Made up attachment
I’ve been struggling with something lately and right now I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this so I thought I’d post of here and maybe see if anyone else can relate. Please be kind and don’t judge me, I’m a bit nervous about this.
So lately I’ve started having an attachment to people I don’t know. I’m not gonna say who it is cause idk i’m worried will tell them or something but I’ll say they’re a couple on youtube , they’re both women and I’ll call them A and B. For some reason my brain has decided to become completly attached to them. I keep dreaming about them being my mommies but it’s not just a dream, when I wake up I legitimately feel like I miss them. When I’ve regressed lately, I want them, as if they were my caregivers and when I can’t find them (cause they’re not here obviously) I feel like I’ve lost them. I think i feel more attached to A cause that’s who I dream about more and she’s more of the “mommy” figure but I feel attached to both of them so I guess it doesn’t really matter.
I don’t know what to do about this. I can’t keep longing after these people that I don’t even know. It actually hurts. It hurts to miss someone who doesn’t even know I exist.
Has this ever ever happened to anyone else before? Forming an attachment that’s completely made up in your head? I’ve never met them or spoken to them but I feel like I know them and little me definitely think she knows them.
How do I move on from this? It feels absolutely ridiculous to say but this is how I’m feeling and it’s weird and confusing and hard. Any advice would be great but please don’t be mean.
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