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Pale vampiric creature in her 20s | she/her but they/them is also ok | citizen of Kingdom of Science 🚀

[linnaearosie]

Is anyone else horrified by the things they used to watch or read as a child? And I don't mean adult media that you experienced by chance but child media clearly marked for children. I wasn't even 10 years old when I was watching stuff like cardcaptor sakura or shugo chara. Both of those series have some really bizarre elements (especially cardcaptor manga). Cardcaptor is basically criminal relationships simulator. How anyone even allowed for sakura's dad to not be behind the bars or what clamp obsession with making everyone related and in love? I recently read rg veda by clamp and I could excuse this type of relationships there because it was clearly inspired by mythology and for older readers but cardcaptor sakura is clearly for children.

With shugo chara it is really bizarre how there's self aware jokes about how amu and ikuto relationship is weird but still why amu and ikuto can't be two grades apart. Why can't she be 13 and he 14 year old (make amu from January and ikuto from December or something like that).

I don't know why I randomly thought about those staffs now. But I guess some adult back then were partially right about some anime.

[linnaearosie]

It is sickening how at the end of the day dawid podsiadło won't lose more fans for his ai music video. Guy is one of the most successful artists in Poland but he is supporting ai and using it in his projects. Many people that are not liking this situation will still attend his concerts because "i have already paid for tickets might as well attend". Dawid podsiadło called all people who criticized him terrorist. He openly stated that he doesn't care if video he is watching is ai generated or not. He isn't some poor indie books author that generated covers for their books or chacked grammar with ai. He can afford all the things in this music video.

[linnaearosie]

I just saw the most stupid and self-centered post (more like reblog). No seatte will not be more dangerous because Iran and Egypt will be playing there during pride month. If there's a group that will be more at risk it is the Iranian team and its fans. Please, I'm begging you stop assuming that Iranian people will be more violent ones (i'm sure there will be some violet incidents that will be used against all Iranian people to justify more harm towards them).

[linnaearosie]

So black clover ended some time ago. I'm sad that it was so rushed and that the last few chapters (if not the arcs) were disappointing. I just feel like this manga had higher potential (elves arc and whole set up for it was so good). But then spade kingdom arc wasn't satisfying and for me it really put the series in an awkward place. Then the sun kingdom arc destroyed for me yami's character (yuno being secretly royal was something unwelcome but predictable, yami being basically nobility was just sad, i would prefer isekai theory over this). I also hated that a lot of class conflict was dummed down over time. We had whole dynamic of royalty, nobility, peasants and foreigners and it just lost all meaning at the end (not in the sense that it was resolved it just lost its edge). Also I feel like some side characters disappeared from the story (why waste page time on sakke if he got zero character development). Also I hate how almost every ship was confirmed but Asta x Noelle. Don't get me wrong I love mimosa but let's be real mimosa's feelings for Asta were underdeveloped and this harem (love triangle situation just don't work).

[linnaearosie]

Today, I was able to sit dawn and work on my noaego fanfic. The last time I had worked on it was in February.

This wip is set shortly after mick moon's death. Noa is freaking out in the plane to Japan, because for the first time in forever he is thinking about ego and he isn't even sure ego is alive. Because his jin wouldn't be able to live without football. Bonus angst points because Noa was the one to ghost Ego. And now it is hunting him. Also they were dating and they had never broken up formally, so...

The only problem I have with this story is that I don't know at what point end it. I want it to be one-shot and not too long one. I have already written 4 pages and I keep introducing new plot points (at some point I deleted whole page of noa's backstory because it wasn't necessary and it was only making story longer).

[linnaearosie]

I love ado and shakira but I fear that their involvement in world cup will lead to people forgetting all the fuck up things fifa and one of the host country are actively doing. Because let's be real nothing makes people more forgetful then little bit of nostalgia bait.

[yuzuleaftea]

polish hussaria and their fuckass hole in the ground

[linnaearosie]

What timeline am I living?

[linnaearosie]

I hate myself because I just love to consume series with small fandoms. Jeweler Richard, Makai ouji, darker by four and now Associate Professor Akira Takatsuki's Conjecture book series. I try to like more popular things and sometimes it works (blue lock, dr stone, medalist, the apothecary diaries) and sometimes it doesn't (jjk, one piece, wind braker). But there's something different in less popular media.

Associate Professor Akira Takatsuki's Conjecture is amazing book series (I'm on book 4 ). It is mystery with paranormal elements but also coming of age story (main character is 19 year old student) with some horror elements. I love how sometimes there just this feeling that on the surface, mundane explanation is correct, but there's something otherworldly lurking beneath all of this (probably just other akira). Akira is so similar to Richard Ranasinghe de Vulpian from part one (Akira is more adventurous on the surface but still he has this mysterious aura that I sometimes miss in later volumes of jeweler richard). Naoya is the perfect main character for this type of series. A little bit of blank sheet that bounces off other to learn more about himself and the world.

[linnaearosie]

I just finished makai ouji devils and realist. I loved it. It was gorgeous and really fun. I started it way before with anime adaptation but recently picked it up in manga format because of Utako Yukihiro (ilustrator of jeweler richard light novels). I wish it had active fandom because I would love to discuss some plotlines and ending with someone.

[77kkura]

kunigami is starting to look like pedri at the 2020 tokyo olympics

[linnaearosie]

He truly looks more ill. It's in hollowness of his eyes

[linnaearosie]

General question for resident evil fandom: what is the least scary game? Is there any resident where zomies aren't really presents? I can read about horror or even watch some (I would say I feel the most comfortable with sinners level of horror but i could go for little bit scarier plague tale was probably the scariest game that I played). Unfortunately, I'm deathly afraid of zombies ( like those are probably the only scary creatures that I'm afraid on conceptual level). I watched some Resident Evil 9 streams and some moments were really difficult for me (grace parts) but I want to try experiencing this series first hand . I was wandering is there resident evil game that doesn't have zombies? It doesn't have to be main game it can be spin off or something like that.

[linnaearosie]

Blue period volume 17 is really good. I kind of feel like it's return to form. Unfortunately, I also didn't like "funny" 4-koma comics and it made me more critical of whole volume. It started fine with art club girls + yuka (i'm on non binary yuka team) having discord chat while doing their art projects but then yuka asked about how they feel about yatora (yuka do you want to share something with people bc I'm pretty sure you are probably the most interested in yatora person in the group) and then those girls started speculating about top/bottom yatora. And i know it's joke but it's wierd because blue period is realistic manga. For me those girls (expecially shirai) became instantly unlikable. Like shirai is the worst kind of fandom weirdo. She would be like all those heated rivalry fangirls that on top of writing shane x ilya (completely acceptable and wholesome) also ship actors and write r-18 fanfics with them ( those are really peaple). It's a shame because i was kinda hoping that more mainstream fandom artists would be present in blue period. Now i feel like yamaguchi take on fandom culture could be slightly different then mine.

[linnaearosie]

So, after volume 10th of Medalist it officially has dethroned Blue Lock as my favourite running sport manga. It probebly obviously by the fact I spamed post about it but I was pretty shaken by this volume and all the new revelations.

On the other hand I'm afraid that Blue lock lost some of its charm in the nel arc. I think nothing there was able to match Blue Lock vs u20 arc for me and it's because it was the last time Blue lock and isagi were true underdogs in the story. Also all the members of u20 team had unique character design and majority of them had weapons. They felt like characters that could be developed and playing against them was challenging enough. I couldn't say the same about any of the nel teams. Most of them had only masters and one og player named (some even lacked one og player). Bastard had only Kaiser and Ness developed properly and grimm with memorable design but lack of match presence. It's even worse because those international players were so weak that only blue lock's boys were making plays. It felt like Japan's was already top tier and the best of Europe wasn't even good. And in the current arc, it's pretty obvious that only new gen 11 are able to keep up with blue lock. Speaking of blue lock's boys.

While I was invested in Kaisagi rivalry, the rest of the characters were sidelined so much. Yukimiya's story didn't have pay off. Till the last moment I was hoping he would be the one teaming up with Ness for the last goal. Kunigami was there I guess. Frankly, he could stay lock off and nothing would change in nel arc. Otoya was made basically into joke. Shidou had lost half of his strength and only plot armor kept him as a third place. I think the only developed character outside of bastard was Sendou.

Whole only playing until one of the teams is able to score three goals killed for me suspense. It eliminated possibility of tie and time limit. Also made it pretty obvious that bastard is winning nel with clear sheet.

Now I'm pretty sure blue lock is going to lose the match with France only to beat them in finals or semi-finals. After their lost isagi will transform again in the match with England and after this he will be basically unstoppable. The rest of the characters will be sidelined. Bunny and Kaiser will be hyped up and for plot reason they will be framed as challenge. After this I simply don't see how blue lock could be interesting as a story. With whom isagi will be fighting for number one spot? Noel Noa?

[linnaearosie]

So if hikaru is tsukasa and inori is jun yodaka that's leave rio as shinichiro sonidori. That's why his and inori relationship feels so special (in non romantic way). He unknowingly formed bond with her, but I bet his father had similar one with jun when they were younger. And now shinichiro is looking after jun, because tsukasa wasn't there yet. But Hikaru is present.

[linnaearosie]

Tsukasa Akeuraji is just unfulfilled shounen sport manga protagonist and everyone around him know it. He is kind, hard working and genius. He has metavision. He has his own variety of good old talk no jutsu. He started later than the rest and he is kind of lame but everyone is draw to him. And I know so many people in universe can't understand why he didn't try to be solist. Because he could be really good. Even great. Or even gold medalist. He is just that guy. But no, he is actively choosing Inori and it's equally beautiful and sad.

[linnaearosie]

Medalist vol. 10 just pulled biggest plot twist. Hikaru was like "he just like me" and it's about tsukasa. And Inori is Jun Yodaka.

[linnaearosie]

I think Dr. Stone has one of the most consistent message in manga as a medium. And it is so refreshing because yes Senku is chosen one but also he is not the chosen one. Because science is exciting and there will always be this one curious child. And this is such a hopeful massage in general.

Even without Senku somewhere down the line could appear someone as intelligent as him and basically do what senku was doing. Chome is good example because he is able to think about staff that from his perspective never existed and make them work. And he is often disappointed by the fact that senku has already known about them but Senku in a lot of those situations use them to speed his science plans. Or he acknowledged that he omitted them in his plan. Chrome was able to tell that petrification ray has constant velocity without knowing advance math. His mind is probably on the same level as senku's. With only difference being chrome is from stone world and senku was raised in modern times with almost unlimited access to knowledge.

Spoilers for whole dr. Stone's plot:

The massage isn't even limited to humanity. The medusa that stayed is basically this curious child. They are just like senku or Chrome. That's why they grow attached to the main cast. Because the main cast is their science buddies.