Sometimes I wish I could be a new person

❀ she/her ❀ 26 ❀ defined by the things I love: vintage fashion, art, photography, poetry, literature, history, linguistics, music, nature & animals ❀ with the added sprinkle of my life as a chronically ill person ❀ @antique-boutique ❀

[kingalicent]

Donate to Gaza Soup Kitchen

Daily Click for Palestine

eSIMs for Gaza

gazafunds Spotlight Campaign

Sameer Project: food, water, milk, diapers + medical aid on the ground

Sameer Project Aid Linktree

Vegetables, food and water for Palestine

Palestine Children’s Relief Fund

Watermelon Relief

El Elna Elak: on the ground resource

[whyenn-reader]

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

[whyenn-reader]

the more you twist yourself into a pretzel to avoid regret the harder it will hit when it eventually catches up to you.

[littlepoetess]

I was tagged by my beloved friend Noor @calmmyfears 🩷

Hair colour: Light brown

Favourite colour: I love colours 🌈 I don't think I have a single favourite one. Overall I gravitate towards muted colours. I have a lot of earth tones in my wardrobe and the interior of my apartment has quite a lot of muted shades of green and pink.

Favourite drink: Tea 🍵 I think my favourites are cranberry green tea, chai with honey and oatmilk and a local black Christmas tea 🤶🏻

One thing I love about myself: My talent for writing (in my native language unfortunately, so I'll never post anything on here).

If I could be any animal, I would be: Maybe a cat? 🐱

Dream place to visit: Scotland and New Zealand are the top places on my list! I wish I could travel. I also wish to visit more of my international friends and see their countries.

What am I looking forward to: I hope I get to go to the beach and a dance this month 🤞🏻

My biggest dream is: To recover from my illnesses and become an author. Smaller dreams, that are likely going to happen in the next couple of years, are moving in together with my partner and adopting cats 💖 I hope I can live life to the fullest eventually, study at a university and raise a child.

Songs I have on repeat:

Andrea Bejar - Maybe It's Better

Noah Kahan - Porch Light

Noah Kahan - Doors

Mumford & Sons - Clover

Mumford & Sons feat. Gracie Abrams - Badlands

Maisie Peters - Girl's Just Flying

Teddy Swims - Mr. Know It All

I'm tagging @nightshadewine @darkvictories-fullheart @stillwritingpagez @colourblue @draumlyndi @eternall-sunshinee @carlytayjepsen and whoever sees this and wishes to participate <3

[lamignonette]

[7pleiades7]

The Captive’s Return (1920) by Henry Ryland (British, 1856 – 1924), watercolor on paper, 51 x 72.5 cm. (20.1 x 28.5 in), Private Collection

[7pleiades7]

Idle Moments (n/d) by Henry Ryland (English, 1856 – 1924), signed 'HENRY RYLAND-' (lower right), pencil and watercolour on paper, 14 ½ x 30 ¾ in. (37 x 77 cm.), Private Collection

[kosmogrl]

[gideonisms]

I think it's so important and crucial for 20 year olds to witness older people who are genuinely bad at some aspects of being a person but are still living lives they find meaningful and enjoyable. Not just "oh I got married and you can too" but like. sometimes you cannot for the life of you finish college or find a good job or stay in a relationship or arrive to locations on time or whatever it is you think when you're 20 that you HAVE to be able to do. But you wind up finding a place in the world anyway. It happens!

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

[diogenesprintco]

Symmetrical irises from a couple years ago - now in blue!

Followers of this blog will know me as an enjoyer of handmade cotton papers, but this is one of the rare times I had a misprintless experience with a more mid-weight pressed paper.

[gveleshapi]

I cannot believe degendering pregnancy is a controversial topic. idk how it is in the west, but when I went to a doctor, told her that I'm pregnant and I needed to do blood tests and many other things she laughed at me and said smth like: "you a 180cm grownass man pregnant??? honey, pregnancy is for those who are women. if you're a mentally ill trans then you can visit a psychologist instead", and I told her that I'm intersex but she was like "not pregnant, *h slurs* are sterile and can't get pregnant, especially if they're a man like you are." I saw 6 different doctors and I was mocked by all of them, until my partner somehow made one of them listen, and she saw that I really was pregnant and being intersex didn't make me "sterile." if pregnancy was degendered and was replaced with neutral language I'd have easier time accessing healthcare. and now that I did, the doctors are still confused and they're like "yeahhh, they never taught us how to treat defects like you so let us treat you like we would treat *normal pregnancy.*" first of all why are you calling a human being a defect, and secondly, do you treat EVERY pregnant woman you see the same way? there are different kinds of pregnancies. not every pregnancy is the same. different people have different complications and needs. why do you treat intersex pregnancy as something impossible that cannot be helped and monitored. especially for pregnant intersex men (or phenotypical "man", idk how to say it). the medical system makes you feel horrible for being intersex and pregnant intersex man. they'll either deny your healthcare or they'll abuse you and force you into womanhood even when you never lived it.

[khmali]

I wasn't originally planning to add anything, but I need to add more

I'm his partner. I'm also intersex. and my face looks "too feminine", so let me tell you, the medical system doesn't take any of us seriously. while he was being abused for being a pregnant man and they called him a "mentally ill trans", I was getting laughed at for having long hair and for "not looking manly enough." we had doctors telling us to abort the fetus because we would fail being parents. they said that the child needs traditional mother and father, not "mentally ill defected anomaly parents who will make the child ashamed of being born." doctors did everything to make us feel awful about ourselves, however we know how bad intersexism, transphobia and queerphobic in general is in our country and we decided to ignore them. we're getting a lot of hate from people, mainly medical system and they're trying to "fix" us so that the child can have traditional mother and father. Gatsi would become a mother and woman, and I'd be a father and a man. people find it too hard to be normal about male pregnancy, and it's even worse if you're intersex because they'll tell you to abort your baby to your face because "you're a defect who will birth a defected child like you." (and there's additional transphobia because they immediately assume you that you're a "mentally ill trans", and while we both identify as agender it's still sickening how they treat him)

[charl0ttan]

i wish i was born as someone who could handle life

[miamaimania]

“Perfume” (2021) ⟲ Amy Beager ◆ Green and pink, two become one

[northern-punk-lad]

Being prime minister of the uk has a higher regret rate than being trans

So the solution is to ban prime ministers

[northern-punk-lad]

[petaltexturedskies]

Daphne du Maurier, Don't Look Now

[petaltexturedskies]

Sylvia Plath, in a letter to her mother Aurelia, written c. August 1951, from Letters Home: Correspondence 1950-1963

[demoncity]

Howl's Moving Castle (2004) Porco Rosso (1992) The Secret World of Arrietty (2010) Kiki's Delivery Service (1989) Whisper of the Heart (1995) Only Yesterday (1991)