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#*　　i have patiently waited in vain for you to love me as i love you ‍⠀⠀⠀／ ‍⠀⠀⠀𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐈𝐒 .

#*　　sunlight in the hair and the blue sky fixed forever in your eyes⠀⠀⠀／ ‍⠀𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓 .

#*　　𝐃𝐘𝐍. ‍⠀⠀⠀／ ‍⠀⠀⠀louis et lestat .

#the whole speech is just so heart wrenching

#lestat going from being enraged that louis would be for forgiveness for being the most true to himself he'd probably ever been in his life

#enraged at the shame and disgust he felt and that he would turn to a god that wasn't listening

#and beg for a death that wouldn't come

#enraged that he would want to snuff out so entirely a life and essence as painfully beautiful and complex as his own

#and then for that rage to melt into nothing but love and adoration and yearning and deseperation

#a desperation to convince louis that there was so much more to life

#and yes it was found through death

#but only the sort of death that a being such as himself could gift him

#and he begs with every fiber of his being for louis to take this gift and join him in eternity

#so that they could put an end to the quiet suffering that comes with utter loneliness and being misunderstood in a world that doesn't care

#because lestat has known that pain all his life

#and he sees it mirrored in louis and he wants to do for louis what his mother and then magnus later did for him

#let him know his seen. he is loved. and he can be saved from his suffering

#'this primitive country has been too clean it has shackled you in permanent exile. every room you enter every hat you are forced to wear:

#the stern landlord. the deferential businessman. the loyal son. all these roles you conform to and none of them your true nature.

#what rage you must feel as you choke on your sorrow. the first time i laid eyes on you your beautiful face i saw that sorrow.

#i did not know how it got there or why it was so voluminous. i can take away that sorrow louis.

#i can give you that death you begged your feeble blind degenerate nonexistent god for but i can do it joyfully.

#i can swap this life of shame. swap it for a dark gift and a power you can't even begin to imagine. you just have to ask me for it.

#you just have to nod your beautiful head and say yes.

#i love you louis you are loved. i send my love to you and you send it back 'round to me. and this circle this home we barely had a

#glimpse of know that it frightens me as much as it does you.

#be my companion louis. be all the beautiful things you are and be them without apology for all eternity.'

#literally gonna throw up like....

#this whole scene is genuinely why him calling armand the love his life made me wanna die like

#don't piss me off

𝐢. 𝐇𝐄 , 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 !