;( I have to move back out. (text rant warning) ACCEPTING DONATIONS
I can’t stay here any more. https://paypal.me/Skuttz Here is my paypal.me if you want to help.
The shit: (how the fuck can i put this under a cut?)
My sisters (ex?)bf lived with us for two years, gas lit and emotionally tormented me. Left me feeling crazy. Made my depression and dealing with my chronic illness worse, left me struggling to even find motivation to work. I’m sure y'all noticed the semi-perm hiatusing and severe drop off of art. Its because my head kept getting unscrewed by that fuckwad.
He told my dad like 2 weeks ago he was entirely done with my sister. Didnt want to work on things, and my dad said “then you get out and you dont come back”
Monday I was trying to tell my sister how he hurt me. He was gone, and it was hard for me to listen to her cry over someone who intentionally inflicted emotional damage to our household. I was trying to start over and patch things up. Letting her know what he did to me, shit he said to me in private, making it *excruciatingly* clear that when i lost a baby, he was an asshole to me and refused to apologize and hid behind her suicidal tendencies to avoid the situation. He was also refusing to apologize to me in hopes that my dad would kick him out for it, and he wouldn’t have to break up with my sister like a fucking man. She doesn’t see or care he used me as a pawn.
Yesterday, babycakes saw her walking down the road to go meet up with the manipulative bastard at the gas station because she still would rather be with him.
So my sister had told me he’s out of the pic, doesn’t tell us (the household) they decided to try to be friends behind everyone’s backs. And lets me run my mouth negatively on someone she still has on a pedestal–so i am a bitch for telling her the uncomfortable truths, and i am “biased” in my emotions toward her (ex?)bf.
I lost a baby. I wish I’d never told my family. he used me like a pawn. Drew out the drama for a month before we had a house sit down, and then a month after that–walked away after my dad let him stay. He had been trying to get kicked out anyways, so when getting kicked out didn’t work- he finally had to nut up and break up with my sister himself. I would have probably been better off reaching out to you guys here and finding someone to talk to than opening up to my family. My family broke my heart when i needed them most.
Everyone in this house let me get steamrolled and shit on at my most vulnerable. By someone who isn’t even family, on my sister’s behalf. Emotionally i am broken, confused, and hurt.
I don’t want to pay for her phone bill any more. I should have stopped paying for it back when she wouldn’t tell her ex to shut up at night so i could sleep. Everything was denial and saying i was making shit up to get him kicked out. I FELT LIKE THE BAD GUY FOR ASKING TO SLEEP AT NIGHT. I am can’t-eat-stressed over this shit. she is leaving me distressed over cutting off her phone but she is just texting him with it. I am not paying for her to talk to someone who so outright disrespects me.
I have to get out of here. I keep trying to draw, but i don’t feel safe here any more. Its hard to get in a work mind set when i just feel like i am trying to keep my sanity. I’ll work on art as much as i can but i am trying to pack and get ready to flee.
Babycakes and i are short on cash, we have just barely managed to save for moving back out and i can’t stack any more commissions on my plate until i am caught up again. He got a $2 raise at work, so we can probably barely afford living expenses. As soon as we get all the money we need for down payments and first month’s rent, we are trying to make a break for it. We need like $500 to close the gap, and I still need money to repair my radiator so i can move boxes in my car.
I’ll be working my hardest. Anyone interested in donating so that I can have peace of mind, please let me know. We are trying to move out in 2 weeks. That’s how bad its gotten.
I moved here to heal, and lost my mind instead :(
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