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My sweet parents.

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My mommy and me.

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Some sweet pre-baby memz.

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Love my guy.

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Is there anything more delightful than this?

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A few sweet faces we saw recently. ❤️❤️

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My love for Phil has reached new levels during the pregnancy. I already miss it being just us. But we’ve had 10 years together, and it’s time for a new season. :)

Mendocino to celebrate Phil’s birthday, our ten years together, and our incoming baby. ❤️

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Third Trimester

In my third trimester now, by all accounts (by all possible due dates). I'm currently sitting in the lobby of my ob office, halfway done with my 3-hour glucose test. I'm getting my blood drawn 4x today after guzzling down 100g of sugar and I peed in my pants a little bit this morning while brushing my teeth and gagging from acid reflux and morning phlegm. Lol! How humbling this process is. The ironic thing is that I've been less health anxious than I was prior to pregnancy. I think it's just trusting that my body knows what it is doing, that so much is not in my actual control. My heart and brain aren't quite in baby mode yet but my body is taking it day by day, growing this baby girl regardless of whether I feel ready or not. It's really quite beautiful. Even with an anterior placenta, I feel the little girl all the time. She's a squirmy little thing and I can't wait to meet her. I'm going to be a mom!

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Almost 3rd trimester thoughts

We are inching closer and closer to our baby's due date and it's starting to freak me out. I think I have to go through the mental exercise of actively thinking about detailed components of this process every day because I really don't want to go through a mental crisis when she gets here. Even through the chunk of the second trimester I've already been through, pregnancy, childbirth, and child raising feels like something that happens to other people (because it's been that way for such a long time). Loooord help me.

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HALFWAY thoughts

Wow, I am already a bit over halfway through the pregnancy and will reach viability in a couple weeks as well. It honestly hasn't felt real. I've had to force myself through mental exercises to imagine life with a newborn/child; it does hit me then in small spurts.

I'm starting to show more now, though people have been commenting on how small I'm carrying. Luckily baby girl is on track with size. Oddly, I connect with her the most when I'm in the restroom at work and when my stomach is released from the confines of my pants. When I see my round little belly, I feel like I'm not alone and it's unbearably cute that baby girl comes with me everywhere - to see clients, to my hearings, to lunch, to the restroom, etc. I'm starting to feel her muted little kicks (thanks to my anterior placenta) more too, which definitely is such a wonderful trip.

I can't believe I'm going to be a mom. It has not fully sunken in that our lives will change. I'm training my heart/mind to expect the most drastic shift, so hopefully we'll be pleasantly surprised at the end of all of this.

So incredibly grateful little girl is okay and growing and that I'm doing fine too.

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Our little girl 🥹

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Took really few photos this trip because I was mostly horizontal with nausea, but a few shots from Christmas 2025.

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Lil menace

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Just amazed. How could something so little have an audible heart beat already?

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Woah, I grew these baby potatoes! Can’t believe it actually worked!

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So, I am officially around 6.5 weeks pregnant and have now exceeded my last pregnancy by over a week. I feel cautious, of course, but I am resolved to assume things will move forward with the proper joyful anticipation any pregnancy deserves.

There are so many things to be anxious about in the coming weeks. All the tests, scans, and markers of viability. I really pray that God will grant me / us true peace in the coming months and beyond. That he would cover us completely as we navigate all the uncertainties.

Today, I felt emotional thinking about how my time with Phil will no longer be just ours next year. Not emotional in a way where I dread this change, but emotional with overwhelming gratitude for the past 9 years we've had together - to grow and discover ourselves and each other. So deeply grateful for a partner like him.

It's going to be an interesting ride navigating work. too. We'll see how that goes. :)

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Best street in SF.