Court Jesster

have you ever gotten your ass ate in the back of a mercedes benz

[littlejesster]

bros got me in a good mood, kinda dangerous, kinda hot

[littlejesster]

i genuinely feel like im in a LEGAL LEGAL LEGAL LEGAL teacher x student fanfic right now

[littlejesster]

i got ya father on my phone double texting, hearting my messages and using !! unironically

[littlejesster]

guys im so good at changing my nostril piercing

[littlejesster]

and to piggy back off my last post, yeah this man is double my age and my dance instructor, but im gonna fuck him because hes hot and buff and i want to, this is some black swan shit and im into it, i understand her, and if i saw whore in big letters in the bathroom, id assume it was for me too but the difference is i wouldnt care, id take a selfie with it and post it on my story

[littlejesster]

do i act fatherless? yeah but i have one and even though ive fist fought him, run away from home because of him, left the state for 2 years because of him, and he sent me to a mental hospital for 2 weeks, i love that guy i dont care

and maybe that is why i crave love from older men bc i only love my dad now that i never have to see him, but when we lived in the same house, when i was his daughter and not some grown adult, loving my dad was the last thing on my mind

and maybe that feeling stayed but im just mature enough to know being mad at him wont change anything and i WANT to love him

do yoy know how many people dont have a dad at all? my moms dad stepped out on her, my dads dad killed himself in their living room when my dad was 14 and he found him after coming home from school

so maybe my dad locked me away for half a month

so mayne he backed me into a corner as i screamed for my mom who he knew wasnt in the house with a smile on his face

so maybe he said id be the reason my little brother killed himself

i have a dad and hes mine and i love him and i cant really say anything else

[littlejesster]

electricity

i think it comes from our eyes

telepathic lust

[littlejesster]

it's kind of the wrong thing to do

and we both know that, right?

the only thing stopping us is the camera

and the windows

not really

the dim lights the slow music

low enough that we can only hear the beat, that's all we need

the beat and your voice

then the room is ours

and i'm yours until the clock runs out

the timer you didnt set

a dark room a jazzy tune a low cut top a sweet smile a nervous laugh a buff chest a tiny waist an eagerness to cut the tension and a

passionate man

and a

curious woman

a recipe, a guarantee

for mutual destruction

assured and agreed upon

a good time

[littlejesster]

i am a kpop stan and i do NOT have an eating disorder

[littlejesster]

"it's you jess youre so..."

for both of our sakes he changed the subject

[littlejesster]

"oh good youre here"

"wow you smell good"

"i know if you look guys in the eyes they gwt the wrong idea"

"you have long fingers and arms so the moves will look more elegant than usual"

"do you have a boyfriend"

"no?...oh"

🎣🎣🎣🎣🎣

caught him

[melancholic-whimsy]

sometimes you just have to peel the entire skin off your lips because self-care

[littlejesster]

"you knew what you were doing to those men" so funny youd say that to me !! i got roofied this year !! ok bye

[littlejesster]

guys im the executive chef like this is my job

[littlejesster]

a band member came up to little ol me to buy me a drink and chat before going back to fresno???

teehee

[littlejesster]

this band is nice

and so was your car

the ac is cold

and ao was the ice cream you bought us

one cone

but i asked for a cup on the side

this bar is far

away from home

justblike we weere by the end of the night

i remember i said

i didnt know where we were

anf you laughed and kept driving

away

these people are loud

just like the silencd of us alone

in that taco shop

you and me

qhere else was i aupposed to go?

walk? uber?

your hands

thats what the steering wheeel is in

i sont know how many times i loooked away from you

tuened away turned off

youre so big you know

kind of hard not to bend to

how old are you?

and i guess i ahoukdve turnes arpund but i didnt

sp what does that meam

does it mean anything?

im running from something

and i think its you

vecayse nowni can run

[littlejesster]

what stage are you in when youre getting ready talking to him on the phone while hes repeircing his nose and since youre both laughing you cant do your eyeliner and he cant hold his hand steady so youre both getting nowhere but you dont really care