⎯ ✴︎ Edgar Bone was on a long list of people Ana had that she was making sure to look after. She had to be subtle with it for the most part, just like with everyone else she did her best to look after. She was covering a lot of things up and in truth it was getting really hard to keep from being noticed by the others. If it wasn’t for her name and the years of blankly reluctant devotion, she was she she’d be out of her job if not on the run if not worse. There were a lot of times she thought about just giving in to it, what she wanted. She wanted to be someone that wasn’t who everyone thought she was. She wanted to walk down the street and not have people keeping from making eye-contact for fear of her reporting them for something. She wanted to be hated by them.
She wanted to be someone other than Anastasia Nott who insisted she goes by Ana and was constantly concealing the dark mark on her arm with a long sleeve and a bandage because maybe if she didn’t see it she’d forget it was there and was consistently being sent on missions where she was put in a situation she didn’t want to be in and hated looking at herself in the mirror.She hated Anastasia Nott. She felt trapped by her own mistakes that she didn’t even want to make in the first place.
Maybe she felt like she was atoning for something carrying on like this and there was a part of her, a large part of her, that told her she deserved it. But that was what was different about running into Edgar. Helping him didn’t feel like something she had to atone for. She cared for him. She cared for a lot of the people on her long list. Helping them came natural. So when she saw him moving through the crowds, looking shit like usual, she quickly moved towards him. She was there to pick up the cane before she laughed a little at his statement.
“You probably could have fooled the man across the street from us,” she said, gently touching his hand with the handle of his cane so he knew it was there. “One day I’ll see you and you won’t be covered in injuries. You need a friend at St. Mungo’s.”
▵ — Edgar was surprised when he made out the smell of Ana’s perfume before he even heard her voice. She had been the unexpected alliance - the one who had been there from the beginning, who snuck up on him. The one who was stuck. The one who was kind of like him. He smiled when she generously picked up his cane for him, despite being one of the few who knew he absolutely could have done it himself.
“Thank you, Ana,” Edgar said, wrapping his hand around the handle of the cane when she touched it against his ( scabbed ) knuckles. He laughed when she mentioned the man across the street, resisting the urge to ask which one?. “Even if I were going to work drunk, who could blame me? Rumor has it Goyle is on the prosecution today,” he explained, imagining that he could feel the bile in his throat even as he said Goyle’s name. Death Eaters disgusted him but Goyle was one of the worst. He was petty and childlike and he took advantage of this “new world order” more than any of the others did.
And he was personally fond of the death penalty.
When Ana mentioned having a friend at St. Mungo’s, both his stomach and his heart dropped, and he looked down as Emme crossed his mind.
“I had one,” Edgar said slowly, choosing not to add that this friend was now on the run because of the people that the two of them were hiding amongst. While their guilt came in different packages it was a feeling that he didn’t need to invoke here, now. He imagined they both felt it enough. He paused before he continued. Ana was the only person in the world who knew, and what did that say about him? He didn’t even trust this with his closest friends in the world? “She has no idea.”