gonna see me roar

li shang jr. 25. grad school. mulan's son. former jock, current jr r.o.a.r coach. auratuber. feminist.

[lishangjr]

TEXT 🏠️‍🔥 MARLI

Marley: That's because you have a good heart and soul. And well, I'm in love with you, duh. And you're my best friend so like... quadruple hit?

Marley: I think so too! It would definitely help establish us as the hosts. And maybe we'll do one family, one friends, one for the other neighbors in our building so that we can get to know more people, possibly find more friends for you!

Li: Coming from the best heart and soul I know? That's more like an octuple hit.

Li: One for the new neighbors is a good idea! It'd be great to meet those around us, you know? I was going to say we could use more friends but honestly, we have so many already that having more will just be a treat.

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TEXT 🏠️‍🔥 MARLI

Marley: I think so too, babe! And you have amazing people skills too!

Marley: Damn. I don't think so.. Maybe we have two house-warmings one for family the other for each other's friends? I feel like we'd end up needing 3 for each of our friends to fit.

Li: I wouldn't say amazing, but you're nicer to me than anyone else, including myself, so I'll take it.

Li: I think multiple house-warmings might be best, mostly because crowded parties aren't fun and we want everyone to have a good time. I guess throwing three parties right off the bat will definitely guarantee us the reputation as the host couple. My friends are really mostly just you and Lonnie and Ryan and Jia now though, so that's good.

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TEXT 🏠️‍🔥 MARLI

Marley: oh my gosh, yes! we can be that couple! the one that hosts that could be our thing 🥰

Marley: Yes and I think we should do plus ones. My friends, Jess, Quincy, Sydney, Gigi, Emmett. Do you have any friends you want to invite?

Li: It definitely could be. Not to jinx it but I think we're going to be amazing hosts, especially you.

Li: Okay then, so our siblings and Jia with plus ones makes six guests, and your five with plus ones is another ten, so that's sixteen guests plus us which makes eighteen. Do you think we have room for that many people?

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TEXT 🏠️‍🔥 MARLI

Marley: Yes!! I fully agree and I can't wait to start being able to have people over to see our new place 🥺

Marley: my love, of course you can cook! I can work on the guest list and we can both do decorations?

Li: Me too. I bet they're going to love the place. Maybe we can even host get-togethers semi-frequently.

Li: That sounds perfect, actually. So we're obviously inviting our siblings and Jia. Who else? And do we give them all plus ones?

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TEXT 🏠️‍🔥 MARLI

Li: I think it's finally time to celebrate that our place is perfect and completely moved in by throwing that house-warming party we were talking about. After all, the only way living with you could ever get better is if we invited our friends over to see how beautiful the place is.

Li: I can get started planning the menu if you get started on the guest list? Or how do you want to split up party duties? I'm good with whatever but I'd really like to cook.

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text 💬 marli

Marley: that is such a cute little nerdy way to describe it 😂♥️ I want a big family too! my family is pretty large already and it just feels right with you. we can do both, have our own kids and adopt some. i've always wanted to adopt too to change the life of at least one child who needs a family. and we can have a home that's big enough for us to have a horse, a dog, and maybe some chickens?

Marley: How are you feeling about everything? Because as much as I can't stand her anymore, I know she was one of your closest friends. It can't feel good to have to lose her like this. I'm almost wondering if I'd ask you to slow down talking to her before if she'd have understood and wouldn't have gone completely insane. And of course, Li. I love you and I'm totally and fully in love with you. I am always going to stand by your side. And I will always stand up for us and our relationship. You mean everything to me.

Marley: It's very common for the people of auradon to use social media for their passions. She doesn't own that just because she brought the idea to you. I think you should still do it. Especially because I feel like it got you excited to think about it.

Li: Haha, it was the best comparison I could make off the top of my head. I like the idea of both. There's already so many children in the world that could use a loving home and I can't imagine a more loving home than one with you as the mother. And horses and dogs and chickens sounds perfect. It's weird, I never really pictured what my "perfect life" would be like but now it's so obvious and wonderful.

Li: I'm not feeling great about it but it is what it is, you know? She was one of my best friends but if that's how she acted towards you and about me deep down, then maybe she was never actually the person I thought she was. That's the sad part to me, thinking I considered someone a best friend who maybe never existed at all. You mean everything to me too, Marley. I love you so much, and I'll thank you forever for all of this.

Li: You're right, I just needed someone with better sense than me to say it. I am pretty excited! It'll be nice to use my knowledge of food and exercise to help people.

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text 💬 marli

Marley: it's not anything you're doing, li. the situation is getting worse because she's letting it. i love that we've been able to transition through the different love phases too! it's like a testament to everything we've been through and will go through. it makes perfect sense for us. also now that you mention it!! i feel like it's way less weird that I've been thinking about our future, getting married, and possible kids. i think about it a lot.. 😅 you can ALWAYS be needy with me and you will ALWAYS be mine. forever. ♥️

Marley: i think she just latched on because anything after that felt like backtracking? like you're doing what you're 'supposed' to do because you're 'taken' even though what you said before was like ... a hint for her to save you or whatever. i'm just assuming from her twisted mind. personally, if someone told me several times that they didn't want to be with me and they're in love with someone else it would completely ruin any possible hopes i had. i think you have just let her have her space and figure it out for herself that it won't happen. even i tried to explain to her that as much as she THINKS you two had this moment, that I'm always there and will be your number one (along with your family of course) but she really doesn't get it. she's like being purposely ignorant.

Marley: .... that's so true 😂 okay that was totally a wrong suggestion. ignore that.

Li: Its like we're Pokemon trainers who've caught every single type of love in the world, it's very special. I think about getting married too, a lot sometimes. And kids. How many do you want? Because I think I've secretly always wanted a lot but obviously it'll be your body making them so it's your prerogative. Unless you want to adopt, which I'd also be good with. It doesn't really matter how we amass our family, they'll still be ours.

Li: You did a great job of explaining, I'm sorry she didn't listen, and that she was so rude. I made excuses for her before then because I know had badly hurt feelings can make people act out, but seeing her talk to you like that... I couldn't handle it. So that's done. My being her friend, I mean. Thank you for standing up for me and for us, and for standing by me while I came to the conclusion to rid myself of her toxic energy.

Li: It was funny though! I feel a little weird about the Auratube idea now though. Technically, it was Ariana's.

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ariliki​:

Actually, I should stop equating her to animals because I love animals and comparing her to even a dog is far too kind. I just can’t think of any swears that wouldn’t actually do a disservice to what I’d be comparing her too. I didn’t say shit about your relationship and she could’ve minded her own business or told you to handle it if she cared so much. Talking for you and telling me and the entire internet that you sent her the personal shit I told you didn’t preserve anything, Li. How in the world was I supposed to behave when she said shit like that? Just back down and have everyone see me as some kind of  joke for being dumb enough to fall for one half of the yet another classic Auradon “best friends to lovers" relationship? That’s not who I am. Also I hate your girlfriend. She’s condescending, weirdly boring even while trying to call me out and honestly not even pretty enough to even explain why anyone would be into such an utter lack of personality outside of like the main character in a particularly heinous hallmark movie, even if I didn’t want you there was never going to be a way I’d ever be able to talk to her without wanting to get a little punchy. So honestly, you might be right. Us being friends after this really wouldn’t work out.

...Everything you just said is so vile I can’t even dignify it with a response. I don’t even know who this person I’m talking to is. I mean, I knew you were competitive and fiery and I always admired those parts of your personality -- they reminded me of my mom, which is the highest honor -- but my mother would never talk in the way you’re talking now. Never. But thank you. I’ve been struggling to try and figure out how I could possibly balance my life to keep you in it, but by showing me your true colors, you’re setting me free. I sincerely hope that you work on the ugliness inside of your soul that’s causing you to act out like this, and please don’t ever talk to me or my girlfriend again. Bye.

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ariliki​:

I didn’t even start it! I don’t know how you could possibly think setting your girlfriend on me PUBLICLY like some condescending ass attack dog wouldn’t make me want to beat her with a tourney stick? I won’t touch her if she’ll just stop speaking to me! And whatever, Marley already told me that for you. That’s fine by me, they do say absence makes the heart grow fonder after all.

Stop equating her to animals; you’re the only one who’s acting wild here. I didn’t set her on you. You publicly disrespected my relationship and she defended it. She defended us, and I love her for it, but the truth is, it should’ve been me who said something, not her, but she stood up for our relationship for me, so that I could preserve my friendship with you. But you know what? The truth is that if this is how you’re going to behave, you’re the one who’s actively hurting our friendship, not me. How are we supposed to be friends if you can’t even talk to my girlfriend without wanting to hurt her? How are we supposed to be friends after all of this at all? I don’t see it working out, not as long as you’re like this.

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@ariliki​:

I didn’t read…any of that but good to know or sorry to hear? I don’t care but next time you come to me sideways saying anything. Me going after Li will be the least of your worries because I will swing on you.

Ariana, that’s enough! I don’t know how you could possible think threatening violence against my girlfriend could help your case at all but it doesn’t. You’re never laying a hand on her and... and maybe you and I should stop talking. For a while, anyway, until you can stop doing whatever this is.

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if you could only choose one sport which one would you play for the rest of your life?

I loved tourney, but R.O.A.R. had my whole heart and if I’d never gotten injured, that’s what I’d still be doing to this day, so that.

honesty hour!

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What kind of pet would you get?

I like the idea of a dog because they’re very active pets and could go on runs with me but at the end of the day, that’s a decision I’d make with @marley-yao since my pet will be her pet and we’re planning on moving in together soon.

honesty hour!

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Any future guests in mind for your auratube channel?

None at the moment anymore, no. I know I told @ariliki she should be a guest but I’m guessing space from me might be more important than that.

honesty hour!

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What fictional love story do you think has the most in common with your relationship?

I don’t really read or watch TV much but I watched a movie with @marley-yao once called Always Be My Maybe and that one kind of feels close? Then again, we were also baking and talking and just hanging out so I didn’t pay as much attention to the movie as I should’ve.

honesty hour!

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Is there a dealbreaker in your current relationship?

I don’t think that there’s anything @marley-yao and I can’t work out together. 

honesty hour!

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text 💬 marli

Marley: it's not like there's anything you can do. her feelings are her own, you can't control them. as much as I'd love to just be like 'turn off __'s feelings" because it's super annoying! (like a surprise cooking stream! maybe? idk im not that good with social media 😅) I'm so grateful we happened the way we did too. it just brings our story together. it's so us! our love story began the second we became friends when we were kids and now it'll continue forever. and you're stuck with me for life too! just in case you were wondering. you're irreplaceable and the most important person on the planet to me. if you're asking for help, i can totally take a look. i just don't want you to feel like I'm being the gf that wants to look at your phone lol

Marley: ... okay, i love you but I totally see why she won't back off now. li, you made it look like she has a chance with you. you brought up her singing her feelings for you, then said it confused you, then said because you had feelings for her before and you /can't/ because of me. like i was an obstacle for her to overcome in order to get to you. and when someone doesn't realize how happy you are in your relationship, tell them! i love you for trying to be nice but you gave her an opening!! and if you hadn't just reassured me and didn't voluntarily show this to me, I would think you'd want something to happen between you two.

Marley: oh! definitely! she could totally help in that way! i don't watch auratubers that much so i cant think of anyone else who'd be good help... maybe Chad?

Li: If I could, I would. But I feel like anything I do just makes it worse. I'm not good at this. (No, that's a good idea! I'll use it, thanks.) It's really cool that you and I have gone through every kind of love in the world to be where we are now, you know? Or almost every love. Familial love will probably kick in when we decide to have our own kids. And good, I wasn't going to sound needy and ask, but being stuck to you makes me more happy than anything else could. Don't worry about that, you can always look at my phone. I have nothing to hide.

Li: See, this is why I'm glad I showed you, because I could not for the life of me see how I gave her an opening. And honestly, I still kind of don't see it. I told her multiple times that she didn't have a chance, and when I told her I had feelings for her in the past, it was to emphasize that any chance for that would've been a long long time ago, and the chance passed. I called you my epic love and that I waited my whole life to be with you and I don't get how that's not the same thing as saying how great my relationship is. Mostly, I don't get how anyone could look at that and think I wanted anything with anyone other than you, but I guess I must have said something wrong? Tell me how to fix it.

Li: Chad might be one of the only people in Auradon who has a stronger personality than Jordan.

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text 💬 marli

Marley: It's not mean at all! It's completely true. You've done all you can to make it clear it's not going to happen so her still trying has little to do with us. (that could also be a segment for your show 👀) i can't imagine it either! you're so sweet and caring and she's so ... very her. it just seems like you'd bump heads all the time. the chemistry between you two feels more like just a good friendship. and trust me, i was afraid too. that everything we were feeling was just that but then we almost kissed and i literally felt like the universe was spinning. in a super good way. and even before that moment i just know there was always something more. it goes without saying, but the reassurance is nice ❤️ if i ever were to be dumped for her I'd definitely wouldn't want to be blindsided. 😭 it's okay, babe. maybe i can help somehow?

Marley: I can also help her to look for a new roomie or a new place if she wants!

Marley: jordan's a great idea! im sure she's got tons of ideas. id be a little careful just to make sure she doesn't hijack your show. she's got a strong voice which could be a great thing!

Li: That means so much to hear you say that, because I've been feeling so guilty that I just let her like me this long but I don't know how I could've changed that when I didn't even know? (Coming up with surprise treats for a significant other?) Yeah, exactly. She's a great girl but not in the way she wants to be to me. I'm so glad that I found the real thing with you and I have no regrets about how it all happened, even if it took us a minute, because now we have as long as we could ever want. Don't even joke about being dumped for her, you're not about to get dumped for anything. You're stuck with me. And I don't really know how to proceed from here so if you want to help me figure that out, I'd appreciate it? Here's what we said and how we left things, and if you feel comfortable reading them and helping me figure it out, I'd love that, but if you're not, I get that too. You're helping plenty by listening.

Li: [screencaps.jpg]

Li: That's so nice of you. I'm sure it won't be that hard for her to find a new one but I bet she'll appreciate the help a lot.

Li: Well, I wasn't planning on allowing her on the show. I just thought she could help with some tips. And besides, if it starts to get a little out of hand, I have you to keep me grounded.