So i'm having my monthly cry, the first time this month, and I have a\had so much sh1t this month it k1lls me every time I think of it!
I feel like I have to be an adult instead of being a kid/teenager.
I miss my Grandfather and my dog!
I have to be perfect, even though I'm told that "nobody expects perfection." But if one tiny little thing goes wrong people have a huge fit about it.
I feel so fake, so many places...
I have to have a grade over a B or just a B or else we don't go to Universal/Disney.
I wish my personal life, was back to normal
I wish my sister had a relation ship with a family member that stuck.
I wish I didn't have to be in the middle of every little d@mn thing!
I wish this never happened!
My life has been so sh1tty just in general.
Ever since my parents got a "divorce" sh!t has never been the same.
Ever since my sister has been so overdramatic about a family member.
Ever since my sister stopped seeing that family member my life has completely flipped up side down.
I have to hear 2 different stories everyday.
I have to hear sh1tty thing about the family member that my sister doesn't see, that I still love, chose to keep seeing,
Ever since my sister has gotten all the attention from her drama with the family member, I feel like I have the little, less important things, to say,do I just feel like people take more consideration on my sisters feelings about this family member, while I feel like i'm in a corner telling everybody around me "i'm fine" "I'm ok" "It'll be fine.." I wish I could stop and say my TRUE feelings.
And even though my sister hasn't seen this family member is 2-3 years all the etentions on her, and nt on the person who goes back and fourth every single day!
(True sh1t that happens in my every day life...)
