the truth is, I pretend to be a C Y N I C, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may N E V E R get. wong lina. blogger & journalism student. #104.
—* with her head held high and a smile painted on her lips, lina had mastered moving along the knife-edge between complete perfection or finally losing her sanity. it was her very own rule, she burnt into her own mind, that she could never lose control.it didn’t matter whether it was over her appearance, the faintest smile or (most importantly) her feelings. wong lina never lost control. yet, this day she had broken every single line of it, by simply having one drink too many. she barely made it out of the little bar without completely embarrassing herself when tears already dripped down her cheeks. it wasn’t as if she was particularly sad about something, it was just the alcohol making her unbearably emotional. but, she couldn’t care less, not when she was in that state. that’s why as soon as she spotted jiae near the bar, she slogged towards her and wrapped her arms around her waist from behind, clapsing her hands around her wrist. ❝ jiae. you look so pretty. ❞ she smiled despite of the tears rolling down her cheeks, her head dipping to the side. ❝ i’ve fucked up and i want you back in my life. i miss you. ❞ ( @yajiae )
“i think i broke it. its on the floor and i’m too scared to pick it up and look because there’s no way i’m going to have the money to replace it. maybe if I just leave it there, i can ignore the problem forever… “ she murmurs, fingers curls and uncurling around the strap that cut across the front of her chest, the messanger bag she used to carry out school work momentarily forgotten about. it wasn’t like she just ran away, running into people and things, she just seemed to always be in the bad habit of being in the right place at the wrong time. which led to little things like this; knocking things over might have even been considered her specialty at this point. her body turns slightly, as if suddenly remembering that she’d been with a companion this whole time, knowing full well that she would never hear the end of it for any friend, really. klutzji was her nickname, after all. “you pick it up. maybe my bad luck won’t happen if someone else picks it back up!” a girl could hope, right?
—*SHE HAD ONLY PASSED BY, hoping to quickly grabbed some books before she would return her attention back to her blog only to find a confused girl muttering something she couldn’t grasp. ❝ ehmm.. what ? ❞ she blinked at the girl, her eyes travelling to the shattered remains of something that seemed to be a vase. ❝ oh okay. ❞ she nodded slowly when she returned her attention back to the girl. when she looked at her, she couldn’t hide the smile dangling on the corner of her lips. lina wasn’t a bad person (at least she thought so) but unfortunately she took pleasure in messing with people and the girl was no exception. ❝ i see, well i can pick up it up❞ she paused, just to create some dramatic suspense., ❝but it doesn’t change the fact this vase was incredibly expensive and you probably have to take more than one job to repay it.❞ she lied, crossing her arms just to wait for her reaction. ❝ but you have that rich girl aura going on, so i’m sure you can pay for it right ?❞
i'm a mess right now and probably won’t be able to be around a lot today ( eventually tomorrow as well ) and i’m neglecting my babies so much, but pls give this a like if you want to plot ( esepcially with lina ) so i can message you ?
to say he wasn’t taken aback would be a lie — it was probably the first time someone had expressed their disappointement so obviously at seeing him. he wasn’t sure why she wasn’t too happy ; was it his appearance? did she expect an alien to live in the apartment or what? leo found it funny. she was clearly trying to annoy him but all she did was make him take a certain level of interest in her. it was always like this, whenever someone did something unexpected, leo took a liking to them. it never lasted long as he tends to lose interest easily; the ones who he treated like royalty a day could be thrown in the garbage the next. that’s just how he lived. why would he keep boring people in his entourage? this girl, while he was interested in her at the moment, would probably be considered something comparable to an insect eventually. for now though, he planned to enjoy himself. ❛ please do, maybe my roommate will go away if you do. ❜ he didn’t dislike his roommate, it was just quite bizarre for a celebrity to have one in the first place. ❛ i’ll live with you until the craziness dies down. sounds like a good plan right? choose wisely. ❜ he, truthfully, wouldn’t care much if she exposed his address. it would certainly be an annoyance but he believed he would have ways to deal with the aftermath. his confidence was the reason why he had kept a smirk on his face during the whole conversation.
—* IRRITATION FLICKERED THROUGH her face and for less than a split second, the lifted corners of her lips almost lost it strength, struggling to keep up the grin she had plastered on them. in most of the cases and her attempts to annoy someone, most of them would’ve left or at least scoffed to this point. some of them even cursed at her for being a noisy brat, however this wasn’t the case with him. she didn’t know him much except for the fact that he was an actor, most people went crazy for ( and that she didn’t like him ). and perhaps that was a mistake. she should’ve researched on her opponent, finding some weaknesses or something that would push some button that would cause him to be angry, sad or anything but amused. at least then she wouldn’t be so pissed right now and she wouldn’t be reminded again how much she actually hated celebrities. oh god, how she hated them. ❝ done. ❞ she said, clicking on the button and staring directly into his eyes. a childish move, she actually didn’t plan to make use of. but it was that stupid smirk of this ( that type of smirk she usually used on others ) that caused her usual collected self to pull such a reckless move. she knew that no one would come if she would post this, not without any proof, but for the shortest moment it gave her some satisfaction before his following words shattered the smile gracing her lips. ❝ eww—❞ lina furrowed her brows in disgust at him as she continued ❝ no. ❞ she stated when a wry smile appeared again on her expression. maybe, she should really take a picture now so that someone would actually “visit” him. ❝ first, i don’t like you. second i can’t stand you and did i already mention that i dislike you ? and why should i help you at the first place ? you can’t force me to take you in and i don’t care that anyone will disturb your precious sleep or i don’t know steal your underwear. so don’t expect me to care of that, you owe me that after disappointing me and making me waste my time on you. but— ❞ she paused, taking out her phone again. ❝ you know what, i will hate you only 98 % instead of 99 % if you would pose in front of your apartment and let me take a photo of you ?❞
he was always super busy — truthfully, he didn’t spend a lot of time at his apartment at all, he only did on his rare days off or at the end of the day when he had schedules near by. he didn’t mind driving more hours if it meant sleeping comfortably in his bed but his manager, obviously didn’t think the same so whenever he had schedules that were too far from jinhae he usually slept at a hotel. for all of those reasons, not a lot of people knew leo was living in the apartment complex. he liked it that way too. it was a pain whenever he went up to his apartment and someone who knew him bothered him. it was predictable and for him, that meant boring. he had a couple of days off since he had just finished filming a movie so he had decided to go back to the apartment. he was already tired and very irritated so when he noticed someone obviously eying him and slowly coming closer to him, he sighed loudly. ❛ what do you want? ❜
—*ALTHOUGH LINA WASN’T PARTICULARLY close with anyone in the complex, it didn’t mean that she knew nothing about her neighbours. actually quite the contrary was the case. the girl had always been someone who just knew things about people. it wasn’t as if she was trying hard, but for some reason she was blessed with some odd kind of charm that caused people to trust her. of course it was useful trait, considering she was someone with a curious nature to begin with, however it also meant that it even nagged more at her when she didn’t know about something and that was exactly the case about apartment #317. since the day she had moved in, she had never seen someone enter or exit the apartment and at first she believed that no one was actually living there but sometimes when she would pass by she would hear some noise or someone talking and yet she couldn’t match a face to that voice. that’s why it came as quite a shock when she saw the male lingering in front of the apartment. ❝ what a disappointment.❞ she sighed as loudly. she had hoped for something more interesting, but of course it had to be a celebrity, the kind of people she despised the most, especially when they already fit into the bad image she had about them. ❝ nothing❞ she shrugged, the disappointment evident on her face ❝ i just wanted to ask if it’s okay to publish your address online.❞ she said with a wry smile on her face, her fingers already hovering over the screen that was now illuminating her face.❝ i’m sure many people will love me for this.❞
HOLA HOLA *makes kard references*, here’s a cute gif of lina who isn’t really cute. anyway it's me again, freya with my trash child lina, and when i’m saying trash i mean trash because she is. i hate her at times but also i love her . oh and pls LIKE this post if you want to plot, i will jump into your IMs *finger guns*. eating disorder tw
- wong lina was actually born in hongkong ( because i only know stuff about hongkong (thx dad) ) and she also has a chinese name it’s but she hates it *whispers* it’s li ming it and prefers to be called lina
- she’s a journalism student & also has a blog where she just writes about everything and surprisingly it’s really popular
- her father is a businessman and has to travel a lot, because his work is mainly focused on the korean market her family moved to korea when she was like 5 or 6 ?
- at first she hated korea ( because let’s be real cantonese cuisine = awesome ) and she even refused to speak korean at first. also they moved around a lot (within korea) and she never got the opportunity to properly get to know anyone. however, as her father got an important position at a korean company she realised that she’d spend a long time here and eventually worked hard on her korean and even befriended some kids
- yet, her friendships never lasted longer than a year ( due to having to move all the time within koread ) and she was really lonely back then
- however, she wasted her time with modelling because her mother used to be a famous chinese model and got her into that.
- despite of her mother being really fond of it , soon she grew tired of it due to the pressure of constantly being aware of what she was supposed to eat or not and it even got to the point where her mother would keep track of her eating habits, count calories etc. her mother onstantly criticised her whether it was just her personality or her looks and after some time she started to believe her. she thought that no one would like her if she wasn’t perfect and that people would judge her because of her appearance. she got that insecure to the point that she developed an eating disorder and would sometimes go a day without eating. and still she couldn’t stop feeling insecure ( the modelling thing did not really help ).
- however, at one point her only friend ( connection/plot ) , she had known since forever and kept contacting , noticed her change and encouraged her to finally quit and get therapy. that’s why during her high school days she was often absent for a long time but because of her effort she managed to get through high school.
- she also discovered that rather being in the spotlight she preferred to be bts (no she didn’t want to join a boygroup) . nevertheless, some people still kept being interested in her life and she decided to have a blog where she’d write about her experience etc.
- with her blog she also discovered how much she loved writing, researching and just publishing stuff, that’s why she decided to major in journalism.
- in orer to study journalism she needed to move out that’s why she’s now in jinhae ??
- personality wise: so lina isn’t a bad person or anything, she just loves to know things ? like she would always meddle with other people’s lives and sometimes would put an act on so she’d get some information. she’s not exactly fake but she knows what to do in order to get these information. she’s very passionate about writing and people just fascinate her. also due to never really having a real home and always moving she’s very bad at forming temporary friendships. while she might be sociable and a pretty good talker, she doesn’t really value her friendship as she thinks they’ll end anyway. she’s charming and knows how to wrap people around her finger with pretty words but she never lets anyone getting close to her. as i’ve said she isn’t bad, she’s more like a scared (puppy) person who just hates getting hurt and therefore would rather hurt others instead of being hurt over and over again.
Sometimes you never feel meaner than the moment you stop being mean. It’s like how turning on a light makes you realize how dark the room had gotten. And the way you usually act, the things you would have normally done, are like these ghosts that everyone can see but pretends not to.
Rebecca Stead, When You Reach Me
(via wordsnquotes)
What’s the worst thing I’ve stolen? Probably little pieces of other people’s lives. Where I’ve either wasted their time or hurt them in some way. That’s the worst thing you can steal, the time of other people. You just can’t get that back.
