou know what I think? I think youâre starting to outgrow this lone wolf lifestyle of yours,â he speculates. âYouâre a father now. Donât you think the little one needs a mother?â
Dins helmet swivels back to Karga.
âDonât you think you should stick to governing your town?â
âI was just getting to that," Karga exclaims excitedly. "You know we really should consider moving a few of the-â
âHere we goâŠ,â Din sighs to himself.
What shouldâve been a quick visit has turned into a one sided yap session. Itâs been a couple weeks since he left and heâs eager to re-supply for his next run with Zeb. Heâll need to head to the square at some point as well. His home is in desperate need of a re-stock. And of course, a visit to the clinic probably wouldnât be a bad idea if heâs already in the area.
Even from up here, your store can be seen at the far corner of the plaza. And every couple minutes, he can see you. Popping in and out of the small store and rearranging some of the potted plants outside. People greet you from the street and you turn to wave back.
Itâs getting harder and harder to find excuses to go there that sound necessary. Last time he was there he picked up two new pharmakits, even though another two regular medkits sit unopened in his home. Heâs been buying that energy tea you make, despite him being a kaf drinker his whole life. He keeps going back for shit he really doesnât need. But if he was pressed to give a better reason, itâs mostly because he feels a need to check on you.
True, Nevarro has become significantly safer, but that doesnât make it safe. Especially for a woman living completely on her own. Youâre a kind hearted, giving person in a galaxy that does nothing but take. And someone like that should be protected. Heâs looked the other way too many times in the past and he doesnât want to be that person anymore. And plus the kid enjoys the visits.
Sure, the kid. Keep telling yourself that, DinâŠ
A chiss man with a floating pallet of goods approaches your shop entrance and your attention turns from watering the plants to greet the vendor with a bright smile. You speak animately. And it would normally be endearing, if it wasn't directed towards another man. In the privacy of his helmet, Din grimmaces.
He shouldnât be surprised. Youâre well traveled, knowledgeable. Itâs no wonder youâre able to buy products from so many places. But this particular vendor is getting a bit too close for Dinâs comfort.
As usual, you talk with much enthusiasm. Sparking a conversation with the man. Itâs clear youâre familiar with each other by the body language you both give off. And heâs not sure if itâs because you regularly get inventory from the man, or something beyond that.
You turn around on the balls of your feet to dip back inside the shop and as you do youâre completely oblivious to the way the Chissâs head tilts to the side so his crimson eyes can roam your backside. And the only reason Din caught it was because the binocs in his visor seem to have unconsciously been turned on by his finger on his vambrace.
You return to with a small wooded box and open the lid to show him mineral salts, the kind heâs seen you make herbal soaks with. The vendor offers a large lidded glass jar of some kind of dried purple flower buds from his cart. With the added exchange of some credit chips, thereâs more talking and smiling. Something he said makes you laugh as you sign his holopad and Din has to flex his fingers to stop them from clenching into a fist.
Enough. Stop watching.
The mental check forces Dins attention to shift back to whatever Karga keeps droning on about. You can associate with whoever you damn well please. Itâs none of his concern who you do business with or what your personal life is like. Din nearly turns his visor away. But out of the furthest corner of his eye, he catches something he canât tear away from.
The distance between the Chiss and you has suddenly shrunk. The moment unfolds in slow motion as his eyes chew on every second. The Chiss steps closer to lean down thenâŠ
Dinâs arms uncross when the Chiss leans in close to your face. And before he knows it, the fucker plants a quick peck on your cheek. And you return it! The whole exchange lasts less than a second before you wave each other goodbye and he goes his separate way. You return inside with the product like nothing and Din sits there, completely rattled.
What⊠the fuck?
Was it a casual kiss? Did you even know that he was checking you out? If you did, was that a friendly goodbye gesture or was it flirtatious? That son of a bitch gets to walk around with bliss on his cheek all day now. Oddly enough, thatâs what puts Din over the edge. A complete fucking stranger knows how your lips feel and he doesnât.
Never in his life has he harbored thoughts like these. Itâs downright pathetic. He feels corrupted.
âFuck it,â he growls to himself beneath his breath.
â-Anyway, back to my point. I was considering having a port built for- hey!â
Before Karga has a chance to monologue further, Din has picked up his son from the edge of the deskâgrubby hands still clinging to the bag of cookiesâand has placed him right into Karga arms.
âI need you to watch over him for the night. Iâll come back for him in the morning.â
âOkay then? Fine by-.â Din doesnât bother to listen because thereâs no ending to that sentence that matters to him in this moment. He makes his exit, the slide doors opening as he nears them.
âHey! Where do you think youâre going all puffed up like that?â
âI need to settle something,â he tosses back before letting the doors shut behind him.
The sun is getting low and a few other vendors are starting to take down their signs and close their doors. Youâre probably getting ready to close up for the day yourself. Hopefully heâs able to catch you before then.
Each step on the cobblestone is heavy with purpose. And it's not unoticed the way several people on the street see an armor clad Mandalorian and scurry out of his way with a petrified look on their faces. But right now he doesn't particularly care. Right now everything in his head is clouded with the exception of one objective.
From a couple stores away, you catch him approaching from your peripheray. And he's not sure how to describe it, but it's like something in your body language softens when you see him. Your shoulders become less tense, your eyes gleam, and you cast him that bright toothy smile that could stop any man's heart.
âAh! Hey! Itâs been a while, Mando! Howâs-â
âI need to have a word with you.â
Both your expression and your hand freeze momentarily in place, minus a suspicious quirk in your brow.
âOkaaay, you have my attention,â you chuckle, but thereâs a nervous tone riding on it. âWhat can I do for you today?
âI need to speak with you," you tells you bluntly. "Privately.â
Confusion paints across your face and your smile falls a bit. Understanding how serious his request is.
âLike, right now,â you ask hesitantly.
âPreferably, yes,â he answers.
âOk, yeah sure. Um⊠Iâm just about to close up and we can head upstairs in a minute.â You start to turn away but then quickly turn back to him and immediately add âor we can go somewhere youâre more comfort-â
âItâs fine,â Din quickly interjects, stopping that train of thought. âThis wonât take long anyway.â
You blink at him a couple times and give him a quiet âok thenâ before turning around and preparing your shop to close.
Seems that Dinâs command from his last visit was taken seriously. Regret over those words washes over him. If heâs being honest, being inside your home again sets off several red lights in his head. But heâs already on the verge of blurting out something teetering on the edge of his brain. Better to wait until heâs behind closed doors and away from any prying eyes. Or flirtatious vendors. This shouldnât be complicated. Heâll make it quick.
He decides to wait around the corner of the shop where the stone steps meet your front door. He leans against the wall with his arms crossed and his finger nervously tapping his arm brace. After a few minutes you round the corner with your bag over your shoulder and lead the way into your home. Instinctively, he looks around for any eyes before entering and closing the door behind him.
âSo whereâs your boy,â you ask, tossing your bag on the couch and walking towards the kitchen. âI have to say Iâm kind of surprised not to see him on your hip. You seem inseparable.â
Your voice is chipper but he can tell by your stiff body and lack of eye contact that youâre not entirely comfortable. For a moment Din reconsiders this encounter. But no. The sooner he this bug out of his system the better.
âHeâs⊠spending the night with a friend,â he answers. Grabbing one of those ceramic cups from the cabinet, you fill it with water from the sink and heâs starting to think that youâre only doing that to keep your hands busy.
âAaww, a sleepover? Is it his first-â
âIf you donât mind,â he cuts off. âIâd like to get to my point.â
âOh⊠Y-yes, I'm sorry. Iâm rambling,â you say sheepishly. âIâm justâŠ,â you take a deep breath, rest the cup of water on the counter, and lean back against it. Eyes fixed to the floor.
ââŠitâs just what you said the last time you were here. And the way you approached me earlier, you seemed kinda⊠I donât know, upset? I know you donât wanna be here so Iâm wondering what I did to upset you that youâd come here.â
Damn it⊠Heâs such an asshole.
He shouldâve never said that. You've been thinking this entire time that youâre at fault for his shitty social skills. Truthfully, with the way that wine had his head so deliciously foggy, he had to leave before his body did something it was aching to do, begging him to do. But how does he even begin to explain that?
âYou didnât do anything,â he answers immediately. But thinks on it once more. âWell⊠technically you did. But Iâm not upset with you.â
âYouâre not,â you ask him sheepishly.
âIâm not,â he assures.
A beat passes in silence as you chew over his words.
âOkaaay,â you say with a smirk, ânow you really got my attention.â
That mischievous tone travels through Dinâs helmet, in his ears, and settles warmly in the pit of his stomach. Something about the combination of your sweet voice and relaxed shift in your body language makes this whole interaction even more nerve wracking.
âSooo, you wanted to talk to me about something I did?â
âRight.â
âOkay, sooo...â He feels you urging him to continue but now Din finds himself more cautious of his words now. If youâve been silently worried about offending him the last thing he needs is for this to come off wrong way.
âItâs⊠a bit hard to explain,â he exhales. If he could pinch his brow right now he would. âTo put it plainly, the night we drank together, you said something thatâs been⊠stuck in my head.â
âWas it the thing about the name?â
âN-no.â
âWas it the Pantora story?
âNo.â
âWas it the comment about knowing my liquor? Because I like a drink from time to time but I donât have like a problem or anything-â
âNo- Can I finish,â he asks impatiently.
âOkay, okay. Sorry. Go ahead.â
âWhen we were drinking, and talking⊠we said a lot of things and got into some deep conversations. And at one point, you asked me if I ever kissed anyone before. I said no back then because⊠I've never given it any thought in the past. But now itâs got me⊠curious.â
Your quirk your brow at him.
âCurious how?â
âI want to know what itâs like,â he answers plainly.
â⊠Sorry, what?â
âI need this⊠curiosity out of my head. Itâs driving me crazy and I need it out of my system. So I figured⊠since youâre the one who mentioned it in the first place, you can help me kill it.â
âYouâre⊠Okay so, hold onâŠ,â you say with a shaky breath. âAre you⊠asking me to kiss you?â
âThatâs⊠an oversimplification. But yeah.â
âYouâre asking me to be your first kiss? Am I understanding you right?â
Maker, you ask a lot of questions. Are you always like this? You did the same exact thing when he gave you the wine. On any other day it wouldâve been endearing but he didnât anticipate the conversation lasting longer than a minute. Now his request sounds more and more lecherous with each passing second.
âI wonât bother you again after this. You have my word. Itâs completely casual. Just killing a curiosity.â
âThereâs a preeetty common phrase about curiosity and loth cats that goes differently.â A giggle tumbles out of your mouth on the tail end of that sentence and humility crawls under his skin.
âSorry to waste your time.â He starts to turn towards the nearest exit when you step in to stop him. Placing a hand briefly on his arm in the space between his armor and the contact sends a current of electricity up his spine.
âNo wait, donât be like that,â you toy with him.
âIâm not laughing,â he spits. But you still have the nerve to giggle.
âItâs okay, Mando,â you laugh assuredly.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs ridiculous. I hate it. I hate that you put this in my head.â
You fold your lips between your teeth to try to hide your amusement. But you still canât help but crack a smile a little at his frustration. He basically just confessed to having this obsession for months and he can tell by your smug expression that youâre enjoying how incredibly uncomfortable he is about this.
âYouâre right. Iâm⊠sorry,â you say under your breath. Trying to fix your face.
Thereâs a beat of silence. Stepping in closer, he tilts his head down to you. Locking you in his gaze. He takes pleasure in being nearly a full head taller and the way your breathing picks up before he says in a low gruff voiceâŠ
âNo, youâre not.â
You smile behind your hand as your eyes dance across his visor, unknowingly locking eyes with the man beneath. You know youâre not sorry, just like he knows heâs not particularly sorry either. Itâs not just this moment. It goes back to every interaction youâve had together. The banter, the nicknames, the visits. Heâs as much to blame as you are. And then⊠you slowly you shake your head, agreeing with him and confirming his suspicion.
Fuck, youâre cute. He hates that he loves how cute you are. He hates himself for not being stronger.
âOk,â you nearly whisper. Looking up at him with the sweetest eyes. âIâll help you.â
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âIs all this really necessary?â
Din currently sits on the floor of your living room. The same spot as last time in fact. Your were the one that insisted on it and honestly he couldn't bring himself to tell you no. Since he sat down in the soft carpet, you've been flitting around your home turning off lamps, closing blinds, and covering any reflective items. Which, admittedly, he's greatful for. But the more time he spends here, alone with you, the more he's not going to want to leave.
âItâs not everyday you get your first kiss, Mando. I wanna make sure itâs a good one. I wish I could re-do mine.â
Gloves fingers flex and stretch restlessly on his knees as you approach the last lamp sitting on a side table in the living room and pause.
âAre you sure about this?â
Fuck no heâs not. But the sooner he does this, the sooner he can find some normalcy in his head again.
âFlip the switch," he says in a low modulated voice.
You fold in a growing smile before taking a deep breath and flicking the switch. Bathing the entire home in inky darkness. The silhouette of you through turns to hues of thermal green and red, carefully maneuvering through your living room by memory before finding your seat in the floor in front of him. And with slight hesitation, Din reaches up to remove the last barrier he has.
âCan you see anything?â
âNot a bit,â you answer.
With that confirmation, he unclasps the chin strap and slowly lifts the helmet up and off. He blinks several times to adjust his vision before finding the outline of the table and placing his helmet there. On the return, his head bumps into your outstretched hand. Not knowing that you had moved.
âAgh.â
âSorry sorry,â you pull away. âGive me a moment, Iâll find you.â
Your hands search in the dark for him. He canât see much but he can tell your hands land on nothing by the way the air between you moves and he doesnât feel any contact on his person. So he reaches out, bumping into your arms and taking hold of them. Following the line of your forearm until he reaches your hands.
âHere," he murmurs. Gloved hands wrap around your wrists and gently lift them up. He guides your hands forward untilâŠ
You let out a small gasp when your hands find the warmth of his bare face. Soft and giving as opposed to the cold, unyielding beskar. Their movements are slow and explorative. Running your thumbs over his stubble. Surprisingly his hands donât release their grasp. His leather clad digits press against the racing pulse in your wrist as his thumbs run over the back of your palm.
âThis help?â
âYes, thank you,â you whisper.
From sound of rustling on the rug, Din can sense your body leaning in. Your breath brushes over his skin for a moment before something warm presses against his chin and it takes a second to register that itâs your mouth. You ease him into the build up and heâs greatfull for it. Jaw. Then cheek. Then just grazing the furthest corner of his mouth.
And then⊠contact.
At first it doesnât feel like much. Just something soft and warm pressing against his mouth. What most people refer to as a peck, he assumes. But itâs when you barely pull back and return for another that a shiver wracks his skin. Your lips lock in the return, molding together in perfect unison. And itâs fucking electric.
Just by feel alone, he senses that your lips are slightly open. So he mimics you. Giving his jaw just enough slack to respond as you go in again. The sensations have his mind in a thick fog. The soft flesh, the sweet taste, the faint suction. His skin feels like thereâs live wires going off underneath. Giving in completely, he finally returns the kiss. Pressing into it with more confidence.
You hum against his mouth, and he dies a little inside.
Thatâs when the real hunger builds. Thereâs a slow simmering heat rising between you now. Without thinking, his hands grip your wrists a little harder. Pulling you in closer. The kiss grows a bit stronger with each return back into each other with no loss of contact. Lingering longer and breathing against one another.
He feels your head tilt more to the side and again he mimics your movement. The break only lasts a fraction of a moment. But in the re-entry, the tip of your soft tongue happens to brush his mouth. Sweet wetness coats his bottom lip and itâs in that instant Din feels all restraint leave his body.
Taking your face in his hand, he kisses you open mouthed, inviting you in. Your tongues slowly graze one another and if he fucking died in this moment heâd be ok with it knowing that he got to know how you taste.
The hunger becomes unbearable. Soon enough the breathing becomes heavier and the air becomes hot. Your arms end up wrapping over his shoulders, pulling him deeper and heâs more than happy to dive further. Another small noise escapes your throat and the vibration travels through his entire body.
He needs to feel you. To taste you. Devour you. He needs you.
A break for air is the only thing that throws him back into semi-consciousness as you pull away. The heat built up between you makes him dazed. Hot breaths fill the small space between your lips as you lean your forehead against his.
âMando?â
âYes,â he responds in a raspy whisper. A few moments pass as you collect your words and catch your breath.
âIs this really just about curiosityâŠ?â
Your words lean more towards a statement than a question. Thereâs no point in denying it now. As much as he tried to convince himself or rationalize his strange request, he does feel a pull towards you. Much more complicated than just attraction. The more he sees you, learns about you, and talks with you, the more⊠inevitable you feel to him. Thereâs a gravity to you that he canât escape from. Nor does he want to.
âYes and no.â
âWhat does that mean?â The breath of your question brushes the heated skin of his cheek. And right now, he can't think of any answer that wouldn't give him up.
So he lets it fly.
âItâs not just the kiss Iâm curious about.â
The silence in the air is thick. The only thing between you are the sounds of both of you catching your breath. Itâs possible he might have ruined everything with that one sentence. But itâs the truth. It had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with you. Your kindness, your banter, your hospitality. All of it.
Thereâs no way of telling what youâre thinking at the right now. Itâs in this moment that he wishes the lights werenât out so he can at least read your expression. But then after what seems like an eternity, your forehead nudges against his and you blow a deep sigh of relief. Arms still draped over his shoulders.
âOh good⊠I thought it was only me,â you confess with a skittish laugh.
And that tightly pulled restraint finally snaps inside him when he hears that.
Without any hesitation, he dives back in. Kissing you like a man starved. Just like that night, he feels drunk. Only this time itâs on the taste of you and the feeling of your hands finally on him. Itâs that thought that drives him to rip off his leather gloves and toss them aside without breaking contact once. His bare hands find your waist and the strip of bare skin between your shirt and linen pants.
âIs this what you meant,â you pant. âWhen you told me not to invite you in again.â
âYeah... it is.â He pants the confession as his mouth trails down the line of your jaw and finding your neck in the dark.
âThatâs a relief,â you chuckle. âI was worried I offended you.â
âThe only thing thatâs offensive is that I canât see that pretty pink flush on your face right now.â
âShould I get a blindfold,â you tease.
What a fucking woman. The mental image of you in a blindfold, only a blindfold, pours fuel on an already blazing fire. But for now, heâs more than ok feeling his way around tonight.
âNext time.â
It comes out of his mouth confidently and without hesitation. Because you both know there will be a next time. Heâs bitten into the forbidden fruit and now heâs addicted to the taste.
With a simple shift, his hands dip beneath the thin fabric of your shirt and find the delicious heat of your soft belly.
"Lay down for me."
With your arms draped over his shoulders, you eagerly comply. Slowly dragging him down with you. He careful not to press all his weight on youâbeing crushed by beskar would definitely kill the moodâbut it doesn't stop you from pulling tighter. Craving connection. All while Din rains wet kisses and soft bites upon your pulse.
So this is what your skin tastes like. Slightly salty, sweet, and smooth between his teeth. He might eat you whole if heâs not careful. He nips at the skin of your exposed collar bone and you writhe. Arching to press your chest to his. So he decides to give it some attention.
âTake it off," you pant with an neediness that drives him pull the damn shirt off in one swift motion.
His bare hand crawls up your sternum. Exploring the valley of soft skin free of any restricting fabric. The moment his fingers find the stiff peak of your bare breast he pinches eagerly. Earning the sweetest little whimpers from you as his mouth works on the other nipple. Biting and sucking the soft point. He canât see a thing in the dark, but whatâs lacking in sight is made up by sound with the delicious breathy moans you let out for him.
âMandoâŠâ
Fuck, does he love the way you call out for him. Every touch, kiss, and suck he gives elicites the most gorgeous sounds out of that perfect mouth. The sounds to straight to his cock, now painfully stiff. It's tempting to just dive into you right now. But he's waited this long. So why not take his sweet time with you. With his face still burried between your breasts and you fingers raking through his hair, Din feels a press of your hips against his armor. And he needs more.
âShop GirlâŠâ
The nickname doesnât catch your attention. Youâre either too lost in the moment or too breathless to answer. Itâs only when he uses your given name that your body perks up and you give him a raspy âyeah?â.
âDo you want this," he asks.
His right hand has found its way to the waist band of your work pants. Ready and waiting for your answer. You try to grind against his hips but he presses your hips down firmly. He knows damn well neither of you want to stop. But he needs to hear it. There's no going back after this.
"Is this ok?"
He doesn't know if you're unsure. Or if maybe your trying to meet his eyes through the darkness. But there's a long pause. Only the sounds of heavy breaths and the pulse beating hard in his ears. And every second that passes has him hanging on the edge of madness.
"Yes...," you finally breathe. "I need you."
She needs me.
The words leave him winded. Months of questions and pining suddenly feel well worth the wait just to hear those words. They not only affirm going further, but the bond that's been steadily growing between you. Not a single ounce of hesitation survives after he hears that. And with one hand, Din loosens the tie of your pants and dives in beneath the fabric of your underwear.
By feel alone, Din manages to pull your pants down to your thighs and you kick them off your feet. His hands roam over all the smooth exposed skin and he can only imagine how perfect you must look if you feel this good. The tips of his fingers finds the dampness between your legs, running along the seam, and he slowly pushes inside until his knuckles meet your entrance.
You release a soft gasp and he swallows it with a deep kiss. You both sigh into each other's mouth. As if you need the other to even breathe. Din's lips never leaves yours as he does an experimental curl against the fleshy part of your walls and you arch your body against his.
âThis where you need me," he huffs against your lips. "Right here?â
âRight there... Perfect..."
"I wanna taste you." The confession comes out before he can even think about it.
"Then taste me, Mando."
He can hear the smile in your voice. The taunt. And he's more than happy to reciprocate it.
He rises above you and you whine from the lack of contact. But the loss doesn't last long. Because before you even can register what he's doing, his head has already lowered between your legs.
"What are you- ah."
That gasp you let out when his mouth envelops your pussy is downright tortured. Good too know you were just as desperate as he was.
"Fuck! I thought you meant... You were gonna... Shit..."
No fucking way would he be satisfied tasting you on just his fingers. The sweet tangy flavor explodes over his tongue and he groans. Fucking hell, you taste good. He doesnât even know what the hell heâs doing but thatâs sure as shit not stopping him. He drowns in you. Lapping and sucking on your swollen little bud and loving the way it makes you cry out. Two thick fingers pump into your wet heat as you melt in his mouth. Such a fucking treat.
You writhe beneath him. Squirming and clawing at anything to hold on to as he works you up. Eventually your hands finds his hair again. Taking a fistful and pressing his face further against your cunt. The sting on his scalp makes his cock twitch in his flight suit and he groans.
âYou want me to make you come, Shop Girl," he mumbles against you.
âYes.â
âSay it.â
âMake me come, Mando... PleaseâŠâ
He doesn't break pace, doesn't falter, doesn't change a damn thing what he's doing because he can feel close to the edge you are. You tighten around his digits as the pump in and out. And with a firm suck on your clit you let out a strangled gasp.
"Oh Fuck! Fuck! Mando!"
Your breathing becomes short and shallow. Panting so hard right before holding your breath and tipping over the edge with a strangled cry. You come long and hard. Trembling so much he has to hold you steady by the hips.
Through the waves of your climax, Din continues to eat you. Lapping at your perfect pussy like it's wine and he doesn't waste a single drop of you. Even sucking and licking his fingers clean as you lay breathless before him. They come out of his mouth with a wet pop and he canât help but let out a small breathy laugh.
âIâve always wanted to try thatâŠâ he confesses.
You let out your own exhausted little laugh and he can already tell he wants more. More laughter, more of those pretty sounds, more of you.
It's with that in mind that Din starts pulling his cape off.
Piece by peace, he silently removes his armor. And after a few moments, a second pair of hands joins in. You fumble in the dark with his chest piece first. Helping him out of his armor one section at a time. They fall to the carpet with a soft thud along with the crumbling pieces of the restraint heâs built since that first night.
Thereâs no signs of stopping. You keep giving him more. More heat. More yearning. More questions.
What makes you laugh? What gives you pleasure? What makes you feel good and whole and satisfied? He needs to know.
And now that heâs gotten a taste, thereâs no way heâs leaving here tonight until youâve both had your fill.
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If this is what happens when you invite the Mandalorian into your home, let your door never close.
Getting to your bed was easier than you thought itâd be in pitch black darkness. The only thing keeping your âbedroomâ separate from the rest of the home is a wooden lattice divider from the ceiling to the floor.
He lays you down on the soft futon on the floor and you open for him like a flower. Two strong palms drag and paw all over your body as his mouth works magic on yours and it makes you dizzy with desire.
Maker, heâs so good with his hands.
His body separates from you only to remove his flight suit and you whine at the loss of contact. Naked and panting for him. Within seconds heâs back on top of you and the feeling of his bare skin against yours makes your head spin. With everything so dark you wonder if this is even real. Maybe this is all a fever dream.
âAre you gonna show me how Mandalorians fuck this time,â you tease against his lips. Calling back to when he showed you how they drink. With your bare legs around his hips, you tease his resolve by running your inner thighs over his sides and youâre rewarded with a low hum. The hand supporting your neck slowly drags forward to find the base of your throat.
âYou donât need to know how Mandalorians fuck.â His wide grip gently squeezes the sides of your throat, just enough for you to feel the power in those hands. âJust how I fuck.â
Holy shit. You thought him gripping your jaw was hot. But this? This mightâve awakened something you didnât even knew you wanted.
A whimper escapes you only to be muted by his mouth again. His tongue swirls with yours with a hunger youâve never knew was there these past months and itâs such a relief to know that you werenât the only one pining.
Mandoâs mouth travels to your cheek, then jaw, finally finding purchase on your neck. Biting and sucking as his body presses into yours. Heâs insatiable right now. There's no doubt that you'll find yourself covered in marks when the lights come back on.
Youâre so lost in the moment that you almost donât notice when something hard and warm presses against your inner thigh. Out of nowhere, a thought you havenât even considered before decides to pop into your head at the very last minute.
âH-hold on!â
Your hands find his shoulders, urging him to pause. His lips unlatch themselves from your neck the second you blurt it out. Instantly propping himself above you with his hands on either side of your head.
âYou want me to stop?,â he pants.
âNo⊠Hell no. Itâs justâŠâ
How do you even begin to ask this?
âUm⊠I know I probably shouldâve asked earlier but⊠youâre human, right?â
Mando blows out a low chuckle, understanding your underlying meaning. He feels human, from what your hands can tell anyway. He could be like his kid for all you know. Itâs not that youâre not willing to go Inter-species, but your experience is mainly human. Plus with the lights off itâd be pretty difficult to figure out fitting things.
Taking your hand from his shoulder, he presses it against his chest where you can feel a dusting of hair. His skin is hot, damp with a thin layer of sweat and his breathing is heavy. He continues to lead your hand further down his torso so you can feel every hill and valley of his muscles. Eventually your hand hits a trail of hair down the middle and thenâŠ
Oh shit.
His hand guides you along the length of his cock. Encouraging you to explore every ridge from the thick base all the way up to the damp tip. Heâs stiff and hot in your palm. When you give him a firm squeeze he groans and twitches in your grip.
Oh shit.
âDoes that answer your question?â
The human part, definitely. Fitting is still debatable.
He lets you handle him. Giving you free rein to tug and tease as he bucks into your hand. He groans with pleasure and the power trip you feel knowing exactly how you affect this fiercely disciplined man makes the pulse between your legs throb harder. After a minute, his hand snatches yours to a halt, making your grip around his cock tighter.
âShow me where you want it,â he demands in a gruff breath. And you do just that. Pressing the damp tip against your clit. The contact sending a jolt of pleasure up your spine.
âInside,â you plead. âI need you inside me.â
With an impatient huff, his hand comes down to take hold of your leg behind the bend of your knee. Spreading you wide and teasing your entrance before pushing himself inside. You gasp at the initial stretch, digging your nails into his shoulders. Mando curses under his breath and as he pushes you worry for a moment if thereâs an end to him.
Itâs slow, deliberate. Feeding his cock into your tight cunt until heâs pressing the limits of your walls. You shudder together when heâs completely sheathed and his hands grip your hips so hard his fingers dig into your flesh.
âMandoâŠâ You throw your head back. Arching your whole body, waiting it to adjust to him. âFuck!â
âI knew it,â he pants. âFucking knew youâd feel goodâŠâ
He splits you in half and before youâre even ready the first hard thrust hits you. You whimper from impact and he thrusts again. Pinning you down by your hips to keep you at the perfect angle. Soon he sets a steady pace as he fucks you into delirium. Itâs too much, heâs too much. Yet you moan and whine for more like each thrust might be the last. He feels incredible and you can only claw at his trim waist as it moves for you.
âThatâs it⊠Good girl⊠Taking me so well⊠I wanted this⊠I want you to know every part of me.â
His words plunge into your chest like a dagger. Laced with a meaning that goes far beyond sex. Because you feel it too. You wanted him to be closer. You wanted him to know your name, know you. Even if it took this long to get here.
You feel one hand find your leg. Hiking it up so the back of your thigh lays flat against his chest. His hand drags up and down, caressing the soft flesh without losing a beat with his thrusts. A kiss presses on your calf and your head feels like itâs spinning. One moment heâs rearranging your insides and the next heâs giving your body sweet affection.
Tension builds in your core. Growing tighter and tighter with each hard thrust. Usually the second orgasm is more elusive to chase on your own. But this man is about to push you right into the next one not five minutes after the first one.
âDonât⊠StopâŠ,â you pant. âDonât stop, Iâm so close, MandoâŠâ
âCome for me... Let me feel you."
Then it comes. Tensing your entire body before coming down like a crashing wave. Itâs spreads through every inch of your body, making you pulse and shake beneath his frame. You cry out in the midst of the euphoria, clinging to his shoulders, and everything feels so right. He moans along with you, feeling every tight pulse around his cock and letting you ride out the remaining waves.
âThatâs two now, Shop Girl. You gonna give me a third?â
You let out a breathy laugh, still coming down from the clouds.
"I... I'm not sure I can," you chuckle.
"Yeah, you will," he pants. Amusement lacing his raspy voice.
Without out warning, Mando takes both your legs. Placing your calves over his shoulders as his leans forward. Folding you in half. And with one hard thrust, his cock drives back into you at a deeper angle. Your back bows and you swear you see stars in the blackness of the room. His lips land on the corner of your mouth and kiss their way to your lips. Offering a soft apology after the roughness. His strong arms are propped around you and you feel eclipsed under his broad body.
Soon his rhythm picks up. Becoming more desperate as he chases his own release. The room fills with the sound of your bodies meeting and you don't think you've ever heard anything more perfect. His panting picks up, his moans become louder, and the quivering breaths he makes when he finds a particularly deep spot will no doubt live in your mind rent free forever.
âYou wanted me bare, didnât you,â he huffs, pressing his damp forehead to yours.. âWhen you offered me that tea? You thought about me coming inside this perfect cunt, didnât you.â
Caught red handed. Sure, you wanted to know if he had a partner as well. But the thought did cross your mind when he cornered you against the counter. You wanted to know how he felt bare, with nothing between you. Even dreamt a few times about it.
âYes⊠Fuck, yes! Please! I want it!â
âYou gonna come with me, Shop Girl? Hmm?â
âMaker, Mando! Iâm right fucking there, please! I⊠Iâm⊠ah-â
His firm hand grips your jaw. Whipping your face back to him so he can cover your mouth his. He kisses you deep, open and messy. No technique, just raw desire as he eats you alive. You moan and whimper against his mouth with each debilitating thrust he makes. He drives into you faster, harder. Relentlessly pushing you closer to the edge.
When it arrives, the orgasm hits you at full force. Wracking your whole body in convulsions as you scream, actually scream against his mouth. Your toes curl, your nails dig into his back and your cunt squeezes on to him for dear life like heâs never allowed to leave again.
Mando hisses through his teeth and he's right there with you. Ramming into you with relentless force as he chases his own release. His face dives into the crook of your shoulder and his arms scramble to take hold of you and he loses control. Letting out a sharp groan as he comes.
âFuck.. Fuck,â he shudders in your ear. âAgh!â
His hips jerk against your body, driving himself as deep as you can take him. You feel his cock throb as he pumps into you again and again. Filling you to the point of spilling out and itâs... everything. Connected in such a profound way youâve never felt before. In this moment, itâs hard to tell your bodies apart. Youâve melted and mixed and you never want to separate.
You ride it together, mold together, lose control together because you both knew itâd come to this. In the end this was inevitable. And in a galaxy filled with unknowns, in this you can be certain. A connection like this is few and far between. Itâs real and raw and rare. Resisting that feeling was never an option, so why try?
Even in the climb down he doesnât stop. Those hard demanding thrusts slow to a gentle drags as if he doesnât want to finish yet. Hands glide all over each otherâs bodies, soothing the other. All along his tense shoulders, you pepper soft kisses to his skin. Easing you both down from the clouds. He hums in the decent and it lulls you into an exhausted bliss.
Everything feels hazy and soft. Youâre not sure how long you stay melted together like this. Minutes? Hours? But itâs needed. After a while, the breathing becomes steady and a soft, drowsy satisfaction settles between you.
âThatâs the first time someone's come inside me,â you quietly confess. For a moment, Mando absorbs what you just said. Then you feel him prop himself in his elbows above you.
âReally?â
âYeahâŠ,â you breathe. Running your hands up the sides of his neck and resting them on his stubbled face.
âYou know⊠since weâre sharing firsts tonight.â
He smiles and this time youâre able to know for certain by the feel of it in your hands. Leaning down, his forehead finds yours in the dark and you donât think youâve ever felt so whole before.
âIâm your first, huh,â he breathes. âI like that.â
Thereâs so many layers to this man. Quiet and withdrawn. Rough and demanding. Soft and caring. Each one is a trait youâve come to cherish. Youâre not sure if you love this man. But youâre definitely starting to fall for him. You can explore that treasure box later though. For now, youâll take tonight for tonight and let whatever comes next between you arrive in its own good time.
âMe too, Mando...â
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18+ â«¶ SQUIRT LESSONS 101 â requested
jack abbot proves your âincapabilityâ of squirting wrong.
the moment you mention the fact of never being able to squirt to jack, heâs a bit surprised. his lips parting to utter a response, but it falls silent as he raises a hand to caress the stubble on his jawline.
ânever?â he repeats, not wanting to believe the words that just came out of your mouth because thereâs just no way thatâs true. ânever.â you say after him, averting your eyes as you feel heat trickle down your body.
âno guy has ever been able to make me squirt, and⊠i havenât been able to make myself either.â the lump on your throat thickens, and you can feel the embarrassment kicking in. âand google says thaââ
âgoogle?â abbot cuts your sentence short with a disapproving laugh, it almost sounds sarcastic. âcâmon, kid thatâs your source? half the stuff on googleâs written by a bunâcha people who donât know squat of what theyâre talking about.â he rises from his chair, throwing his chin back to ensure the faculty-lounge door is closed before making his way over towards you.
and you of all people should know better than to trust what a website such as google says â youâre a doctor in practice, you have the source right within the building youâre standing in.
you feel the distance between you and abbot close as he presses his chest against your shoulder, ducking down near your ear whispering. âseems like you donât know your own body anymore than those boys do.â he leans forward to get a read on your expression, and youâre there standing still like an embarrassed pup that doesnât know what to do which makes him smile.
âno need to feel embarrassed.â he reassures, throwing a hand on top of your head, âlet me give you hand, help you learn the difference between incapability and never having learned.â
and thatâs how you found yourself breaking your own code of ethics. splayed out on jack abbotâs mattress, hugging a pillow against your chest as his tongue worked at your pussy.
heâs on his stomach, his arms hooked underneath your thighs to pull you closer on his mouth. âjâjack âŠâ a moan falls from your lips, the way his tongue glides through your folds. how he angles the tip of his tongue to flex the muscle just before he meets your clit to flick at it.
âfocus on the feeling, you gotta relax.â he murmurs, pulling off for just a mili-second before latching back onto the sensitive nub. flattening his tongue as his rocks his mouth against you, heâs hallowing his cheeks causing you to grab at his the roots of his hair in attempt to tug him off.
though heâs swatting your hand away, digging his face deeper â in between your thighs with a low, drawn out groan as your toes curl at the anticipating increase of pleasure making your core tighten.
heâs pulling his lips away from your pussy with a wet pop, soaked and glistening by his saliva mixed with your slick â as the tightness in your tummy slowly loosens. âthat was damn, close.â jack breathes, wiping his mouth off with the backside of his hand before propping himself up in a position comfortable for his right amputee.
he reaches out, hands wrapping around your hips to drag you towards him. you donât even resist, not when your own pleasure was stripped from you â you needed anything that could bring back that euphoric feeling.
your hips grind upwards, grinding against nothing but atoms. âsee, thatâs itâ now you know what your bodyâs wantinâ.â his slides a hand from your hips to below your navel, before slowly dragging the pads of his rough fingers down near the mound of your pussy.
carefully grazing over swollen pearl as you whine to the almost there sensation. jack watches the way your body reacts to his touch â pressing his index and middle finger into your slick folds, soaking his fingers in your mess. ââs a good sign. youâre fuckinâ drenched, sweetheart .â he groans, dragging his digits further down to meet your entrance.
you claw your nails into the pillow your clutching as the tips of his fingers prod at your hole. heâs teasing, intoxicated by the way your hips are still rolling against his hand while you let out little moans as he gently presses his thick fingers inside you.
âmâmngh fuck, jackâŠâ you sighs, tilting your chin up to the ceiling, âyeah? that feels good doesnât it, kid?â he cooed, flicking his eyes up to trace your expression only to be met with one of his pillows before heâs tugging it away from your chest. âthere we goo.â he sings, glossing over sweets features with your bottom lip caught between your teeth, making him click his tongue.
âuh-uh, it feels better when you let it out.â he shakes his head, stuffing your hole with his fingers until heâs knuckles deep â angling his fingers in an upward direction that rips a moan from your throat as he curls his digits inside of you.
and the action shoots right through the nerves within your sensitive bud. âi can fâfeel it in my clit.â you stammer, brows furrowed as indescribable pressure builds against your badder and swells your nub. âmhmm, thatâs right.â he hums, pressing the pads of fingers deeper against that spongy wall inside of you, as your toes curl.
âthe g-spot, youâre jackpot, baby.â he rasps with a lopsided grin â shifting his position to lie down on his side, right besides you as his nose presses into the side of your cheek. âthe more pressure you addâŠâ he murmurs as his breath warms your skin, pressing with cruel precision that makes the place between your legs run warm.
âjâ jack.â you mewl, eyes shut tight with a hand reach at his. âthe more you get that peeing feeling.â he demonstrates, feeling your soft walls close in around his fingers.
you can feel the way your bladder fills with each nudge of his movements â like heâs milking the sensation out of you. as if heâs adding fuel to the sensitive nerves bundle inside you as your clit twitches to the repetitive motion.
âand if i press my thumb righttt against this pretty fuckinâ clit.â he groans, darting his thumb upward before pressing the pad flush against your clit. ânnnnmg-my god!â you gasp, back arching off the mattress while squeezing your thighs around his hand.
his fingers and thumb stimulating both pleasurable points at once has your mind blanking. eyes rolling to the back of your skull as youâre choking on a plethora of moans.
ââm gonna cumâ mâgonna cum, iâmââ you can feel a surge of warmth flood your nerves as you slur your words. âtheree you go, melt into that feeling for me.â he groans, as your walls choke around his digits stuffing your pussy full with his thumb working circles against your overstimulated clit.
you feel your tummy tighten, vision flash white as the sensation completely overrides your body. âcummmingg!â you inhale breathlessly, holding your breath as your clit throbs with a dangerous amount of pleasure before youâre gushing everywhere.
âatta girl.â jack whistles with satisfaction â and you canât even respond, still too busy making a mess all over yourself and jackâs arm. youâre bodyâs tenses against his chest as he continues milking you dry, letting you ride the feeling out while pressing his mouth against your ear. âgotta few more things âm sure your bodyâs never done.â he murmurs.
summary: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
tags/warnings: dual pov, no use of y/n cuz ew, alcohol consumption, mentions of medicine/contraceptives, a very tiny mention of being chased/hunted down, hella chemistry, fluff, language, jealousy, sexual tension, yearning, dirty talk, heavy makeout, biting, fingering, clit play, cunnilingus, breast play, slight choking kink, piv unprotected sex, praise kink, breeding kink, cream pie, helmet off, dark room sensory focused.
authorâs note: listen listen LISTEN... I know, it's been a hot minute đ„Č Life happened and all that jazz. Tbh this has been in my drafts for a while but I decided to finish it now that the movie is out so this is probably canon divergent at this point lol. But when I tell you I ran away writing this, bitch I raaaan. To everyone who wondered what happened to that bottle of liquor in s3, this is for you pookiesđ«”đ»đââïž
When you decided to make Nevarro your home, you expected it to be a rough place. A far off den of thieves, bounty hunters, and a sleazy connection to the old empire. Nonetheless, it was cheap so you convinced yourself you could put up with it. It wasnât anything new to you. Plus, at the time, you really didnât have anywhere else to go.Â
Thankfully, the reputation has drastically improved over the past few years. Itâs not Naboo, but thereâs a sort of gritty charm to it. Rebels became marshals. Bars became schools. Thieves became honest vendors. Hell, thereâs even kaf shops here now.
Youâre no stranger to drastic changes in this galaxy. Youâve beared witness to the rise and fall of an empire after all.
But receiving a bottle of wine at night from a notorious ex-bounty hunter is definitely a first for you.
âYouâre⊠giving this to me,â you ask, dragging the question out.
The Mandalorian stands at your doorstep. Unreadable beneath hard shiny metal and illuminated only by the entry light of your home above your door. The chilly night air bites your cheeks but he stands unfazed.
âAs a thank you,â he explains. âYou were a big help to my kid and this was the only thing I had that seemed like something youâd enjoy.â
All you did was give his little green kid some medicine. Itâs not like it was even your first interaction with the infamous hunter. Heâs stopped by your apothecary a couple times. Passing by so swiftly you hardly even knew he was there if it wasnât for the lingering stares from other customers. If you recall correctly, he only ever picks up supplies to replenish a med pack or bacta spray for wounds.
Until you suddenly found him at your doorstep the other night with his adorable little green baby in his arms. The poor little guy was running a fever, coughing up a storm, and had even refused food for over a day. Any parent would be frantic. And so you didnât even think twice to let them inside.
Luckily your small shop is attached below your home, so you were quick to find the right tinctures for his illness. The Mandalorian paced circles in your kitchen as you administered the medicine and blotted his kidâs little forehead with a cool damp cloth. It took some time and a lot of reassurance to a very nervous father, but after a few hours the fever broke.
You sent them home with some herbal tinctures and even some homemade hard medicinal candies for stubborn coughs and that was it. Hardly any words were exchanged between you that night that didnât pertain to the child. Only a heartfelt thank you, goodnight, and a promise to pay you back somehow. You assured him that it really wasnât necessary, that you were glad to help.
Youâve admittedly always been curious about the man. With his stoic demeanor and a reputation that preceded him like lightening preceded thunder. Heâs somewhat of a local legend, menace, and hero all wrapped up in one. And now heâs at your door. With booze. Definitely a man of his word, this guy.
âYouâre giving this,â you repeat with astonishment. âThis whole bottle, to me?â
âYes,â he answers again. âIs it a special one or something?â
âThis is Andoan wine,â you emphasize, holding out the clear glass bottle. âYou can only find these on Coruscant now. Very delicious, very rare, very expensive.â
âIs it,â he asks nonchalantly. âIâve never tried it before. But I hope you enjoy it.â
âYou really donât have to,â you tell him.
âI insist. I didnât know the first thing to do so I appreciate your help.â
You chuckle. With your limited interactions, youâre starting to see that heâs short and to the point with his words. Almost like heâs not entirely used to speaking with people.
âIâŠâ You nearly argue it again but decide against it. He really didnât have to give you such a lavish gift for something any good person would do in a situation like that. It was only natural. But at this point, refusing him might come off as rude soâŠ
âThank you very much.â
The Mandalorian acknowledges your gratitude with a tilt of his helmet, then turns on his heels to leave without another word. And for some reason, you linger at the door. You watch him go down one step, then another, then-
âH-hey, Mando?â
Your sudden call stops him in his tracks on the stair case and he turns to look back over his shoulder. The dim light gleaming over his steel.
âYes?â
âIâŠ. w-wellâŠâ
Youâre stammering. Just come out and say it.
âIf youâve never tried it⊠would you like to share it with me?â
He stands there silently looking at you and the awkwardness crawls your skin.
âIâm not busy at the moment and itâs not really in my culture to drink alone.â
Culture your ass. You just want to drink with him. Itâs unclear why in particular but⊠youâre curious about him. Other than the company of his kid, he seems alone. You wonder if he prefers it that way or if itâs for another reason entirely. Either way, the offer was worth a shot.
Thereâs more silence and the only noise in the air comes from the gentle chirp of some lava crickets and the breeze brushing the trees in the street. And itâs in that moment that regret starts to burn in your stomach
Heâs gonna say no. A pause like that doesnât necessarily mean yes. But it would be rude not to offer, right? A bottle this nice doesnât come by these parts and itâd be a shame to drink it alone. Itâs reasonable to offer the gesture. After all, he went out of his way to come here from across town. Itâs the least you can do to show your appreciation in return.
âAlright.â
The word that falls out of him so effortlessly hits you like a punch to the chest. Are you nervous? Absolutely. But how many people can say they shared a drink with the Mandalorian?
A few minutes later, you find yourself standing on your tip toes, grabbing a couple earthenware ceramic cups in your kitchenette cabinet while Mando stands in your living room. His helmet follows the various potted plants, momentos and knick knacks from your travels littered around your home. Even tracing his gloved fingers over some of them.
âYou have a nice home,â he says. âI didnât notice before. Very lived in.â
âLots of junk,â you joke. âYou can say it Mando, I wonât mind.â
âMy place is still new. Doesnât feel like a home just yet.â
âThatâll change over time,â you assure him. âAfter a while, your home becomes a collection of memories.â
His attention gets drawn to a particular item on your wall. Itâs an old worn down canvas satchel bag that hangs on the wall. At one point it was a life line. Now it serves as a reminder that no matter how hard life gets, showing a little kindness can go a long way for someone.
âWhatâs this memory?â
âThat? That memory is what got me here.â You smile to yourself as you wipe down the cups with a clean kitchen rag.
âA few years ago, I was on Pantora with just some spare change and the clothes on my back. I was desperate to leave so I ended up hitching a ride on a freight ship. I worked on the ship in exchange for a ride to Corellia. Their language was difficult to learn and I had a rough time getting things done because for some reason everything was written in the native language and not aurebesh. On a stop to Tattooine, I accidentally labeled a pallet of coaxium as a pallet of scrap metal. That âscrapâ was sold to some Jawas and by the time everyone realized my mistake we were already halfway to the next planet.â
âWas that before you came the Nevarro?â
âThat was the reason I came to Nevarro,â you clarify. âIt was their next stop so they dropped me here.â
âOuch.â
âYeah, ouch,â you laugh. âAnyway, I guess one of the workers felt sorry for me and left me that satchel with a couple credits and some ration bars inside. Buuut my mistake turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Nevarro turned itself around. I have my own little business. Iâm even able to save a little bit of money now. For the time being, things are comfortable. Iâve hopped around the system a lot as you can see. But⊠this is a place I can always come back to.â
âSomething reliable,â he adds.
âExactly,â you say softly, smiling at the sentiment.
You look up at him. And you didnât notice as you were cleaning those cups that heâs now completely facing towards you. His visor is trained on you. And itâs then that you realize how small your home really is. Because Mando is broad.
His crossed arms accentuate his wide shoulders. His chest plate follows the lines of his trim torso. Even those plates of beskar armor can barely hide the bulk of his biceps. Your eyes briefly, briefly take a tour at his waist line before you realize how incredibly rude youâre being.
Heâs a guest. And a customer. Donât. Check. Him. Out.
Heat starts to rise in your cheeks. Focusing back on the cups, you round the kitchen counter and walk over to him.
âIâm sorry. All this talking suddenly got deeper and I feel like I havenât really introduced myself. Weâve only ever passed by each other before,â you chuckle, shaking away the nerves.
In hindsight you shouldâve just introduced yourself the other night, but truthfully you were in care-taker-mode and it didnât occur to you at the time. Plus you didnât think youâd have an encounter with the man again other than seeing him briefly in your shop every so often. But he seems like a nice enough person with the limited knowledge you do have with him. And after tonight youâre bound to cross paths again. So you happily extend your hand out and give him his cup along with your full name.
Thereâs a couple beats of silence and youâre starting to see thatâs his default. But it doesnât stop you from second guessing your words as if youâre crossing an unknown boundary. Thereâs a slight tilt downward with his helmet and he responds with a regretful âIâm sorry, but-â
âYou donât have to tell me your name,â you immediately add. âI know thereâs⊠principles you must have. I just wanted you to know me. Thatâs all.â
Another beat passes before he finally reaches out to take the cup in his hand. He repeats your name and the way it comes out of his voice holds a whole new flavor. Soft and curious even through the warble of his vocoder. Itâs almost like heâs seeing how it tastes.
You like it. You like it a lot.
âItâs nice to meet you.â The voice wears the vocoder like a veil but you still catch a hint of a smile by his relaxed tone. No real logical way to know for certain, just a gut feeling.
âLikewise,â you smile back.
âSo,â he exhales. âYou want to know how two Mandalorians drink?â
âSure. Sounds educational,â you joke.
With a tilt of his helmet, Mando steps further into the living room area and you follow behind, cup and bottle in hand. Walking over to the couch, his gloved hand reaches for the small round pillow resting there. His smokey grey cape flows over his shoulder and for a moment youâre mesmerized by the movement. As he turns on his heel, his fingers release the pillow. Letting it fall to the thin rug with a muted poof.
âRight here.â Mando gestures to the floor and you waltz over to take a seat on the cushion, crossing your legs. It doesnât escape your notice how he doesnât grab the only pillow for himself. Opting for your comfort over his own.
He takes a minute to look around the room. Probably checking for anything reflective. Then with a swish of his cape to the side, Mando settles in the floor behind you. When his back presses against yours, you expect a wall of cold hard metal beneath the cape. But instead thereâs warmth. Strong and firm, but still warm and giving.
âItâs customary to sit on the floor when drinking with a war band. Usually outside around a fire. When itâs just two, itâs back to back.â
âAaah,â you drawl. âVery practical. I like it.â
The top of the bottle comes off with a pop and the rich scent caresses your nose like a hug. After pouring about two fingers worth into Mandoâs cup you pour one for yourself and settle in.
âAre we drinking to anything tonight ,â you ask him.
âNot sure. How aboutâŠ,â he pauses for a moment before deciding. âTo that Pantoran who gave you the satchel.â
That makes you laugh out loud. But you canât help but feel a little pleased at that. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât be on Nevarro, wouldnât have a home. And you definitely wouldnât be drinking with Mando tonight. For that youâre especially grateful.
âYou know what, yeah,â you chuckle. âTo the Pantoran.â
Mando extends his arm back to reach your cups and you meet him halfway. Letting them touch with a soft clack.
âCheers.â
âCheers.â
Thereâs an unclicking sound and you sense that heâs probably tilting his helmet back to drink. You ignore the small tinge of disappointment that he didnât take it completely off. But itâs understandable. He doesnât know you well. Even drinking like this with an outsider is probably a big deal for people of his creed. His back presses a little further against yours as he takes his first sip and you take yours.
The wine is rich and dry, and a bit smokey. But the underlying taste of tangy fruit blends well with the flavor. Going by the color, it has to have been bottled for a decades. The alcohol runs warmly down your throat and settles like smoldering ember in your stomach. Itâs like no other alcohol youâve ever tried before. Not even close.
âHoooh,â he hisses after that sharp bite of alcohol.
âYeah,â you agree knowingly. Already sensing that this bottle is getting finished tonight.
The conversations flow pretty easily after the first drink. He tells you about how his boy came into his life and how he suddenly found himself being his father. You tell him that you can only dream of having a parent like him because you never got to know yours. You half expected he would cut the interaction short and only accept one drink. But when you offer a refill, he gladly accepted which warmed you from the inside.
Admittedly you ask a few curious questions about his creed and he indulges you a bit. And he asks about how you got into medicine making. But for the most part you both stick to easier topics like current events on Nevarro, work, and food. Eventually two drinks turn into three and somehow youâve both dipped into topics like past relationships. Which is dangerous territory after drink number three.
âIt was baaad, Mando. Iâm telling you. I mean, really! Who gives two shits who makes more money than who? Or am I in the wrong here?â
âNah, definitely not,â he replies. His speech now more relaxed but a little raspy from the alcohol. âHonestly, he sounds like a little bitch if that was his main concern.â
âYeah! Like, what is it with these men and needing to feel superior in such bullshit, inconsequential ways?â
âYou seem strong willed. Weak men are intimidated by that.â
âYeah well, then every man Iâve met in this galaxy was weak,â you groan. âI mean, câmon. Am I that intimidating? Is it the yapping? Itâs probably the yapping.â
âI think someone whoâd be deterred by something that trivial doesnât sound worth a damn anyway.â
With that, you let out a deep sigh and slump against the man behind your back.
âEh, youâre probably right,â you exhale. You toss back the last little sip in your ceramic cup, savoring the flavor.
âYou know what, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Iâll just be that shop girl around the corner who throws herself into her work, makes her little remedies, and stays happily independent. I think I can live with that.â
A pause streches between you.
âYou donât sound too convincing, Shop Girl,â he teases.
âShit,â you tsk.
You both wheeze with laughter, your bodies rumbling against one another and itâs so⊠relaxing. Heâs surprisingly easy to talk to. Perhaps itâs because he doesnât say much. Or that what little he does say is said with a sincerity youâre not used to. Or youâre drunk. It could very well be that.
But in a galaxy full of deceit and unknown dangers, itâs refreshing to talk with someone as honest as him. Heâs authentic, unapologetically so.
âHey so⊠can I ask you something?â
âYouâve been asking things this whole time,â he teases.
âI know, but⊠itâs technically a helmet question. And you can tell me to fuck off if itâs too much.â
Mando hums and the rumble reverberates through your body, nesting warmly in your chest. Heâs settled comfortably against you and it makes you feel close enough to ask what you want to ask. After thinking it over he gives you permission.
âCanât wait to hear this,â he sighs with a little amusement.
You smile. To your surprise, he actually has a good sense of humor. A dry, blunt one . But humor nonetheless. You run a finger over the rim of your cup, finding a little more courage.
âMando⊠Have you ever kissed anyone before?â
Itâs a simple enough question, right? Itâs within the ballpark of the topics youâve been discussing. And youâre both adults. Itâs not like itâs inappropriateâŠRight?
Oh god, you really are drunkâŠ
Regret rises with each passing second and you wonder why you even brought it up. Itâs probably some kind of insult to his creed to ask something like that.Â
âToo much,â you broach gently.
âNo,â he says softly. âYouâre not exactly the first person to ask that. Doubt youâll be the last.â
He pauses for a moment to find the right words. Then with a heavy exhale he gives you an answer to your insanely intrusive question.
âI was pretty young when I took the creed,â he states. âTen, twelve maybe? Too young to be interested in those kinds of things. Never looked back since. To be completely honest, itâs not even something I really think about in adulthood. Never understood the hype.â
âSooo, Iâll take that as a no.â
âNo,â he breathes. âNever kissed anyone.â
Never kissed anyone? Never felt a personâs soft lips against his own or graze his skin? Does that mean he hasnât gotten to experience more than kissing? Licking? Biting? OrâŠ
Do not finish that thoughtâŠ
âHuh⊠Well, thatâs a shame,â you say without thinking, quickly adding â-but at the same time, I completely understand it too! I mean, it shows a lot of self discipline, you know? To resist that kind of⊠temptation. Most people donât have any reason to be disciplined enough to stay chaste. I can admire tha-"
âI said Iâve never kissed anyone, I didnât say I never fucked.â
Thank⊠the Maker⊠youâre not face to face. Because the way your eyes bulged just now wouldâve been downright embarrassing had it been caught. He didnât just say sex or even screwing. The Mandalorian fucks. The alcohol in your blood seems to conjure a brief glimpse of what that might look like before you find enough coherence to shew it away.
ââŠoh,â you breathe out, effectively stopping your rambling. âI-I guess I just assumedâŠâ
A deep exhale blows out of his nose. He hums, seemingly entertained by the foot youâve put in your mouth. But also making the air light between you.
âWell, you assumed wrong.â
The humor in his voice settles your nerves a bit. Thankfully there isnât an awkward air at the sudden change to such a topic despite hardly knowing each other. And oddly enough, it feels easy to talk about it for that very reason.
âYouâre rather chatty when you drink, Mandalorian. I feel like Iâm learning all sorts of things about you tonight.â
âYouâre right,â he breathes. âI spoke without thinking, I apologize.â
âNo, Itâs fine. I donât mind at all. Itâs a relief to know thereâs a man under all that armor and not solid metal.â
He hums again and the noise stirs something in your chest.
âWell, even so⊠Itâs late⊠Probably best if I stop drinking.â
You look into your empty cup. Then glance over to the bottle with barely a drop left inside. Something inside you wilts. Thereâs nothing to keep him here any longerâŠ
âYeah⊠Me too.â
Youâre not sure if you wait for him to move first or if heâs waiting for you. But both of you remain still for nearly a whole minute. Silent and hesitant to end the night. As comfortable as it is, you feel Mandoâs back lean away from yours and you miss the warmth. You turn on the floor to find him standing up as he adjusts his helmet clasp and places his empty cup on the table.
âYou were right. It tasted better shared,â he admits. A satisfied smile curls your lips.
âIf you learned anything about me tonight, Mando, itâs that I am always right when it comes to liquor.â
âI appreciate the hospitality.â
âI appreciate the company.â
You place a hand on the table as an anchor in an attempt to stand up and follow him to the door. But as you try to stand straight, the room spins and your knees buckle.
Nope. Not doing that.
You sit your ass right back down on that cushion before you make an even bigger fool of yourself. Quick to respond, Mando catches your free arm. Making sure you land back down safely.
âYou ok,â he asks, concerned but with a hint of humor.
âPfft. Yeah, Iâm good. I think Iâll just stay down here for a minute,â you chuckle, running a hand through your hair and closing your eyes for a moment.
For sure youâll have a hangover tomorrow. Shit. You work tomorrow. Thereâs a couple things youâre running low on, too. Youâll have to request an order through the trading guild. Thatâll cost credits. Maybe if you get that Chiss man again you can manage a trade and he can throw in those dried flower buds for that tea that keeps getting sold out.
You know youâre already a bit dizzy. But behind closed eyes you feel like your head is swaying. Or rather⊠that itâs being moved. Something warm and firm holds your jaw up and when your eyes flutter open again youâre met face to face with dark silver.
The Mandalorian stands barely a foot in front of you. Visor fixed down on your face. Maybe the wine has made your brain slow but itâs only when you follow the path from his shoulder and down his outstretched arm that you realize whatâs holding your jaw⊠is his hand.
With a subtle pass of his thumb along your cheek you can feel warmth starting to pool in your face. Awareness pricks the hairs on the back of your neck when you realize your position. Sitting on your knees, face barely level to his waist as a wall of steel and muscle towers over you.
âYour cheeks get flushed when you drink,â he mutters.
When I drink. Suuuure.
âNow you know,â you mumble without thinking. It grants you a satisfied hum from his helmet and you feel it travel through your ears and under your skin.
âNow I knowâŠ,â he repeats.
Thereâs no movement, no words. But thereâs something thick in the air. Itâs heavy and enticing. Itâd be so easy to get wrapped up in it with any sudden movement. You look up at him through half lidded eyes and you get a gut feeling that theyâre meeting his. Youâre not sure what his are giving away. But yours have to be hinting something youâve been trying to hide all night.
With a sharp intake of air, Mando steps back and releases your face. Your head drops a little at the loss of support and it follows his direction as he walks towards the front door with quick, heavy steps. With a press of a button on the wall panel, the door panels slide open and just before he steps outside⊠he stops. Not looking back, just standing there at the edge of your home with his stand still resting on the doorway.
âDonât invite me in again.â
And then heâs gone. The door panels shut swiftly, leaving you alone and more confused than when he showed up at your door.
âŠwhat?
âą
Din wishes he could say that the first thing he thinks about when he got home that night was his sleeping kid safe in the crib. Or at the very least about how incredible that wine tasted. But after he undressed and collapsed down onto his bed half drunk, the only thought he couldnât stop thinking about as he stared at the ceiling wasâŠ
Damn⊠itâs been a while.
For the past few years, Dinâs life has flipped around a number of times. Between barely scraping by as a bounty hunter, saving an orphan kid from an imperial psychopath, losing said kid, then having him return and be by his side to reclaim the Mandalorian home-world, thereâs not much time to indulge those kinds of needs. But just because Din found himself being a busy father later in life doesnât make certain things dead.
No. Everything felt very much alive and kicking by the end of that bottle.
Behind closed eyes, his room feels like it swirls. After that wine, his body feels loose and relaxed. Something he rarely gets to experience these days. Images dance across his closed lids. Delicate, slender hands around a handmade cup. A pink flush on smooth skin. Plump tinted lips between his fingers, softly parted and begging to be touched. The intrusive impulse to dip a finger between those lips was so strong he could feel his hand move into the action before he could even think to do so.
All thanks to that one question. That simple, innocent question activated a deep part of his brain that lay dormant. And then he decided to shatter the care free atmosphere by with a crass remark about sex.
Never in his life has he regretted saying something so fast. You barely even know each other. Admittedly, Din isnât exactly a refined person, far from it actually. But after his third glass, any semblance of manners flew right out the window. His mouth did the walking with little thinking involved.
Yet, you didnât get uncomfortable. You handled the slip up with humor instead of getting offended or something just as bad. Using humor to make the air light again. It surprised him how easily you did it. How easy the conversation was all night, really. Itâs not everyday heâs able to let his guard down with another person.
Once he was aware of that, he became aware of everything. How late the hour was, how drunk you both were, and how your bed was right behind where you both sat. Only separated by a simple room divider. Even when he tipped up his helmet, there was a heady herbal scent from you that kept swimming in his nose and it was just as intoxicating as the wine. He couldnât trust himself to stay any longer. And now, in the safety of his own home, he finds himself preoccupied with a mountain of questions.
What kind of person are you? Whatâs your daily life like? What other places have you seen? What troubles you? You seem to be rooted here in Nevarro for the time being. But from what youâve mentioned about your past, you have a kind of nomadic life. What happens if he⊠if the kid gets attached and you decide to move on to another planet? But then again, itâs not like heâs not one to talk though is he?
Loyalty. Solidarity. These are things that have been etched to his core since childhood. But giving those things to something that could be fleeting? Thatâs a risk heâs avoided for most of his life. Those kinds of wounds never heal.
But as much as he tries to distance himself, itâs not always in his control.
Three weeks go by and they couldnât end soon enough. When he offered to work with Teva (or Blue as he usually calls him) on a case-by-case basis, he figured theyâd be more involved than the bounty hunting trade. Heâs spent up to a month off planet at times in order to capture a quarry so itâs not exactly new to him.
But that was when he had the Razor Crest. With a cot to rest in, a weapons locker, and supplies readily at hand. In that regard, the N-1 leaves much to be desired. Plus Dinâs back isnât what it used to be and long rides in that ship are killer. And to add insult to injury, this last case with Zeb was especially complicated to resolve. It left him and the kid completely drained.
After finally landing back in Nevarro with fresh credits, there is absolutely nothing Din wants more than to just go home, bathe, and sleep for at least a day. But heâs got a very hungry green mouth to feed and thereâs no way Din is fixing up any dinner tonight.
Street food it is.
âAlright, weâre making this quick. In and out. Iâll get you as much food as you want and you can pick out one sweet. Not five. One. Got that?â Grogu tilts his head at Din curiously from where he follows behind on the cobblestone street and heâll just take that as a yes.
Dozens of food stalls are gathered at the main square in town as he approaches. Adorned with all sorts of neon signs, string lights and colorful banners. Itâs a busy atmosphere filled with people laughing, vendors calling out for customers to stop by, and sounds of clanking and sizzling as they cook.
Din gravitates towards the skewers stand. He knows Grogu is going to down ten of them by himself so he opts for something easy, filling, and cheap. He catches sight of those spicy chunks of fatty meat searing over lava coals and his mouth waters.
âOkay, which onesss-â
Din reaches down to pick up his son only to find the street bricks.
â-Sssshhhhit,â he hisses under his breath, glancing around. This fucking kid. He knows better than to run off.
The crowd is thick and itâs getting dark. He scans through the sea of people and vendors but doesnât find that familiar pale green.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
With a tap of his helmet side panel he switches to the tracking beacon screen. After enough scares like these heâs learned to have a tracker sewn into his clothes at this point.
Blinking red arrows come into his view and he follows the path. Not caring whose shoulders he budges or what food he knocks out of someoneâs grip to get through. The red arrows turn yellow. Heâs getting close but thereâs still no visual of the kid and heâs starting to panic. He pushes through, scanning side to side and calling out his name in an orchestra of noises without reply.
Yellow turns to green and heâs still out of sight. Heâs tiny and easy to miss. Grogu could be anywhere, he could be in any one of these stalls. What if heâs taken? What if someone else is tracking him? He could be picked up by a total stranger and taken away again.
Just as that thought crosses his mind, thereâs a small separation in the crowd. Big floppy ears come into view and heâs definitely been picked up. But itâs no stranger that holds him.
âAnd here comes dad~â A voice soft as silk rings inside his helmet.
Relief floods his body as well as caution when he taps his screen clear. Only him. Situations like this only happen to him. It couldâve been Karga. It couldâve been anybody. But it had to be you that found him.
It was barely two minutes. But within those two minutes Dinâs head flooded with every worst case scenario possible. And here he is. Happily babbling in your arms like he didnât just give his dad a fucking heart attack.
âI know, I know,â you assure him like you can already tell where his headâs at, trying to speak over all the noise. âDonât be too hard on the little guy. I already gave him a bit of a lecture for running around at night.â
Din wants to. Itâs honestly his first reaction. But a cooler head prevails and he decides against it after a second thought. He reminds himself (once again) that Grogu is still young and that getting angry would only make things worse. What matters is that heâs safe and that he managed to find you.
âAt least he wonât have to hear it twice,â he exhales, pushing out the stress sitting in his lungs. âSorry about him.â
âNo, no sorry needed. Heâs smarter than he lets on. At least he ran to someone he knew. Iâm glad I was around.â
Din opens his mouth to speak but ends up falling short with his words. Now that some of the stress has left his body, his eyes take you in at a second glance. Unclouded by the adrenaline.
Your hair is tied up with a pin with a few loose pieces falling at the nape of your neck and around your face. With the heat persisting into the night, you decided to wear a thin strap tank top that hangs low on your chest. It exposes miles of smooth skin, from your shoulders all the way down the arms wrapped around his kid. A dusty blue apron wraps around your waist over some baggy cargo pants so you mustâve came here right after work. Thereâs a glow from all the neon lights that adorns you and he has to will his mouth to move before he gets caught staring.
âHere.â He extends his hands to you. âI can take him back. Thank you for catching him. Câmon, bud. Let her get back to shopping.â
âItâs no problem,â you assure him with a smile. Your hands hooks under Grogus tiny arms and start to pull him off your torso. âBack to dad you go.â
But the moment heâs barely lifted, he cries out in protest with a shrill whine. Refusing to leave your side. You pull him back in instantly and run a soothing hand on his back.
âOh! Okay, okay. You can stay with me for a minute,â you giggle in a sugary voice to Grogu. Bouncing him on your hip.
You both exchange a look of surprise (as much as his visor can give off anyway). What kind of person are you that Grogu prefers your embrace over his own father? He doesnât know whether to be jealous or impressed.
But itâs getting late, they need to eat and get home and you probably need to get back to your own errands. Dinâs hands extends again to take Grogu but you shake your head with a little smile. Letting him know itâs not an inconvenience to you.
âHere, wanna help me pick out some sweets?â
Grogu coos at your request, toying with the glittering silver chain pendant on your neck. You rest his kid on your hip effortlessly and the motion of it pinches something deep in Dinâs chest. Turning to the assorted trays of sugared fruits on skewers, you list the various kinds for Grogu to pick out. Talking back with him like you can actually understand his little babbles. You answer him with âooh, thatâs a good choiceâ and âthese are my favoritesâ.Â
Din just stands aside, watching the way you both interact and itâs admittedly a bit pleasing to see how natural you are with him. Most people think heâs a pet at first glance. Karga treats him like a newborn. Talking gibberish and doting on him despite him handling a 50 year old. You, on the other hand, just treat him like a regular kid. And itâs refreshing to see.
His sonâs head spins back at his father with the biggest set of sparkling inky eyes and Din can see the pleading question in them. He tilts his helmet at him and reminds him âoneâ. Those large ears deflate a little and you giggle at the interaction. Din offers to pay for your skewer along with Groguâs as another thank you for looking after his son (again). The vendor gathers the treats in paper wrappers to take to go.
You turn to ask Din something, but itâs covered by the noise of yelling and cooking. He tilts his head a bit lower to try and catch what youâre saying. Then, without hesitation, your hand finds purchase on the pauldron on his shoulder. Prompting him to lean in closer to you so you can speak within earshot.
âItâs been a minute since I saw you last,â you remark with a raised voice. âEverything good?â
Shit.
For a second he freezes. Partly at the lack of distance between you, but mostly because the last time he saw you he stormed out of your place like it was on fire without so much as a goodnight. Youâre probably wondering what the hell that was about and he honestly canât answer that himself. Although your expression seems more cheerful than troubled. He crouches closer to your ears and replies with caution, hoping to avoid the direction of that conversation.
âYeah, weâve been um⊠traveling a lot lately. I get contracted by the new republic pretty often these days. Leaving him behind with someone whenever Iâm off planet for too long doesnât seem fair to him so heâs always by my side no matter what.â
âAh, that makes sense. You usually stop by for medkit supplies so when I didnât see you last week I figured you were away.â
Din mentally smacks his forehead. Right. Of course you meant the shop. Because what else would you be implying to a fucking customer? Youâre just making small talk. Something he has never really gotten the hang of. Seems pretty damn easy when heâs drinking thoughâŠ
âWe actually just got back. Too tired to fix something up so I figured Iâd grab us something quick and easy before heading home.â
âUgh. I feel that. When I get home Iâm crashing on the first soft surface I see,â you groan, still bouncing Grogu on the curve of your hip. Those hipsâŠ
No. Stop it.
âBusy day,â he asks and your eyes roll upwards.
âBusy week,â you exclaim. âI swear I think about quitting at least once a day. But I like it too much. Plus itâs the only thing Iâm any good at. Otherwise Iâd probably be some kind of criminal.â You pause then laugh at the thought before adding, âthen youâd probably have to hunt me down, huh?â
That⊠is a scenario that he already knows is going to stick in his brain for a while. Itâs such an enticing thought that he doesnât bother to tell you heâs not in that business anymore. A tiny part of him would much rather have you think heâd chase you. Obviously youâre not serious, but he canât help but lean into the joke.
âI donât know,â he says unconvinced. âMight be pretty easy to find you. All I have to do is look wherever thereâs street food.â
A laugh bubbles out of you and thereâs a strange feeling that radiates in his chest at being able to make you laugh. Pride maybe? No, more like⊠satisfaction.
âDonât underestimate me, Mando. I know my way around the outer rim. Iâd make you work for it,â you say. Taunting him with a knowing smirk.
A smile tugs higher on his hidden face. The thought of you making him work for anything will no doubt be food for thought later. And instinct tells him that mightâve been your intention. But two can play at this game.
Youâre already nearly face to face but he inches even closer, almost close enough for metal to meet skin. Ensuring you catch every word right into your ear.
âIâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.â
Your eyes grow a little wider at the sound of your nickname and he takes pleasure at just how effective it is. Itâs another reminder of that night. A name that was spoken within an intimate atmosphere that only the two of you occupied. And by your expression, that same thought crosses your mind too.
You bite your bottom lip in a smile. The same lips that were between his hands. The only lips he canât seem to forget. The shape, the color, and how fucking edible they look. Heâs even noticed how they pout a little when youâre concentrated on a task. More questions surface.
What do they feel like? What do they taste like? What makes a kiss so good that everyone can recall their first?
The bubble created is suddenly burst by the outside world. The stall vendor gleefully hands over the candied fruit over the counter in their wrappers and you take them with your free hand. Handing the mixed one to Grogu because he couldnât decide on just one flavor. Reality returns to Dinâs head and his thoughts immediately sober up.
What the hell is he doing?
He tears his eyes away. Even if you canât tell, looking at you like that for too long feels wrong. Youâre a good person, youâre trying to live a normal life, and what youâve told him youâre not looking to get involved in any drama. He has to keep reminding himself of those things.
That same instinct to leave hits him again. Because that urge to do something he canât take back flares up again and itâs best to not give that feeling any more energy. For both your sakes. He gestures his hand in a hand-him-over motion, signaling to you and Grogu that itâs time to go.
âAlright, time to go kid. Say goodnight.â
Grogu whines with a mouthful of sweets and a face covered in sugar and it makes him chuckle to himself. Din would normally find the defiance a little cute, if it wasnât for the stunt he pulled earlier. You carefully hand him over with both arms leaning in close and again he feels another pinch in his chest at how carefully you exchange him.
Your bare arms graze against his clothed ones and he pulls away the second he has hold of his kid. He ignores the small current of electricity from the contact and maneuvers Grogu into the crossbody bag to his hip. Which, of course, makes him protest.
âNope. You had your chance. Now you get the bag.â
âAw câmon,â you scold âHe was just playing around. Now heâs in bag jail?â
First the kid and now you? He can tell his son no, but it might be a little harder to tell you that.
âYeah, yeah. Maybe next time heâll think twice about running off in a crowd,â he groans.
Once the kid is settled in the bag, you follow him down. Crouching down, you sit face to face with Grogu as he stuffs his face with the candied fruit. Resting your free hand on his fuzzy head as the other holds your own skewered treat.
âKay, little rebel. Go stuff your face with some good food. And take it easy on your poor dad, alright? Heâs not built for that kinda stress.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean,â he asks, kind of amused by your ribbing. He can count on one hand the people who are undaunted enough to make playful jabs at him.
Your lips twist and your eyes take a tour up to your brows as you think of your reply.
âHmm⊠just the way you get a little impatient sometimes. You were like that when you brought him over and paced my living room for an hour,â you chuckle. âYou seem like the kind of man who gets antsy when somethingâs not in your control.â
A smile threatens to crawl his face. Pretty presumptuous. But he canât deny how true that statement rings. Especially nowadays when itâs not just himself he has to worry about.
âMaybe so,â he replies with a hint of humor in his voice. âPatience isnât really my strong suit. Although this one seems to enjoy testing it.â
âPatience is bitter,â you muse as you rub the top of Groguâs head with your thumb. He coos with delight and the softest gaze glows on your face. Then from your crouched position, your eyes glance back up at Din and add, ââŠBut the fruit is sweet.â
His jaw flexes beneath his helmet, and heat now courses through his veins.
That canât be a good sign. He already enjoys your banter too much as it is. But that look just now was dangerous. It dredges up thoughts he shouldnât have about you. Thoughts like kissing someone he barely knows. Feeling skin on skin. Showing you what a man like him can do to you compared to the boys of your past.
He saw it all over your pretty face when he held it in his hand. That flush on your cheeks, your dilated pupils. Hell, he even saw your heat signature rising in his helmet screen for fuck sake. Thereâs an attraction and thatâs fine (and not completely unreciprocated) but it canât be anything more than that.
You and him live completely different lives. Thereâs no need to uproot your peace and get involved in his complicated affairs. Even if something happened, it wouldnât be long before the allure of the suit and mystery people usually perceive of Mandalorians would turn into repulsion.
Thatâs how itâs gone before. Thatâs the way it is.
âą
Youâre a bad person. A horrible human being and a shameless lowlife. Downright beyond saving.
Iâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.
The damn sentence wonât stop replaying in your head. Itâs not just a nickname. Itâs a nickname he gave you. One thatâs covered in underlying context and memories that only the two of you share. One that peppers your skin with goosebumps when it comes out of that raspy modulated voice. Itâs even worse when your brain starts intrusively placing it in all sorts of sentences.
Thatâs it, Shop GirlâŠ
Youâre doing so well, Shop GirlâŠ
Bend over for me, Shop GirlâŠ
That last one has crawled into your dreams more often than youâd care to admit lately.
You need to get a grip. Itâs just an attraction. Youâve been alone for too long and youâre getting all wound up over a smidge of attention. Heâs just a regular decent person with a kid to take care of who also just happens to have an amazingly muscular body and a voice of sin. Simple as that.
Right. Simple.
After that night at the food stalls, the Mandalorian and Grogu have been visiting your humble Clinic Shop on a more frequently. Usually you'll see them a couple times a week if they're not on one of their long haul trips. Missions? Jobs?
It's not like Mando has any reason to let you know ahead of time. But when a week or so passes with no sign of silver or green, you can't help but feel a little down. You've come to look forward to seeing your regulars. But they grown to being your favorite customers.
And if you're being honest, theres a growing part of you that feels tied to the man in silver beskar. When he's here, the part blossoms. And when he's gone, it feels... wilted. It's unexpected and confusing to say the least. The closest feeling you could label it is homesickness. And truthfully, you're not really sure if you want to feel such a heavy thing towards anybody right now.
There's a lull in the store this hot muggy afternoon. You've already finished your prescription orders, restocked your shelves, even watered all the potted plants outside the entrance. Since you finally have some down time, you figured you might as well get to making some of your popular tea mixes.
On the back counter, you have a variety of dried herbs, flower buds, tea leaves, and a few large mixing bowls. The scent in the shop is incredible right now. Swirling around on the wind propelled by the metal fans around the shop. Spiced and aromatic with a hint of fruitiness. You let the smell fill your lungs and relax your body as you place measured scoops of the mix into small paper bags. A bead of sweat tracks down the back of your neck. Even with pinning your hair up and the strapless wrap you chose to wear today, the heat of the day still clings to your damp skin.
A cool glass of that Andoan wine would be so good right about now...
Maybe it was instinct, or maybe there really is some kind of invisible tie. But something makes your head tilt to the side and glance at the open entrance. And it's then that a glint of sliver light reflects on the stucco walls. A flutter of anticipation strikes through your chest and your eyes are locked at the entrance. Then, that familiar Silver T-visor and a pair of floppy green ears peek around the corner.
The smile that spreads across your cheeks is so big it almost hurts.
"Hey," you exclaim from the back of the store. You leave your station and excitedly make your way across the store to the pair as they step inside.
âItâs been a whi-â
âAh ah, sorry," you cut Mando off mid greeting, halting him with your pointer finger. "Grogu gets first dibs.â
Mando shakes his head but you can tell he's humored. Turning his hip to the side and giving you access to the canvas crossbody where Grogu resides.
âEven though I'm a regular customer," Mando retorts.
If you didnât know any better, youâd think that sounded a teensy bit like jealousy. You smirk, giving eyes only to the little green baby.
âNot when youâre as cute as him.â You say, placing Grogu on your hip and giving him little scritches on his wrinkled head.
âIsnât that right, Kid. Mando wishes he could be half as cute as you.â The child coos at you and Mando shakes his head. But you can tell by his body language that he's at least a little amused.
You walk back to the back counter with the kid in your arms and Mando in tow behind you. And the feeling you have in this moment is oddly... domestic? You're not entirely sure if that's the right word. In your life you've never experienced domesticity. But you figure it's similar to that homesick feeling you get.
You place Grogu on top of your station and pull out an herbal lollipop from your apron for him. You like to keep a few handy for kids and they also help with coughs. The kids inky eyes gleam as he babbles and plunges the sugary candy in his mouth.Â
"Any chance that delivery for those new Pharmakits arrived yet," Mando asks, leaning a hand on the counter next to you.
"They did," you nod. "Any chance you're planning on taking on an army on your next trip?"
He shrugs, tilting his helmet to the side in that way he does when he's being aloof.
"Doesn't hurt to keep one on hand. You never know."
You hum in acknowledgment but inside a pit forms in your stomach. The danger he faces whenever he goes on these "jobs" isn't lost on you. Lately, it's been on the back of your mind more often than not. On his last visit, when he asked about ordering stronger meds and triage supplies, it hit you just how much his long absences affect you. And just the thought of never seeing him or his little boy again stirs up something vile inside.
âYou seem to be busy today,â he remarks, pointing out all the open jars and mixing bowls with various dried leaves and herbs.
His remark takes you out of your thoughts. You must've been silent a second too long for him to change the subject like that. With a deep inhale and slight embarrassment you shrug off the negative thoughts and ground yourself back to reality.
âYes and no. Iâve been restocking while itâs dead to keep busy.â
He leans in a bit to get a closer look at the contents of the bowl. Close enough for you to catch the scent of smoke and musk on his clothes.
âYouâre mixing⊠tea?â
You hum a yes and nod.
âTea can be used for lots of medicinal purposes. Many people prefer natural remedies to pharmaceutical ones. I try to have a mix of both.â
âSo this is medicine?â You sway your head to the side, trying to think of the best way to explain the purpose of the tea.
âKiiind of. You could say itâs preventative.â
âWhat does it prevent?â
âPregnancy.â
A clearing of his throat follows your answer. You turn toward him with a smirk and a raised brow but his visor has now turned away your face.
Most fearsome bounty hunter in the outer rim, everybody.
âYou asked, man,â you chuckle with a shrug.
âGuess thatâs on me,â he says.
âThis is actually one of my best sellers,â you tell him. You grab the wooden scoop and raise up the floral mix, letting the various petals and herbs rain back down into the bowl. The motion makes the sweet scent drive up in the air. âI have customers tell me they donât leave the house before their daily brew.â
âIâm glad business is going well for you,â he deflects, making you fold your smile in your teeth. And suddenly your brain sees a prime opportunity.
âYou know, MandoâŠ,â you drawl as you mix the petals. âIf youâre ever in a pinch and you need some, I could give you a sample.â The way his helmet jerks to face you almost breaks your nonchalant smile.
âThatâs um⊠very generous but itâd be wasted on me.â His body straightens stiffly and you can tell the topic makes him a bit uneasy. But you press on anyway.
âYou sure? You can never be too safe. Iâm sure any visitors would appreciate it.â He sighs deeply and turns away, shaking his head in annoyance.
God, this is too much fun. Teasing him is so easy. If it wasnât for the helmet you bet heâs sweating right now. He might look cool and collected. But after drinking with him, you know thereâs in fact a man under all that metal.
âIâm sure,â Mando confirms. âI'm not seeing anyone at the moment.â
And thereâs the answer youâre looking for.
Was it a bit sneaky? Yeah. Yeah, it was sneaky. But it rules out the theory that reason he told you not to invite home again was because heâs currently taken. Itâs still an enigma as to why. But honestly thereâs still the gut feeling that you did something to make him uncomfortable that night.
Maybe you crossed a line with one of your questions. You tend to ask a lot of questions. Your filter also isnât everybodyâs flavor. Even so, you had a great time talking, even joking around with him. Youâve come to cherish that night in your memory. And the thought that you obliviously mightâve said something to offend Mando in any way makes your chest ache.
But if that was the case then why has he been stopping by your store more frequently since then? He always says heâs restocking his med kit but you get the feeling thereâs more to it than that. Almost as if heâs checking up on you. Making sure youâre doing ok. And above all, thatâs what scares you.
Itâs scares you how good that thought makes you feel.
âPicking up an order!â An unfriendly voice bellows from the entrance where a Trandoshan man in fine robes stands waiting. âNameâs Samir Tâar.â
It takes a second to snap back into action. But you slap on your best customer service smile and leave your task for later. Rounding the corner past Mando and the kid and walking to the Medicine Cabinet. Wiping the non-existent dust on your hands on your waist apron.
âHi, yes! Iâll grab that for you right now.â
The Trandoshan stands waiting at the counter as you sort through the assorted orders in the glass case. Looking for the right name tag and plucking the tied linen bag. You dont turn your eyes toward him, but Mandoâs pressance is all your body is aware of. You can tell heâs miandering through the shop, looking at various items on the shelves. Which, to you, is a bit funny since hes been here plenty of times by now.
Is he playing the curious customer right now because thereâs someone here?
You rest the tied bag next to the register as you run the total. All while the Trandoshan taps his clawed fingers impatiently on the check out counter.
ââKay with the compounded medicine and the herbal soak salts, that puts you at⊠fifteen credits today.â
âIt was twelve the last time.â
âYyyeesss, some of the ingredients for the meds were hard to come by this time around. Outer rim shipping routes, and all that,â you smile, trying to humorously reason with the man.
âAnd thatâs supposed to be my fault? Just make it the same price as before and Iâll be on my way already.â
Ugh, great. One of those.
âI understand where youâre coming from, really. But fifteen is pretty fair considering the initial cost of acquiring ingredients of this high quality. Canât beat the price compared to those New Republic clinics-"
âNonononono," he waves with both hands in disapproval. âIâm not paying a single credit more for something I can make myself.â
Thatâs kind of the point of it buying here, right? To save yourself the trouble of making it?
âSorry. Price is firm," you say confidently but kindly. "Buuut, how about if I throw in a couple sample heating pain patches. Free of charge,â you chirp, unfazed by his condescension.
Work with me, guy. Thereâs a man packing heat in the backâŠ
âHow about I give you ten for the order and leave? I donât need you to peddle your-â
Itâs a hand that shuts him up. Not yours, as much as it twitches to swipe that bag and toss in it the trash. No. This hand is big. Leather clad. And planted firmly on the counter between you and the customer.
âYou can pay the fifteen or you can leave. But what you wonât do,â Mando leans in towards the Trandoshan for effect. â-is talk to her like that again. Make your choice.â
With his chest pressed to the back of your shoulder, you struggle to not squirm. You can feel his heat on your body. His frame eclipses yours from behind. The smell of gun smoke and musk caresses your nose and you die a little inside. But itâs his words that make you want to melt into a puddle.
He didnât just ask, he demanded for you to be treated with respect. Not that you canât hold your own when it comes to defending yourself against snarky customers. But the way Mando didnât even hesitate to intervene on your behalf. It stirs up all sorts of thoughts.
Oh maker, you really are a shitty person. The man stands up for you and all you can think about is how hot he sounded.
The Trandoshan swallows hard. Mando might as well a knife to the guyâs throat with the look of silent terror on his reptilian face. Without even breaking eye contact with Mando, he stuffs his clawed hand in his pockets, and pulls about 20 credit chips without counting. Letting them clatter on the counter as he tosses them.
âH-here,â he stutters. âFifteen is fair.â With that he snatches his order from the countertop and makes a hasty exit.
âHave a nice day~,â you sing-song as he scurries out onto the street.
You shift your eyes up to Mando, his palm still pressed flat against the counter with his other hand thumbing his belt. His visor follows the customer as he leaves and you can tell that his body language doesnât relax until the heâs completely out of sight.
âFuckerâŠ,â he mutters under his breath. When he finally turns his visor to you, he finds a knowing little smirk on your face.
âWhat?â
âYou know, if you really wanted to scare him, you couldâve just pulled out your blaster.â
His visor turns away and he takes a step back as if heâs been caught doing something out of character. And if it wasnât for his confident stance, youâd almost say he got a little flustered just now.
âI didnât like the way he spoke you,â he grumbles. Which only makes you giggle.
âYouâre right,â you agree with a serious tone. Slamming your palms on the counter. âThatâs the last straw! Iâll have to close and resort to a life of crime after all!â
Although you canât read his face, his body language says it all. He tilts his head to the side in a way that can only mean âare you fucking kidding meâ and it only makes you smile harder.
âCâmooon, itâs funny,â you say. But heâs still not charmed.
âDoes he always treat you like that,â he asks like he needs to know for certain.
You fold your lips between your teeth to hide your smile. Heâs concerned for you and you canât help but bathe in it. At least for a little bit.
âAnd if I said yes?â
âIâm being serious.â
âItâs fine, Mando. Itâs really not a big deal for me. Look, if I let every snippy customer get to me, I wouldnât have a business. Iâm a big girl. I can fight for my honor all on my own, donât you worry.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âYeah? What is your point then?â
He steps in closer. Forcing you crane your neck to face him. Your backside unconsciously presses against the back of the counter and youâre pinned. Heâs impossibly close. Close enough to see your eyes reflected on the inky black screen. Knowing heâs captured your full attention, he hits you with a bombshell that devastates you.
âI wouldnât let anyone disrespect you when I can do something about it,â he says crystal clear, lowering his voice. âIf someone gives you trouble, theyâll deal with me before they mess with you... Understand?â
That shuts you right up. Your playful expression falls, now replaced with silent astonishment. He keeps saying things that reach deep inside you, making your chest tight. Words like that make it hard to breathe.
You feel utterly captured and itâs no wonder he was the best hunter in the outer rim. Because even though heâll defend your honor and call you sweet nicknames⊠all he has to do is stand his ground in front of you to make you feel like prey. And fuck, do you wanna be caughtâŠ
âOk,â you breathe when you find the courage. âI understand now.â
âGoodâŠâ
Silence streches between you and it feels as though youâre both waiting for something to happen. Something that feels like itâs been teetering on the edge since the night you drank together. Itâs connected and deep in a way youâve never experienced before. You can tell itâs something heâs afraid to say out loud.
What youâre both afraid to say out loud.
He doesnât move. Doesnât add anything to his statement. Heâs got you locked in his gaze with no escape. And for a moment you wonder if heâll take hold of your jaw again. Goosebumps rise to your skin because it wants so badly to close the gap.
Suddenly, a call rings from the vambrace on Mandoâs forearm, abruptly breaking the tension. At first he hesitates to address it, still locked onto you. But after the second ring he lets out an aggravated sigh and steps away to check the incoming call.
You walk back to your work table and mixing bowl of tea to give yourself something to do while your breathing returns to normal. Scooping a measured cup from a large jar of dried leaves before adding it in.
Grogu sits with his little feet dangling over the table, now finished with the lollipop and looking at the candy-less stick with droopy ears. And before Mando turns to look, you sneak his son another herbal lollipop from your apron.
"Don't tell your dad," you whisper, pressing your index finger over your lips. Which earns you a happy little "Batu" in understanding.
Mando is pacing around now. Conversing with a gruff sounding Lasat. You donât eavesdrop per se, but words like ânew leadâ, âinvestigationâ, and âhigh-riskâ get your ears to perk up.
âShit,â he sighs deeply once the call is done. Planting his hands on his hips.
âWork call?â
âThey like to keep me busy, thatâs for sure. Best not keep them waiting.â
âR-right! The pharmakits."
You walk towards side of your shop in the back closet where your new inventory sits in their delivery crates. Grabbing one case but then after a second thought grabbing another before turning back and handing them to Mando. When you return Grogu is already back in his father's tote still nursing his treat.
âCouple things," you disclaim, handing the cases to him. "Keep these in a dark cool place if you can. Heat can spoil some of the medicine. And if you ever find yourself needing the epibacta, Iâd advise you to take in a safe place. This dose will knock you out cold for a while. Emergencies only.â
He takes the cases by the handles and gives you a nod of understanding.
âI appreciate it. Iâll try to avoid needing it.â
âJust⊠be safe.â
âI willâŠâ
Another beat of silence. At this point it's starting to feel like you're waiting on the other person to break the ice. But after a moment, he clears his throat.
âWell... Until next time, Shop Girl.â
âUntil next time,â you repeat.
He really should stop calling you that. But you just canât bring yourself to stop him. What do even tell him if he asks why?
You turn to the holopad on the front counter and check the inventory list to give your hands something to do. Chewing your bottom lip as walks towards the exit. One step, then anotherâŠ
âAnd thank you,â you quickly add before he steps out. His foot stalls just before reaching the street and you tap on the screen pretending not to notice. Your eyes glance up to him, catching his helmet peer at you over his shoulder ââŠfor stepping in.â
âAnytime,â he says softly. He step out into the street and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. You lean on the counter with your chin propped in your palm, now free to watch them go without notice.
Grogu turns back to look at you one last time, his tiny arm fighting against the fabric of his bag before popping out and waving at you. The adorable gesture makes you giggle. The little guy must know exactly how stinking cute he is. You wiggle your fingers back at him from behind the counter. Mando takes notice of his kid, turns his head back, and finds your gaze.
For a moment, everythingâs frozen. People cross and mix in the street between you. Life seemingly goes on like any other day for everyone in town. But in your eyes, thereâs only him. Only bright silver fills your vision. After a moment, Mando raises a hand for a final farewell, and in the next, heâs gone. Blended into the crowd.
An ache spreads in your chest, and that confirms it. You canât deny that what youâve been pushing down for months isnât just an attraction. Strangers can be attracted to each other but he feels like anything but.
You like him. You like how you feel when heâs around and how safe his presence feels. You like that little skipped beat you get when something you said earns even the smallest chuckle from him. You like that he trusts you around his kid.
And you love that he keeps coming back.
Youâve tried to rationalize as just a simple customer acquaintance. But you canât keep kidding yourself. Its always felt more than that. And you want to know more about him.
At the end of the day, you roll down the metal doors of your humble apothecary and walk the same 15 steps up to your home as you do everyday. You bathe, put on your most comfy shirt and sleep shorts, make yourself a simple meal, and wind down for the night. Itâs been your routine everyday since you made this place your home.
Only tonight, despite all your trinkets, all your memories, and all your comforts, tonight your home feels a bit empty. Like something important has been removed and you canât place what it was. With your dinner bowl in hand, you almost take your seat on the couch before thinking twice on it and choosing the floor of your living room instead tonight.
You actually find it to be pretty comfortable. More grounding. You only wish you had something warm to lean back on.
âą
Din thought Guild Master Greef Karga had an inflated ego. But High Magistrate Greef Karga makes that Karga look like a Jedi monk.
He finds himself sitting on a leather chase with his legs propped on the window ledge in Kargaâs high tower office. He watches him spread and maneuver a 3D hologram model of Nevarro and the town. His voice filled with ambition as he explains all his new projects for the upcoming year.
âWeâll put the lodges here, here, and here. Theyâll have access to the hot springs in the crawling canyons and docks will be built around the water edges. Iâve spoken with that lovely Twiâlek bathhouse owner and sheâs spending her best architects to Nevarro as a personal favor to me. Itâs going to be the jewel of the rim I tell you!â
Much of the dialog goes over Dins head. Mostly because heâs dead tired and currently operating on less than four hours of sleep. They only landed a couple hours ago from another grueling mission. He partly listens to Kargaâs plans, partly watches Grogu quietly sit on the hologram table as he stuffs his mouth with blue cookies his âuncleâ has given him. But mostly, Din gazes out one of the many windows in his 360 degree office. Watching the sun set over the canyons and turn the sky a dusty pink.
The shiny bronze protocol droid shuffles around the office with a silver tray with two crystal glasses of spotchka. He offers a glowing glass to Karga who gladly takes it. Then the droid starts to approach Din with the platter, offering him a glass as well.
âUh no no, he doesnât drink,â Karga quickly corrects, taking a momentary pause from his plans. The shiny droid fumbles a bit, flustered, then offers an apology before scuttling away with the tray.
Mando doesnât even bother to correct them. Too much energy. Itâs true, heâs never accepted alcohol in front of Karga. Especially in those early guild days when trust was low. But even to this day, Din doesnât drink around people.
Well⊠most people, that is.
An image of last time Din saw you pops into his head. That thick, slightly mussed hair tied up with a hair stick. Dewy skin. All smiles and laughter. You wore a deep blue torso wrap that time, His eyes kept following the lines of your collar bones and all that exposed skin seemed to glow in the reflected sunlight in the shop.
And those lips. Those goddamn pink tinted lips that he canât get out of his head. If thatâs not the definition of beauty he doesnât know what is.
Your teasing is something heâs growing used to. But that day you pushed too far. You werenât taking him seriously and you shouldnât be the only one who gets to tease, right? When he cornered you against the counter, he made it known just how serious he was about defending you. That flush came back to your cheeks and your breathing had picked up. You had no idea, but your eyes had found his and it made heat pool in his lower abdomen as he got lost in the color of them.
In that moment, Din wrestled back the impulse to lift you up on that countertop, spread those perfect legs and-
â-Right, Mando?â Kargaâs voice interrupts just as that train of thought was getting good. Din turns his visor over to him.
âHmm?â
âYou just agreed to let the kid spend the night here.â
âRight. Yeah,â Din scoffs. âWas that before or after I sold my ship to the Jawas,â he replies in a gruff tone. Karga doesnât find the sarcasm amusing.
âAlright, alright.â
âMaybe Iâll sell them my armor while Iâm at it.â
âI get it,â he exclaims. âYou werenât even listening! I was talking about the space port proposal and I canât even tell where you clocked out. That's not like you, Mando.â
âIâm tired. I just got back from a long trip.â Kargas eyes glance between Din and the window he's been looking out from.
âI wouldnât say tired. More like⊠Distracted.â
He says the word with an insinuation Din would rather do without.
âItâs nothing,â he deflects.
âHey, you know me, Mando. Iâm not one to judge,â Karga says, throwing his hands in the air. âIf thereâs anything on your mind Iâm all ears. Money, politics, work, women-â
âThereâs nothing to discuss. Iâm fine," Din deadpans.
Kargas covers Grogus ears, who is too preoccupied by his munching to mind.
âSounds like you need to get laid.â
Maker...
âYouâre sordid,â he grumbles, shaking his head and turning back to the window. Karga just laughs. Amusement written all over his wrinkled face.
The arguments were one of the main things that changed between them over the last few years. Now they bicker like two old friends instead of two business associates. But one thing that has never changed is the way Karga tries to pressure him into revealing things out of him. Imperfectly human things.
Heâd offer Din all sorts of things like spice or Twiâlek bathhouses just to see if he was capable of being tempted. And right now⊠thereâs only one other person Din can think of capable of doing that.
âYou know what I think? I think youâre starting to outgrow this lone wolf lifestyle of yours,â he speculates. âYouâre a father now. Donât you think the little one needs a mother?â
Dins helmet swivels back to Karga.
âDonât you think you should stick to governing your town?â
âI was just getting to that," Karga exclaims excitedly. "You know we really should consider moving a few of the-â
âHere we goâŠ,â Din sighs to himself.
What shouldâve been a quick visit has turned into a one sided yap session. Itâs been a couple weeks since he left and heâs eager to re-supply for his next run with Zeb. Heâll need to head to the square at some point as well. His home is in desperate need of a re-stock. And of course, a visit to the clinic probably wouldnât be a bad idea if heâs already in the area.
Even from up here, your store can be seen at the far corner of the plaza. And every couple minutes, he can see you. Popping in and out of the small store and rearranging some of the potted plants outside. People greet you from the street and you turn to wave back.
Itâs getting harder and harder to find excuses to go there that sound necessary. Last time he was there he picked up two new pharmakits, even though another two regular medkits sit unopened in his home. Heâs been buying that energy tea you make, despite him being a kaf drinker his whole life. He keeps going back for shit he really doesnât need. But if he was pressed to give a better reason, itâs mostly because he feels a need to check on you.
True, Nevarro has become significantly safer, but that doesnât make it safe. Especially for a woman living completely on her own. Youâre a kind hearted, giving person in a galaxy that does nothing but take. And someone like that should be protected. Heâs looked the other way too many times in the past and he doesnât want to be that person anymore. And plus the kid enjoys the visits.
Sure, the kid. Keep telling yourself that, DinâŠ
A chiss man with a floating pallet of goods approaches your shop entrance and your attention turns from watering the plants to greet the vendor with a bright smile. You speak animately. And it would normally be endearing, if it wasn't directed towards another man. In the privacy of his helmet, Din grimmaces.
He shouldnât be surprised. Youâre well traveled, knowledgeable. Itâs no wonder youâre able to buy products from so many places. But this particular vendor is getting a bit too close for Dinâs comfort.
As usual, you talk with much enthusiasm. Sparking a conversation with the man. Itâs clear youâre familiar with each other by the body language you both give off. And heâs not sure if itâs because you regularly get inventory from the man, or something beyond that.
You turn around on the balls of your feet to dip back inside the shop and as you do youâre completely oblivious to the way the Chissâs head tilts to the side so his crimson eyes can roam your backside. And the only reason Din caught it was because the binocs in his visor seem to have unconsciously been turned on by his finger on his vambrace.
You return to with a small wooded box and open the lid to show him mineral salts, the kind heâs seen you make herbal soaks with. The vendor offers a large lidded glass jar of some kind of dried purple flower buds from his cart. With the added exchange of some credit chips, thereâs more talking and smiling. Something he said makes you laugh as you sign his holopad and Din has to flex his fingers to stop them from clenching into a fist.
Enough. Stop watching.
The mental check forces Dins attention to shift back to whatever Karga keeps droning on about. You can associate with whoever you damn well please. Itâs none of his concern who you do business with or what your personal life is like. Din nearly turns his visor away. But out of the furthest corner of his eye, he catches something he canât tear away from.
The distance between the Chiss and you has suddenly shrunk. The moment unfolds in slow motion as his eyes chew on every second. The Chiss steps closer to lean down thenâŠ
Dinâs arms uncross when the Chiss leans in close to your face. And before he knows it, the fucker plants a quick peck on your cheek. And you return it! The whole exchange lasts less than a second before you wave each other goodbye and he goes his separate way. You return inside with the product like nothing and Din sits there, completely rattled.
What⊠the fuck?
Was it a casual kiss? Did you even know that he was checking you out? If you did, was that a friendly goodbye gesture or was it flirtatious? That son of a bitch gets to walk around with bliss on his cheek all day now. Oddly enough, thatâs what puts Din over the edge. A complete fucking stranger knows how your lips feel and he doesnât.
Never in his life has he harbored thoughts like these. Itâs downright pathetic. He feels corrupted.
âFuck it,â he growls to himself beneath his breath.
â-Anyway, back to my point. I was considering having a port built for- hey!â
Before Karga has a chance to monologue further, Din has picked up his son from the edge of the deskâgrubby hands still clinging to the bag of cookiesâand has placed him right into Karga arms.
âI need you to watch over him for the night. Iâll come back for him in the morning.â
âOkay then? Fine by-.â Din doesnât bother to listen because thereâs no ending to that sentence that matters to him in this moment. He makes his exit, the slide doors opening as he nears them.
âHey! Where do you think youâre going all puffed up like that?â
âI need to settle something,â he tosses back before letting the doors shut behind him.
The sun is getting low and a few other vendors are starting to take down their signs and close their doors. Youâre probably getting ready to close up for the day yourself. Hopefully heâs able to catch you before then.
Each step on the cobblestone is heavy with purpose. And it's not unoticed the way several people on the street see an armor clad Mandalorian and scurry out of his way with a petrified look on their faces. But right now he doesn't particularly care. Right now everything in his head is clouded with the exception of one objective.
From a couple stores away, you catch him approaching from your peripheray. And he's not sure how to describe it, but it's like something in your body language softens when you see him. Your shoulders become less tense, your eyes gleam, and you cast him that bright toothy smile that could stop any man's heart.
âAh! Hey! Itâs been a while, Mando! Howâs-â
âI need to have a word with you.â
Both your expression and your hand freeze momentarily in place, minus a suspicious quirk in your brow.
âOkaaay, you have my attention,â you chuckle, but thereâs a nervous tone riding on it. âWhat can I do for you today?
âI need to speak with you," you tells you bluntly. "Privately.â
Confusion paints across your face and your smile falls a bit. Understanding how serious his request is.
âLike, right now,â you ask hesitantly.
âPreferably, yes,â he answers.
âOk, yeah sure. Um⊠Iâm just about to close up and we can head upstairs in a minute.â You start to turn away but then quickly turn back to him and immediately add âor we can go somewhere youâre more comfort-â
âItâs fine,â Din quickly interjects, stopping that train of thought. âThis wonât take long anyway.â
You blink at him a couple times and give him a quiet âok thenâ before turning around and preparing your shop to close.
Seems that Dinâs command from his last visit was taken seriously. Regret over those words washes over him. If heâs being honest, being inside your home again sets off several red lights in his head. But heâs already on the verge of blurting out something teetering on the edge of his brain. Better to wait until heâs behind closed doors and away from any prying eyes. Or flirtatious vendors. This shouldnât be complicated. Heâll make it quick.
He decides to wait around the corner of the shop where the stone steps meet your front door. He leans against the wall with his arms crossed and his finger nervously tapping his arm brace. After a few minutes you round the corner with your bag over your shoulder and lead the way into your home. Instinctively, he looks around for any eyes before entering and closing the door behind him.
âSo whereâs your boy,â you ask, tossing your bag on the couch and walking towards the kitchen. âI have to say Iâm kind of surprised not to see him on your hip. You seem inseparable.â
Your voice is chipper but he can tell by your stiff body and lack of eye contact that youâre not entirely comfortable. For a moment Din reconsiders this encounter. But no. The sooner he this bug out of his system the better.
âHeâs⊠spending the night with a friend,â he answers. Grabbing one of those ceramic cups from the cabinet, you fill it with water from the sink and heâs starting to think that youâre only doing that to keep your hands busy.
âAaww, a sleepover? Is it his first-â
âIf you donât mind,â he cuts off. âIâd like to get to my point.â
âOh⊠Y-yes, I'm sorry. Iâm rambling,â you say sheepishly. âIâm justâŠ,â you take a deep breath, rest the cup of water on the counter, and lean back against it. Eyes fixed to the floor.
ââŠitâs just what you said the last time you were here. And the way you approached me earlier, you seemed kinda⊠I donât know, upset? I know you donât wanna be here so Iâm wondering what I did to upset you that youâd come here.â
Damn it⊠Heâs such an asshole.
He shouldâve never said that. You've been thinking this entire time that youâre at fault for his shitty social skills. Truthfully, with the way that wine had his head so deliciously foggy, he had to leave before his body did something it was aching to do, begging him to do. But how does he even begin to explain that?
âYou didnât do anything,â he answers immediately. But thinks on it once more. âWell⊠technically you did. But Iâm not upset with you.â
âYouâre not,â you ask him sheepishly.
âIâm not,â he assures.
A beat passes in silence as you chew over his words.
âOkaaay,â you say with a smirk, ânow you really got my attention.â
That mischievous tone travels through Dinâs helmet, in his ears, and settles warmly in the pit of his stomach. Something about the combination of your sweet voice and relaxed shift in your body language makes this whole interaction even more nerve wracking.
âSooo, you wanted to talk to me about something I did?â
âRight.â
âOkay, sooo...â He feels you urging him to continue but now Din finds himself more cautious of his words now. If youâve been silently worried about offending him the last thing he needs is for this to come off wrong way.
âItâs⊠a bit hard to explain,â he exhales. If he could pinch his brow right now he would. âTo put it plainly, the night we drank together, you said something thatâs been⊠stuck in my head.â
âWas it the thing about the name?â
âN-no.â
âWas it the Pantora story?
âNo.â
âWas it the comment about knowing my liquor? Because I like a drink from time to time but I donât have like a problem or anything-â
âNo- Can I finish,â he asks impatiently.
âOkay, okay. Sorry. Go ahead.â
âWhen we were drinking, and talking⊠we said a lot of things and got into some deep conversations. And at one point, you asked me if I ever kissed anyone before. I said no back then because⊠I've never given it any thought in the past. But now itâs got me⊠curious.â
Your quirk your brow at him.
âCurious how?â
âI want to know what itâs like,â he answers plainly.
â⊠Sorry, what?â
âI need this⊠curiosity out of my head. Itâs driving me crazy and I need it out of my system. So I figured⊠since youâre the one who mentioned it in the first place, you can help me kill it.â
âYouâre⊠Okay so, hold onâŠ,â you say with a shaky breath. âAre you⊠asking me to kiss you?â
âThatâs⊠an oversimplification. But yeah.â
âYouâre asking me to be your first kiss? Am I understanding you right?â
Maker, you ask a lot of questions. Are you always like this? You did the same exact thing when he gave you the wine. On any other day it wouldâve been endearing but he didnât anticipate the conversation lasting longer than a minute. Now his request sounds more and more lecherous with each passing second.
âI wonât bother you again after this. You have my word. Itâs completely casual. Just killing a curiosity.â
âThereâs a preeetty common phrase about curiosity and loth cats that goes differently.â A giggle tumbles out of your mouth on the tail end of that sentence and humility crawls under his skin.
âSorry to waste your time.â He starts to turn towards the nearest exit when you step in to stop him. Placing a hand briefly on his arm in the space between his armor and the contact sends a current of electricity up his spine.
âNo wait, donât be like that,â you toy with him.
âIâm not laughing,â he spits. But you still have the nerve to giggle.
âItâs okay, Mando,â you laugh assuredly.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs ridiculous. I hate it. I hate that you put this in my head.â
You fold your lips between your teeth to try to hide your amusement. But you still canât help but crack a smile a little at his frustration. He basically just confessed to having this obsession for months and he can tell by your smug expression that youâre enjoying how incredibly uncomfortable he is about this.
âYouâre right. Iâm⊠sorry,â you say under your breath. Trying to fix your face.
Thereâs a beat of silence. Stepping in closer, he tilts his head down to you. Locking you in his gaze. He takes pleasure in being nearly a full head taller and the way your breathing picks up before he says in a low gruff voiceâŠ
âNo, youâre not.â
You smile behind your hand as your eyes dance across his visor, unknowingly locking eyes with the man beneath. You know youâre not sorry, just like he knows heâs not particularly sorry either. Itâs not just this moment. It goes back to every interaction youâve had together. The banter, the nicknames, the visits. Heâs as much to blame as you are. And then⊠you slowly you shake your head, agreeing with him and confirming his suspicion.
Fuck, youâre cute. He hates that he loves how cute you are. He hates himself for not being stronger.
âOk,â you nearly whisper. Looking up at him with the sweetest eyes. âIâll help you.â
âą
âIs all this really necessary?â
Din currently sits on the floor of your living room. The same spot as last time in fact. Your were the one that insisted on it and honestly he couldn't bring himself to tell you no. Since he sat down in the soft carpet, you've been flitting around your home turning off lamps, closing blinds, and covering any reflective items. Which, admittedly, he's greatful for. But the more time he spends here, alone with you, the more he's not going to want to leave.
âItâs not everyday you get your first kiss, Mando. I wanna make sure itâs a good one. I wish I could re-do mine.â
Gloves fingers flex and stretch restlessly on his knees as you approach the last lamp sitting on a side table in the living room and pause.
âAre you sure about this?â
Fuck no heâs not. But the sooner he does this, the sooner he can find some normalcy in his head again.
âFlip the switch," he says in a low modulated voice.
You fold in a growing smile before taking a deep breath and flicking the switch. Bathing the entire home in inky darkness. The silhouette of you through turns to hues of thermal green and red, carefully maneuvering through your living room by memory before finding your seat in the floor in front of him. And with slight hesitation, Din reaches up to remove the last barrier he has.
âCan you see anything?â
âNot a bit,â you answer.
With that confirmation, he unclasps the chin strap and slowly lifts the helmet up and off. He blinks several times to adjust his vision before finding the outline of the table and placing his helmet there. On the return, his head bumps into your outstretched hand. Not knowing that you had moved.
âAgh.â
âSorry sorry,â you pull away. âGive me a moment, Iâll find you.â
Your hands search in the dark for him. He canât see much but he can tell your hands land on nothing by the way the air between you moves and he doesnât feel any contact on his person. So he reaches out, bumping into your arms and taking hold of them. Following the line of your forearm until he reaches your hands.
âHere," he murmurs. Gloved hands wrap around your wrists and gently lift them up. He guides your hands forward untilâŠ
You let out a small gasp when your hands find the warmth of his bare face. Soft and giving as opposed to the cold, unyielding beskar. Their movements are slow and explorative. Running your thumbs over his stubble. Surprisingly his hands donât release their grasp. His leather clad digits press against the racing pulse in your wrist as his thumbs run over the back of your palm.
âThis help?â
âYes, thank you,â you whisper.
From sound of rustling on the rug, Din can sense your body leaning in. Your breath brushes over his skin for a moment before something warm presses against his chin and it takes a second to register that itâs your mouth. You ease him into the build up and heâs greatfull for it. Jaw. Then cheek. Then just grazing the furthest corner of his mouth.
And then⊠contact.
At first it doesnât feel like much. Just something soft and warm pressing against his mouth. What most people refer to as a peck, he assumes. But itâs when you barely pull back and return for another that a shiver wracks his skin. Your lips lock in the return, molding together in perfect unison. And itâs fucking electric.
Just by feel alone, he senses that your lips are slightly open. So he mimics you. Giving his jaw just enough slack to respond as you go in again. The sensations have his mind in a thick fog. The soft flesh, the sweet taste, the faint suction. His skin feels like thereâs live wires going off underneath. Giving in completely, he finally returns the kiss. Pressing into it with more confidence.
You hum against his mouth, and he dies a little inside.
Thatâs when the real hunger builds. Thereâs a slow simmering heat rising between you now. Without thinking, his hands grip your wrists a little harder. Pulling you in closer. The kiss grows a bit stronger with each return back into each other with no loss of contact. Lingering longer and breathing against one another.
He feels your head tilt more to the side and again he mimics your movement. The break only lasts a fraction of a moment. But in the re-entry, the tip of your soft tongue happens to brush his mouth. Sweet wetness coats his bottom lip and itâs in that instant Din feels all restraint leave his body.
Taking your face in his hand, he kisses you open mouthed, inviting you in. Your tongues slowly graze one another and if he fucking died in this moment heâd be ok with it knowing that he got to know how you taste.
The hunger becomes unbearable. Soon enough the breathing becomes heavier and the air becomes hot. Your arms end up wrapping over his shoulders, pulling him deeper and heâs more than happy to dive further. Another small noise escapes your throat and the vibration travels through his entire body.
He needs to feel you. To taste you. Devour you. He needs you.
A break for air is the only thing that throws him back into semi-consciousness as you pull away. The heat built up between you makes him dazed. Hot breaths fill the small space between your lips as you lean your forehead against his.
âMando?â
âYes,â he responds in a raspy whisper. A few moments pass as you collect your words and catch your breath.
âIs this really just about curiosityâŠ?â
Your words lean more towards a statement than a question. Thereâs no point in denying it now. As much as he tried to convince himself or rationalize his strange request, he does feel a pull towards you. Much more complicated than just attraction. The more he sees you, learns about you, and talks with you, the more⊠inevitable you feel to him. Thereâs a gravity to you that he canât escape from. Nor does he want to.
âYes and no.â
âWhat does that mean?â The breath of your question brushes the heated skin of his cheek. And right now, he can't think of any answer that wouldn't give him up.
So he lets it fly.
âItâs not just the kiss Iâm curious about.â
The silence in the air is thick. The only thing between you are the sounds of both of you catching your breath. Itâs possible he might have ruined everything with that one sentence. But itâs the truth. It had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with you. Your kindness, your banter, your hospitality. All of it.
Thereâs no way of telling what youâre thinking at the right now. Itâs in this moment that he wishes the lights werenât out so he can at least read your expression. But then after what seems like an eternity, your forehead nudges against his and you blow a deep sigh of relief. Arms still draped over his shoulders.
âOh good⊠I thought it was only me,â you confess with a skittish laugh.
And that tightly pulled restraint finally snaps inside him when he hears that.
Without any hesitation, he dives back in. Kissing you like a man starved. Just like that night, he feels drunk. Only this time itâs on the taste of you and the feeling of your hands finally on him. Itâs that thought that drives him to rip off his leather gloves and toss them aside without breaking contact once. His bare hands find your waist and the strip of bare skin between your shirt and linen pants.
âIs this what you meant,â you pant. âWhen you told me not to invite you in again.â
âYeah... it is.â He pants the confession as his mouth trails down the line of your jaw and finding your neck in the dark.
âThatâs a relief,â you chuckle. âI was worried I offended you.â
âThe only thing thatâs offensive is that I canât see that pretty pink flush on your face right now.â
âShould I get a blindfold,â you tease.
What a fucking woman. The mental image of you in a blindfold, only a blindfold, pours fuel on an already blazing fire. But for now, heâs more than ok feeling his way around tonight.
âNext time.â
It comes out of his mouth confidently and without hesitation. Because you both know there will be a next time. Heâs bitten into the forbidden fruit and now heâs addicted to the taste.
With a simple shift, his hands dip beneath the thin fabric of your shirt and find the delicious heat of your soft belly.
"Lay down for me."
With your arms draped over his shoulders, you eagerly comply. Slowly dragging him down with you. He careful not to press all his weight on youâbeing crushed by beskar would definitely kill the moodâbut it doesn't stop you from pulling tighter. Craving connection. All while Din rains wet kisses and soft bites upon your pulse.
So this is what your skin tastes like. Slightly salty, sweet, and smooth between his teeth. He might eat you whole if heâs not careful. He nips at the skin of your exposed collar bone and you writhe. Arching to press your chest to his. So he decides to give it some attention.
âTake it off," you pant with an neediness that drives him pull the damn shirt off in one swift motion.
His bare hand crawls up your sternum. Exploring the valley of soft skin free of any restricting fabric. The moment his fingers find the stiff peak of your bare breast he pinches eagerly. Earning the sweetest little whimpers from you as his mouth works on the other nipple. Biting and sucking the soft point. He canât see a thing in the dark, but whatâs lacking in sight is made up by sound with the delicious breathy moans you let out for him.
âMandoâŠâ
Fuck, does he love the way you call out for him. Every touch, kiss, and suck he gives elicites the most gorgeous sounds out of that perfect mouth. The sounds to straight to his cock, now painfully stiff. It's tempting to just dive into you right now. But he's waited this long. So why not take his sweet time with you. With his face still burried between your breasts and you fingers raking through his hair, Din feels a press of your hips against his armor. And he needs more.
âShop GirlâŠâ
The nickname doesnât catch your attention. Youâre either too lost in the moment or too breathless to answer. Itâs only when he uses your given name that your body perks up and you give him a raspy âyeah?â.
âDo you want this," he asks.
His right hand has found its way to the waist band of your work pants. Ready and waiting for your answer. You try to grind against his hips but he presses your hips down firmly. He knows damn well neither of you want to stop. But he needs to hear it. There's no going back after this.
"Is this ok?"
He doesn't know if you're unsure. Or if maybe your trying to meet his eyes through the darkness. But there's a long pause. Only the sounds of heavy breaths and the pulse beating hard in his ears. And every second that passes has him hanging on the edge of madness.
"Yes...," you finally breathe. "I need you."
She needs me.
The words leave him winded. Months of questions and pining suddenly feel well worth the wait just to hear those words. They not only affirm going further, but the bond that's been steadily growing between you. Not a single ounce of hesitation survives after he hears that. And with one hand, Din loosens the tie of your pants and dives in beneath the fabric of your underwear.
By feel alone, Din manages to pull your pants down to your thighs and you kick them off your feet. His hands roam over all the smooth exposed skin and he can only imagine how perfect you must look if you feel this good. The tips of his fingers finds the dampness between your legs, running along the seam, and he slowly pushes inside until his knuckles meet your entrance.
You release a soft gasp and he swallows it with a deep kiss. You both sigh into each other's mouth. As if you need the other to even breathe. Din's lips never leaves yours as he does an experimental curl against the fleshy part of your walls and you arch your body against his.
âThis where you need me," he huffs against your lips. "Right here?â
âRight there... Perfect..."
"I wanna taste you." The confession comes out before he can even think about it.
"Then taste me, Mando."
He can hear the smile in your voice. The taunt. And he's more than happy to reciprocate it.
He rises above you and you whine from the lack of contact. But the loss doesn't last long. Because before you even can register what he's doing, his head has already lowered between your legs.
"What are you- ah."
That gasp you let out when his mouth envelops your pussy is downright tortured. Good too know you were just as desperate as he was.
"Fuck! I thought you meant... You were gonna... Shit..."
No fucking way would he be satisfied tasting you on just his fingers. The sweet tangy flavor explodes over his tongue and he groans. Fucking hell, you taste good. He doesnât even know what the hell heâs doing but thatâs sure as shit not stopping him. He drowns in you. Lapping and sucking on your swollen little bud and loving the way it makes you cry out. Two thick fingers pump into your wet heat as you melt in his mouth. Such a fucking treat.
You writhe beneath him. Squirming and clawing at anything to hold on to as he works you up. Eventually your hands finds his hair again. Taking a fistful and pressing his face further against your cunt. The sting on his scalp makes his cock twitch in his flight suit and he groans.
âYou want me to make you come, Shop Girl," he mumbles against you.
âYes.â
âSay it.â
âMake me come, Mando... PleaseâŠâ
He doesn't break pace, doesn't falter, doesn't change a damn thing what he's doing because he can feel close to the edge you are. You tighten around his digits as the pump in and out. And with a firm suck on your clit you let out a strangled gasp.
"Oh Fuck! Fuck! Mando!"
Your breathing becomes short and shallow. Panting so hard right before holding your breath and tipping over the edge with a strangled cry. You come long and hard. Trembling so much he has to hold you steady by the hips.
Through the waves of your climax, Din continues to eat you. Lapping at your perfect pussy like it's wine and he doesn't waste a single drop of you. Even sucking and licking his fingers clean as you lay breathless before him. They come out of his mouth with a wet pop and he canât help but let out a small breathy laugh.
âIâve always wanted to try thatâŠâ he confesses.
You let out your own exhausted little laugh and he can already tell he wants more. More laughter, more of those pretty sounds, more of you.
It's with that in mind that Din starts pulling his cape off.
Piece by peace, he silently removes his armor. And after a few moments, a second pair of hands joins in. You fumble in the dark with his chest piece first. Helping him out of his armor one section at a time. They fall to the carpet with a soft thud along with the crumbling pieces of the restraint heâs built since that first night.
Thereâs no signs of stopping. You keep giving him more. More heat. More yearning. More questions.
What makes you laugh? What gives you pleasure? What makes you feel good and whole and satisfied? He needs to know.
And now that heâs gotten a taste, thereâs no way heâs leaving here tonight until youâve both had your fill.
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If this is what happens when you invite the Mandalorian into your home, let your door never close.
Getting to your bed was easier than you thought itâd be in pitch black darkness. The only thing keeping your âbedroomâ separate from the rest of the home is a wooden lattice divider from the ceiling to the floor.
He lays you down on the soft futon on the floor and you open for him like a flower. Two strong palms drag and paw all over your body as his mouth works magic on yours and it makes you dizzy with desire.
Maker, heâs so good with his hands.
His body separates from you only to remove his flight suit and you whine at the loss of contact. Naked and panting for him. Within seconds heâs back on top of you and the feeling of his bare skin against yours makes your head spin. With everything so dark you wonder if this is even real. Maybe this is all a fever dream.
âAre you gonna show me how Mandalorians fuck this time,â you tease against his lips. Calling back to when he showed you how they drink. With your bare legs around his hips, you tease his resolve by running your inner thighs over his sides and youâre rewarded with a low hum. The hand supporting your neck slowly drags forward to find the base of your throat.
âYou donât need to know how Mandalorians fuck.â His wide grip gently squeezes the sides of your throat, just enough for you to feel the power in those hands. âJust how I fuck.â
Holy shit. You thought him gripping your jaw was hot. But this? This mightâve awakened something you didnât even knew you wanted.
A whimper escapes you only to be muted by his mouth again. His tongue swirls with yours with a hunger youâve never knew was there these past months and itâs such a relief to know that you werenât the only one pining.
Mandoâs mouth travels to your cheek, then jaw, finally finding purchase on your neck. Biting and sucking as his body presses into yours. Heâs insatiable right now. There's no doubt that you'll find yourself covered in marks when the lights come back on.
Youâre so lost in the moment that you almost donât notice when something hard and warm presses against your inner thigh. Out of nowhere, a thought you havenât even considered before decides to pop into your head at the very last minute.
âH-hold on!â
Your hands find his shoulders, urging him to pause. His lips unlatch themselves from your neck the second you blurt it out. Instantly propping himself above you with his hands on either side of your head.
âYou want me to stop?,â he pants.
âNo⊠Hell no. Itâs justâŠâ
How do you even begin to ask this?
âUm⊠I know I probably shouldâve asked earlier but⊠youâre human, right?â
Mando blows out a low chuckle, understanding your underlying meaning. He feels human, from what your hands can tell anyway. He could be like his kid for all you know. Itâs not that youâre not willing to go Inter-species, but your experience is mainly human. Plus with the lights off itâd be pretty difficult to figure out fitting things.
Taking your hand from his shoulder, he presses it against his chest where you can feel a dusting of hair. His skin is hot, damp with a thin layer of sweat and his breathing is heavy. He continues to lead your hand further down his torso so you can feel every hill and valley of his muscles. Eventually your hand hits a trail of hair down the middle and thenâŠ
Oh shit.
His hand guides you along the length of his cock. Encouraging you to explore every ridge from the thick base all the way up to the damp tip. Heâs stiff and hot in your palm. When you give him a firm squeeze he groans and twitches in your grip.
Oh shit.
âDoes that answer your question?â
The human part, definitely. Fitting is still debatable.
He lets you handle him. Giving you free rein to tug and tease as he bucks into your hand. He groans with pleasure and the power trip you feel knowing exactly how you affect this fiercely disciplined man makes the pulse between your legs throb harder. After a minute, his hand snatches yours to a halt, making your grip around his cock tighter.
âShow me where you want it,â he demands in a gruff breath. And you do just that. Pressing the damp tip against your clit. The contact sending a jolt of pleasure up your spine.
âInside,â you plead. âI need you inside me.â
With an impatient huff, his hand comes down to take hold of your leg behind the bend of your knee. Spreading you wide and teasing your entrance before pushing himself inside. You gasp at the initial stretch, digging your nails into his shoulders. Mando curses under his breath and as he pushes you worry for a moment if thereâs an end to him.
Itâs slow, deliberate. Feeding his cock into your tight cunt until heâs pressing the limits of your walls. You shudder together when heâs completely sheathed and his hands grip your hips so hard his fingers dig into your flesh.
âMandoâŠâ You throw your head back. Arching your whole body, waiting it to adjust to him. âFuck!â
âI knew it,â he pants. âFucking knew youâd feel goodâŠâ
He splits you in half and before youâre even ready the first hard thrust hits you. You whimper from impact and he thrusts again. Pinning you down by your hips to keep you at the perfect angle. Soon he sets a steady pace as he fucks you into delirium. Itâs too much, heâs too much. Yet you moan and whine for more like each thrust might be the last. He feels incredible and you can only claw at his trim waist as it moves for you.
âThatâs it⊠Good girl⊠Taking me so well⊠I wanted this⊠I want you to know every part of me.â
His words plunge into your chest like a dagger. Laced with a meaning that goes far beyond sex. Because you feel it too. You wanted him to be closer. You wanted him to know your name, know you. Even if it took this long to get here.
You feel one hand find your leg. Hiking it up so the back of your thigh lays flat against his chest. His hand drags up and down, caressing the soft flesh without losing a beat with his thrusts. A kiss presses on your calf and your head feels like itâs spinning. One moment heâs rearranging your insides and the next heâs giving your body sweet affection.
Tension builds in your core. Growing tighter and tighter with each hard thrust. Usually the second orgasm is more elusive to chase on your own. But this man is about to push you right into the next one not five minutes after the first one.
âDonât⊠StopâŠ,â you pant. âDonât stop, Iâm so close, MandoâŠâ
âCome for me... Let me feel you."
Then it comes. Tensing your entire body before coming down like a crashing wave. Itâs spreads through every inch of your body, making you pulse and shake beneath his frame. You cry out in the midst of the euphoria, clinging to his shoulders, and everything feels so right. He moans along with you, feeling every tight pulse around his cock and letting you ride out the remaining waves.
âThatâs two now, Shop Girl. You gonna give me a third?â
You let out a breathy laugh, still coming down from the clouds.
"I... I'm not sure I can," you chuckle.
"Yeah, you will," he pants. Amusement lacing his raspy voice.
Without out warning, Mando takes both your legs. Placing your calves over his shoulders as his leans forward. Folding you in half. And with one hard thrust, his cock drives back into you at a deeper angle. Your back bows and you swear you see stars in the blackness of the room. His lips land on the corner of your mouth and kiss their way to your lips. Offering a soft apology after the roughness. His strong arms are propped around you and you feel eclipsed under his broad body.
Soon his rhythm picks up. Becoming more desperate as he chases his own release. The room fills with the sound of your bodies meeting and you don't think you've ever heard anything more perfect. His panting picks up, his moans become louder, and the quivering breaths he makes when he finds a particularly deep spot will no doubt live in your mind rent free forever.
âYou wanted me bare, didnât you,â he huffs, pressing his damp forehead to yours.. âWhen you offered me that tea? You thought about me coming inside this perfect cunt, didnât you.â
Caught red handed. Sure, you wanted to know if he had a partner as well. But the thought did cross your mind when he cornered you against the counter. You wanted to know how he felt bare, with nothing between you. Even dreamt a few times about it.
âYes⊠Fuck, yes! Please! I want it!â
âYou gonna come with me, Shop Girl? Hmm?â
âMaker, Mando! Iâm right fucking there, please! I⊠Iâm⊠ah-â
His firm hand grips your jaw. Whipping your face back to him so he can cover your mouth his. He kisses you deep, open and messy. No technique, just raw desire as he eats you alive. You moan and whimper against his mouth with each debilitating thrust he makes. He drives into you faster, harder. Relentlessly pushing you closer to the edge.
When it arrives, the orgasm hits you at full force. Wracking your whole body in convulsions as you scream, actually scream against his mouth. Your toes curl, your nails dig into his back and your cunt squeezes on to him for dear life like heâs never allowed to leave again.
Mando hisses through his teeth and he's right there with you. Ramming into you with relentless force as he chases his own release. His face dives into the crook of your shoulder and his arms scramble to take hold of you and he loses control. Letting out a sharp groan as he comes.
âFuck.. Fuck,â he shudders in your ear. âAgh!â
His hips jerk against your body, driving himself as deep as you can take him. You feel his cock throb as he pumps into you again and again. Filling you to the point of spilling out and itâs... everything. Connected in such a profound way youâve never felt before. In this moment, itâs hard to tell your bodies apart. Youâve melted and mixed and you never want to separate.
You ride it together, mold together, lose control together because you both knew itâd come to this. In the end this was inevitable. And in a galaxy filled with unknowns, in this you can be certain. A connection like this is few and far between. Itâs real and raw and rare. Resisting that feeling was never an option, so why try?
Even in the climb down he doesnât stop. Those hard demanding thrusts slow to a gentle drags as if he doesnât want to finish yet. Hands glide all over each otherâs bodies, soothing the other. All along his tense shoulders, you pepper soft kisses to his skin. Easing you both down from the clouds. He hums in the decent and it lulls you into an exhausted bliss.
Everything feels hazy and soft. Youâre not sure how long you stay melted together like this. Minutes? Hours? But itâs needed. After a while, the breathing becomes steady and a soft, drowsy satisfaction settles between you.
âThatâs the first time someone's come inside me,â you quietly confess. For a moment, Mando absorbs what you just said. Then you feel him prop himself in his elbows above you.
âReally?â
âYeahâŠ,â you breathe. Running your hands up the sides of his neck and resting them on his stubbled face.
âYou know⊠since weâre sharing firsts tonight.â
He smiles and this time youâre able to know for certain by the feel of it in your hands. Leaning down, his forehead finds yours in the dark and you donât think youâve ever felt so whole before.
âIâm your first, huh,â he breathes. âI like that.â
Thereâs so many layers to this man. Quiet and withdrawn. Rough and demanding. Soft and caring. Each one is a trait youâve come to cherish. Youâre not sure if you love this man. But youâre definitely starting to fall for him. You can explore that treasure box later though. For now, youâll take tonight for tonight and let whatever comes next between you arrive in its own good time.
âMe too, Mando...â
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summary: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
tags/warnings: dual pov, no use of y/n cuz ew, alcohol consumption, mentions of medicine/contraceptives, a very tiny mention of being chased/hunted down, hella chemistry, fluff, language, jealousy, sexual tension, yearning, dirty talk, heavy makeout, biting, fingering, clit play, cunnilingus, breast play, slight choking kink, piv unprotected sex, praise kink, breeding kink, cream pie, helmet off, dark room sensory focused.
authorâs note: listen listen LISTEN... I know, it's been a hot minute đ„Č Life happened and all that jazz. Tbh this has been in my drafts for a while but I decided to finish it now that the movie is out so this is probably canon divergent at this point lol. But when I tell you I ran away writing this, bitch I raaaan. To everyone who wondered what happened to that bottle of liquor in s3, this is for you pookiesđ«”đ»đââïž
When you decided to make Nevarro your home, you expected it to be a rough place. A far off den of thieves, bounty hunters, and a sleazy connection to the old empire. Nonetheless, it was cheap so you convinced yourself you could put up with it. It wasnât anything new to you. Plus, at the time, you really didnât have anywhere else to go.Â
Thankfully, the reputation has drastically improved over the past few years. Itâs not Naboo, but thereâs a sort of gritty charm to it. Rebels became marshals. Bars became schools. Thieves became honest vendors. Hell, thereâs even kaf shops here now.
Youâre no stranger to drastic changes in this galaxy. Youâve beared witness to the rise and fall of an empire after all.
But receiving a bottle of wine at night from a notorious ex-bounty hunter is definitely a first for you.
âYouâre⊠giving this to me,â you ask, dragging the question out.
The Mandalorian stands at your doorstep. Unreadable beneath hard shiny metal and illuminated only by the entry light of your home above your door. The chilly night air bites your cheeks but he stands unfazed.
âAs a thank you,â he explains. âYou were a big help to my kid and this was the only thing I had that seemed like something youâd enjoy.â
All you did was give his little green kid some medicine. Itâs not like it was even your first interaction with the infamous hunter. Heâs stopped by your apothecary a couple times. Passing by so swiftly you hardly even knew he was there if it wasnât for the lingering stares from other customers. If you recall correctly, he only ever picks up supplies to replenish a med pack or bacta spray for wounds.
Until you suddenly found him at your doorstep the other night with his adorable little green baby in his arms. The poor little guy was running a fever, coughing up a storm, and had even refused food for over a day. Any parent would be frantic. And so you didnât even think twice to let them inside.
Luckily your small shop is attached below your home, so you were quick to find the right tinctures for his illness. The Mandalorian paced circles in your kitchen as you administered the medicine and blotted his kidâs little forehead with a cool damp cloth. It took some time and a lot of reassurance to a very nervous father, but after a few hours the fever broke.
You sent them home with some herbal tinctures and even some homemade hard medicinal candies for stubborn coughs and that was it. Hardly any words were exchanged between you that night that didnât pertain to the child. Only a heartfelt thank you, goodnight, and a promise to pay you back somehow. You assured him that it really wasnât necessary, that you were glad to help.
Youâve admittedly always been curious about the man. With his stoic demeanor and a reputation that preceded him like lightening preceded thunder. Heâs somewhat of a local legend, menace, and hero all wrapped up in one. And now heâs at your door. With booze. Definitely a man of his word, this guy.
âYouâre giving this,â you repeat with astonishment. âThis whole bottle, to me?â
âYes,â he answers again. âIs it a special one or something?â
âThis is Andoan wine,â you emphasize, holding out the clear glass bottle. âYou can only find these on Coruscant now. Very delicious, very rare, very expensive.â
âIs it,â he asks nonchalantly. âIâve never tried it before. But I hope you enjoy it.â
âYou really donât have to,â you tell him.
âI insist. I didnât know the first thing to do so I appreciate your help.â
You chuckle. With your limited interactions, youâre starting to see that heâs short and to the point with his words. Almost like heâs not entirely used to speaking with people.
âIâŠâ You nearly argue it again but decide against it. He really didnât have to give you such a lavish gift for something any good person would do in a situation like that. It was only natural. But at this point, refusing him might come off as rude soâŠ
âThank you very much.â
The Mandalorian acknowledges your gratitude with a tilt of his helmet, then turns on his heels to leave without another word. And for some reason, you linger at the door. You watch him go down one step, then another, then-
âH-hey, Mando?â
Your sudden call stops him in his tracks on the stair case and he turns to look back over his shoulder. The dim light gleaming over his steel.
âYes?â
âIâŠ. w-wellâŠâ
Youâre stammering. Just come out and say it.
âIf youâve never tried it⊠would you like to share it with me?â
He stands there silently looking at you and the awkwardness crawls your skin.
âIâm not busy at the moment and itâs not really in my culture to drink alone.â
Culture your ass. You just want to drink with him. Itâs unclear why in particular but⊠youâre curious about him. Other than the company of his kid, he seems alone. You wonder if he prefers it that way or if itâs for another reason entirely. Either way, the offer was worth a shot.
Thereâs more silence and the only noise in the air comes from the gentle chirp of some lava crickets and the breeze brushing the trees in the street. And itâs in that moment that regret starts to burn in your stomach
Heâs gonna say no. A pause like that doesnât necessarily mean yes. But it would be rude not to offer, right? A bottle this nice doesnât come by these parts and itâd be a shame to drink it alone. Itâs reasonable to offer the gesture. After all, he went out of his way to come here from across town. Itâs the least you can do to show your appreciation in return.
âAlright.â
The word that falls out of him so effortlessly hits you like a punch to the chest. Are you nervous? Absolutely. But how many people can say they shared a drink with the Mandalorian?
A few minutes later, you find yourself standing on your tip toes, grabbing a couple earthenware ceramic cups in your kitchenette cabinet while Mando stands in your living room. His helmet follows the various potted plants, momentos and knick knacks from your travels littered around your home. Even tracing his gloved fingers over some of them.
âYou have a nice home,â he says. âI didnât notice before. Very lived in.â
âLots of junk,â you joke. âYou can say it Mando, I wonât mind.â
âMy place is still new. Doesnât feel like a home just yet.â
âThatâll change over time,â you assure him. âAfter a while, your home becomes a collection of memories.â
His attention gets drawn to a particular item on your wall. Itâs an old worn down canvas satchel bag that hangs on the wall. At one point it was a life line. Now it serves as a reminder that no matter how hard life gets, showing a little kindness can go a long way for someone.
âWhatâs this memory?â
âThat? That memory is what got me here.â You smile to yourself as you wipe down the cups with a clean kitchen rag.
âA few years ago, I was on Pantora with just some spare change and the clothes on my back. I was desperate to leave so I ended up hitching a ride on a freight ship. I worked on the ship in exchange for a ride to Corellia. Their language was difficult to learn and I had a rough time getting things done because for some reason everything was written in the native language and not aurebesh. On a stop to Tattooine, I accidentally labeled a pallet of coaxium as a pallet of scrap metal. That âscrapâ was sold to some Jawas and by the time everyone realized my mistake we were already halfway to the next planet.â
âWas that before you came the Nevarro?â
âThat was the reason I came to Nevarro,â you clarify. âIt was their next stop so they dropped me here.â
âOuch.â
âYeah, ouch,â you laugh. âAnyway, I guess one of the workers felt sorry for me and left me that satchel with a couple credits and some ration bars inside. Buuut my mistake turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Nevarro turned itself around. I have my own little business. Iâm even able to save a little bit of money now. For the time being, things are comfortable. Iâve hopped around the system a lot as you can see. But⊠this is a place I can always come back to.â
âSomething reliable,â he adds.
âExactly,â you say softly, smiling at the sentiment.
You look up at him. And you didnât notice as you were cleaning those cups that heâs now completely facing towards you. His visor is trained on you. And itâs then that you realize how small your home really is. Because Mando is broad.
His crossed arms accentuate his wide shoulders. His chest plate follows the lines of his trim torso. Even those plates of beskar armor can barely hide the bulk of his biceps. Your eyes briefly, briefly take a tour at his waist line before you realize how incredibly rude youâre being.
Heâs a guest. And a customer. Donât. Check. Him. Out.
Heat starts to rise in your cheeks. Focusing back on the cups, you round the kitchen counter and walk over to him.
âIâm sorry. All this talking suddenly got deeper and I feel like I havenât really introduced myself. Weâve only ever passed by each other before,â you chuckle, shaking away the nerves.
In hindsight you shouldâve just introduced yourself the other night, but truthfully you were in care-taker-mode and it didnât occur to you at the time. Plus you didnât think youâd have an encounter with the man again other than seeing him briefly in your shop every so often. But he seems like a nice enough person with the limited knowledge you do have with him. And after tonight youâre bound to cross paths again. So you happily extend your hand out and give him his cup along with your full name.
Thereâs a couple beats of silence and youâre starting to see thatâs his default. But it doesnât stop you from second guessing your words as if youâre crossing an unknown boundary. Thereâs a slight tilt downward with his helmet and he responds with a regretful âIâm sorry, but-â
âYou donât have to tell me your name,â you immediately add. âI know thereâs⊠principles you must have. I just wanted you to know me. Thatâs all.â
Another beat passes before he finally reaches out to take the cup in his hand. He repeats your name and the way it comes out of his voice holds a whole new flavor. Soft and curious even through the warble of his vocoder. Itâs almost like heâs seeing how it tastes.
You like it. You like it a lot.
âItâs nice to meet you.â The voice wears the vocoder like a veil but you still catch a hint of a smile by his relaxed tone. No real logical way to know for certain, just a gut feeling.
âLikewise,â you smile back.
âSo,â he exhales. âYou want to know how two Mandalorians drink?â
âSure. Sounds educational,â you joke.
With a tilt of his helmet, Mando steps further into the living room area and you follow behind, cup and bottle in hand. Walking over to the couch, his gloved hand reaches for the small round pillow resting there. His smokey grey cape flows over his shoulder and for a moment youâre mesmerized by the movement. As he turns on his heel, his fingers release the pillow. Letting it fall to the thin rug with a muted poof.
âRight here.â Mando gestures to the floor and you waltz over to take a seat on the cushion, crossing your legs. It doesnât escape your notice how he doesnât grab the only pillow for himself. Opting for your comfort over his own.
He takes a minute to look around the room. Probably checking for anything reflective. Then with a swish of his cape to the side, Mando settles in the floor behind you. When his back presses against yours, you expect a wall of cold hard metal beneath the cape. But instead thereâs warmth. Strong and firm, but still warm and giving.
âItâs customary to sit on the floor when drinking with a war band. Usually outside around a fire. When itâs just two, itâs back to back.â
âAaah,â you drawl. âVery practical. I like it.â
The top of the bottle comes off with a pop and the rich scent caresses your nose like a hug. After pouring about two fingers worth into Mandoâs cup you pour one for yourself and settle in.
âAre we drinking to anything tonight ,â you ask him.
âNot sure. How aboutâŠ,â he pauses for a moment before deciding. âTo that Pantoran who gave you the satchel.â
That makes you laugh out loud. But you canât help but feel a little pleased at that. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât be on Nevarro, wouldnât have a home. And you definitely wouldnât be drinking with Mando tonight. For that youâre especially grateful.
âYou know what, yeah,â you chuckle. âTo the Pantoran.â
Mando extends his arm back to reach your cups and you meet him halfway. Letting them touch with a soft clack.
âCheers.â
âCheers.â
Thereâs an unclicking sound and you sense that heâs probably tilting his helmet back to drink. You ignore the small tinge of disappointment that he didnât take it completely off. But itâs understandable. He doesnât know you well. Even drinking like this with an outsider is probably a big deal for people of his creed. His back presses a little further against yours as he takes his first sip and you take yours.
The wine is rich and dry, and a bit smokey. But the underlying taste of tangy fruit blends well with the flavor. Going by the color, it has to have been bottled for a decades. The alcohol runs warmly down your throat and settles like smoldering ember in your stomach. Itâs like no other alcohol youâve ever tried before. Not even close.
âHoooh,â he hisses after that sharp bite of alcohol.
âYeah,â you agree knowingly. Already sensing that this bottle is getting finished tonight.
The conversations flow pretty easily after the first drink. He tells you about how his boy came into his life and how he suddenly found himself being his father. You tell him that you can only dream of having a parent like him because you never got to know yours. You half expected he would cut the interaction short and only accept one drink. But when you offer a refill, he gladly accepted which warmed you from the inside.
Admittedly you ask a few curious questions about his creed and he indulges you a bit. And he asks about how you got into medicine making. But for the most part you both stick to easier topics like current events on Nevarro, work, and food. Eventually two drinks turn into three and somehow youâve both dipped into topics like past relationships. Which is dangerous territory after drink number three.
âIt was baaad, Mando. Iâm telling you. I mean, really! Who gives two shits who makes more money than who? Or am I in the wrong here?â
âNah, definitely not,â he replies. His speech now more relaxed but a little raspy from the alcohol. âHonestly, he sounds like a little bitch if that was his main concern.â
âYeah! Like, what is it with these men and needing to feel superior in such bullshit, inconsequential ways?â
âYou seem strong willed. Weak men are intimidated by that.â
âYeah well, then every man Iâve met in this galaxy was weak,â you groan. âI mean, câmon. Am I that intimidating? Is it the yapping? Itâs probably the yapping.â
âI think someone whoâd be deterred by something that trivial doesnât sound worth a damn anyway.â
With that, you let out a deep sigh and slump against the man behind your back.
âEh, youâre probably right,â you exhale. You toss back the last little sip in your ceramic cup, savoring the flavor.
âYou know what, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Iâll just be that shop girl around the corner who throws herself into her work, makes her little remedies, and stays happily independent. I think I can live with that.â
A pause streches between you.
âYou donât sound too convincing, Shop Girl,â he teases.
âShit,â you tsk.
You both wheeze with laughter, your bodies rumbling against one another and itâs so⊠relaxing. Heâs surprisingly easy to talk to. Perhaps itâs because he doesnât say much. Or that what little he does say is said with a sincerity youâre not used to. Or youâre drunk. It could very well be that.
But in a galaxy full of deceit and unknown dangers, itâs refreshing to talk with someone as honest as him. Heâs authentic, unapologetically so.
âHey so⊠can I ask you something?â
âYouâve been asking things this whole time,â he teases.
âI know, but⊠itâs technically a helmet question. And you can tell me to fuck off if itâs too much.â
Mando hums and the rumble reverberates through your body, nesting warmly in your chest. Heâs settled comfortably against you and it makes you feel close enough to ask what you want to ask. After thinking it over he gives you permission.
âCanât wait to hear this,â he sighs with a little amusement.
You smile. To your surprise, he actually has a good sense of humor. A dry, blunt one . But humor nonetheless. You run a finger over the rim of your cup, finding a little more courage.
âMando⊠Have you ever kissed anyone before?â
Itâs a simple enough question, right? Itâs within the ballpark of the topics youâve been discussing. And youâre both adults. Itâs not like itâs inappropriateâŠRight?
Oh god, you really are drunkâŠ
Regret rises with each passing second and you wonder why you even brought it up. Itâs probably some kind of insult to his creed to ask something like that.Â
âToo much,â you broach gently.
âNo,â he says softly. âYouâre not exactly the first person to ask that. Doubt youâll be the last.â
He pauses for a moment to find the right words. Then with a heavy exhale he gives you an answer to your insanely intrusive question.
âI was pretty young when I took the creed,â he states. âTen, twelve maybe? Too young to be interested in those kinds of things. Never looked back since. To be completely honest, itâs not even something I really think about in adulthood. Never understood the hype.â
âSooo, Iâll take that as a no.â
âNo,â he breathes. âNever kissed anyone.â
Never kissed anyone? Never felt a personâs soft lips against his own or graze his skin? Does that mean he hasnât gotten to experience more than kissing? Licking? Biting? OrâŠ
Do not finish that thoughtâŠ
âHuh⊠Well, thatâs a shame,â you say without thinking, quickly adding â-but at the same time, I completely understand it too! I mean, it shows a lot of self discipline, you know? To resist that kind of⊠temptation. Most people donât have any reason to be disciplined enough to stay chaste. I can admire tha-"
âI said Iâve never kissed anyone, I didnât say I never fucked.â
Thank⊠the Maker⊠youâre not face to face. Because the way your eyes bulged just now wouldâve been downright embarrassing had it been caught. He didnât just say sex or even screwing. The Mandalorian fucks. The alcohol in your blood seems to conjure a brief glimpse of what that might look like before you find enough coherence to shew it away.
ââŠoh,â you breathe out, effectively stopping your rambling. âI-I guess I just assumedâŠâ
A deep exhale blows out of his nose. He hums, seemingly entertained by the foot youâve put in your mouth. But also making the air light between you.
âWell, you assumed wrong.â
The humor in his voice settles your nerves a bit. Thankfully there isnât an awkward air at the sudden change to such a topic despite hardly knowing each other. And oddly enough, it feels easy to talk about it for that very reason.
âYouâre rather chatty when you drink, Mandalorian. I feel like Iâm learning all sorts of things about you tonight.â
âYouâre right,â he breathes. âI spoke without thinking, I apologize.â
âNo, Itâs fine. I donât mind at all. Itâs a relief to know thereâs a man under all that armor and not solid metal.â
He hums again and the noise stirs something in your chest.
âWell, even so⊠Itâs late⊠Probably best if I stop drinking.â
You look into your empty cup. Then glance over to the bottle with barely a drop left inside. Something inside you wilts. Thereâs nothing to keep him here any longerâŠ
âYeah⊠Me too.â
Youâre not sure if you wait for him to move first or if heâs waiting for you. But both of you remain still for nearly a whole minute. Silent and hesitant to end the night. As comfortable as it is, you feel Mandoâs back lean away from yours and you miss the warmth. You turn on the floor to find him standing up as he adjusts his helmet clasp and places his empty cup on the table.
âYou were right. It tasted better shared,â he admits. A satisfied smile curls your lips.
âIf you learned anything about me tonight, Mando, itâs that I am always right when it comes to liquor.â
âI appreciate the hospitality.â
âI appreciate the company.â
You place a hand on the table as an anchor in an attempt to stand up and follow him to the door. But as you try to stand straight, the room spins and your knees buckle.
Nope. Not doing that.
You sit your ass right back down on that cushion before you make an even bigger fool of yourself. Quick to respond, Mando catches your free arm. Making sure you land back down safely.
âYou ok,â he asks, concerned but with a hint of humor.
âPfft. Yeah, Iâm good. I think Iâll just stay down here for a minute,â you chuckle, running a hand through your hair and closing your eyes for a moment.
For sure youâll have a hangover tomorrow. Shit. You work tomorrow. Thereâs a couple things youâre running low on, too. Youâll have to request an order through the trading guild. Thatâll cost credits. Maybe if you get that Chiss man again you can manage a trade and he can throw in those dried flower buds for that tea that keeps getting sold out.
You know youâre already a bit dizzy. But behind closed eyes you feel like your head is swaying. Or rather⊠that itâs being moved. Something warm and firm holds your jaw up and when your eyes flutter open again youâre met face to face with dark silver.
The Mandalorian stands barely a foot in front of you. Visor fixed down on your face. Maybe the wine has made your brain slow but itâs only when you follow the path from his shoulder and down his outstretched arm that you realize whatâs holding your jaw⊠is his hand.
With a subtle pass of his thumb along your cheek you can feel warmth starting to pool in your face. Awareness pricks the hairs on the back of your neck when you realize your position. Sitting on your knees, face barely level to his waist as a wall of steel and muscle towers over you.
âYour cheeks get flushed when you drink,â he mutters.
When I drink. Suuuure.
âNow you know,â you mumble without thinking. It grants you a satisfied hum from his helmet and you feel it travel through your ears and under your skin.
âNow I knowâŠ,â he repeats.
Thereâs no movement, no words. But thereâs something thick in the air. Itâs heavy and enticing. Itâd be so easy to get wrapped up in it with any sudden movement. You look up at him through half lidded eyes and you get a gut feeling that theyâre meeting his. Youâre not sure what his are giving away. But yours have to be hinting something youâve been trying to hide all night.
With a sharp intake of air, Mando steps back and releases your face. Your head drops a little at the loss of support and it follows his direction as he walks towards the front door with quick, heavy steps. With a press of a button on the wall panel, the door panels slide open and just before he steps outside⊠he stops. Not looking back, just standing there at the edge of your home with his stand still resting on the doorway.
âDonât invite me in again.â
And then heâs gone. The door panels shut swiftly, leaving you alone and more confused than when he showed up at your door.
âŠwhat?
âą
Din wishes he could say that the first thing he thinks about when he got home that night was his sleeping kid safe in the crib. Or at the very least about how incredible that wine tasted. But after he undressed and collapsed down onto his bed half drunk, the only thought he couldnât stop thinking about as he stared at the ceiling wasâŠ
Damn⊠itâs been a while.
For the past few years, Dinâs life has flipped around a number of times. Between barely scraping by as a bounty hunter, saving an orphan kid from an imperial psychopath, losing said kid, then having him return and be by his side to reclaim the Mandalorian home-world, thereâs not much time to indulge those kinds of needs. But just because Din found himself being a busy father later in life doesnât make certain things dead.
No. Everything felt very much alive and kicking by the end of that bottle.
Behind closed eyes, his room feels like it swirls. After that wine, his body feels loose and relaxed. Something he rarely gets to experience these days. Images dance across his closed lids. Delicate, slender hands around a handmade cup. A pink flush on smooth skin. Plump tinted lips between his fingers, softly parted and begging to be touched. The intrusive impulse to dip a finger between those lips was so strong he could feel his hand move into the action before he could even think to do so.
All thanks to that one question. That simple, innocent question activated a deep part of his brain that lay dormant. And then he decided to shatter the care free atmosphere by with a crass remark about sex.
Never in his life has he regretted saying something so fast. You barely even know each other. Admittedly, Din isnât exactly a refined person, far from it actually. But after his third glass, any semblance of manners flew right out the window. His mouth did the walking with little thinking involved.
Yet, you didnât get uncomfortable. You handled the slip up with humor instead of getting offended or something just as bad. Using humor to make the air light again. It surprised him how easily you did it. How easy the conversation was all night, really. Itâs not everyday heâs able to let his guard down with another person.
Once he was aware of that, he became aware of everything. How late the hour was, how drunk you both were, and how your bed was right behind where you both sat. Only separated by a simple room divider. Even when he tipped up his helmet, there was a heady herbal scent from you that kept swimming in his nose and it was just as intoxicating as the wine. He couldnât trust himself to stay any longer. And now, in the safety of his own home, he finds himself preoccupied with a mountain of questions.
What kind of person are you? Whatâs your daily life like? What other places have you seen? What troubles you? You seem to be rooted here in Nevarro for the time being. But from what youâve mentioned about your past, you have a kind of nomadic life. What happens if he⊠if the kid gets attached and you decide to move on to another planet? But then again, itâs not like heâs not one to talk though is he?
Loyalty. Solidarity. These are things that have been etched to his core since childhood. But giving those things to something that could be fleeting? Thatâs a risk heâs avoided for most of his life. Those kinds of wounds never heal.
But as much as he tries to distance himself, itâs not always in his control.
Three weeks go by and they couldnât end soon enough. When he offered to work with Teva (or Blue as he usually calls him) on a case-by-case basis, he figured theyâd be more involved than the bounty hunting trade. Heâs spent up to a month off planet at times in order to capture a quarry so itâs not exactly new to him.
But that was when he had the Razor Crest. With a cot to rest in, a weapons locker, and supplies readily at hand. In that regard, the N-1 leaves much to be desired. Plus Dinâs back isnât what it used to be and long rides in that ship are killer. And to add insult to injury, this last case with Zeb was especially complicated to resolve. It left him and the kid completely drained.
After finally landing back in Nevarro with fresh credits, there is absolutely nothing Din wants more than to just go home, bathe, and sleep for at least a day. But heâs got a very hungry green mouth to feed and thereâs no way Din is fixing up any dinner tonight.
Street food it is.
âAlright, weâre making this quick. In and out. Iâll get you as much food as you want and you can pick out one sweet. Not five. One. Got that?â Grogu tilts his head at Din curiously from where he follows behind on the cobblestone street and heâll just take that as a yes.
Dozens of food stalls are gathered at the main square in town as he approaches. Adorned with all sorts of neon signs, string lights and colorful banners. Itâs a busy atmosphere filled with people laughing, vendors calling out for customers to stop by, and sounds of clanking and sizzling as they cook.
Din gravitates towards the skewers stand. He knows Grogu is going to down ten of them by himself so he opts for something easy, filling, and cheap. He catches sight of those spicy chunks of fatty meat searing over lava coals and his mouth waters.
âOkay, which onesss-â
Din reaches down to pick up his son only to find the street bricks.
â-Sssshhhhit,â he hisses under his breath, glancing around. This fucking kid. He knows better than to run off.
The crowd is thick and itâs getting dark. He scans through the sea of people and vendors but doesnât find that familiar pale green.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
With a tap of his helmet side panel he switches to the tracking beacon screen. After enough scares like these heâs learned to have a tracker sewn into his clothes at this point.
Blinking red arrows come into his view and he follows the path. Not caring whose shoulders he budges or what food he knocks out of someoneâs grip to get through. The red arrows turn yellow. Heâs getting close but thereâs still no visual of the kid and heâs starting to panic. He pushes through, scanning side to side and calling out his name in an orchestra of noises without reply.
Yellow turns to green and heâs still out of sight. Heâs tiny and easy to miss. Grogu could be anywhere, he could be in any one of these stalls. What if heâs taken? What if someone else is tracking him? He could be picked up by a total stranger and taken away again.
Just as that thought crosses his mind, thereâs a small separation in the crowd. Big floppy ears come into view and heâs definitely been picked up. But itâs no stranger that holds him.
âAnd here comes dad~â A voice soft as silk rings inside his helmet.
Relief floods his body as well as caution when he taps his screen clear. Only him. Situations like this only happen to him. It couldâve been Karga. It couldâve been anybody. But it had to be you that found him.
It was barely two minutes. But within those two minutes Dinâs head flooded with every worst case scenario possible. And here he is. Happily babbling in your arms like he didnât just give his dad a fucking heart attack.
âI know, I know,â you assure him like you can already tell where his headâs at, trying to speak over all the noise. âDonât be too hard on the little guy. I already gave him a bit of a lecture for running around at night.â
Din wants to. Itâs honestly his first reaction. But a cooler head prevails and he decides against it after a second thought. He reminds himself (once again) that Grogu is still young and that getting angry would only make things worse. What matters is that heâs safe and that he managed to find you.
âAt least he wonât have to hear it twice,â he exhales, pushing out the stress sitting in his lungs. âSorry about him.â
âNo, no sorry needed. Heâs smarter than he lets on. At least he ran to someone he knew. Iâm glad I was around.â
Din opens his mouth to speak but ends up falling short with his words. Now that some of the stress has left his body, his eyes take you in at a second glance. Unclouded by the adrenaline.
Your hair is tied up with a pin with a few loose pieces falling at the nape of your neck and around your face. With the heat persisting into the night, you decided to wear a thin strap tank top that hangs low on your chest. It exposes miles of smooth skin, from your shoulders all the way down the arms wrapped around his kid. A dusty blue apron wraps around your waist over some baggy cargo pants so you mustâve came here right after work. Thereâs a glow from all the neon lights that adorns you and he has to will his mouth to move before he gets caught staring.
âHere.â He extends his hands to you. âI can take him back. Thank you for catching him. Câmon, bud. Let her get back to shopping.â
âItâs no problem,â you assure him with a smile. Your hands hooks under Grogus tiny arms and start to pull him off your torso. âBack to dad you go.â
But the moment heâs barely lifted, he cries out in protest with a shrill whine. Refusing to leave your side. You pull him back in instantly and run a soothing hand on his back.
âOh! Okay, okay. You can stay with me for a minute,â you giggle in a sugary voice to Grogu. Bouncing him on your hip.
You both exchange a look of surprise (as much as his visor can give off anyway). What kind of person are you that Grogu prefers your embrace over his own father? He doesnât know whether to be jealous or impressed.
But itâs getting late, they need to eat and get home and you probably need to get back to your own errands. Dinâs hands extends again to take Grogu but you shake your head with a little smile. Letting him know itâs not an inconvenience to you.
âHere, wanna help me pick out some sweets?â
Grogu coos at your request, toying with the glittering silver chain pendant on your neck. You rest his kid on your hip effortlessly and the motion of it pinches something deep in Dinâs chest. Turning to the assorted trays of sugared fruits on skewers, you list the various kinds for Grogu to pick out. Talking back with him like you can actually understand his little babbles. You answer him with âooh, thatâs a good choiceâ and âthese are my favoritesâ.Â
Din just stands aside, watching the way you both interact and itâs admittedly a bit pleasing to see how natural you are with him. Most people think heâs a pet at first glance. Karga treats him like a newborn. Talking gibberish and doting on him despite him handling a 50 year old. You, on the other hand, just treat him like a regular kid. And itâs refreshing to see.
His sonâs head spins back at his father with the biggest set of sparkling inky eyes and Din can see the pleading question in them. He tilts his helmet at him and reminds him âoneâ. Those large ears deflate a little and you giggle at the interaction. Din offers to pay for your skewer along with Groguâs as another thank you for looking after his son (again). The vendor gathers the treats in paper wrappers to take to go.
You turn to ask Din something, but itâs covered by the noise of yelling and cooking. He tilts his head a bit lower to try and catch what youâre saying. Then, without hesitation, your hand finds purchase on the pauldron on his shoulder. Prompting him to lean in closer to you so you can speak within earshot.
âItâs been a minute since I saw you last,â you remark with a raised voice. âEverything good?â
Shit.
For a second he freezes. Partly at the lack of distance between you, but mostly because the last time he saw you he stormed out of your place like it was on fire without so much as a goodnight. Youâre probably wondering what the hell that was about and he honestly canât answer that himself. Although your expression seems more cheerful than troubled. He crouches closer to your ears and replies with caution, hoping to avoid the direction of that conversation.
âYeah, weâve been um⊠traveling a lot lately. I get contracted by the new republic pretty often these days. Leaving him behind with someone whenever Iâm off planet for too long doesnât seem fair to him so heâs always by my side no matter what.â
âAh, that makes sense. You usually stop by for medkit supplies so when I didnât see you last week I figured you were away.â
Din mentally smacks his forehead. Right. Of course you meant the shop. Because what else would you be implying to a fucking customer? Youâre just making small talk. Something he has never really gotten the hang of. Seems pretty damn easy when heâs drinking thoughâŠ
âWe actually just got back. Too tired to fix something up so I figured Iâd grab us something quick and easy before heading home.â
âUgh. I feel that. When I get home Iâm crashing on the first soft surface I see,â you groan, still bouncing Grogu on the curve of your hip. Those hipsâŠ
No. Stop it.
âBusy day,â he asks and your eyes roll upwards.
âBusy week,â you exclaim. âI swear I think about quitting at least once a day. But I like it too much. Plus itâs the only thing Iâm any good at. Otherwise Iâd probably be some kind of criminal.â You pause then laugh at the thought before adding, âthen youâd probably have to hunt me down, huh?â
That⊠is a scenario that he already knows is going to stick in his brain for a while. Itâs such an enticing thought that he doesnât bother to tell you heâs not in that business anymore. A tiny part of him would much rather have you think heâd chase you. Obviously youâre not serious, but he canât help but lean into the joke.
âI donât know,â he says unconvinced. âMight be pretty easy to find you. All I have to do is look wherever thereâs street food.â
A laugh bubbles out of you and thereâs a strange feeling that radiates in his chest at being able to make you laugh. Pride maybe? No, more like⊠satisfaction.
âDonât underestimate me, Mando. I know my way around the outer rim. Iâd make you work for it,â you say. Taunting him with a knowing smirk.
A smile tugs higher on his hidden face. The thought of you making him work for anything will no doubt be food for thought later. And instinct tells him that mightâve been your intention. But two can play at this game.
Youâre already nearly face to face but he inches even closer, almost close enough for metal to meet skin. Ensuring you catch every word right into your ear.
âIâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.â
Your eyes grow a little wider at the sound of your nickname and he takes pleasure at just how effective it is. Itâs another reminder of that night. A name that was spoken within an intimate atmosphere that only the two of you occupied. And by your expression, that same thought crosses your mind too.
You bite your bottom lip in a smile. The same lips that were between his hands. The only lips he canât seem to forget. The shape, the color, and how fucking edible they look. Heâs even noticed how they pout a little when youâre concentrated on a task. More questions surface.
What do they feel like? What do they taste like? What makes a kiss so good that everyone can recall their first?
The bubble created is suddenly burst by the outside world. The stall vendor gleefully hands over the candied fruit over the counter in their wrappers and you take them with your free hand. Handing the mixed one to Grogu because he couldnât decide on just one flavor. Reality returns to Dinâs head and his thoughts immediately sober up.
What the hell is he doing?
He tears his eyes away. Even if you canât tell, looking at you like that for too long feels wrong. Youâre a good person, youâre trying to live a normal life, and what youâve told him youâre not looking to get involved in any drama. He has to keep reminding himself of those things.
That same instinct to leave hits him again. Because that urge to do something he canât take back flares up again and itâs best to not give that feeling any more energy. For both your sakes. He gestures his hand in a hand-him-over motion, signaling to you and Grogu that itâs time to go.
âAlright, time to go kid. Say goodnight.â
Grogu whines with a mouthful of sweets and a face covered in sugar and it makes him chuckle to himself. Din would normally find the defiance a little cute, if it wasnât for the stunt he pulled earlier. You carefully hand him over with both arms leaning in close and again he feels another pinch in his chest at how carefully you exchange him.
Your bare arms graze against his clothed ones and he pulls away the second he has hold of his kid. He ignores the small current of electricity from the contact and maneuvers Grogu into the crossbody bag to his hip. Which, of course, makes him protest.
âNope. You had your chance. Now you get the bag.â
âAw câmon,â you scold âHe was just playing around. Now heâs in bag jail?â
First the kid and now you? He can tell his son no, but it might be a little harder to tell you that.
âYeah, yeah. Maybe next time heâll think twice about running off in a crowd,â he groans.
Once the kid is settled in the bag, you follow him down. Crouching down, you sit face to face with Grogu as he stuffs his face with the candied fruit. Resting your free hand on his fuzzy head as the other holds your own skewered treat.
âKay, little rebel. Go stuff your face with some good food. And take it easy on your poor dad, alright? Heâs not built for that kinda stress.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean,â he asks, kind of amused by your ribbing. He can count on one hand the people who are undaunted enough to make playful jabs at him.
Your lips twist and your eyes take a tour up to your brows as you think of your reply.
âHmm⊠just the way you get a little impatient sometimes. You were like that when you brought him over and paced my living room for an hour,â you chuckle. âYou seem like the kind of man who gets antsy when somethingâs not in your control.â
A smile threatens to crawl his face. Pretty presumptuous. But he canât deny how true that statement rings. Especially nowadays when itâs not just himself he has to worry about.
âMaybe so,â he replies with a hint of humor in his voice. âPatience isnât really my strong suit. Although this one seems to enjoy testing it.â
âPatience is bitter,â you muse as you rub the top of Groguâs head with your thumb. He coos with delight and the softest gaze glows on your face. Then from your crouched position, your eyes glance back up at Din and add, ââŠBut the fruit is sweet.â
His jaw flexes beneath his helmet, and heat now courses through his veins.
That canât be a good sign. He already enjoys your banter too much as it is. But that look just now was dangerous. It dredges up thoughts he shouldnât have about you. Thoughts like kissing someone he barely knows. Feeling skin on skin. Showing you what a man like him can do to you compared to the boys of your past.
He saw it all over your pretty face when he held it in his hand. That flush on your cheeks, your dilated pupils. Hell, he even saw your heat signature rising in his helmet screen for fuck sake. Thereâs an attraction and thatâs fine (and not completely unreciprocated) but it canât be anything more than that.
You and him live completely different lives. Thereâs no need to uproot your peace and get involved in his complicated affairs. Even if something happened, it wouldnât be long before the allure of the suit and mystery people usually perceive of Mandalorians would turn into repulsion.
Thatâs how itâs gone before. Thatâs the way it is.
âą
Youâre a bad person. A horrible human being and a shameless lowlife. Downright beyond saving.
Iâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.
The damn sentence wonât stop replaying in your head. Itâs not just a nickname. Itâs a nickname he gave you. One thatâs covered in underlying context and memories that only the two of you share. One that peppers your skin with goosebumps when it comes out of that raspy modulated voice. Itâs even worse when your brain starts intrusively placing it in all sorts of sentences.
Thatâs it, Shop GirlâŠ
Youâre doing so well, Shop GirlâŠ
Bend over for me, Shop GirlâŠ
That last one has crawled into your dreams more often than youâd care to admit lately.
You need to get a grip. Itâs just an attraction. Youâve been alone for too long and youâre getting all wound up over a smidge of attention. Heâs just a regular decent person with a kid to take care of who also just happens to have an amazingly muscular body and a voice of sin. Simple as that.
Right. Simple.
After that night at the food stalls, the Mandalorian and Grogu have been visiting your humble Clinic Shop on a more frequently. Usually you'll see them a couple times a week if they're not on one of their long haul trips. Missions? Jobs?
It's not like Mando has any reason to let you know ahead of time. But when a week or so passes with no sign of silver or green, you can't help but feel a little down. You've come to look forward to seeing your regulars. But they grown to being your favorite customers.
And if you're being honest, theres a growing part of you that feels tied to the man in silver beskar. When he's here, the part blossoms. And when he's gone, it feels... wilted. It's unexpected and confusing to say the least. The closest feeling you could label it is homesickness. And truthfully, you're not really sure if you want to feel such a heavy thing towards anybody right now.
There's a lull in the store this hot muggy afternoon. You've already finished your prescription orders, restocked your shelves, even watered all the potted plants outside the entrance. Since you finally have some down time, you figured you might as well get to making some of your popular tea mixes.
On the back counter, you have a variety of dried herbs, flower buds, tea leaves, and a few large mixing bowls. The scent in the shop is incredible right now. Swirling around on the wind propelled by the metal fans around the shop. Spiced and aromatic with a hint of fruitiness. You let the smell fill your lungs and relax your body as you place measured scoops of the mix into small paper bags. A bead of sweat tracks down the back of your neck. Even with pinning your hair up and the strapless wrap you chose to wear today, the heat of the day still clings to your damp skin.
A cool glass of that Andoan wine would be so good right about now...
Maybe it was instinct, or maybe there really is some kind of invisible tie. But something makes your head tilt to the side and glance at the open entrance. And it's then that a glint of sliver light reflects on the stucco walls. A flutter of anticipation strikes through your chest and your eyes are locked at the entrance. Then, that familiar Silver T-visor and a pair of floppy green ears peek around the corner.
The smile that spreads across your cheeks is so big it almost hurts.
"Hey," you exclaim from the back of the store. You leave your station and excitedly make your way across the store to the pair as they step inside.
âItâs been a whi-â
âAh ah, sorry," you cut Mando off mid greeting, halting him with your pointer finger. "Grogu gets first dibs.â
Mando shakes his head but you can tell he's humored. Turning his hip to the side and giving you access to the canvas crossbody where Grogu resides.
âEven though I'm a regular customer," Mando retorts.
If you didnât know any better, youâd think that sounded a teensy bit like jealousy. You smirk, giving eyes only to the little green baby.
âNot when youâre as cute as him.â You say, placing Grogu on your hip and giving him little scritches on his wrinkled head.
âIsnât that right, Kid. Mando wishes he could be half as cute as you.â The child coos at you and Mando shakes his head. But you can tell by his body language that he's at least a little amused.
You walk back to the back counter with the kid in your arms and Mando in tow behind you. And the feeling you have in this moment is oddly... domestic? You're not entirely sure if that's the right word. In your life you've never experienced domesticity. But you figure it's similar to that homesick feeling you get.
You place Grogu on top of your station and pull out an herbal lollipop from your apron for him. You like to keep a few handy for kids and they also help with coughs. The kids inky eyes gleam as he babbles and plunges the sugary candy in his mouth.Â
"Any chance that delivery for those new Pharmakits arrived yet," Mando asks, leaning a hand on the counter next to you.
"They did," you nod. "Any chance you're planning on taking on an army on your next trip?"
He shrugs, tilting his helmet to the side in that way he does when he's being aloof.
"Doesn't hurt to keep one on hand. You never know."
You hum in acknowledgment but inside a pit forms in your stomach. The danger he faces whenever he goes on these "jobs" isn't lost on you. Lately, it's been on the back of your mind more often than not. On his last visit, when he asked about ordering stronger meds and triage supplies, it hit you just how much his long absences affect you. And just the thought of never seeing him or his little boy again stirs up something vile inside.
âYou seem to be busy today,â he remarks, pointing out all the open jars and mixing bowls with various dried leaves and herbs.
His remark takes you out of your thoughts. You must've been silent a second too long for him to change the subject like that. With a deep inhale and slight embarrassment you shrug off the negative thoughts and ground yourself back to reality.
âYes and no. Iâve been restocking while itâs dead to keep busy.â
He leans in a bit to get a closer look at the contents of the bowl. Close enough for you to catch the scent of smoke and musk on his clothes.
âYouâre mixing⊠tea?â
You hum a yes and nod.
âTea can be used for lots of medicinal purposes. Many people prefer natural remedies to pharmaceutical ones. I try to have a mix of both.â
âSo this is medicine?â You sway your head to the side, trying to think of the best way to explain the purpose of the tea.
âKiiind of. You could say itâs preventative.â
âWhat does it prevent?â
âPregnancy.â
A clearing of his throat follows your answer. You turn toward him with a smirk and a raised brow but his visor has now turned away your face.
Most fearsome bounty hunter in the outer rim, everybody.
âYou asked, man,â you chuckle with a shrug.
âGuess thatâs on me,â he says.
âThis is actually one of my best sellers,â you tell him. You grab the wooden scoop and raise up the floral mix, letting the various petals and herbs rain back down into the bowl. The motion makes the sweet scent drive up in the air. âI have customers tell me they donât leave the house before their daily brew.â
âIâm glad business is going well for you,â he deflects, making you fold your smile in your teeth. And suddenly your brain sees a prime opportunity.
âYou know, MandoâŠ,â you drawl as you mix the petals. âIf youâre ever in a pinch and you need some, I could give you a sample.â The way his helmet jerks to face you almost breaks your nonchalant smile.
âThatâs um⊠very generous but itâd be wasted on me.â His body straightens stiffly and you can tell the topic makes him a bit uneasy. But you press on anyway.
âYou sure? You can never be too safe. Iâm sure any visitors would appreciate it.â He sighs deeply and turns away, shaking his head in annoyance.
God, this is too much fun. Teasing him is so easy. If it wasnât for the helmet you bet heâs sweating right now. He might look cool and collected. But after drinking with him, you know thereâs in fact a man under all that metal.
âIâm sure,â Mando confirms. âI'm not seeing anyone at the moment.â
And thereâs the answer youâre looking for.
Was it a bit sneaky? Yeah. Yeah, it was sneaky. But it rules out the theory that reason he told you not to invite home again was because heâs currently taken. Itâs still an enigma as to why. But honestly thereâs still the gut feeling that you did something to make him uncomfortable that night.
Maybe you crossed a line with one of your questions. You tend to ask a lot of questions. Your filter also isnât everybodyâs flavor. Even so, you had a great time talking, even joking around with him. Youâve come to cherish that night in your memory. And the thought that you obliviously mightâve said something to offend Mando in any way makes your chest ache.
But if that was the case then why has he been stopping by your store more frequently since then? He always says heâs restocking his med kit but you get the feeling thereâs more to it than that. Almost as if heâs checking up on you. Making sure youâre doing ok. And above all, thatâs what scares you.
Itâs scares you how good that thought makes you feel.
âPicking up an order!â An unfriendly voice bellows from the entrance where a Trandoshan man in fine robes stands waiting. âNameâs Samir Tâar.â
It takes a second to snap back into action. But you slap on your best customer service smile and leave your task for later. Rounding the corner past Mando and the kid and walking to the Medicine Cabinet. Wiping the non-existent dust on your hands on your waist apron.
âHi, yes! Iâll grab that for you right now.â
The Trandoshan stands waiting at the counter as you sort through the assorted orders in the glass case. Looking for the right name tag and plucking the tied linen bag. You dont turn your eyes toward him, but Mandoâs pressance is all your body is aware of. You can tell heâs miandering through the shop, looking at various items on the shelves. Which, to you, is a bit funny since hes been here plenty of times by now.
Is he playing the curious customer right now because thereâs someone here?
You rest the tied bag next to the register as you run the total. All while the Trandoshan taps his clawed fingers impatiently on the check out counter.
ââKay with the compounded medicine and the herbal soak salts, that puts you at⊠fifteen credits today.â
âIt was twelve the last time.â
âYyyeesss, some of the ingredients for the meds were hard to come by this time around. Outer rim shipping routes, and all that,â you smile, trying to humorously reason with the man.
âAnd thatâs supposed to be my fault? Just make it the same price as before and Iâll be on my way already.â
Ugh, great. One of those.
âI understand where youâre coming from, really. But fifteen is pretty fair considering the initial cost of acquiring ingredients of this high quality. Canât beat the price compared to those New Republic clinics-"
âNonononono," he waves with both hands in disapproval. âIâm not paying a single credit more for something I can make myself.â
Thatâs kind of the point of it buying here, right? To save yourself the trouble of making it?
âSorry. Price is firm," you say confidently but kindly. "Buuut, how about if I throw in a couple sample heating pain patches. Free of charge,â you chirp, unfazed by his condescension.
Work with me, guy. Thereâs a man packing heat in the backâŠ
âHow about I give you ten for the order and leave? I donât need you to peddle your-â
Itâs a hand that shuts him up. Not yours, as much as it twitches to swipe that bag and toss in it the trash. No. This hand is big. Leather clad. And planted firmly on the counter between you and the customer.
âYou can pay the fifteen or you can leave. But what you wonât do,â Mando leans in towards the Trandoshan for effect. â-is talk to her like that again. Make your choice.â
With his chest pressed to the back of your shoulder, you struggle to not squirm. You can feel his heat on your body. His frame eclipses yours from behind. The smell of gun smoke and musk caresses your nose and you die a little inside. But itâs his words that make you want to melt into a puddle.
He didnât just ask, he demanded for you to be treated with respect. Not that you canât hold your own when it comes to defending yourself against snarky customers. But the way Mando didnât even hesitate to intervene on your behalf. It stirs up all sorts of thoughts.
Oh maker, you really are a shitty person. The man stands up for you and all you can think about is how hot he sounded.
The Trandoshan swallows hard. Mando might as well a knife to the guyâs throat with the look of silent terror on his reptilian face. Without even breaking eye contact with Mando, he stuffs his clawed hand in his pockets, and pulls about 20 credit chips without counting. Letting them clatter on the counter as he tosses them.
âH-here,â he stutters. âFifteen is fair.â With that he snatches his order from the countertop and makes a hasty exit.
âHave a nice day~,â you sing-song as he scurries out onto the street.
You shift your eyes up to Mando, his palm still pressed flat against the counter with his other hand thumbing his belt. His visor follows the customer as he leaves and you can tell that his body language doesnât relax until the heâs completely out of sight.
âFuckerâŠ,â he mutters under his breath. When he finally turns his visor to you, he finds a knowing little smirk on your face.
âWhat?â
âYou know, if you really wanted to scare him, you couldâve just pulled out your blaster.â
His visor turns away and he takes a step back as if heâs been caught doing something out of character. And if it wasnât for his confident stance, youâd almost say he got a little flustered just now.
âI didnât like the way he spoke you,â he grumbles. Which only makes you giggle.
âYouâre right,â you agree with a serious tone. Slamming your palms on the counter. âThatâs the last straw! Iâll have to close and resort to a life of crime after all!â
Although you canât read his face, his body language says it all. He tilts his head to the side in a way that can only mean âare you fucking kidding meâ and it only makes you smile harder.
âCâmooon, itâs funny,â you say. But heâs still not charmed.
âDoes he always treat you like that,â he asks like he needs to know for certain.
You fold your lips between your teeth to hide your smile. Heâs concerned for you and you canât help but bathe in it. At least for a little bit.
âAnd if I said yes?â
âIâm being serious.â
âItâs fine, Mando. Itâs really not a big deal for me. Look, if I let every snippy customer get to me, I wouldnât have a business. Iâm a big girl. I can fight for my honor all on my own, donât you worry.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âYeah? What is your point then?â
He steps in closer. Forcing you crane your neck to face him. Your backside unconsciously presses against the back of the counter and youâre pinned. Heâs impossibly close. Close enough to see your eyes reflected on the inky black screen. Knowing heâs captured your full attention, he hits you with a bombshell that devastates you.
âI wouldnât let anyone disrespect you when I can do something about it,â he says crystal clear, lowering his voice. âIf someone gives you trouble, theyâll deal with me before they mess with you... Understand?â
That shuts you right up. Your playful expression falls, now replaced with silent astonishment. He keeps saying things that reach deep inside you, making your chest tight. Words like that make it hard to breathe.
You feel utterly captured and itâs no wonder he was the best hunter in the outer rim. Because even though heâll defend your honor and call you sweet nicknames⊠all he has to do is stand his ground in front of you to make you feel like prey. And fuck, do you wanna be caughtâŠ
âOk,â you breathe when you find the courage. âI understand now.â
âGoodâŠâ
Silence streches between you and it feels as though youâre both waiting for something to happen. Something that feels like itâs been teetering on the edge since the night you drank together. Itâs connected and deep in a way youâve never experienced before. You can tell itâs something heâs afraid to say out loud.
What youâre both afraid to say out loud.
He doesnât move. Doesnât add anything to his statement. Heâs got you locked in his gaze with no escape. And for a moment you wonder if heâll take hold of your jaw again. Goosebumps rise to your skin because it wants so badly to close the gap.
Suddenly, a call rings from the vambrace on Mandoâs forearm, abruptly breaking the tension. At first he hesitates to address it, still locked onto you. But after the second ring he lets out an aggravated sigh and steps away to check the incoming call.
You walk back to your work table and mixing bowl of tea to give yourself something to do while your breathing returns to normal. Scooping a measured cup from a large jar of dried leaves before adding it in.
Grogu sits with his little feet dangling over the table, now finished with the lollipop and looking at the candy-less stick with droopy ears. And before Mando turns to look, you sneak his son another herbal lollipop from your apron.
"Don't tell your dad," you whisper, pressing your index finger over your lips. Which earns you a happy little "Batu" in understanding.
Mando is pacing around now. Conversing with a gruff sounding Lasat. You donât eavesdrop per se, but words like ânew leadâ, âinvestigationâ, and âhigh-riskâ get your ears to perk up.
âShit,â he sighs deeply once the call is done. Planting his hands on his hips.
âWork call?â
âThey like to keep me busy, thatâs for sure. Best not keep them waiting.â
âR-right! The pharmakits."
You walk towards side of your shop in the back closet where your new inventory sits in their delivery crates. Grabbing one case but then after a second thought grabbing another before turning back and handing them to Mando. When you return Grogu is already back in his father's tote still nursing his treat.
âCouple things," you disclaim, handing the cases to him. "Keep these in a dark cool place if you can. Heat can spoil some of the medicine. And if you ever find yourself needing the epibacta, Iâd advise you to take in a safe place. This dose will knock you out cold for a while. Emergencies only.â
He takes the cases by the handles and gives you a nod of understanding.
âI appreciate it. Iâll try to avoid needing it.â
âJust⊠be safe.â
âI willâŠâ
Another beat of silence. At this point it's starting to feel like you're waiting on the other person to break the ice. But after a moment, he clears his throat.
âWell... Until next time, Shop Girl.â
âUntil next time,â you repeat.
He really should stop calling you that. But you just canât bring yourself to stop him. What do even tell him if he asks why?
You turn to the holopad on the front counter and check the inventory list to give your hands something to do. Chewing your bottom lip as walks towards the exit. One step, then anotherâŠ
âAnd thank you,â you quickly add before he steps out. His foot stalls just before reaching the street and you tap on the screen pretending not to notice. Your eyes glance up to him, catching his helmet peer at you over his shoulder ââŠfor stepping in.â
âAnytime,â he says softly. He step out into the street and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. You lean on the counter with your chin propped in your palm, now free to watch them go without notice.
Grogu turns back to look at you one last time, his tiny arm fighting against the fabric of his bag before popping out and waving at you. The adorable gesture makes you giggle. The little guy must know exactly how stinking cute he is. You wiggle your fingers back at him from behind the counter. Mando takes notice of his kid, turns his head back, and finds your gaze.
For a moment, everythingâs frozen. People cross and mix in the street between you. Life seemingly goes on like any other day for everyone in town. But in your eyes, thereâs only him. Only bright silver fills your vision. After a moment, Mando raises a hand for a final farewell, and in the next, heâs gone. Blended into the crowd.
An ache spreads in your chest, and that confirms it. You canât deny that what youâve been pushing down for months isnât just an attraction. Strangers can be attracted to each other but he feels like anything but.
You like him. You like how you feel when heâs around and how safe his presence feels. You like that little skipped beat you get when something you said earns even the smallest chuckle from him. You like that he trusts you around his kid.
And you love that he keeps coming back.
Youâve tried to rationalize as just a simple customer acquaintance. But you canât keep kidding yourself. Its always felt more than that. And you want to know more about him.
At the end of the day, you roll down the metal doors of your humble apothecary and walk the same 15 steps up to your home as you do everyday. You bathe, put on your most comfy shirt and sleep shorts, make yourself a simple meal, and wind down for the night. Itâs been your routine everyday since you made this place your home.
Only tonight, despite all your trinkets, all your memories, and all your comforts, tonight your home feels a bit empty. Like something important has been removed and you canât place what it was. With your dinner bowl in hand, you almost take your seat on the couch before thinking twice on it and choosing the floor of your living room instead tonight.
You actually find it to be pretty comfortable. More grounding. You only wish you had something warm to lean back on.
âą
Din thought Guild Master Greef Karga had an inflated ego. But High Magistrate Greef Karga makes that Karga look like a Jedi monk.
He finds himself sitting on a leather chase with his legs propped on the window ledge in Kargaâs high tower office. He watches him spread and maneuver a 3D hologram model of Nevarro and the town. His voice filled with ambition as he explains all his new projects for the upcoming year.
âWeâll put the lodges here, here, and here. Theyâll have access to the hot springs in the crawling canyons and docks will be built around the water edges. Iâve spoken with that lovely Twiâlek bathhouse owner and sheâs spending her best architects to Nevarro as a personal favor to me. Itâs going to be the jewel of the rim I tell you!â
Much of the dialog goes over Dins head. Mostly because heâs dead tired and currently operating on less than four hours of sleep. They only landed a couple hours ago from another grueling mission. He partly listens to Kargaâs plans, partly watches Grogu quietly sit on the hologram table as he stuffs his mouth with blue cookies his âuncleâ has given him. But mostly, Din gazes out one of the many windows in his 360 degree office. Watching the sun set over the canyons and turn the sky a dusty pink.
The shiny bronze protocol droid shuffles around the office with a silver tray with two crystal glasses of spotchka. He offers a glowing glass to Karga who gladly takes it. Then the droid starts to approach Din with the platter, offering him a glass as well.
âUh no no, he doesnât drink,â Karga quickly corrects, taking a momentary pause from his plans. The shiny droid fumbles a bit, flustered, then offers an apology before scuttling away with the tray.
Mando doesnât even bother to correct them. Too much energy. Itâs true, heâs never accepted alcohol in front of Karga. Especially in those early guild days when trust was low. But even to this day, Din doesnât drink around people.
Well⊠most people, that is.
An image of last time Din saw you pops into his head. That thick, slightly mussed hair tied up with a hair stick. Dewy skin. All smiles and laughter. You wore a deep blue torso wrap that time, His eyes kept following the lines of your collar bones and all that exposed skin seemed to glow in the reflected sunlight in the shop.
And those lips. Those goddamn pink tinted lips that he canât get out of his head. If thatâs not the definition of beauty he doesnât know what is.
Your teasing is something heâs growing used to. But that day you pushed too far. You werenât taking him seriously and you shouldnât be the only one who gets to tease, right? When he cornered you against the counter, he made it known just how serious he was about defending you. That flush came back to your cheeks and your breathing had picked up. You had no idea, but your eyes had found his and it made heat pool in his lower abdomen as he got lost in the color of them.
In that moment, Din wrestled back the impulse to lift you up on that countertop, spread those perfect legs and-
â-Right, Mando?â Kargaâs voice interrupts just as that train of thought was getting good. Din turns his visor over to him.
âHmm?â
âYou just agreed to let the kid spend the night here.â
âRight. Yeah,â Din scoffs. âWas that before or after I sold my ship to the Jawas,â he replies in a gruff tone. Karga doesnât find the sarcasm amusing.
âAlright, alright.â
âMaybe Iâll sell them my armor while Iâm at it.â
âI get it,â he exclaims. âYou werenât even listening! I was talking about the space port proposal and I canât even tell where you clocked out. That's not like you, Mando.â
âIâm tired. I just got back from a long trip.â Kargas eyes glance between Din and the window he's been looking out from.
âI wouldnât say tired. More like⊠Distracted.â
He says the word with an insinuation Din would rather do without.
âItâs nothing,â he deflects.
âHey, you know me, Mando. Iâm not one to judge,â Karga says, throwing his hands in the air. âIf thereâs anything on your mind Iâm all ears. Money, politics, work, women-â
âThereâs nothing to discuss. Iâm fine," Din deadpans.
Kargas covers Grogus ears, who is too preoccupied by his munching to mind.
âSounds like you need to get laid.â
Maker...
âYouâre sordid,â he grumbles, shaking his head and turning back to the window. Karga just laughs. Amusement written all over his wrinkled face.
The arguments were one of the main things that changed between them over the last few years. Now they bicker like two old friends instead of two business associates. But one thing that has never changed is the way Karga tries to pressure him into revealing things out of him. Imperfectly human things.
Heâd offer Din all sorts of things like spice or Twiâlek bathhouses just to see if he was capable of being tempted. And right now⊠thereâs only one other person Din can think of capable of doing that.
âYou know what I think? I think youâre starting to outgrow this lone wolf lifestyle of yours,â he speculates. âYouâre a father now. Donât you think the little one needs a mother?â
Dins helmet swivels back to Karga.
âDonât you think you should stick to governing your town?â
âI was just getting to that," Karga exclaims excitedly. "You know we really should consider moving a few of the-â
âHere we goâŠ,â Din sighs to himself.
What shouldâve been a quick visit has turned into a one sided yap session. Itâs been a couple weeks since he left and heâs eager to re-supply for his next run with Zeb. Heâll need to head to the square at some point as well. His home is in desperate need of a re-stock. And of course, a visit to the clinic probably wouldnât be a bad idea if heâs already in the area.
Even from up here, your store can be seen at the far corner of the plaza. And every couple minutes, he can see you. Popping in and out of the small store and rearranging some of the potted plants outside. People greet you from the street and you turn to wave back.
Itâs getting harder and harder to find excuses to go there that sound necessary. Last time he was there he picked up two new pharmakits, even though another two regular medkits sit unopened in his home. Heâs been buying that energy tea you make, despite him being a kaf drinker his whole life. He keeps going back for shit he really doesnât need. But if he was pressed to give a better reason, itâs mostly because he feels a need to check on you.
True, Nevarro has become significantly safer, but that doesnât make it safe. Especially for a woman living completely on her own. Youâre a kind hearted, giving person in a galaxy that does nothing but take. And someone like that should be protected. Heâs looked the other way too many times in the past and he doesnât want to be that person anymore. And plus the kid enjoys the visits.
Sure, the kid. Keep telling yourself that, DinâŠ
A chiss man with a floating pallet of goods approaches your shop entrance and your attention turns from watering the plants to greet the vendor with a bright smile. You speak animately. And it would normally be endearing, if it wasn't directed towards another man. In the privacy of his helmet, Din grimmaces.
He shouldnât be surprised. Youâre well traveled, knowledgeable. Itâs no wonder youâre able to buy products from so many places. But this particular vendor is getting a bit too close for Dinâs comfort.
As usual, you talk with much enthusiasm. Sparking a conversation with the man. Itâs clear youâre familiar with each other by the body language you both give off. And heâs not sure if itâs because you regularly get inventory from the man, or something beyond that.
You turn around on the balls of your feet to dip back inside the shop and as you do youâre completely oblivious to the way the Chissâs head tilts to the side so his crimson eyes can roam your backside. And the only reason Din caught it was because the binocs in his visor seem to have unconsciously been turned on by his finger on his vambrace.
You return to with a small wooded box and open the lid to show him mineral salts, the kind heâs seen you make herbal soaks with. The vendor offers a large lidded glass jar of some kind of dried purple flower buds from his cart. With the added exchange of some credit chips, thereâs more talking and smiling. Something he said makes you laugh as you sign his holopad and Din has to flex his fingers to stop them from clenching into a fist.
Enough. Stop watching.
The mental check forces Dins attention to shift back to whatever Karga keeps droning on about. You can associate with whoever you damn well please. Itâs none of his concern who you do business with or what your personal life is like. Din nearly turns his visor away. But out of the furthest corner of his eye, he catches something he canât tear away from.
The distance between the Chiss and you has suddenly shrunk. The moment unfolds in slow motion as his eyes chew on every second. The Chiss steps closer to lean down thenâŠ
Dinâs arms uncross when the Chiss leans in close to your face. And before he knows it, the fucker plants a quick peck on your cheek. And you return it! The whole exchange lasts less than a second before you wave each other goodbye and he goes his separate way. You return inside with the product like nothing and Din sits there, completely rattled.
What⊠the fuck?
Was it a casual kiss? Did you even know that he was checking you out? If you did, was that a friendly goodbye gesture or was it flirtatious? That son of a bitch gets to walk around with bliss on his cheek all day now. Oddly enough, thatâs what puts Din over the edge. A complete fucking stranger knows how your lips feel and he doesnât.
Never in his life has he harbored thoughts like these. Itâs downright pathetic. He feels corrupted.
âFuck it,â he growls to himself beneath his breath.
â-Anyway, back to my point. I was considering having a port built for- hey!â
Before Karga has a chance to monologue further, Din has picked up his son from the edge of the deskâgrubby hands still clinging to the bag of cookiesâand has placed him right into Karga arms.
âI need you to watch over him for the night. Iâll come back for him in the morning.â
âOkay then? Fine by-.â Din doesnât bother to listen because thereâs no ending to that sentence that matters to him in this moment. He makes his exit, the slide doors opening as he nears them.
âHey! Where do you think youâre going all puffed up like that?â
âI need to settle something,â he tosses back before letting the doors shut behind him.
The sun is getting low and a few other vendors are starting to take down their signs and close their doors. Youâre probably getting ready to close up for the day yourself. Hopefully heâs able to catch you before then.
Each step on the cobblestone is heavy with purpose. And it's not unoticed the way several people on the street see an armor clad Mandalorian and scurry out of his way with a petrified look on their faces. But right now he doesn't particularly care. Right now everything in his head is clouded with the exception of one objective.
From a couple stores away, you catch him approaching from your peripheray. And he's not sure how to describe it, but it's like something in your body language softens when you see him. Your shoulders become less tense, your eyes gleam, and you cast him that bright toothy smile that could stop any man's heart.
âAh! Hey! Itâs been a while, Mando! Howâs-â
âI need to have a word with you.â
Both your expression and your hand freeze momentarily in place, minus a suspicious quirk in your brow.
âOkaaay, you have my attention,â you chuckle, but thereâs a nervous tone riding on it. âWhat can I do for you today?
âI need to speak with you," you tells you bluntly. "Privately.â
Confusion paints across your face and your smile falls a bit. Understanding how serious his request is.
âLike, right now,â you ask hesitantly.
âPreferably, yes,â he answers.
âOk, yeah sure. Um⊠Iâm just about to close up and we can head upstairs in a minute.â You start to turn away but then quickly turn back to him and immediately add âor we can go somewhere youâre more comfort-â
âItâs fine,â Din quickly interjects, stopping that train of thought. âThis wonât take long anyway.â
You blink at him a couple times and give him a quiet âok thenâ before turning around and preparing your shop to close.
Seems that Dinâs command from his last visit was taken seriously. Regret over those words washes over him. If heâs being honest, being inside your home again sets off several red lights in his head. But heâs already on the verge of blurting out something teetering on the edge of his brain. Better to wait until heâs behind closed doors and away from any prying eyes. Or flirtatious vendors. This shouldnât be complicated. Heâll make it quick.
He decides to wait around the corner of the shop where the stone steps meet your front door. He leans against the wall with his arms crossed and his finger nervously tapping his arm brace. After a few minutes you round the corner with your bag over your shoulder and lead the way into your home. Instinctively, he looks around for any eyes before entering and closing the door behind him.
âSo whereâs your boy,â you ask, tossing your bag on the couch and walking towards the kitchen. âI have to say Iâm kind of surprised not to see him on your hip. You seem inseparable.â
Your voice is chipper but he can tell by your stiff body and lack of eye contact that youâre not entirely comfortable. For a moment Din reconsiders this encounter. But no. The sooner he this bug out of his system the better.
âHeâs⊠spending the night with a friend,â he answers. Grabbing one of those ceramic cups from the cabinet, you fill it with water from the sink and heâs starting to think that youâre only doing that to keep your hands busy.
âAaww, a sleepover? Is it his first-â
âIf you donât mind,â he cuts off. âIâd like to get to my point.â
âOh⊠Y-yes, I'm sorry. Iâm rambling,â you say sheepishly. âIâm justâŠ,â you take a deep breath, rest the cup of water on the counter, and lean back against it. Eyes fixed to the floor.
ââŠitâs just what you said the last time you were here. And the way you approached me earlier, you seemed kinda⊠I donât know, upset? I know you donât wanna be here so Iâm wondering what I did to upset you that youâd come here.â
Damn it⊠Heâs such an asshole.
He shouldâve never said that. You've been thinking this entire time that youâre at fault for his shitty social skills. Truthfully, with the way that wine had his head so deliciously foggy, he had to leave before his body did something it was aching to do, begging him to do. But how does he even begin to explain that?
âYou didnât do anything,â he answers immediately. But thinks on it once more. âWell⊠technically you did. But Iâm not upset with you.â
âYouâre not,â you ask him sheepishly.
âIâm not,â he assures.
A beat passes in silence as you chew over his words.
âOkaaay,â you say with a smirk, ânow you really got my attention.â
That mischievous tone travels through Dinâs helmet, in his ears, and settles warmly in the pit of his stomach. Something about the combination of your sweet voice and relaxed shift in your body language makes this whole interaction even more nerve wracking.
âSooo, you wanted to talk to me about something I did?â
âRight.â
âOkay, sooo...â He feels you urging him to continue but now Din finds himself more cautious of his words now. If youâve been silently worried about offending him the last thing he needs is for this to come off wrong way.
âItâs⊠a bit hard to explain,â he exhales. If he could pinch his brow right now he would. âTo put it plainly, the night we drank together, you said something thatâs been⊠stuck in my head.â
âWas it the thing about the name?â
âN-no.â
âWas it the Pantora story?
âNo.â
âWas it the comment about knowing my liquor? Because I like a drink from time to time but I donât have like a problem or anything-â
âNo- Can I finish,â he asks impatiently.
âOkay, okay. Sorry. Go ahead.â
âWhen we were drinking, and talking⊠we said a lot of things and got into some deep conversations. And at one point, you asked me if I ever kissed anyone before. I said no back then because⊠I've never given it any thought in the past. But now itâs got me⊠curious.â
Your quirk your brow at him.
âCurious how?â
âI want to know what itâs like,â he answers plainly.
â⊠Sorry, what?â
âI need this⊠curiosity out of my head. Itâs driving me crazy and I need it out of my system. So I figured⊠since youâre the one who mentioned it in the first place, you can help me kill it.â
âYouâre⊠Okay so, hold onâŠ,â you say with a shaky breath. âAre you⊠asking me to kiss you?â
âThatâs⊠an oversimplification. But yeah.â
âYouâre asking me to be your first kiss? Am I understanding you right?â
Maker, you ask a lot of questions. Are you always like this? You did the same exact thing when he gave you the wine. On any other day it wouldâve been endearing but he didnât anticipate the conversation lasting longer than a minute. Now his request sounds more and more lecherous with each passing second.
âI wonât bother you again after this. You have my word. Itâs completely casual. Just killing a curiosity.â
âThereâs a preeetty common phrase about curiosity and loth cats that goes differently.â A giggle tumbles out of your mouth on the tail end of that sentence and humility crawls under his skin.
âSorry to waste your time.â He starts to turn towards the nearest exit when you step in to stop him. Placing a hand briefly on his arm in the space between his armor and the contact sends a current of electricity up his spine.
âNo wait, donât be like that,â you toy with him.
âIâm not laughing,â he spits. But you still have the nerve to giggle.
âItâs okay, Mando,â you laugh assuredly.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs ridiculous. I hate it. I hate that you put this in my head.â
You fold your lips between your teeth to try to hide your amusement. But you still canât help but crack a smile a little at his frustration. He basically just confessed to having this obsession for months and he can tell by your smug expression that youâre enjoying how incredibly uncomfortable he is about this.
âYouâre right. Iâm⊠sorry,â you say under your breath. Trying to fix your face.
Thereâs a beat of silence. Stepping in closer, he tilts his head down to you. Locking you in his gaze. He takes pleasure in being nearly a full head taller and the way your breathing picks up before he says in a low gruff voiceâŠ
âNo, youâre not.â
You smile behind your hand as your eyes dance across his visor, unknowingly locking eyes with the man beneath. You know youâre not sorry, just like he knows heâs not particularly sorry either. Itâs not just this moment. It goes back to every interaction youâve had together. The banter, the nicknames, the visits. Heâs as much to blame as you are. And then⊠you slowly you shake your head, agreeing with him and confirming his suspicion.
Fuck, youâre cute. He hates that he loves how cute you are. He hates himself for not being stronger.
âOk,â you nearly whisper. Looking up at him with the sweetest eyes. âIâll help you.â
âą
âIs all this really necessary?â
Din currently sits on the floor of your living room. The same spot as last time in fact. Your were the one that insisted on it and honestly he couldn't bring himself to tell you no. Since he sat down in the soft carpet, you've been flitting around your home turning off lamps, closing blinds, and covering any reflective items. Which, admittedly, he's greatful for. But the more time he spends here, alone with you, the more he's not going to want to leave.
âItâs not everyday you get your first kiss, Mando. I wanna make sure itâs a good one. I wish I could re-do mine.â
Gloves fingers flex and stretch restlessly on his knees as you approach the last lamp sitting on a side table in the living room and pause.
âAre you sure about this?â
Fuck no heâs not. But the sooner he does this, the sooner he can find some normalcy in his head again.
âFlip the switch," he says in a low modulated voice.
You fold in a growing smile before taking a deep breath and flicking the switch. Bathing the entire home in inky darkness. The silhouette of you through turns to hues of thermal green and red, carefully maneuvering through your living room by memory before finding your seat in the floor in front of him. And with slight hesitation, Din reaches up to remove the last barrier he has.
âCan you see anything?â
âNot a bit,â you answer.
With that confirmation, he unclasps the chin strap and slowly lifts the helmet up and off. He blinks several times to adjust his vision before finding the outline of the table and placing his helmet there. On the return, his head bumps into your outstretched hand. Not knowing that you had moved.
âAgh.â
âSorry sorry,â you pull away. âGive me a moment, Iâll find you.â
Your hands search in the dark for him. He canât see much but he can tell your hands land on nothing by the way the air between you moves and he doesnât feel any contact on his person. So he reaches out, bumping into your arms and taking hold of them. Following the line of your forearm until he reaches your hands.
âHere," he murmurs. Gloved hands wrap around your wrists and gently lift them up. He guides your hands forward untilâŠ
You let out a small gasp when your hands find the warmth of his bare face. Soft and giving as opposed to the cold, unyielding beskar. Their movements are slow and explorative. Running your thumbs over his stubble. Surprisingly his hands donât release their grasp. His leather clad digits press against the racing pulse in your wrist as his thumbs run over the back of your palm.
âThis help?â
âYes, thank you,â you whisper.
From sound of rustling on the rug, Din can sense your body leaning in. Your breath brushes over his skin for a moment before something warm presses against his chin and it takes a second to register that itâs your mouth. You ease him into the build up and heâs greatfull for it. Jaw. Then cheek. Then just grazing the furthest corner of his mouth.
And then⊠contact.
At first it doesnât feel like much. Just something soft and warm pressing against his mouth. What most people refer to as a peck, he assumes. But itâs when you barely pull back and return for another that a shiver wracks his skin. Your lips lock in the return, molding together in perfect unison. And itâs fucking electric.
Just by feel alone, he senses that your lips are slightly open. So he mimics you. Giving his jaw just enough slack to respond as you go in again. The sensations have his mind in a thick fog. The soft flesh, the sweet taste, the faint suction. His skin feels like thereâs live wires going off underneath. Giving in completely, he finally returns the kiss. Pressing into it with more confidence.
You hum against his mouth, and he dies a little inside.
Thatâs when the real hunger builds. Thereâs a slow simmering heat rising between you now. Without thinking, his hands grip your wrists a little harder. Pulling you in closer. The kiss grows a bit stronger with each return back into each other with no loss of contact. Lingering longer and breathing against one another.
He feels your head tilt more to the side and again he mimics your movement. The break only lasts a fraction of a moment. But in the re-entry, the tip of your soft tongue happens to brush his mouth. Sweet wetness coats his bottom lip and itâs in that instant Din feels all restraint leave his body.
Taking your face in his hand, he kisses you open mouthed, inviting you in. Your tongues slowly graze one another and if he fucking died in this moment heâd be ok with it knowing that he got to know how you taste.
The hunger becomes unbearable. Soon enough the breathing becomes heavier and the air becomes hot. Your arms end up wrapping over his shoulders, pulling him deeper and heâs more than happy to dive further. Another small noise escapes your throat and the vibration travels through his entire body.
He needs to feel you. To taste you. Devour you. He needs you.
A break for air is the only thing that throws him back into semi-consciousness as you pull away. The heat built up between you makes him dazed. Hot breaths fill the small space between your lips as you lean your forehead against his.
âMando?â
âYes,â he responds in a raspy whisper. A few moments pass as you collect your words and catch your breath.
âIs this really just about curiosityâŠ?â
Your words lean more towards a statement than a question. Thereâs no point in denying it now. As much as he tried to convince himself or rationalize his strange request, he does feel a pull towards you. Much more complicated than just attraction. The more he sees you, learns about you, and talks with you, the more⊠inevitable you feel to him. Thereâs a gravity to you that he canât escape from. Nor does he want to.
âYes and no.â
âWhat does that mean?â The breath of your question brushes the heated skin of his cheek. And right now, he can't think of any answer that wouldn't give him up.
So he lets it fly.
âItâs not just the kiss Iâm curious about.â
The silence in the air is thick. The only thing between you are the sounds of both of you catching your breath. Itâs possible he might have ruined everything with that one sentence. But itâs the truth. It had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with you. Your kindness, your banter, your hospitality. All of it.
Thereâs no way of telling what youâre thinking at the right now. Itâs in this moment that he wishes the lights werenât out so he can at least read your expression. But then after what seems like an eternity, your forehead nudges against his and you blow a deep sigh of relief. Arms still draped over his shoulders.
âOh good⊠I thought it was only me,â you confess with a skittish laugh.
And that tightly pulled restraint finally snaps inside him when he hears that.
Without any hesitation, he dives back in. Kissing you like a man starved. Just like that night, he feels drunk. Only this time itâs on the taste of you and the feeling of your hands finally on him. Itâs that thought that drives him to rip off his leather gloves and toss them aside without breaking contact once. His bare hands find your waist and the strip of bare skin between your shirt and linen pants.
âIs this what you meant,â you pant. âWhen you told me not to invite you in again.â
âYeah... it is.â He pants the confession as his mouth trails down the line of your jaw and finding your neck in the dark.
âThatâs a relief,â you chuckle. âI was worried I offended you.â
âThe only thing thatâs offensive is that I canât see that pretty pink flush on your face right now.â
âShould I get a blindfold,â you tease.
What a fucking woman. The mental image of you in a blindfold, only a blindfold, pours fuel on an already blazing fire. But for now, heâs more than ok feeling his way around tonight.
âNext time.â
It comes out of his mouth confidently and without hesitation. Because you both know there will be a next time. Heâs bitten into the forbidden fruit and now heâs addicted to the taste.
With a simple shift, his hands dip beneath the thin fabric of your shirt and find the delicious heat of your soft belly.
"Lay down for me."
With your arms draped over his shoulders, you eagerly comply. Slowly dragging him down with you. He careful not to press all his weight on youâbeing crushed by beskar would definitely kill the moodâbut it doesn't stop you from pulling tighter. Craving connection. All while Din rains wet kisses and soft bites upon your pulse.
So this is what your skin tastes like. Slightly salty, sweet, and smooth between his teeth. He might eat you whole if heâs not careful. He nips at the skin of your exposed collar bone and you writhe. Arching to press your chest to his. So he decides to give it some attention.
âTake it off," you pant with an neediness that drives him pull the damn shirt off in one swift motion.
His bare hand crawls up your sternum. Exploring the valley of soft skin free of any restricting fabric. The moment his fingers find the stiff peak of your bare breast he pinches eagerly. Earning the sweetest little whimpers from you as his mouth works on the other nipple. Biting and sucking the soft point. He canât see a thing in the dark, but whatâs lacking in sight is made up by sound with the delicious breathy moans you let out for him.
âMandoâŠâ
Fuck, does he love the way you call out for him. Every touch, kiss, and suck he gives elicites the most gorgeous sounds out of that perfect mouth. The sounds to straight to his cock, now painfully stiff. It's tempting to just dive into you right now. But he's waited this long. So why not take his sweet time with you. With his face still burried between your breasts and you fingers raking through his hair, Din feels a press of your hips against his armor. And he needs more.
âShop GirlâŠâ
The nickname doesnât catch your attention. Youâre either too lost in the moment or too breathless to answer. Itâs only when he uses your given name that your body perks up and you give him a raspy âyeah?â.
âDo you want this," he asks.
His right hand has found its way to the waist band of your work pants. Ready and waiting for your answer. You try to grind against his hips but he presses your hips down firmly. He knows damn well neither of you want to stop. But he needs to hear it. There's no going back after this.
"Is this ok?"
He doesn't know if you're unsure. Or if maybe your trying to meet his eyes through the darkness. But there's a long pause. Only the sounds of heavy breaths and the pulse beating hard in his ears. And every second that passes has him hanging on the edge of madness.
"Yes...," you finally breathe. "I need you."
She needs me.
The words leave him winded. Months of questions and pining suddenly feel well worth the wait just to hear those words. They not only affirm going further, but the bond that's been steadily growing between you. Not a single ounce of hesitation survives after he hears that. And with one hand, Din loosens the tie of your pants and dives in beneath the fabric of your underwear.
By feel alone, Din manages to pull your pants down to your thighs and you kick them off your feet. His hands roam over all the smooth exposed skin and he can only imagine how perfect you must look if you feel this good. The tips of his fingers finds the dampness between your legs, running along the seam, and he slowly pushes inside until his knuckles meet your entrance.
You release a soft gasp and he swallows it with a deep kiss. You both sigh into each other's mouth. As if you need the other to even breathe. Din's lips never leaves yours as he does an experimental curl against the fleshy part of your walls and you arch your body against his.
âThis where you need me," he huffs against your lips. "Right here?â
âRight there... Perfect..."
"I wanna taste you." The confession comes out before he can even think about it.
"Then taste me, Mando."
He can hear the smile in your voice. The taunt. And he's more than happy to reciprocate it.
He rises above you and you whine from the lack of contact. But the loss doesn't last long. Because before you even can register what he's doing, his head has already lowered between your legs.
"What are you- ah."
That gasp you let out when his mouth envelops your pussy is downright tortured. Good too know you were just as desperate as he was.
"Fuck! I thought you meant... You were gonna... Shit..."
No fucking way would he be satisfied tasting you on just his fingers. The sweet tangy flavor explodes over his tongue and he groans. Fucking hell, you taste good. He doesnât even know what the hell heâs doing but thatâs sure as shit not stopping him. He drowns in you. Lapping and sucking on your swollen little bud and loving the way it makes you cry out. Two thick fingers pump into your wet heat as you melt in his mouth. Such a fucking treat.
You writhe beneath him. Squirming and clawing at anything to hold on to as he works you up. Eventually your hands finds his hair again. Taking a fistful and pressing his face further against your cunt. The sting on his scalp makes his cock twitch in his flight suit and he groans.
âYou want me to make you come, Shop Girl," he mumbles against you.
âYes.â
âSay it.â
âMake me come, Mando... PleaseâŠâ
He doesn't break pace, doesn't falter, doesn't change a damn thing what he's doing because he can feel close to the edge you are. You tighten around his digits as the pump in and out. And with a firm suck on your clit you let out a strangled gasp.
"Oh Fuck! Fuck! Mando!"
Your breathing becomes short and shallow. Panting so hard right before holding your breath and tipping over the edge with a strangled cry. You come long and hard. Trembling so much he has to hold you steady by the hips.
Through the waves of your climax, Din continues to eat you. Lapping at your perfect pussy like it's wine and he doesn't waste a single drop of you. Even sucking and licking his fingers clean as you lay breathless before him. They come out of his mouth with a wet pop and he canât help but let out a small breathy laugh.
âIâve always wanted to try thatâŠâ he confesses.
You let out your own exhausted little laugh and he can already tell he wants more. More laughter, more of those pretty sounds, more of you.
It's with that in mind that Din starts pulling his cape off.
Piece by peace, he silently removes his armor. And after a few moments, a second pair of hands joins in. You fumble in the dark with his chest piece first. Helping him out of his armor one section at a time. They fall to the carpet with a soft thud along with the crumbling pieces of the restraint heâs built since that first night.
Thereâs no signs of stopping. You keep giving him more. More heat. More yearning. More questions.
What makes you laugh? What gives you pleasure? What makes you feel good and whole and satisfied? He needs to know.
And now that heâs gotten a taste, thereâs no way heâs leaving here tonight until youâve both had your fill.
âą
If this is what happens when you invite the Mandalorian into your home, let your door never close.
Getting to your bed was easier than you thought itâd be in pitch black darkness. The only thing keeping your âbedroomâ separate from the rest of the home is a wooden lattice divider from the ceiling to the floor.
He lays you down on the soft futon on the floor and you open for him like a flower. Two strong palms drag and paw all over your body as his mouth works magic on yours and it makes you dizzy with desire.
Maker, heâs so good with his hands.
His body separates from you only to remove his flight suit and you whine at the loss of contact. Naked and panting for him. Within seconds heâs back on top of you and the feeling of his bare skin against yours makes your head spin. With everything so dark you wonder if this is even real. Maybe this is all a fever dream.
âAre you gonna show me how Mandalorians fuck this time,â you tease against his lips. Calling back to when he showed you how they drink. With your bare legs around his hips, you tease his resolve by running your inner thighs over his sides and youâre rewarded with a low hum. The hand supporting your neck slowly drags forward to find the base of your throat.
âYou donât need to know how Mandalorians fuck.â His wide grip gently squeezes the sides of your throat, just enough for you to feel the power in those hands. âJust how I fuck.â
Holy shit. You thought him gripping your jaw was hot. But this? This mightâve awakened something you didnât even knew you wanted.
A whimper escapes you only to be muted by his mouth again. His tongue swirls with yours with a hunger youâve never knew was there these past months and itâs such a relief to know that you werenât the only one pining.
Mandoâs mouth travels to your cheek, then jaw, finally finding purchase on your neck. Biting and sucking as his body presses into yours. Heâs insatiable right now. There's no doubt that you'll find yourself covered in marks when the lights come back on.
Youâre so lost in the moment that you almost donât notice when something hard and warm presses against your inner thigh. Out of nowhere, a thought you havenât even considered before decides to pop into your head at the very last minute.
âH-hold on!â
Your hands find his shoulders, urging him to pause. His lips unlatch themselves from your neck the second you blurt it out. Instantly propping himself above you with his hands on either side of your head.
âYou want me to stop?,â he pants.
âNo⊠Hell no. Itâs justâŠâ
How do you even begin to ask this?
âUm⊠I know I probably shouldâve asked earlier but⊠youâre human, right?â
Mando blows out a low chuckle, understanding your underlying meaning. He feels human, from what your hands can tell anyway. He could be like his kid for all you know. Itâs not that youâre not willing to go Inter-species, but your experience is mainly human. Plus with the lights off itâd be pretty difficult to figure out fitting things.
Taking your hand from his shoulder, he presses it against his chest where you can feel a dusting of hair. His skin is hot, damp with a thin layer of sweat and his breathing is heavy. He continues to lead your hand further down his torso so you can feel every hill and valley of his muscles. Eventually your hand hits a trail of hair down the middle and thenâŠ
Oh shit.
His hand guides you along the length of his cock. Encouraging you to explore every ridge from the thick base all the way up to the damp tip. Heâs stiff and hot in your palm. When you give him a firm squeeze he groans and twitches in your grip.
Oh shit.
âDoes that answer your question?â
The human part, definitely. Fitting is still debatable.
He lets you handle him. Giving you free rein to tug and tease as he bucks into your hand. He groans with pleasure and the power trip you feel knowing exactly how you affect this fiercely disciplined man makes the pulse between your legs throb harder. After a minute, his hand snatches yours to a halt, making your grip around his cock tighter.
âShow me where you want it,â he demands in a gruff breath. And you do just that. Pressing the damp tip against your clit. The contact sending a jolt of pleasure up your spine.
âInside,â you plead. âI need you inside me.â
With an impatient huff, his hand comes down to take hold of your leg behind the bend of your knee. Spreading you wide and teasing your entrance before pushing himself inside. You gasp at the initial stretch, digging your nails into his shoulders. Mando curses under his breath and as he pushes you worry for a moment if thereâs an end to him.
Itâs slow, deliberate. Feeding his cock into your tight cunt until heâs pressing the limits of your walls. You shudder together when heâs completely sheathed and his hands grip your hips so hard his fingers dig into your flesh.
âMandoâŠâ You throw your head back. Arching your whole body, waiting it to adjust to him. âFuck!â
âI knew it,â he pants. âFucking knew youâd feel goodâŠâ
He splits you in half and before youâre even ready the first hard thrust hits you. You whimper from impact and he thrusts again. Pinning you down by your hips to keep you at the perfect angle. Soon he sets a steady pace as he fucks you into delirium. Itâs too much, heâs too much. Yet you moan and whine for more like each thrust might be the last. He feels incredible and you can only claw at his trim waist as it moves for you.
âThatâs it⊠Good girl⊠Taking me so well⊠I wanted this⊠I want you to know every part of me.â
His words plunge into your chest like a dagger. Laced with a meaning that goes far beyond sex. Because you feel it too. You wanted him to be closer. You wanted him to know your name, know you. Even if it took this long to get here.
You feel one hand find your leg. Hiking it up so the back of your thigh lays flat against his chest. His hand drags up and down, caressing the soft flesh without losing a beat with his thrusts. A kiss presses on your calf and your head feels like itâs spinning. One moment heâs rearranging your insides and the next heâs giving your body sweet affection.
Tension builds in your core. Growing tighter and tighter with each hard thrust. Usually the second orgasm is more elusive to chase on your own. But this man is about to push you right into the next one not five minutes after the first one.
âDonât⊠StopâŠ,â you pant. âDonât stop, Iâm so close, MandoâŠâ
âCome for me... Let me feel you."
Then it comes. Tensing your entire body before coming down like a crashing wave. Itâs spreads through every inch of your body, making you pulse and shake beneath his frame. You cry out in the midst of the euphoria, clinging to his shoulders, and everything feels so right. He moans along with you, feeling every tight pulse around his cock and letting you ride out the remaining waves.
âThatâs two now, Shop Girl. You gonna give me a third?â
You let out a breathy laugh, still coming down from the clouds.
"I... I'm not sure I can," you chuckle.
"Yeah, you will," he pants. Amusement lacing his raspy voice.
Without out warning, Mando takes both your legs. Placing your calves over his shoulders as his leans forward. Folding you in half. And with one hard thrust, his cock drives back into you at a deeper angle. Your back bows and you swear you see stars in the blackness of the room. His lips land on the corner of your mouth and kiss their way to your lips. Offering a soft apology after the roughness. His strong arms are propped around you and you feel eclipsed under his broad body.
Soon his rhythm picks up. Becoming more desperate as he chases his own release. The room fills with the sound of your bodies meeting and you don't think you've ever heard anything more perfect. His panting picks up, his moans become louder, and the quivering breaths he makes when he finds a particularly deep spot will no doubt live in your mind rent free forever.
âYou wanted me bare, didnât you,â he huffs, pressing his damp forehead to yours.. âWhen you offered me that tea? You thought about me coming inside this perfect cunt, didnât you.â
Caught red handed. Sure, you wanted to know if he had a partner as well. But the thought did cross your mind when he cornered you against the counter. You wanted to know how he felt bare, with nothing between you. Even dreamt a few times about it.
âYes⊠Fuck, yes! Please! I want it!â
âYou gonna come with me, Shop Girl? Hmm?â
âMaker, Mando! Iâm right fucking there, please! I⊠Iâm⊠ah-â
His firm hand grips your jaw. Whipping your face back to him so he can cover your mouth his. He kisses you deep, open and messy. No technique, just raw desire as he eats you alive. You moan and whimper against his mouth with each debilitating thrust he makes. He drives into you faster, harder. Relentlessly pushing you closer to the edge.
When it arrives, the orgasm hits you at full force. Wracking your whole body in convulsions as you scream, actually scream against his mouth. Your toes curl, your nails dig into his back and your cunt squeezes on to him for dear life like heâs never allowed to leave again.
Mando hisses through his teeth and he's right there with you. Ramming into you with relentless force as he chases his own release. His face dives into the crook of your shoulder and his arms scramble to take hold of you and he loses control. Letting out a sharp groan as he comes.
âFuck.. Fuck,â he shudders in your ear. âAgh!â
His hips jerk against your body, driving himself as deep as you can take him. You feel his cock throb as he pumps into you again and again. Filling you to the point of spilling out and itâs... everything. Connected in such a profound way youâve never felt before. In this moment, itâs hard to tell your bodies apart. Youâve melted and mixed and you never want to separate.
You ride it together, mold together, lose control together because you both knew itâd come to this. In the end this was inevitable. And in a galaxy filled with unknowns, in this you can be certain. A connection like this is few and far between. Itâs real and raw and rare. Resisting that feeling was never an option, so why try?
Even in the climb down he doesnât stop. Those hard demanding thrusts slow to a gentle drags as if he doesnât want to finish yet. Hands glide all over each otherâs bodies, soothing the other. All along his tense shoulders, you pepper soft kisses to his skin. Easing you both down from the clouds. He hums in the decent and it lulls you into an exhausted bliss.
Everything feels hazy and soft. Youâre not sure how long you stay melted together like this. Minutes? Hours? But itâs needed. After a while, the breathing becomes steady and a soft, drowsy satisfaction settles between you.
âThatâs the first time someone's come inside me,â you quietly confess. For a moment, Mando absorbs what you just said. Then you feel him prop himself in his elbows above you.
âReally?â
âYeahâŠ,â you breathe. Running your hands up the sides of his neck and resting them on his stubbled face.
âYou know⊠since weâre sharing firsts tonight.â
He smiles and this time youâre able to know for certain by the feel of it in your hands. Leaning down, his forehead finds yours in the dark and you donât think youâve ever felt so whole before.
âIâm your first, huh,â he breathes. âI like that.â
Thereâs so many layers to this man. Quiet and withdrawn. Rough and demanding. Soft and caring. Each one is a trait youâve come to cherish. Youâre not sure if you love this man. But youâre definitely starting to fall for him. You can explore that treasure box later though. For now, youâll take tonight for tonight and let whatever comes next between you arrive in its own good time.
âMe too, Mando...â
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summary: after helping the mandalorian with a favor, he brings you a gift as a thank you. little do both of you know that this gift sparks a connection that neither of you can deny, and thoughts that din never considered before you.
tags/warnings: dual pov, no use of y/n cuz ew, alcohol consumption, mentions of medicine/contraceptives, a very tiny mention of being chased/hunted down, hella chemistry, fluff, language, jealousy, sexual tension, yearning, dirty talk, heavy makeout, biting, fingering, clit play, cunnilingus, breast play, slight choking kink, piv unprotected sex, praise kink, breeding kink, cream pie, helmet off, dark room sensory focused.
authorâs note: listen listen LISTEN... I know, it's been a hot minute đ„Č Life happened and all that jazz. Tbh this has been in my drafts for a while but I decided to finish it now that the movie is out so this is probably canon divergent at this point lol. But when I tell you I ran away writing this, bitch I raaaan. To everyone who wondered what happened to that bottle of liquor in s3, this is for you pookiesđ«”đ»đââïž
When you decided to make Nevarro your home, you expected it to be a rough place. A far off den of thieves, bounty hunters, and a sleazy connection to the old empire. Nonetheless, it was cheap so you convinced yourself you could put up with it. It wasnât anything new to you. Plus, at the time, you really didnât have anywhere else to go.Â
Thankfully, the reputation has drastically improved over the past few years. Itâs not Naboo, but thereâs a sort of gritty charm to it. Rebels became marshals. Bars became schools. Thieves became honest vendors. Hell, thereâs even kaf shops here now.
Youâre no stranger to drastic changes in this galaxy. Youâve beared witness to the rise and fall of an empire after all.
But receiving a bottle of wine at night from a notorious ex-bounty hunter is definitely a first for you.
âYouâre⊠giving this to me,â you ask, dragging the question out.
The Mandalorian stands at your doorstep. Unreadable beneath hard shiny metal and illuminated only by the entry light of your home above your door. The chilly night air bites your cheeks but he stands unfazed.
âAs a thank you,â he explains. âYou were a big help to my kid and this was the only thing I had that seemed like something youâd enjoy.â
All you did was give his little green kid some medicine. Itâs not like it was even your first interaction with the infamous hunter. Heâs stopped by your apothecary a couple times. Passing by so swiftly you hardly even knew he was there if it wasnât for the lingering stares from other customers. If you recall correctly, he only ever picks up supplies to replenish a med pack or bacta spray for wounds.
Until you suddenly found him at your doorstep the other night with his adorable little green baby in his arms. The poor little guy was running a fever, coughing up a storm, and had even refused food for over a day. Any parent would be frantic. And so you didnât even think twice to let them inside.
Luckily your small shop is attached below your home, so you were quick to find the right tinctures for his illness. The Mandalorian paced circles in your kitchen as you administered the medicine and blotted his kidâs little forehead with a cool damp cloth. It took some time and a lot of reassurance to a very nervous father, but after a few hours the fever broke.
You sent them home with some herbal tinctures and even some homemade hard medicinal candies for stubborn coughs and that was it. Hardly any words were exchanged between you that night that didnât pertain to the child. Only a heartfelt thank you, goodnight, and a promise to pay you back somehow. You assured him that it really wasnât necessary, that you were glad to help.
Youâve admittedly always been curious about the man. With his stoic demeanor and a reputation that preceded him like lightening preceded thunder. Heâs somewhat of a local legend, menace, and hero all wrapped up in one. And now heâs at your door. With booze. Definitely a man of his word, this guy.
âYouâre giving this,â you repeat with astonishment. âThis whole bottle, to me?â
âYes,â he answers again. âIs it a special one or something?â
âThis is Andoan wine,â you emphasize, holding out the clear glass bottle. âYou can only find these on Coruscant now. Very delicious, very rare, very expensive.â
âIs it,â he asks nonchalantly. âIâve never tried it before. But I hope you enjoy it.â
âYou really donât have to,â you tell him.
âI insist. I didnât know the first thing to do so I appreciate your help.â
You chuckle. With your limited interactions, youâre starting to see that heâs short and to the point with his words. Almost like heâs not entirely used to speaking with people.
âIâŠâ You nearly argue it again but decide against it. He really didnât have to give you such a lavish gift for something any good person would do in a situation like that. It was only natural. But at this point, refusing him might come off as rude soâŠ
âThank you very much.â
The Mandalorian acknowledges your gratitude with a tilt of his helmet, then turns on his heels to leave without another word. And for some reason, you linger at the door. You watch him go down one step, then another, then-
âH-hey, Mando?â
Your sudden call stops him in his tracks on the stair case and he turns to look back over his shoulder. The dim light gleaming over his steel.
âYes?â
âIâŠ. w-wellâŠâ
Youâre stammering. Just come out and say it.
âIf youâve never tried it⊠would you like to share it with me?â
He stands there silently looking at you and the awkwardness crawls your skin.
âIâm not busy at the moment and itâs not really in my culture to drink alone.â
Culture your ass. You just want to drink with him. Itâs unclear why in particular but⊠youâre curious about him. Other than the company of his kid, he seems alone. You wonder if he prefers it that way or if itâs for another reason entirely. Either way, the offer was worth a shot.
Thereâs more silence and the only noise in the air comes from the gentle chirp of some lava crickets and the breeze brushing the trees in the street. And itâs in that moment that regret starts to burn in your stomach
Heâs gonna say no. A pause like that doesnât necessarily mean yes. But it would be rude not to offer, right? A bottle this nice doesnât come by these parts and itâd be a shame to drink it alone. Itâs reasonable to offer the gesture. After all, he went out of his way to come here from across town. Itâs the least you can do to show your appreciation in return.
âAlright.â
The word that falls out of him so effortlessly hits you like a punch to the chest. Are you nervous? Absolutely. But how many people can say they shared a drink with the Mandalorian?
A few minutes later, you find yourself standing on your tip toes, grabbing a couple earthenware ceramic cups in your kitchenette cabinet while Mando stands in your living room. His helmet follows the various potted plants, momentos and knick knacks from your travels littered around your home. Even tracing his gloved fingers over some of them.
âYou have a nice home,â he says. âI didnât notice before. Very lived in.â
âLots of junk,â you joke. âYou can say it Mando, I wonât mind.â
âMy place is still new. Doesnât feel like a home just yet.â
âThatâll change over time,â you assure him. âAfter a while, your home becomes a collection of memories.â
His attention gets drawn to a particular item on your wall. Itâs an old worn down canvas satchel bag that hangs on the wall. At one point it was a life line. Now it serves as a reminder that no matter how hard life gets, showing a little kindness can go a long way for someone.
âWhatâs this memory?â
âThat? That memory is what got me here.â You smile to yourself as you wipe down the cups with a clean kitchen rag.
âA few years ago, I was on Pantora with just some spare change and the clothes on my back. I was desperate to leave so I ended up hitching a ride on a freight ship. I worked on the ship in exchange for a ride to Corellia. Their language was difficult to learn and I had a rough time getting things done because for some reason everything was written in the native language and not aurebesh. On a stop to Tattooine, I accidentally labeled a pallet of coaxium as a pallet of scrap metal. That âscrapâ was sold to some Jawas and by the time everyone realized my mistake we were already halfway to the next planet.â
âWas that before you came the Nevarro?â
âThat was the reason I came to Nevarro,â you clarify. âIt was their next stop so they dropped me here.â
âOuch.â
âYeah, ouch,â you laugh. âAnyway, I guess one of the workers felt sorry for me and left me that satchel with a couple credits and some ration bars inside. Buuut my mistake turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Nevarro turned itself around. I have my own little business. Iâm even able to save a little bit of money now. For the time being, things are comfortable. Iâve hopped around the system a lot as you can see. But⊠this is a place I can always come back to.â
âSomething reliable,â he adds.
âExactly,â you say softly, smiling at the sentiment.
You look up at him. And you didnât notice as you were cleaning those cups that heâs now completely facing towards you. His visor is trained on you. And itâs then that you realize how small your home really is. Because Mando is broad.
His crossed arms accentuate his wide shoulders. His chest plate follows the lines of his trim torso. Even those plates of beskar armor can barely hide the bulk of his biceps. Your eyes briefly, briefly take a tour at his waist line before you realize how incredibly rude youâre being.
Heâs a guest. And a customer. Donât. Check. Him. Out.
Heat starts to rise in your cheeks. Focusing back on the cups, you round the kitchen counter and walk over to him.
âIâm sorry. All this talking suddenly got deeper and I feel like I havenât really introduced myself. Weâve only ever passed by each other before,â you chuckle, shaking away the nerves.
In hindsight you shouldâve just introduced yourself the other night, but truthfully you were in care-taker-mode and it didnât occur to you at the time. Plus you didnât think youâd have an encounter with the man again other than seeing him briefly in your shop every so often. But he seems like a nice enough person with the limited knowledge you do have with him. And after tonight youâre bound to cross paths again. So you happily extend your hand out and give him his cup along with your full name.
Thereâs a couple beats of silence and youâre starting to see thatâs his default. But it doesnât stop you from second guessing your words as if youâre crossing an unknown boundary. Thereâs a slight tilt downward with his helmet and he responds with a regretful âIâm sorry, but-â
âYou donât have to tell me your name,â you immediately add. âI know thereâs⊠principles you must have. I just wanted you to know me. Thatâs all.â
Another beat passes before he finally reaches out to take the cup in his hand. He repeats your name and the way it comes out of his voice holds a whole new flavor. Soft and curious even through the warble of his vocoder. Itâs almost like heâs seeing how it tastes.
You like it. You like it a lot.
âItâs nice to meet you.â The voice wears the vocoder like a veil but you still catch a hint of a smile by his relaxed tone. No real logical way to know for certain, just a gut feeling.
âLikewise,â you smile back.
âSo,â he exhales. âYou want to know how two Mandalorians drink?â
âSure. Sounds educational,â you joke.
With a tilt of his helmet, Mando steps further into the living room area and you follow behind, cup and bottle in hand. Walking over to the couch, his gloved hand reaches for the small round pillow resting there. His smokey grey cape flows over his shoulder and for a moment youâre mesmerized by the movement. As he turns on his heel, his fingers release the pillow. Letting it fall to the thin rug with a muted poof.
âRight here.â Mando gestures to the floor and you waltz over to take a seat on the cushion, crossing your legs. It doesnât escape your notice how he doesnât grab the only pillow for himself. Opting for your comfort over his own.
He takes a minute to look around the room. Probably checking for anything reflective. Then with a swish of his cape to the side, Mando settles in the floor behind you. When his back presses against yours, you expect a wall of cold hard metal beneath the cape. But instead thereâs warmth. Strong and firm, but still warm and giving.
âItâs customary to sit on the floor when drinking with a war band. Usually outside around a fire. When itâs just two, itâs back to back.â
âAaah,â you drawl. âVery practical. I like it.â
The top of the bottle comes off with a pop and the rich scent caresses your nose like a hug. After pouring about two fingers worth into Mandoâs cup you pour one for yourself and settle in.
âAre we drinking to anything tonight ,â you ask him.
âNot sure. How aboutâŠ,â he pauses for a moment before deciding. âTo that Pantoran who gave you the satchel.â
That makes you laugh out loud. But you canât help but feel a little pleased at that. If it wasnât for him, you wouldnât be on Nevarro, wouldnât have a home. And you definitely wouldnât be drinking with Mando tonight. For that youâre especially grateful.
âYou know what, yeah,â you chuckle. âTo the Pantoran.â
Mando extends his arm back to reach your cups and you meet him halfway. Letting them touch with a soft clack.
âCheers.â
âCheers.â
Thereâs an unclicking sound and you sense that heâs probably tilting his helmet back to drink. You ignore the small tinge of disappointment that he didnât take it completely off. But itâs understandable. He doesnât know you well. Even drinking like this with an outsider is probably a big deal for people of his creed. His back presses a little further against yours as he takes his first sip and you take yours.
The wine is rich and dry, and a bit smokey. But the underlying taste of tangy fruit blends well with the flavor. Going by the color, it has to have been bottled for a decades. The alcohol runs warmly down your throat and settles like smoldering ember in your stomach. Itâs like no other alcohol youâve ever tried before. Not even close.
âHoooh,â he hisses after that sharp bite of alcohol.
âYeah,â you agree knowingly. Already sensing that this bottle is getting finished tonight.
The conversations flow pretty easily after the first drink. He tells you about how his boy came into his life and how he suddenly found himself being his father. You tell him that you can only dream of having a parent like him because you never got to know yours. You half expected he would cut the interaction short and only accept one drink. But when you offer a refill, he gladly accepted which warmed you from the inside.
Admittedly you ask a few curious questions about his creed and he indulges you a bit. And he asks about how you got into medicine making. But for the most part you both stick to easier topics like current events on Nevarro, work, and food. Eventually two drinks turn into three and somehow youâve both dipped into topics like past relationships. Which is dangerous territory after drink number three.
âIt was baaad, Mando. Iâm telling you. I mean, really! Who gives two shits who makes more money than who? Or am I in the wrong here?â
âNah, definitely not,â he replies. His speech now more relaxed but a little raspy from the alcohol. âHonestly, he sounds like a little bitch if that was his main concern.â
âYeah! Like, what is it with these men and needing to feel superior in such bullshit, inconsequential ways?â
âYou seem strong willed. Weak men are intimidated by that.â
âYeah well, then every man Iâve met in this galaxy was weak,â you groan. âI mean, câmon. Am I that intimidating? Is it the yapping? Itâs probably the yapping.â
âI think someone whoâd be deterred by something that trivial doesnât sound worth a damn anyway.â
With that, you let out a deep sigh and slump against the man behind your back.
âEh, youâre probably right,â you exhale. You toss back the last little sip in your ceramic cup, savoring the flavor.
âYou know what, itâs fine. Iâm fine. Iâll just be that shop girl around the corner who throws herself into her work, makes her little remedies, and stays happily independent. I think I can live with that.â
A pause streches between you.
âYou donât sound too convincing, Shop Girl,â he teases.
âShit,â you tsk.
You both wheeze with laughter, your bodies rumbling against one another and itâs so⊠relaxing. Heâs surprisingly easy to talk to. Perhaps itâs because he doesnât say much. Or that what little he does say is said with a sincerity youâre not used to. Or youâre drunk. It could very well be that.
But in a galaxy full of deceit and unknown dangers, itâs refreshing to talk with someone as honest as him. Heâs authentic, unapologetically so.
âHey so⊠can I ask you something?â
âYouâve been asking things this whole time,â he teases.
âI know, but⊠itâs technically a helmet question. And you can tell me to fuck off if itâs too much.â
Mando hums and the rumble reverberates through your body, nesting warmly in your chest. Heâs settled comfortably against you and it makes you feel close enough to ask what you want to ask. After thinking it over he gives you permission.
âCanât wait to hear this,â he sighs with a little amusement.
You smile. To your surprise, he actually has a good sense of humor. A dry, blunt one . But humor nonetheless. You run a finger over the rim of your cup, finding a little more courage.
âMando⊠Have you ever kissed anyone before?â
Itâs a simple enough question, right? Itâs within the ballpark of the topics youâve been discussing. And youâre both adults. Itâs not like itâs inappropriateâŠRight?
Oh god, you really are drunkâŠ
Regret rises with each passing second and you wonder why you even brought it up. Itâs probably some kind of insult to his creed to ask something like that.Â
âToo much,â you broach gently.
âNo,â he says softly. âYouâre not exactly the first person to ask that. Doubt youâll be the last.â
He pauses for a moment to find the right words. Then with a heavy exhale he gives you an answer to your insanely intrusive question.
âI was pretty young when I took the creed,â he states. âTen, twelve maybe? Too young to be interested in those kinds of things. Never looked back since. To be completely honest, itâs not even something I really think about in adulthood. Never understood the hype.â
âSooo, Iâll take that as a no.â
âNo,â he breathes. âNever kissed anyone.â
Never kissed anyone? Never felt a personâs soft lips against his own or graze his skin? Does that mean he hasnât gotten to experience more than kissing? Licking? Biting? OrâŠ
Do not finish that thoughtâŠ
âHuh⊠Well, thatâs a shame,â you say without thinking, quickly adding â-but at the same time, I completely understand it too! I mean, it shows a lot of self discipline, you know? To resist that kind of⊠temptation. Most people donât have any reason to be disciplined enough to stay chaste. I can admire tha-"
âI said Iâve never kissed anyone, I didnât say I never fucked.â
Thank⊠the Maker⊠youâre not face to face. Because the way your eyes bulged just now wouldâve been downright embarrassing had it been caught. He didnât just say sex or even screwing. The Mandalorian fucks. The alcohol in your blood seems to conjure a brief glimpse of what that might look like before you find enough coherence to shew it away.
ââŠoh,â you breathe out, effectively stopping your rambling. âI-I guess I just assumedâŠâ
A deep exhale blows out of his nose. He hums, seemingly entertained by the foot youâve put in your mouth. But also making the air light between you.
âWell, you assumed wrong.â
The humor in his voice settles your nerves a bit. Thankfully there isnât an awkward air at the sudden change to such a topic despite hardly knowing each other. And oddly enough, it feels easy to talk about it for that very reason.
âYouâre rather chatty when you drink, Mandalorian. I feel like Iâm learning all sorts of things about you tonight.â
âYouâre right,â he breathes. âI spoke without thinking, I apologize.â
âNo, Itâs fine. I donât mind at all. Itâs a relief to know thereâs a man under all that armor and not solid metal.â
He hums again and the noise stirs something in your chest.
âWell, even so⊠Itâs late⊠Probably best if I stop drinking.â
You look into your empty cup. Then glance over to the bottle with barely a drop left inside. Something inside you wilts. Thereâs nothing to keep him here any longerâŠ
âYeah⊠Me too.â
Youâre not sure if you wait for him to move first or if heâs waiting for you. But both of you remain still for nearly a whole minute. Silent and hesitant to end the night. As comfortable as it is, you feel Mandoâs back lean away from yours and you miss the warmth. You turn on the floor to find him standing up as he adjusts his helmet clasp and places his empty cup on the table.
âYou were right. It tasted better shared,â he admits. A satisfied smile curls your lips.
âIf you learned anything about me tonight, Mando, itâs that I am always right when it comes to liquor.â
âI appreciate the hospitality.â
âI appreciate the company.â
You place a hand on the table as an anchor in an attempt to stand up and follow him to the door. But as you try to stand straight, the room spins and your knees buckle.
Nope. Not doing that.
You sit your ass right back down on that cushion before you make an even bigger fool of yourself. Quick to respond, Mando catches your free arm. Making sure you land back down safely.
âYou ok,â he asks, concerned but with a hint of humor.
âPfft. Yeah, Iâm good. I think Iâll just stay down here for a minute,â you chuckle, running a hand through your hair and closing your eyes for a moment.
For sure youâll have a hangover tomorrow. Shit. You work tomorrow. Thereâs a couple things youâre running low on, too. Youâll have to request an order through the trading guild. Thatâll cost credits. Maybe if you get that Chiss man again you can manage a trade and he can throw in those dried flower buds for that tea that keeps getting sold out.
You know youâre already a bit dizzy. But behind closed eyes you feel like your head is swaying. Or rather⊠that itâs being moved. Something warm and firm holds your jaw up and when your eyes flutter open again youâre met face to face with dark silver.
The Mandalorian stands barely a foot in front of you. Visor fixed down on your face. Maybe the wine has made your brain slow but itâs only when you follow the path from his shoulder and down his outstretched arm that you realize whatâs holding your jaw⊠is his hand.
With a subtle pass of his thumb along your cheek you can feel warmth starting to pool in your face. Awareness pricks the hairs on the back of your neck when you realize your position. Sitting on your knees, face barely level to his waist as a wall of steel and muscle towers over you.
âYour cheeks get flushed when you drink,â he mutters.
When I drink. Suuuure.
âNow you know,â you mumble without thinking. It grants you a satisfied hum from his helmet and you feel it travel through your ears and under your skin.
âNow I knowâŠ,â he repeats.
Thereâs no movement, no words. But thereâs something thick in the air. Itâs heavy and enticing. Itâd be so easy to get wrapped up in it with any sudden movement. You look up at him through half lidded eyes and you get a gut feeling that theyâre meeting his. Youâre not sure what his are giving away. But yours have to be hinting something youâve been trying to hide all night.
With a sharp intake of air, Mando steps back and releases your face. Your head drops a little at the loss of support and it follows his direction as he walks towards the front door with quick, heavy steps. With a press of a button on the wall panel, the door panels slide open and just before he steps outside⊠he stops. Not looking back, just standing there at the edge of your home with his stand still resting on the doorway.
âDonât invite me in again.â
And then heâs gone. The door panels shut swiftly, leaving you alone and more confused than when he showed up at your door.
âŠwhat?
âą
Din wishes he could say that the first thing he thinks about when he got home that night was his sleeping kid safe in the crib. Or at the very least about how incredible that wine tasted. But after he undressed and collapsed down onto his bed half drunk, the only thought he couldnât stop thinking about as he stared at the ceiling wasâŠ
Damn⊠itâs been a while.
For the past few years, Dinâs life has flipped around a number of times. Between barely scraping by as a bounty hunter, saving an orphan kid from an imperial psychopath, losing said kid, then having him return and be by his side to reclaim the Mandalorian home-world, thereâs not much time to indulge those kinds of needs. But just because Din found himself being a busy father later in life doesnât make certain things dead.
No. Everything felt very much alive and kicking by the end of that bottle.
Behind closed eyes, his room feels like it swirls. After that wine, his body feels loose and relaxed. Something he rarely gets to experience these days. Images dance across his closed lids. Delicate, slender hands around a handmade cup. A pink flush on smooth skin. Plump tinted lips between his fingers, softly parted and begging to be touched. The intrusive impulse to dip a finger between those lips was so strong he could feel his hand move into the action before he could even think to do so.
All thanks to that one question. That simple, innocent question activated a deep part of his brain that lay dormant. And then he decided to shatter the care free atmosphere by with a crass remark about sex.
Never in his life has he regretted saying something so fast. You barely even know each other. Admittedly, Din isnât exactly a refined person, far from it actually. But after his third glass, any semblance of manners flew right out the window. His mouth did the walking with little thinking involved.
Yet, you didnât get uncomfortable. You handled the slip up with humor instead of getting offended or something just as bad. Using humor to make the air light again. It surprised him how easily you did it. How easy the conversation was all night, really. Itâs not everyday heâs able to let his guard down with another person.
Once he was aware of that, he became aware of everything. How late the hour was, how drunk you both were, and how your bed was right behind where you both sat. Only separated by a simple room divider. Even when he tipped up his helmet, there was a heady herbal scent from you that kept swimming in his nose and it was just as intoxicating as the wine. He couldnât trust himself to stay any longer. And now, in the safety of his own home, he finds himself preoccupied with a mountain of questions.
What kind of person are you? Whatâs your daily life like? What other places have you seen? What troubles you? You seem to be rooted here in Nevarro for the time being. But from what youâve mentioned about your past, you have a kind of nomadic life. What happens if he⊠if the kid gets attached and you decide to move on to another planet? But then again, itâs not like heâs not one to talk though is he?
Loyalty. Solidarity. These are things that have been etched to his core since childhood. But giving those things to something that could be fleeting? Thatâs a risk heâs avoided for most of his life. Those kinds of wounds never heal.
But as much as he tries to distance himself, itâs not always in his control.
Three weeks go by and they couldnât end soon enough. When he offered to work with Teva (or Blue as he usually calls him) on a case-by-case basis, he figured theyâd be more involved than the bounty hunting trade. Heâs spent up to a month off planet at times in order to capture a quarry so itâs not exactly new to him.
But that was when he had the Razor Crest. With a cot to rest in, a weapons locker, and supplies readily at hand. In that regard, the N-1 leaves much to be desired. Plus Dinâs back isnât what it used to be and long rides in that ship are killer. And to add insult to injury, this last case with Zeb was especially complicated to resolve. It left him and the kid completely drained.
After finally landing back in Nevarro with fresh credits, there is absolutely nothing Din wants more than to just go home, bathe, and sleep for at least a day. But heâs got a very hungry green mouth to feed and thereâs no way Din is fixing up any dinner tonight.
Street food it is.
âAlright, weâre making this quick. In and out. Iâll get you as much food as you want and you can pick out one sweet. Not five. One. Got that?â Grogu tilts his head at Din curiously from where he follows behind on the cobblestone street and heâll just take that as a yes.
Dozens of food stalls are gathered at the main square in town as he approaches. Adorned with all sorts of neon signs, string lights and colorful banners. Itâs a busy atmosphere filled with people laughing, vendors calling out for customers to stop by, and sounds of clanking and sizzling as they cook.
Din gravitates towards the skewers stand. He knows Grogu is going to down ten of them by himself so he opts for something easy, filling, and cheap. He catches sight of those spicy chunks of fatty meat searing over lava coals and his mouth waters.
âOkay, which onesss-â
Din reaches down to pick up his son only to find the street bricks.
â-Sssshhhhit,â he hisses under his breath, glancing around. This fucking kid. He knows better than to run off.
The crowd is thick and itâs getting dark. He scans through the sea of people and vendors but doesnât find that familiar pale green.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
With a tap of his helmet side panel he switches to the tracking beacon screen. After enough scares like these heâs learned to have a tracker sewn into his clothes at this point.
Blinking red arrows come into his view and he follows the path. Not caring whose shoulders he budges or what food he knocks out of someoneâs grip to get through. The red arrows turn yellow. Heâs getting close but thereâs still no visual of the kid and heâs starting to panic. He pushes through, scanning side to side and calling out his name in an orchestra of noises without reply.
Yellow turns to green and heâs still out of sight. Heâs tiny and easy to miss. Grogu could be anywhere, he could be in any one of these stalls. What if heâs taken? What if someone else is tracking him? He could be picked up by a total stranger and taken away again.
Just as that thought crosses his mind, thereâs a small separation in the crowd. Big floppy ears come into view and heâs definitely been picked up. But itâs no stranger that holds him.
âAnd here comes dad~â A voice soft as silk rings inside his helmet.
Relief floods his body as well as caution when he taps his screen clear. Only him. Situations like this only happen to him. It couldâve been Karga. It couldâve been anybody. But it had to be you that found him.
It was barely two minutes. But within those two minutes Dinâs head flooded with every worst case scenario possible. And here he is. Happily babbling in your arms like he didnât just give his dad a fucking heart attack.
âI know, I know,â you assure him like you can already tell where his headâs at, trying to speak over all the noise. âDonât be too hard on the little guy. I already gave him a bit of a lecture for running around at night.â
Din wants to. Itâs honestly his first reaction. But a cooler head prevails and he decides against it after a second thought. He reminds himself (once again) that Grogu is still young and that getting angry would only make things worse. What matters is that heâs safe and that he managed to find you.
âAt least he wonât have to hear it twice,â he exhales, pushing out the stress sitting in his lungs. âSorry about him.â
âNo, no sorry needed. Heâs smarter than he lets on. At least he ran to someone he knew. Iâm glad I was around.â
Din opens his mouth to speak but ends up falling short with his words. Now that some of the stress has left his body, his eyes take you in at a second glance. Unclouded by the adrenaline.
Your hair is tied up with a pin with a few loose pieces falling at the nape of your neck and around your face. With the heat persisting into the night, you decided to wear a thin strap tank top that hangs low on your chest. It exposes miles of smooth skin, from your shoulders all the way down the arms wrapped around his kid. A dusty blue apron wraps around your waist over some baggy cargo pants so you mustâve came here right after work. Thereâs a glow from all the neon lights that adorns you and he has to will his mouth to move before he gets caught staring.
âHere.â He extends his hands to you. âI can take him back. Thank you for catching him. Câmon, bud. Let her get back to shopping.â
âItâs no problem,â you assure him with a smile. Your hands hooks under Grogus tiny arms and start to pull him off your torso. âBack to dad you go.â
But the moment heâs barely lifted, he cries out in protest with a shrill whine. Refusing to leave your side. You pull him back in instantly and run a soothing hand on his back.
âOh! Okay, okay. You can stay with me for a minute,â you giggle in a sugary voice to Grogu. Bouncing him on your hip.
You both exchange a look of surprise (as much as his visor can give off anyway). What kind of person are you that Grogu prefers your embrace over his own father? He doesnât know whether to be jealous or impressed.
But itâs getting late, they need to eat and get home and you probably need to get back to your own errands. Dinâs hands extends again to take Grogu but you shake your head with a little smile. Letting him know itâs not an inconvenience to you.
âHere, wanna help me pick out some sweets?â
Grogu coos at your request, toying with the glittering silver chain pendant on your neck. You rest his kid on your hip effortlessly and the motion of it pinches something deep in Dinâs chest. Turning to the assorted trays of sugared fruits on skewers, you list the various kinds for Grogu to pick out. Talking back with him like you can actually understand his little babbles. You answer him with âooh, thatâs a good choiceâ and âthese are my favoritesâ.Â
Din just stands aside, watching the way you both interact and itâs admittedly a bit pleasing to see how natural you are with him. Most people think heâs a pet at first glance. Karga treats him like a newborn. Talking gibberish and doting on him despite him handling a 50 year old. You, on the other hand, just treat him like a regular kid. And itâs refreshing to see.
His sonâs head spins back at his father with the biggest set of sparkling inky eyes and Din can see the pleading question in them. He tilts his helmet at him and reminds him âoneâ. Those large ears deflate a little and you giggle at the interaction. Din offers to pay for your skewer along with Groguâs as another thank you for looking after his son (again). The vendor gathers the treats in paper wrappers to take to go.
You turn to ask Din something, but itâs covered by the noise of yelling and cooking. He tilts his head a bit lower to try and catch what youâre saying. Then, without hesitation, your hand finds purchase on the pauldron on his shoulder. Prompting him to lean in closer to you so you can speak within earshot.
âItâs been a minute since I saw you last,â you remark with a raised voice. âEverything good?â
Shit.
For a second he freezes. Partly at the lack of distance between you, but mostly because the last time he saw you he stormed out of your place like it was on fire without so much as a goodnight. Youâre probably wondering what the hell that was about and he honestly canât answer that himself. Although your expression seems more cheerful than troubled. He crouches closer to your ears and replies with caution, hoping to avoid the direction of that conversation.
âYeah, weâve been um⊠traveling a lot lately. I get contracted by the new republic pretty often these days. Leaving him behind with someone whenever Iâm off planet for too long doesnât seem fair to him so heâs always by my side no matter what.â
âAh, that makes sense. You usually stop by for medkit supplies so when I didnât see you last week I figured you were away.â
Din mentally smacks his forehead. Right. Of course you meant the shop. Because what else would you be implying to a fucking customer? Youâre just making small talk. Something he has never really gotten the hang of. Seems pretty damn easy when heâs drinking thoughâŠ
âWe actually just got back. Too tired to fix something up so I figured Iâd grab us something quick and easy before heading home.â
âUgh. I feel that. When I get home Iâm crashing on the first soft surface I see,â you groan, still bouncing Grogu on the curve of your hip. Those hipsâŠ
No. Stop it.
âBusy day,â he asks and your eyes roll upwards.
âBusy week,â you exclaim. âI swear I think about quitting at least once a day. But I like it too much. Plus itâs the only thing Iâm any good at. Otherwise Iâd probably be some kind of criminal.â You pause then laugh at the thought before adding, âthen youâd probably have to hunt me down, huh?â
That⊠is a scenario that he already knows is going to stick in his brain for a while. Itâs such an enticing thought that he doesnât bother to tell you heâs not in that business anymore. A tiny part of him would much rather have you think heâd chase you. Obviously youâre not serious, but he canât help but lean into the joke.
âI donât know,â he says unconvinced. âMight be pretty easy to find you. All I have to do is look wherever thereâs street food.â
A laugh bubbles out of you and thereâs a strange feeling that radiates in his chest at being able to make you laugh. Pride maybe? No, more like⊠satisfaction.
âDonât underestimate me, Mando. I know my way around the outer rim. Iâd make you work for it,â you say. Taunting him with a knowing smirk.
A smile tugs higher on his hidden face. The thought of you making him work for anything will no doubt be food for thought later. And instinct tells him that mightâve been your intention. But two can play at this game.
Youâre already nearly face to face but he inches even closer, almost close enough for metal to meet skin. Ensuring you catch every word right into your ear.
âIâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.â
Your eyes grow a little wider at the sound of your nickname and he takes pleasure at just how effective it is. Itâs another reminder of that night. A name that was spoken within an intimate atmosphere that only the two of you occupied. And by your expression, that same thought crosses your mind too.
You bite your bottom lip in a smile. The same lips that were between his hands. The only lips he canât seem to forget. The shape, the color, and how fucking edible they look. Heâs even noticed how they pout a little when youâre concentrated on a task. More questions surface.
What do they feel like? What do they taste like? What makes a kiss so good that everyone can recall their first?
The bubble created is suddenly burst by the outside world. The stall vendor gleefully hands over the candied fruit over the counter in their wrappers and you take them with your free hand. Handing the mixed one to Grogu because he couldnât decide on just one flavor. Reality returns to Dinâs head and his thoughts immediately sober up.
What the hell is he doing?
He tears his eyes away. Even if you canât tell, looking at you like that for too long feels wrong. Youâre a good person, youâre trying to live a normal life, and what youâve told him youâre not looking to get involved in any drama. He has to keep reminding himself of those things.
That same instinct to leave hits him again. Because that urge to do something he canât take back flares up again and itâs best to not give that feeling any more energy. For both your sakes. He gestures his hand in a hand-him-over motion, signaling to you and Grogu that itâs time to go.
âAlright, time to go kid. Say goodnight.â
Grogu whines with a mouthful of sweets and a face covered in sugar and it makes him chuckle to himself. Din would normally find the defiance a little cute, if it wasnât for the stunt he pulled earlier. You carefully hand him over with both arms leaning in close and again he feels another pinch in his chest at how carefully you exchange him.
Your bare arms graze against his clothed ones and he pulls away the second he has hold of his kid. He ignores the small current of electricity from the contact and maneuvers Grogu into the crossbody bag to his hip. Which, of course, makes him protest.
âNope. You had your chance. Now you get the bag.â
âAw câmon,â you scold âHe was just playing around. Now heâs in bag jail?â
First the kid and now you? He can tell his son no, but it might be a little harder to tell you that.
âYeah, yeah. Maybe next time heâll think twice about running off in a crowd,â he groans.
Once the kid is settled in the bag, you follow him down. Crouching down, you sit face to face with Grogu as he stuffs his face with the candied fruit. Resting your free hand on his fuzzy head as the other holds your own skewered treat.
âKay, little rebel. Go stuff your face with some good food. And take it easy on your poor dad, alright? Heâs not built for that kinda stress.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean,â he asks, kind of amused by your ribbing. He can count on one hand the people who are undaunted enough to make playful jabs at him.
Your lips twist and your eyes take a tour up to your brows as you think of your reply.
âHmm⊠just the way you get a little impatient sometimes. You were like that when you brought him over and paced my living room for an hour,â you chuckle. âYou seem like the kind of man who gets antsy when somethingâs not in your control.â
A smile threatens to crawl his face. Pretty presumptuous. But he canât deny how true that statement rings. Especially nowadays when itâs not just himself he has to worry about.
âMaybe so,â he replies with a hint of humor in his voice. âPatience isnât really my strong suit. Although this one seems to enjoy testing it.â
âPatience is bitter,â you muse as you rub the top of Groguâs head with your thumb. He coos with delight and the softest gaze glows on your face. Then from your crouched position, your eyes glance back up at Din and add, ââŠBut the fruit is sweet.â
His jaw flexes beneath his helmet, and heat now courses through his veins.
That canât be a good sign. He already enjoys your banter too much as it is. But that look just now was dangerous. It dredges up thoughts he shouldnât have about you. Thoughts like kissing someone he barely knows. Feeling skin on skin. Showing you what a man like him can do to you compared to the boys of your past.
He saw it all over your pretty face when he held it in his hand. That flush on your cheeks, your dilated pupils. Hell, he even saw your heat signature rising in his helmet screen for fuck sake. Thereâs an attraction and thatâs fine (and not completely unreciprocated) but it canât be anything more than that.
You and him live completely different lives. Thereâs no need to uproot your peace and get involved in his complicated affairs. Even if something happened, it wouldnât be long before the allure of the suit and mystery people usually perceive of Mandalorians would turn into repulsion.
Thatâs how itâs gone before. Thatâs the way it is.
âą
Youâre a bad person. A horrible human being and a shameless lowlife. Downright beyond saving.
Iâd like to see you try, Shop Girl.
The damn sentence wonât stop replaying in your head. Itâs not just a nickname. Itâs a nickname he gave you. One thatâs covered in underlying context and memories that only the two of you share. One that peppers your skin with goosebumps when it comes out of that raspy modulated voice. Itâs even worse when your brain starts intrusively placing it in all sorts of sentences.
Thatâs it, Shop GirlâŠ
Youâre doing so well, Shop GirlâŠ
Bend over for me, Shop GirlâŠ
That last one has crawled into your dreams more often than youâd care to admit lately.
You need to get a grip. Itâs just an attraction. Youâve been alone for too long and youâre getting all wound up over a smidge of attention. Heâs just a regular decent person with a kid to take care of who also just happens to have an amazingly muscular body and a voice of sin. Simple as that.
Right. Simple.
After that night at the food stalls, the Mandalorian and Grogu have been visiting your humble Clinic Shop on a more frequently. Usually you'll see them a couple times a week if they're not on one of their long haul trips. Missions? Jobs?
It's not like Mando has any reason to let you know ahead of time. But when a week or so passes with no sign of silver or green, you can't help but feel a little down. You've come to look forward to seeing your regulars. But they grown to being your favorite customers.
And if you're being honest, theres a growing part of you that feels tied to the man in silver beskar. When he's here, the part blossoms. And when he's gone, it feels... wilted. It's unexpected and confusing to say the least. The closest feeling you could label it is homesickness. And truthfully, you're not really sure if you want to feel such a heavy thing towards anybody right now.
There's a lull in the store this hot muggy afternoon. You've already finished your prescription orders, restocked your shelves, even watered all the potted plants outside the entrance. Since you finally have some down time, you figured you might as well get to making some of your popular tea mixes.
On the back counter, you have a variety of dried herbs, flower buds, tea leaves, and a few large mixing bowls. The scent in the shop is incredible right now. Swirling around on the wind propelled by the metal fans around the shop. Spiced and aromatic with a hint of fruitiness. You let the smell fill your lungs and relax your body as you place measured scoops of the mix into small paper bags. A bead of sweat tracks down the back of your neck. Even with pinning your hair up and the strapless wrap you chose to wear today, the heat of the day still clings to your damp skin.
A cool glass of that Andoan wine would be so good right about now...
Maybe it was instinct, or maybe there really is some kind of invisible tie. But something makes your head tilt to the side and glance at the open entrance. And it's then that a glint of sliver light reflects on the stucco walls. A flutter of anticipation strikes through your chest and your eyes are locked at the entrance. Then, that familiar Silver T-visor and a pair of floppy green ears peek around the corner.
The smile that spreads across your cheeks is so big it almost hurts.
"Hey," you exclaim from the back of the store. You leave your station and excitedly make your way across the store to the pair as they step inside.
âItâs been a whi-â
âAh ah, sorry," you cut Mando off mid greeting, halting him with your pointer finger. "Grogu gets first dibs.â
Mando shakes his head but you can tell he's humored. Turning his hip to the side and giving you access to the canvas crossbody where Grogu resides.
âEven though I'm a regular customer," Mando retorts.
If you didnât know any better, youâd think that sounded a teensy bit like jealousy. You smirk, giving eyes only to the little green baby.
âNot when youâre as cute as him.â You say, placing Grogu on your hip and giving him little scritches on his wrinkled head.
âIsnât that right, Kid. Mando wishes he could be half as cute as you.â The child coos at you and Mando shakes his head. But you can tell by his body language that he's at least a little amused.
You walk back to the back counter with the kid in your arms and Mando in tow behind you. And the feeling you have in this moment is oddly... domestic? You're not entirely sure if that's the right word. In your life you've never experienced domesticity. But you figure it's similar to that homesick feeling you get.
You place Grogu on top of your station and pull out an herbal lollipop from your apron for him. You like to keep a few handy for kids and they also help with coughs. The kids inky eyes gleam as he babbles and plunges the sugary candy in his mouth.Â
"Any chance that delivery for those new Pharmakits arrived yet," Mando asks, leaning a hand on the counter next to you.
"They did," you nod. "Any chance you're planning on taking on an army on your next trip?"
He shrugs, tilting his helmet to the side in that way he does when he's being aloof.
"Doesn't hurt to keep one on hand. You never know."
You hum in acknowledgment but inside a pit forms in your stomach. The danger he faces whenever he goes on these "jobs" isn't lost on you. Lately, it's been on the back of your mind more often than not. On his last visit, when he asked about ordering stronger meds and triage supplies, it hit you just how much his long absences affect you. And just the thought of never seeing him or his little boy again stirs up something vile inside.
âYou seem to be busy today,â he remarks, pointing out all the open jars and mixing bowls with various dried leaves and herbs.
His remark takes you out of your thoughts. You must've been silent a second too long for him to change the subject like that. With a deep inhale and slight embarrassment you shrug off the negative thoughts and ground yourself back to reality.
âYes and no. Iâve been restocking while itâs dead to keep busy.â
He leans in a bit to get a closer look at the contents of the bowl. Close enough for you to catch the scent of smoke and musk on his clothes.
âYouâre mixing⊠tea?â
You hum a yes and nod.
âTea can be used for lots of medicinal purposes. Many people prefer natural remedies to pharmaceutical ones. I try to have a mix of both.â
âSo this is medicine?â You sway your head to the side, trying to think of the best way to explain the purpose of the tea.
âKiiind of. You could say itâs preventative.â
âWhat does it prevent?â
âPregnancy.â
A clearing of his throat follows your answer. You turn toward him with a smirk and a raised brow but his visor has now turned away your face.
Most fearsome bounty hunter in the outer rim, everybody.
âYou asked, man,â you chuckle with a shrug.
âGuess thatâs on me,â he says.
âThis is actually one of my best sellers,â you tell him. You grab the wooden scoop and raise up the floral mix, letting the various petals and herbs rain back down into the bowl. The motion makes the sweet scent drive up in the air. âI have customers tell me they donât leave the house before their daily brew.â
âIâm glad business is going well for you,â he deflects, making you fold your smile in your teeth. And suddenly your brain sees a prime opportunity.
âYou know, MandoâŠ,â you drawl as you mix the petals. âIf youâre ever in a pinch and you need some, I could give you a sample.â The way his helmet jerks to face you almost breaks your nonchalant smile.
âThatâs um⊠very generous but itâd be wasted on me.â His body straightens stiffly and you can tell the topic makes him a bit uneasy. But you press on anyway.
âYou sure? You can never be too safe. Iâm sure any visitors would appreciate it.â He sighs deeply and turns away, shaking his head in annoyance.
God, this is too much fun. Teasing him is so easy. If it wasnât for the helmet you bet heâs sweating right now. He might look cool and collected. But after drinking with him, you know thereâs in fact a man under all that metal.
âIâm sure,â Mando confirms. âI'm not seeing anyone at the moment.â
And thereâs the answer youâre looking for.
Was it a bit sneaky? Yeah. Yeah, it was sneaky. But it rules out the theory that reason he told you not to invite home again was because heâs currently taken. Itâs still an enigma as to why. But honestly thereâs still the gut feeling that you did something to make him uncomfortable that night.
Maybe you crossed a line with one of your questions. You tend to ask a lot of questions. Your filter also isnât everybodyâs flavor. Even so, you had a great time talking, even joking around with him. Youâve come to cherish that night in your memory. And the thought that you obliviously mightâve said something to offend Mando in any way makes your chest ache.
But if that was the case then why has he been stopping by your store more frequently since then? He always says heâs restocking his med kit but you get the feeling thereâs more to it than that. Almost as if heâs checking up on you. Making sure youâre doing ok. And above all, thatâs what scares you.
Itâs scares you how good that thought makes you feel.
âPicking up an order!â An unfriendly voice bellows from the entrance where a Trandoshan man in fine robes stands waiting. âNameâs Samir Tâar.â
It takes a second to snap back into action. But you slap on your best customer service smile and leave your task for later. Rounding the corner past Mando and the kid and walking to the Medicine Cabinet. Wiping the non-existent dust on your hands on your waist apron.
âHi, yes! Iâll grab that for you right now.â
The Trandoshan stands waiting at the counter as you sort through the assorted orders in the glass case. Looking for the right name tag and plucking the tied linen bag. You dont turn your eyes toward him, but Mandoâs pressance is all your body is aware of. You can tell heâs miandering through the shop, looking at various items on the shelves. Which, to you, is a bit funny since hes been here plenty of times by now.
Is he playing the curious customer right now because thereâs someone here?
You rest the tied bag next to the register as you run the total. All while the Trandoshan taps his clawed fingers impatiently on the check out counter.
ââKay with the compounded medicine and the herbal soak salts, that puts you at⊠fifteen credits today.â
âIt was twelve the last time.â
âYyyeesss, some of the ingredients for the meds were hard to come by this time around. Outer rim shipping routes, and all that,â you smile, trying to humorously reason with the man.
âAnd thatâs supposed to be my fault? Just make it the same price as before and Iâll be on my way already.â
Ugh, great. One of those.
âI understand where youâre coming from, really. But fifteen is pretty fair considering the initial cost of acquiring ingredients of this high quality. Canât beat the price compared to those New Republic clinics-"
âNonononono," he waves with both hands in disapproval. âIâm not paying a single credit more for something I can make myself.â
Thatâs kind of the point of it buying here, right? To save yourself the trouble of making it?
âSorry. Price is firm," you say confidently but kindly. "Buuut, how about if I throw in a couple sample heating pain patches. Free of charge,â you chirp, unfazed by his condescension.
Work with me, guy. Thereâs a man packing heat in the backâŠ
âHow about I give you ten for the order and leave? I donât need you to peddle your-â
Itâs a hand that shuts him up. Not yours, as much as it twitches to swipe that bag and toss in it the trash. No. This hand is big. Leather clad. And planted firmly on the counter between you and the customer.
âYou can pay the fifteen or you can leave. But what you wonât do,â Mando leans in towards the Trandoshan for effect. â-is talk to her like that again. Make your choice.â
With his chest pressed to the back of your shoulder, you struggle to not squirm. You can feel his heat on your body. His frame eclipses yours from behind. The smell of gun smoke and musk caresses your nose and you die a little inside. But itâs his words that make you want to melt into a puddle.
He didnât just ask, he demanded for you to be treated with respect. Not that you canât hold your own when it comes to defending yourself against snarky customers. But the way Mando didnât even hesitate to intervene on your behalf. It stirs up all sorts of thoughts.
Oh maker, you really are a shitty person. The man stands up for you and all you can think about is how hot he sounded.
The Trandoshan swallows hard. Mando might as well a knife to the guyâs throat with the look of silent terror on his reptilian face. Without even breaking eye contact with Mando, he stuffs his clawed hand in his pockets, and pulls about 20 credit chips without counting. Letting them clatter on the counter as he tosses them.
âH-here,â he stutters. âFifteen is fair.â With that he snatches his order from the countertop and makes a hasty exit.
âHave a nice day~,â you sing-song as he scurries out onto the street.
You shift your eyes up to Mando, his palm still pressed flat against the counter with his other hand thumbing his belt. His visor follows the customer as he leaves and you can tell that his body language doesnât relax until the heâs completely out of sight.
âFuckerâŠ,â he mutters under his breath. When he finally turns his visor to you, he finds a knowing little smirk on your face.
âWhat?â
âYou know, if you really wanted to scare him, you couldâve just pulled out your blaster.â
His visor turns away and he takes a step back as if heâs been caught doing something out of character. And if it wasnât for his confident stance, youâd almost say he got a little flustered just now.
âI didnât like the way he spoke you,â he grumbles. Which only makes you giggle.
âYouâre right,â you agree with a serious tone. Slamming your palms on the counter. âThatâs the last straw! Iâll have to close and resort to a life of crime after all!â
Although you canât read his face, his body language says it all. He tilts his head to the side in a way that can only mean âare you fucking kidding meâ and it only makes you smile harder.
âCâmooon, itâs funny,â you say. But heâs still not charmed.
âDoes he always treat you like that,â he asks like he needs to know for certain.
You fold your lips between your teeth to hide your smile. Heâs concerned for you and you canât help but bathe in it. At least for a little bit.
âAnd if I said yes?â
âIâm being serious.â
âItâs fine, Mando. Itâs really not a big deal for me. Look, if I let every snippy customer get to me, I wouldnât have a business. Iâm a big girl. I can fight for my honor all on my own, donât you worry.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âYeah? What is your point then?â
He steps in closer. Forcing you crane your neck to face him. Your backside unconsciously presses against the back of the counter and youâre pinned. Heâs impossibly close. Close enough to see your eyes reflected on the inky black screen. Knowing heâs captured your full attention, he hits you with a bombshell that devastates you.
âI wouldnât let anyone disrespect you when I can do something about it,â he says crystal clear, lowering his voice. âIf someone gives you trouble, theyâll deal with me before they mess with you... Understand?â
That shuts you right up. Your playful expression falls, now replaced with silent astonishment. He keeps saying things that reach deep inside you, making your chest tight. Words like that make it hard to breathe.
You feel utterly captured and itâs no wonder he was the best hunter in the outer rim. Because even though heâll defend your honor and call you sweet nicknames⊠all he has to do is stand his ground in front of you to make you feel like prey. And fuck, do you wanna be caughtâŠ
âOk,â you breathe when you find the courage. âI understand now.â
âGoodâŠâ
Silence streches between you and it feels as though youâre both waiting for something to happen. Something that feels like itâs been teetering on the edge since the night you drank together. Itâs connected and deep in a way youâve never experienced before. You can tell itâs something heâs afraid to say out loud.
What youâre both afraid to say out loud.
He doesnât move. Doesnât add anything to his statement. Heâs got you locked in his gaze with no escape. And for a moment you wonder if heâll take hold of your jaw again. Goosebumps rise to your skin because it wants so badly to close the gap.
Suddenly, a call rings from the vambrace on Mandoâs forearm, abruptly breaking the tension. At first he hesitates to address it, still locked onto you. But after the second ring he lets out an aggravated sigh and steps away to check the incoming call.
You walk back to your work table and mixing bowl of tea to give yourself something to do while your breathing returns to normal. Scooping a measured cup from a large jar of dried leaves before adding it in.
Grogu sits with his little feet dangling over the table, now finished with the lollipop and looking at the candy-less stick with droopy ears. And before Mando turns to look, you sneak his son another herbal lollipop from your apron.
"Don't tell your dad," you whisper, pressing your index finger over your lips. Which earns you a happy little "Batu" in understanding.
Mando is pacing around now. Conversing with a gruff sounding Lasat. You donât eavesdrop per se, but words like ânew leadâ, âinvestigationâ, and âhigh-riskâ get your ears to perk up.
âShit,â he sighs deeply once the call is done. Planting his hands on his hips.
âWork call?â
âThey like to keep me busy, thatâs for sure. Best not keep them waiting.â
âR-right! The pharmakits."
You walk towards side of your shop in the back closet where your new inventory sits in their delivery crates. Grabbing one case but then after a second thought grabbing another before turning back and handing them to Mando. When you return Grogu is already back in his father's tote still nursing his treat.
âCouple things," you disclaim, handing the cases to him. "Keep these in a dark cool place if you can. Heat can spoil some of the medicine. And if you ever find yourself needing the epibacta, Iâd advise you to take in a safe place. This dose will knock you out cold for a while. Emergencies only.â
He takes the cases by the handles and gives you a nod of understanding.
âI appreciate it. Iâll try to avoid needing it.â
âJust⊠be safe.â
âI willâŠâ
Another beat of silence. At this point it's starting to feel like you're waiting on the other person to break the ice. But after a moment, he clears his throat.
âWell... Until next time, Shop Girl.â
âUntil next time,â you repeat.
He really should stop calling you that. But you just canât bring yourself to stop him. What do even tell him if he asks why?
You turn to the holopad on the front counter and check the inventory list to give your hands something to do. Chewing your bottom lip as walks towards the exit. One step, then anotherâŠ
âAnd thank you,â you quickly add before he steps out. His foot stalls just before reaching the street and you tap on the screen pretending not to notice. Your eyes glance up to him, catching his helmet peer at you over his shoulder ââŠfor stepping in.â
âAnytime,â he says softly. He step out into the street and you exhale a breath you didnât know you were holding. You lean on the counter with your chin propped in your palm, now free to watch them go without notice.
Grogu turns back to look at you one last time, his tiny arm fighting against the fabric of his bag before popping out and waving at you. The adorable gesture makes you giggle. The little guy must know exactly how stinking cute he is. You wiggle your fingers back at him from behind the counter. Mando takes notice of his kid, turns his head back, and finds your gaze.
For a moment, everythingâs frozen. People cross and mix in the street between you. Life seemingly goes on like any other day for everyone in town. But in your eyes, thereâs only him. Only bright silver fills your vision. After a moment, Mando raises a hand for a final farewell, and in the next, heâs gone. Blended into the crowd.
An ache spreads in your chest, and that confirms it. You canât deny that what youâve been pushing down for months isnât just an attraction. Strangers can be attracted to each other but he feels like anything but.
You like him. You like how you feel when heâs around and how safe his presence feels. You like that little skipped beat you get when something you said earns even the smallest chuckle from him. You like that he trusts you around his kid.
And you love that he keeps coming back.
Youâve tried to rationalize as just a simple customer acquaintance. But you canât keep kidding yourself. Its always felt more than that. And you want to know more about him.
At the end of the day, you roll down the metal doors of your humble apothecary and walk the same 15 steps up to your home as you do everyday. You bathe, put on your most comfy shirt and sleep shorts, make yourself a simple meal, and wind down for the night. Itâs been your routine everyday since you made this place your home.
Only tonight, despite all your trinkets, all your memories, and all your comforts, tonight your home feels a bit empty. Like something important has been removed and you canât place what it was. With your dinner bowl in hand, you almost take your seat on the couch before thinking twice on it and choosing the floor of your living room instead tonight.
You actually find it to be pretty comfortable. More grounding. You only wish you had something warm to lean back on.
âą
Din thought Guild Master Greef Karga had an inflated ego. But High Magistrate Greef Karga makes that Karga look like a Jedi monk.
He finds himself sitting on a leather chase with his legs propped on the window ledge in Kargaâs high tower office. He watches him spread and maneuver a 3D hologram model of Nevarro and the town. His voice filled with ambition as he explains all his new projects for the upcoming year.
âWeâll put the lodges here, here, and here. Theyâll have access to the hot springs in the crawling canyons and docks will be built around the water edges. Iâve spoken with that lovely Twiâlek bathhouse owner and sheâs spending her best architects to Nevarro as a personal favor to me. Itâs going to be the jewel of the rim I tell you!â
Much of the dialog goes over Dins head. Mostly because heâs dead tired and currently operating on less than four hours of sleep. They only landed a couple hours ago from another grueling mission. He partly listens to Kargaâs plans, partly watches Grogu quietly sit on the hologram table as he stuffs his mouth with blue cookies his âuncleâ has given him. But mostly, Din gazes out one of the many windows in his 360 degree office. Watching the sun set over the canyons and turn the sky a dusty pink.
The shiny bronze protocol droid shuffles around the office with a silver tray with two crystal glasses of spotchka. He offers a glowing glass to Karga who gladly takes it. Then the droid starts to approach Din with the platter, offering him a glass as well.
âUh no no, he doesnât drink,â Karga quickly corrects, taking a momentary pause from his plans. The shiny droid fumbles a bit, flustered, then offers an apology before scuttling away with the tray.
Mando doesnât even bother to correct them. Too much energy. Itâs true, heâs never accepted alcohol in front of Karga. Especially in those early guild days when trust was low. But even to this day, Din doesnât drink around people.
Well⊠most people, that is.
An image of last time Din saw you pops into his head. That thick, slightly mussed hair tied up with a hair stick. Dewy skin. All smiles and laughter. You wore a deep blue torso wrap that time, His eyes kept following the lines of your collar bones and all that exposed skin seemed to glow in the reflected sunlight in the shop.
And those lips. Those goddamn pink tinted lips that he canât get out of his head. If thatâs not the definition of beauty he doesnât know what is.
Your teasing is something heâs growing used to. But that day you pushed too far. You werenât taking him seriously and you shouldnât be the only one who gets to tease, right? When he cornered you against the counter, he made it known just how serious he was about defending you. That flush came back to your cheeks and your breathing had picked up. You had no idea, but your eyes had found his and it made heat pool in his lower abdomen as he got lost in the color of them.
In that moment, Din wrestled back the impulse to lift you up on that countertop, spread those perfect legs and-
â-Right, Mando?â Kargaâs voice interrupts just as that train of thought was getting good. Din turns his visor over to him.
âHmm?â
âYou just agreed to let the kid spend the night here.â
âRight. Yeah,â Din scoffs. âWas that before or after I sold my ship to the Jawas,â he replies in a gruff tone. Karga doesnât find the sarcasm amusing.
âAlright, alright.â
âMaybe Iâll sell them my armor while Iâm at it.â
âI get it,â he exclaims. âYou werenât even listening! I was talking about the space port proposal and I canât even tell where you clocked out. That's not like you, Mando.â
âIâm tired. I just got back from a long trip.â Kargas eyes glance between Din and the window he's been looking out from.
âI wouldnât say tired. More like⊠Distracted.â
He says the word with an insinuation Din would rather do without.
âItâs nothing,â he deflects.
âHey, you know me, Mando. Iâm not one to judge,â Karga says, throwing his hands in the air. âIf thereâs anything on your mind Iâm all ears. Money, politics, work, women-â
âThereâs nothing to discuss. Iâm fine," Din deadpans.
Kargas covers Grogus ears, who is too preoccupied by his munching to mind.
âSounds like you need to get laid.â
Maker...
âYouâre sordid,â he grumbles, shaking his head and turning back to the window. Karga just laughs. Amusement written all over his wrinkled face.
The arguments were one of the main things that changed between them over the last few years. Now they bicker like two old friends instead of two business associates. But one thing that has never changed is the way Karga tries to pressure him into revealing things out of him. Imperfectly human things.
Heâd offer Din all sorts of things like spice or Twiâlek bathhouses just to see if he was capable of being tempted. And right now⊠thereâs only one other person Din can think of capable of doing that.
âYou know what I think? I think youâre starting to outgrow this lone wolf lifestyle of yours,â he speculates. âYouâre a father now. Donât you think the little one needs a mother?â
Dins helmet swivels back to Karga.
âDonât you think you should stick to governing your town?â
âI was just getting to that," Karga exclaims excitedly. "You know we really should consider moving a few of the-â
âHere we goâŠ,â Din sighs to himself.
What shouldâve been a quick visit has turned into a one sided yap session. Itâs been a couple weeks since he left and heâs eager to re-supply for his next run with Zeb. Heâll need to head to the square at some point as well. His home is in desperate need of a re-stock. And of course, a visit to the clinic probably wouldnât be a bad idea if heâs already in the area.
Even from up here, your store can be seen at the far corner of the plaza. And every couple minutes, he can see you. Popping in and out of the small store and rearranging some of the potted plants outside. People greet you from the street and you turn to wave back.
Itâs getting harder and harder to find excuses to go there that sound necessary. Last time he was there he picked up two new pharmakits, even though another two regular medkits sit unopened in his home. Heâs been buying that energy tea you make, despite him being a kaf drinker his whole life. He keeps going back for shit he really doesnât need. But if he was pressed to give a better reason, itâs mostly because he feels a need to check on you.
True, Nevarro has become significantly safer, but that doesnât make it safe. Especially for a woman living completely on her own. Youâre a kind hearted, giving person in a galaxy that does nothing but take. And someone like that should be protected. Heâs looked the other way too many times in the past and he doesnât want to be that person anymore. And plus the kid enjoys the visits.
Sure, the kid. Keep telling yourself that, DinâŠ
A chiss man with a floating pallet of goods approaches your shop entrance and your attention turns from watering the plants to greet the vendor with a bright smile. You speak animately. And it would normally be endearing, if it wasn't directed towards another man. In the privacy of his helmet, Din grimmaces.
He shouldnât be surprised. Youâre well traveled, knowledgeable. Itâs no wonder youâre able to buy products from so many places. But this particular vendor is getting a bit too close for Dinâs comfort.
As usual, you talk with much enthusiasm. Sparking a conversation with the man. Itâs clear youâre familiar with each other by the body language you both give off. And heâs not sure if itâs because you regularly get inventory from the man, or something beyond that.
You turn around on the balls of your feet to dip back inside the shop and as you do youâre completely oblivious to the way the Chissâs head tilts to the side so his crimson eyes can roam your backside. And the only reason Din caught it was because the binocs in his visor seem to have unconsciously been turned on by his finger on his vambrace.
You return to with a small wooded box and open the lid to show him mineral salts, the kind heâs seen you make herbal soaks with. The vendor offers a large lidded glass jar of some kind of dried purple flower buds from his cart. With the added exchange of some credit chips, thereâs more talking and smiling. Something he said makes you laugh as you sign his holopad and Din has to flex his fingers to stop them from clenching into a fist.
Enough. Stop watching.
The mental check forces Dins attention to shift back to whatever Karga keeps droning on about. You can associate with whoever you damn well please. Itâs none of his concern who you do business with or what your personal life is like. Din nearly turns his visor away. But out of the furthest corner of his eye, he catches something he canât tear away from.
The distance between the Chiss and you has suddenly shrunk. The moment unfolds in slow motion as his eyes chew on every second. The Chiss steps closer to lean down thenâŠ
Dinâs arms uncross when the Chiss leans in close to your face. And before he knows it, the fucker plants a quick peck on your cheek. And you return it! The whole exchange lasts less than a second before you wave each other goodbye and he goes his separate way. You return inside with the product like nothing and Din sits there, completely rattled.
What⊠the fuck?
Was it a casual kiss? Did you even know that he was checking you out? If you did, was that a friendly goodbye gesture or was it flirtatious? That son of a bitch gets to walk around with bliss on his cheek all day now. Oddly enough, thatâs what puts Din over the edge. A complete fucking stranger knows how your lips feel and he doesnât.
Never in his life has he harbored thoughts like these. Itâs downright pathetic. He feels corrupted.
âFuck it,â he growls to himself beneath his breath.
â-Anyway, back to my point. I was considering having a port built for- hey!â
Before Karga has a chance to monologue further, Din has picked up his son from the edge of the deskâgrubby hands still clinging to the bag of cookiesâand has placed him right into Karga arms.
âI need you to watch over him for the night. Iâll come back for him in the morning.â
âOkay then? Fine by-.â Din doesnât bother to listen because thereâs no ending to that sentence that matters to him in this moment. He makes his exit, the slide doors opening as he nears them.
âHey! Where do you think youâre going all puffed up like that?â
âI need to settle something,â he tosses back before letting the doors shut behind him.
The sun is getting low and a few other vendors are starting to take down their signs and close their doors. Youâre probably getting ready to close up for the day yourself. Hopefully heâs able to catch you before then.
Each step on the cobblestone is heavy with purpose. And it's not unoticed the way several people on the street see an armor clad Mandalorian and scurry out of his way with a petrified look on their faces. But right now he doesn't particularly care. Right now everything in his head is clouded with the exception of one objective.
From a couple stores away, you catch him approaching from your peripheray. And he's not sure how to describe it, but it's like something in your body language softens when you see him. Your shoulders become less tense, your eyes gleam, and you cast him that bright toothy smile that could stop any man's heart.
âAh! Hey! Itâs been a while, Mando! Howâs-â
âI need to have a word with you.â
Both your expression and your hand freeze momentarily in place, minus a suspicious quirk in your brow.
âOkaaay, you have my attention,â you chuckle, but thereâs a nervous tone riding on it. âWhat can I do for you today?
âI need to speak with you," you tells you bluntly. "Privately.â
Confusion paints across your face and your smile falls a bit. Understanding how serious his request is.
âLike, right now,â you ask hesitantly.
âPreferably, yes,â he answers.
âOk, yeah sure. Um⊠Iâm just about to close up and we can head upstairs in a minute.â You start to turn away but then quickly turn back to him and immediately add âor we can go somewhere youâre more comfort-â
âItâs fine,â Din quickly interjects, stopping that train of thought. âThis wonât take long anyway.â
You blink at him a couple times and give him a quiet âok thenâ before turning around and preparing your shop to close.
Seems that Dinâs command from his last visit was taken seriously. Regret over those words washes over him. If heâs being honest, being inside your home again sets off several red lights in his head. But heâs already on the verge of blurting out something teetering on the edge of his brain. Better to wait until heâs behind closed doors and away from any prying eyes. Or flirtatious vendors. This shouldnât be complicated. Heâll make it quick.
He decides to wait around the corner of the shop where the stone steps meet your front door. He leans against the wall with his arms crossed and his finger nervously tapping his arm brace. After a few minutes you round the corner with your bag over your shoulder and lead the way into your home. Instinctively, he looks around for any eyes before entering and closing the door behind him.
âSo whereâs your boy,â you ask, tossing your bag on the couch and walking towards the kitchen. âI have to say Iâm kind of surprised not to see him on your hip. You seem inseparable.â
Your voice is chipper but he can tell by your stiff body and lack of eye contact that youâre not entirely comfortable. For a moment Din reconsiders this encounter. But no. The sooner he this bug out of his system the better.
âHeâs⊠spending the night with a friend,â he answers. Grabbing one of those ceramic cups from the cabinet, you fill it with water from the sink and heâs starting to think that youâre only doing that to keep your hands busy.
âAaww, a sleepover? Is it his first-â
âIf you donât mind,â he cuts off. âIâd like to get to my point.â
âOh⊠Y-yes, I'm sorry. Iâm rambling,â you say sheepishly. âIâm justâŠ,â you take a deep breath, rest the cup of water on the counter, and lean back against it. Eyes fixed to the floor.
ââŠitâs just what you said the last time you were here. And the way you approached me earlier, you seemed kinda⊠I donât know, upset? I know you donât wanna be here so Iâm wondering what I did to upset you that youâd come here.â
Damn it⊠Heâs such an asshole.
He shouldâve never said that. You've been thinking this entire time that youâre at fault for his shitty social skills. Truthfully, with the way that wine had his head so deliciously foggy, he had to leave before his body did something it was aching to do, begging him to do. But how does he even begin to explain that?
âYou didnât do anything,â he answers immediately. But thinks on it once more. âWell⊠technically you did. But Iâm not upset with you.â
âYouâre not,â you ask him sheepishly.
âIâm not,â he assures.
A beat passes in silence as you chew over his words.
âOkaaay,â you say with a smirk, ânow you really got my attention.â
That mischievous tone travels through Dinâs helmet, in his ears, and settles warmly in the pit of his stomach. Something about the combination of your sweet voice and relaxed shift in your body language makes this whole interaction even more nerve wracking.
âSooo, you wanted to talk to me about something I did?â
âRight.â
âOkay, sooo...â He feels you urging him to continue but now Din finds himself more cautious of his words now. If youâve been silently worried about offending him the last thing he needs is for this to come off wrong way.
âItâs⊠a bit hard to explain,â he exhales. If he could pinch his brow right now he would. âTo put it plainly, the night we drank together, you said something thatâs been⊠stuck in my head.â
âWas it the thing about the name?â
âN-no.â
âWas it the Pantora story?
âNo.â
âWas it the comment about knowing my liquor? Because I like a drink from time to time but I donât have like a problem or anything-â
âNo- Can I finish,â he asks impatiently.
âOkay, okay. Sorry. Go ahead.â
âWhen we were drinking, and talking⊠we said a lot of things and got into some deep conversations. And at one point, you asked me if I ever kissed anyone before. I said no back then because⊠I've never given it any thought in the past. But now itâs got me⊠curious.â
Your quirk your brow at him.
âCurious how?â
âI want to know what itâs like,â he answers plainly.
â⊠Sorry, what?â
âI need this⊠curiosity out of my head. Itâs driving me crazy and I need it out of my system. So I figured⊠since youâre the one who mentioned it in the first place, you can help me kill it.â
âYouâre⊠Okay so, hold onâŠ,â you say with a shaky breath. âAre you⊠asking me to kiss you?â
âThatâs⊠an oversimplification. But yeah.â
âYouâre asking me to be your first kiss? Am I understanding you right?â
Maker, you ask a lot of questions. Are you always like this? You did the same exact thing when he gave you the wine. On any other day it wouldâve been endearing but he didnât anticipate the conversation lasting longer than a minute. Now his request sounds more and more lecherous with each passing second.
âI wonât bother you again after this. You have my word. Itâs completely casual. Just killing a curiosity.â
âThereâs a preeetty common phrase about curiosity and loth cats that goes differently.â A giggle tumbles out of your mouth on the tail end of that sentence and humility crawls under his skin.
âSorry to waste your time.â He starts to turn towards the nearest exit when you step in to stop him. Placing a hand briefly on his arm in the space between his armor and the contact sends a current of electricity up his spine.
âNo wait, donât be like that,â you toy with him.
âIâm not laughing,â he spits. But you still have the nerve to giggle.
âItâs okay, Mando,â you laugh assuredly.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs ridiculous. I hate it. I hate that you put this in my head.â
You fold your lips between your teeth to try to hide your amusement. But you still canât help but crack a smile a little at his frustration. He basically just confessed to having this obsession for months and he can tell by your smug expression that youâre enjoying how incredibly uncomfortable he is about this.
âYouâre right. Iâm⊠sorry,â you say under your breath. Trying to fix your face.
Thereâs a beat of silence. Stepping in closer, he tilts his head down to you. Locking you in his gaze. He takes pleasure in being nearly a full head taller and the way your breathing picks up before he says in a low gruff voiceâŠ
âNo, youâre not.â
You smile behind your hand as your eyes dance across his visor, unknowingly locking eyes with the man beneath. You know youâre not sorry, just like he knows heâs not particularly sorry either. Itâs not just this moment. It goes back to every interaction youâve had together. The banter, the nicknames, the visits. Heâs as much to blame as you are. And then⊠you slowly you shake your head, agreeing with him and confirming his suspicion.
Fuck, youâre cute. He hates that he loves how cute you are. He hates himself for not being stronger.
âOk,â you nearly whisper. Looking up at him with the sweetest eyes. âIâll help you.â
âą
âIs all this really necessary?â
Din currently sits on the floor of your living room. The same spot as last time in fact. Your were the one that insisted on it and honestly he couldn't bring himself to tell you no. Since he sat down in the soft carpet, you've been flitting around your home turning off lamps, closing blinds, and covering any reflective items. Which, admittedly, he's greatful for. But the more time he spends here, alone with you, the more he's not going to want to leave.
âItâs not everyday you get your first kiss, Mando. I wanna make sure itâs a good one. I wish I could re-do mine.â
Gloves fingers flex and stretch restlessly on his knees as you approach the last lamp sitting on a side table in the living room and pause.
âAre you sure about this?â
Fuck no heâs not. But the sooner he does this, the sooner he can find some normalcy in his head again.
âFlip the switch," he says in a low modulated voice.
You fold in a growing smile before taking a deep breath and flicking the switch. Bathing the entire home in inky darkness. The silhouette of you through turns to hues of thermal green and red, carefully maneuvering through your living room by memory before finding your seat in the floor in front of him. And with slight hesitation, Din reaches up to remove the last barrier he has.
âCan you see anything?â
âNot a bit,â you answer.
With that confirmation, he unclasps the chin strap and slowly lifts the helmet up and off. He blinks several times to adjust his vision before finding the outline of the table and placing his helmet there. On the return, his head bumps into your outstretched hand. Not knowing that you had moved.
âAgh.â
âSorry sorry,â you pull away. âGive me a moment, Iâll find you.â
Your hands search in the dark for him. He canât see much but he can tell your hands land on nothing by the way the air between you moves and he doesnât feel any contact on his person. So he reaches out, bumping into your arms and taking hold of them. Following the line of your forearm until he reaches your hands.
âHere," he murmurs. Gloved hands wrap around your wrists and gently lift them up. He guides your hands forward untilâŠ
You let out a small gasp when your hands find the warmth of his bare face. Soft and giving as opposed to the cold, unyielding beskar. Their movements are slow and explorative. Running your thumbs over his stubble. Surprisingly his hands donât release their grasp. His leather clad digits press against the racing pulse in your wrist as his thumbs run over the back of your palm.
âThis help?â
âYes, thank you,â you whisper.
From sound of rustling on the rug, Din can sense your body leaning in. Your breath brushes over his skin for a moment before something warm presses against his chin and it takes a second to register that itâs your mouth. You ease him into the build up and heâs greatfull for it. Jaw. Then cheek. Then just grazing the furthest corner of his mouth.
And then⊠contact.
At first it doesnât feel like much. Just something soft and warm pressing against his mouth. What most people refer to as a peck, he assumes. But itâs when you barely pull back and return for another that a shiver wracks his skin. Your lips lock in the return, molding together in perfect unison. And itâs fucking electric.
Just by feel alone, he senses that your lips are slightly open. So he mimics you. Giving his jaw just enough slack to respond as you go in again. The sensations have his mind in a thick fog. The soft flesh, the sweet taste, the faint suction. His skin feels like thereâs live wires going off underneath. Giving in completely, he finally returns the kiss. Pressing into it with more confidence.
You hum against his mouth, and he dies a little inside.
Thatâs when the real hunger builds. Thereâs a slow simmering heat rising between you now. Without thinking, his hands grip your wrists a little harder. Pulling you in closer. The kiss grows a bit stronger with each return back into each other with no loss of contact. Lingering longer and breathing against one another.
He feels your head tilt more to the side and again he mimics your movement. The break only lasts a fraction of a moment. But in the re-entry, the tip of your soft tongue happens to brush his mouth. Sweet wetness coats his bottom lip and itâs in that instant Din feels all restraint leave his body.
Taking your face in his hand, he kisses you open mouthed, inviting you in. Your tongues slowly graze one another and if he fucking died in this moment heâd be ok with it knowing that he got to know how you taste.
The hunger becomes unbearable. Soon enough the breathing becomes heavier and the air becomes hot. Your arms end up wrapping over his shoulders, pulling him deeper and heâs more than happy to dive further. Another small noise escapes your throat and the vibration travels through his entire body.
He needs to feel you. To taste you. Devour you. He needs you.
A break for air is the only thing that throws him back into semi-consciousness as you pull away. The heat built up between you makes him dazed. Hot breaths fill the small space between your lips as you lean your forehead against his.
âMando?â
âYes,â he responds in a raspy whisper. A few moments pass as you collect your words and catch your breath.
âIs this really just about curiosityâŠ?â
Your words lean more towards a statement than a question. Thereâs no point in denying it now. As much as he tried to convince himself or rationalize his strange request, he does feel a pull towards you. Much more complicated than just attraction. The more he sees you, learns about you, and talks with you, the more⊠inevitable you feel to him. Thereâs a gravity to you that he canât escape from. Nor does he want to.
âYes and no.â
âWhat does that mean?â The breath of your question brushes the heated skin of his cheek. And right now, he can't think of any answer that wouldn't give him up.
So he lets it fly.
âItâs not just the kiss Iâm curious about.â
The silence in the air is thick. The only thing between you are the sounds of both of you catching your breath. Itâs possible he might have ruined everything with that one sentence. But itâs the truth. It had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with you. Your kindness, your banter, your hospitality. All of it.
Thereâs no way of telling what youâre thinking at the right now. Itâs in this moment that he wishes the lights werenât out so he can at least read your expression. But then after what seems like an eternity, your forehead nudges against his and you blow a deep sigh of relief. Arms still draped over his shoulders.
âOh good⊠I thought it was only me,â you confess with a skittish laugh.
And that tightly pulled restraint finally snaps inside him when he hears that.
Without any hesitation, he dives back in. Kissing you like a man starved. Just like that night, he feels drunk. Only this time itâs on the taste of you and the feeling of your hands finally on him. Itâs that thought that drives him to rip off his leather gloves and toss them aside without breaking contact once. His bare hands find your waist and the strip of bare skin between your shirt and linen pants.
âIs this what you meant,â you pant. âWhen you told me not to invite you in again.â
âYeah... it is.â He pants the confession as his mouth trails down the line of your jaw and finding your neck in the dark.
âThatâs a relief,â you chuckle. âI was worried I offended you.â
âThe only thing thatâs offensive is that I canât see that pretty pink flush on your face right now.â
âShould I get a blindfold,â you tease.
What a fucking woman. The mental image of you in a blindfold, only a blindfold, pours fuel on an already blazing fire. But for now, heâs more than ok feeling his way around tonight.
âNext time.â
It comes out of his mouth confidently and without hesitation. Because you both know there will be a next time. Heâs bitten into the forbidden fruit and now heâs addicted to the taste.
With a simple shift, his hands dip beneath the thin fabric of your shirt and find the delicious heat of your soft belly.
"Lay down for me."
With your arms draped over his shoulders, you eagerly comply. Slowly dragging him down with you. He careful not to press all his weight on youâbeing crushed by beskar would definitely kill the moodâbut it doesn't stop you from pulling tighter. Craving connection. All while Din rains wet kisses and soft bites upon your pulse.
So this is what your skin tastes like. Slightly salty, sweet, and smooth between his teeth. He might eat you whole if heâs not careful. He nips at the skin of your exposed collar bone and you writhe. Arching to press your chest to his. So he decides to give it some attention.
âTake it off," you pant with an neediness that drives him pull the damn shirt off in one swift motion.
His bare hand crawls up your sternum. Exploring the valley of soft skin free of any restricting fabric. The moment his fingers find the stiff peak of your bare breast he pinches eagerly. Earning the sweetest little whimpers from you as his mouth works on the other nipple. Biting and sucking the soft point. He canât see a thing in the dark, but whatâs lacking in sight is made up by sound with the delicious breathy moans you let out for him.
âMandoâŠâ
Fuck, does he love the way you call out for him. Every touch, kiss, and suck he gives elicites the most gorgeous sounds out of that perfect mouth. The sounds to straight to his cock, now painfully stiff. It's tempting to just dive into you right now. But he's waited this long. So why not take his sweet time with you. With his face still burried between your breasts and you fingers raking through his hair, Din feels a press of your hips against his armor. And he needs more.
âShop GirlâŠâ
The nickname doesnât catch your attention. Youâre either too lost in the moment or too breathless to answer. Itâs only when he uses your given name that your body perks up and you give him a raspy âyeah?â.
âDo you want this," he asks.
His right hand has found its way to the waist band of your work pants. Ready and waiting for your answer. You try to grind against his hips but he presses your hips down firmly. He knows damn well neither of you want to stop. But he needs to hear it. There's no going back after this.
"Is this ok?"
He doesn't know if you're unsure. Or if maybe your trying to meet his eyes through the darkness. But there's a long pause. Only the sounds of heavy breaths and the pulse beating hard in his ears. And every second that passes has him hanging on the edge of madness.
"Yes...," you finally breathe. "I need you."
She needs me.
The words leave him winded. Months of questions and pining suddenly feel well worth the wait just to hear those words. They not only affirm going further, but the bond that's been steadily growing between you. Not a single ounce of hesitation survives after he hears that. And with one hand, Din loosens the tie of your pants and dives in beneath the fabric of your underwear.
By feel alone, Din manages to pull your pants down to your thighs and you kick them off your feet. His hands roam over all the smooth exposed skin and he can only imagine how perfect you must look if you feel this good. The tips of his fingers finds the dampness between your legs, running along the seam, and he slowly pushes inside until his knuckles meet your entrance.
You release a soft gasp and he swallows it with a deep kiss. You both sigh into each other's mouth. As if you need the other to even breathe. Din's lips never leaves yours as he does an experimental curl against the fleshy part of your walls and you arch your body against his.
âThis where you need me," he huffs against your lips. "Right here?â
âRight there... Perfect..."
"I wanna taste you." The confession comes out before he can even think about it.
"Then taste me, Mando."
He can hear the smile in your voice. The taunt. And he's more than happy to reciprocate it.
He rises above you and you whine from the lack of contact. But the loss doesn't last long. Because before you even can register what he's doing, his head has already lowered between your legs.
"What are you- ah."
That gasp you let out when his mouth envelops your pussy is downright tortured. Good too know you were just as desperate as he was.
"Fuck! I thought you meant... You were gonna... Shit..."
No fucking way would he be satisfied tasting you on just his fingers. The sweet tangy flavor explodes over his tongue and he groans. Fucking hell, you taste good. He doesnât even know what the hell heâs doing but thatâs sure as shit not stopping him. He drowns in you. Lapping and sucking on your swollen little bud and loving the way it makes you cry out. Two thick fingers pump into your wet heat as you melt in his mouth. Such a fucking treat.
You writhe beneath him. Squirming and clawing at anything to hold on to as he works you up. Eventually your hands finds his hair again. Taking a fistful and pressing his face further against your cunt. The sting on his scalp makes his cock twitch in his flight suit and he groans.
âYou want me to make you come, Shop Girl," he mumbles against you.
âYes.â
âSay it.â
âMake me come, Mando... PleaseâŠâ
He doesn't break pace, doesn't falter, doesn't change a damn thing what he's doing because he can feel close to the edge you are. You tighten around his digits as the pump in and out. And with a firm suck on your clit you let out a strangled gasp.
"Oh Fuck! Fuck! Mando!"
Your breathing becomes short and shallow. Panting so hard right before holding your breath and tipping over the edge with a strangled cry. You come long and hard. Trembling so much he has to hold you steady by the hips.
Through the waves of your climax, Din continues to eat you. Lapping at your perfect pussy like it's wine and he doesn't waste a single drop of you. Even sucking and licking his fingers clean as you lay breathless before him. They come out of his mouth with a wet pop and he canât help but let out a small breathy laugh.
âIâve always wanted to try thatâŠâ he confesses.
You let out your own exhausted little laugh and he can already tell he wants more. More laughter, more of those pretty sounds, more of you.
It's with that in mind that Din starts pulling his cape off.
Piece by peace, he silently removes his armor. And after a few moments, a second pair of hands joins in. You fumble in the dark with his chest piece first. Helping him out of his armor one section at a time. They fall to the carpet with a soft thud along with the crumbling pieces of the restraint heâs built since that first night.
Thereâs no signs of stopping. You keep giving him more. More heat. More yearning. More questions.
What makes you laugh? What gives you pleasure? What makes you feel good and whole and satisfied? He needs to know.
And now that heâs gotten a taste, thereâs no way heâs leaving here tonight until youâve both had your fill.
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If this is what happens when you invite the Mandalorian into your home, let your door never close.
Getting to your bed was easier than you thought itâd be in pitch black darkness. The only thing keeping your âbedroomâ separate from the rest of the home is a wooden lattice divider from the ceiling to the floor.
He lays you down on the soft futon on the floor and you open for him like a flower. Two strong palms drag and paw all over your body as his mouth works magic on yours and it makes you dizzy with desire.
Maker, heâs so good with his hands.
His body separates from you only to remove his flight suit and you whine at the loss of contact. Naked and panting for him. Within seconds heâs back on top of you and the feeling of his bare skin against yours makes your head spin. With everything so dark you wonder if this is even real. Maybe this is all a fever dream.
âAre you gonna show me how Mandalorians fuck this time,â you tease against his lips. Calling back to when he showed you how they drink. With your bare legs around his hips, you tease his resolve by running your inner thighs over his sides and youâre rewarded with a low hum. The hand supporting your neck slowly drags forward to find the base of your throat.
âYou donât need to know how Mandalorians fuck.â His wide grip gently squeezes the sides of your throat, just enough for you to feel the power in those hands. âJust how I fuck.â
Holy shit. You thought him gripping your jaw was hot. But this? This mightâve awakened something you didnât even knew you wanted.
A whimper escapes you only to be muted by his mouth again. His tongue swirls with yours with a hunger youâve never knew was there these past months and itâs such a relief to know that you werenât the only one pining.
Mandoâs mouth travels to your cheek, then jaw, finally finding purchase on your neck. Biting and sucking as his body presses into yours. Heâs insatiable right now. There's no doubt that you'll find yourself covered in marks when the lights come back on.
Youâre so lost in the moment that you almost donât notice when something hard and warm presses against your inner thigh. Out of nowhere, a thought you havenât even considered before decides to pop into your head at the very last minute.
âH-hold on!â
Your hands find his shoulders, urging him to pause. His lips unlatch themselves from your neck the second you blurt it out. Instantly propping himself above you with his hands on either side of your head.
âYou want me to stop?,â he pants.
âNo⊠Hell no. Itâs justâŠâ
How do you even begin to ask this?
âUm⊠I know I probably shouldâve asked earlier but⊠youâre human, right?â
Mando blows out a low chuckle, understanding your underlying meaning. He feels human, from what your hands can tell anyway. He could be like his kid for all you know. Itâs not that youâre not willing to go Inter-species, but your experience is mainly human. Plus with the lights off itâd be pretty difficult to figure out fitting things.
Taking your hand from his shoulder, he presses it against his chest where you can feel a dusting of hair. His skin is hot, damp with a thin layer of sweat and his breathing is heavy. He continues to lead your hand further down his torso so you can feel every hill and valley of his muscles. Eventually your hand hits a trail of hair down the middle and thenâŠ
Oh shit.
His hand guides you along the length of his cock. Encouraging you to explore every ridge from the thick base all the way up to the damp tip. Heâs stiff and hot in your palm. When you give him a firm squeeze he groans and twitches in your grip.
Oh shit.
âDoes that answer your question?â
The human part, definitely. Fitting is still debatable.
He lets you handle him. Giving you free rein to tug and tease as he bucks into your hand. He groans with pleasure and the power trip you feel knowing exactly how you affect this fiercely disciplined man makes the pulse between your legs throb harder. After a minute, his hand snatches yours to a halt, making your grip around his cock tighter.
âShow me where you want it,â he demands in a gruff breath. And you do just that. Pressing the damp tip against your clit. The contact sending a jolt of pleasure up your spine.
âInside,â you plead. âI need you inside me.â
With an impatient huff, his hand comes down to take hold of your leg behind the bend of your knee. Spreading you wide and teasing your entrance before pushing himself inside. You gasp at the initial stretch, digging your nails into his shoulders. Mando curses under his breath and as he pushes you worry for a moment if thereâs an end to him.
Itâs slow, deliberate. Feeding his cock into your tight cunt until heâs pressing the limits of your walls. You shudder together when heâs completely sheathed and his hands grip your hips so hard his fingers dig into your flesh.
âMandoâŠâ You throw your head back. Arching your whole body, waiting it to adjust to him. âFuck!â
âI knew it,â he pants. âFucking knew youâd feel goodâŠâ
He splits you in half and before youâre even ready the first hard thrust hits you. You whimper from impact and he thrusts again. Pinning you down by your hips to keep you at the perfect angle. Soon he sets a steady pace as he fucks you into delirium. Itâs too much, heâs too much. Yet you moan and whine for more like each thrust might be the last. He feels incredible and you can only claw at his trim waist as it moves for you.
âThatâs it⊠Good girl⊠Taking me so well⊠I wanted this⊠I want you to know every part of me.â
His words plunge into your chest like a dagger. Laced with a meaning that goes far beyond sex. Because you feel it too. You wanted him to be closer. You wanted him to know your name, know you. Even if it took this long to get here.
You feel one hand find your leg. Hiking it up so the back of your thigh lays flat against his chest. His hand drags up and down, caressing the soft flesh without losing a beat with his thrusts. A kiss presses on your calf and your head feels like itâs spinning. One moment heâs rearranging your insides and the next heâs giving your body sweet affection.
Tension builds in your core. Growing tighter and tighter with each hard thrust. Usually the second orgasm is more elusive to chase on your own. But this man is about to push you right into the next one not five minutes after the first one.
âDonât⊠StopâŠ,â you pant. âDonât stop, Iâm so close, MandoâŠâ
âCome for me... Let me feel you."
Then it comes. Tensing your entire body before coming down like a crashing wave. Itâs spreads through every inch of your body, making you pulse and shake beneath his frame. You cry out in the midst of the euphoria, clinging to his shoulders, and everything feels so right. He moans along with you, feeling every tight pulse around his cock and letting you ride out the remaining waves.
âThatâs two now, Shop Girl. You gonna give me a third?â
You let out a breathy laugh, still coming down from the clouds.
"I... I'm not sure I can," you chuckle.
"Yeah, you will," he pants. Amusement lacing his raspy voice.
Without out warning, Mando takes both your legs. Placing your calves over his shoulders as his leans forward. Folding you in half. And with one hard thrust, his cock drives back into you at a deeper angle. Your back bows and you swear you see stars in the blackness of the room. His lips land on the corner of your mouth and kiss their way to your lips. Offering a soft apology after the roughness. His strong arms are propped around you and you feel eclipsed under his broad body.
Soon his rhythm picks up. Becoming more desperate as he chases his own release. The room fills with the sound of your bodies meeting and you don't think you've ever heard anything more perfect. His panting picks up, his moans become louder, and the quivering breaths he makes when he finds a particularly deep spot will no doubt live in your mind rent free forever.
âYou wanted me bare, didnât you,â he huffs, pressing his damp forehead to yours.. âWhen you offered me that tea? You thought about me coming inside this perfect cunt, didnât you.â
Caught red handed. Sure, you wanted to know if he had a partner as well. But the thought did cross your mind when he cornered you against the counter. You wanted to know how he felt bare, with nothing between you. Even dreamt a few times about it.
âYes⊠Fuck, yes! Please! I want it!â
âYou gonna come with me, Shop Girl? Hmm?â
âMaker, Mando! Iâm right fucking there, please! I⊠Iâm⊠ah-â
His firm hand grips your jaw. Whipping your face back to him so he can cover your mouth his. He kisses you deep, open and messy. No technique, just raw desire as he eats you alive. You moan and whimper against his mouth with each debilitating thrust he makes. He drives into you faster, harder. Relentlessly pushing you closer to the edge.
When it arrives, the orgasm hits you at full force. Wracking your whole body in convulsions as you scream, actually scream against his mouth. Your toes curl, your nails dig into his back and your cunt squeezes on to him for dear life like heâs never allowed to leave again.
Mando hisses through his teeth and he's right there with you. Ramming into you with relentless force as he chases his own release. His face dives into the crook of your shoulder and his arms scramble to take hold of you and he loses control. Letting out a sharp groan as he comes.
âFuck.. Fuck,â he shudders in your ear. âAgh!â
His hips jerk against your body, driving himself as deep as you can take him. You feel his cock throb as he pumps into you again and again. Filling you to the point of spilling out and itâs... everything. Connected in such a profound way youâve never felt before. In this moment, itâs hard to tell your bodies apart. Youâve melted and mixed and you never want to separate.
You ride it together, mold together, lose control together because you both knew itâd come to this. In the end this was inevitable. And in a galaxy filled with unknowns, in this you can be certain. A connection like this is few and far between. Itâs real and raw and rare. Resisting that feeling was never an option, so why try?
Even in the climb down he doesnât stop. Those hard demanding thrusts slow to a gentle drags as if he doesnât want to finish yet. Hands glide all over each otherâs bodies, soothing the other. All along his tense shoulders, you pepper soft kisses to his skin. Easing you both down from the clouds. He hums in the decent and it lulls you into an exhausted bliss.
Everything feels hazy and soft. Youâre not sure how long you stay melted together like this. Minutes? Hours? But itâs needed. After a while, the breathing becomes steady and a soft, drowsy satisfaction settles between you.
âThatâs the first time someone's come inside me,â you quietly confess. For a moment, Mando absorbs what you just said. Then you feel him prop himself in his elbows above you.
âReally?â
âYeahâŠ,â you breathe. Running your hands up the sides of his neck and resting them on his stubbled face.
âYou know⊠since weâre sharing firsts tonight.â
He smiles and this time youâre able to know for certain by the feel of it in your hands. Leaning down, his forehead finds yours in the dark and you donât think youâve ever felt so whole before.
âIâm your first, huh,â he breathes. âI like that.â
Thereâs so many layers to this man. Quiet and withdrawn. Rough and demanding. Soft and caring. Each one is a trait youâve come to cherish. Youâre not sure if you love this man. But youâre definitely starting to fall for him. You can explore that treasure box later though. For now, youâll take tonight for tonight and let whatever comes next between you arrive in its own good time.
âMe too, Mando...â
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