FOR HIM.

Mikaela Hyakuya RP blog | semi selective (inactive since 2018)

[kuroheishi]

"I've had lots of thoughts recently, y'know?" he catches his family's hand in his "And all this stuff going on made me wonder- if we're one and I love you thiii------s much!" he opens his arms wide to stress his point.

"Then that surely means that together with you Mika, the love is extra strong! Double love for you! So you're extra loved hehe..."

[littlxlamb]

"I'm always worried when you say you have lots of thoughts." Which technically because he's in his head he knew what he was thinking before it was so eloquently articulated- yet somehow that doesnt mean he can err decipher it.

"If we're the same person doesnt that mean you just love yourself a whole lot?"

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb

"Mikaaaa." He pokes his shoulder "Mika." The poking attack continues.

[littlxlamb]

"What?" gently swats hand away because why

[kuroheishi]

"Rude, I'd go to the toilet for you even without organs. It's all about trying." that's how much he loves him, duh.

[littlxlamb]

"Disembowel yourself right now and then we'll talk."

[kuroheishi]

"I'm carrying the weight of the universe's fate right now, y'know? You could at least help out with the toilet part. I don't have time to run back and forth. But you're a demon now Mika, so you can just POOF yourself anywhere you want, right?""

[littlxlamb]

"You could be carrying to term, Im not going to the toilet for you." I dont even think I can piss if i tried, I dont have organs.

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb

"Oi Mika! So if you're me and I'm you- does that mean you can go to wee wee for me then?" all this food and protein shakes are getting through his body too quickly.

[littlxlamb]

".... You have a strange obsession with me being in the toilet, you should speak to a therapist about that."

[kuroheishi]

Perhaps words might not be his forte, but he genuinely believes in the life Mika has given him since he has met him. The only life he has ever had, really. Even a lost disgrace like him, was allowed to follow a path in which he didn't have to fight alone, where he could have someone to keep him grounded to an existence he was afraid to take a chance with by himself. Mika has always been his brightest star, even if he might not see it. He has always been the reason Yu could breath more easily, feel any kind of warmth even in the darkest of nights.

"You sound like an old man, Mika." he's still smiling as he allows his body to fully flop on the soft cold grass of the early evening. His hands rest behind his head, a breath taken to enjoy the scent of the night around them.

"They burn bright, until there's nothing left of them, but they still keep burning for others despite it all." he says as a matter of fact, admiration laced in his voice as he mumbles out loud his thoughts. "And you do the same for me, every single day since we were kids. I appreciate what you call 'supervision', y'know? Even though I'd rather call it caring for your family - Ah!" an exclamation abruptly escapes him, as if he realises he's missed something extremely important.

"I know! I will call that constellation 'Mikastar'! So anyone who is ever going to look up at the sky and feel lost, they will know you'll guide them back home heh." he snickers to himself, satisfaction in his green hues.

[littlxlamb]

Mika was sat with one leg stretched out and the other at an angle to rest his arm on. His gaze inevitably drifted back to his company, watching as he settled on the grass and spoke his mind. At least that's one thing with Yuu, it's never been hard to read him, mostly he just thought out loud. His feelings, his wants, they were always right there, out in the open. He was glad that hadn't changed, amongst other things.

"Huh." Mika let him finish his thoughts, "Sounds more like you." Mika may have been a leader once, but that had only ended in the worst case scenario. The people that loved and trusted him were ripped apart in front of them like they were wet paper. And since he was forced to be like this, he had wanted nothing more than for Yuu. Every long day and dark night, it was knowing in his bones that Yuu was out there that made him able to keep going. Mika thought with a hum and eyes closed, tilting his head slightly. Then it hit him, "Ah, Yuu-niverse." The vampire smiled down at the boy, "You're like the... Yuu-niverse? Get it?"

[kuroheishi]

There's a low hum vibrating in his chest, giving a last good look at the starry sky before he addresses all of his attention to his family.

"But even if they're su---per far away-" his arms open wide as if to highlight with that gesture the massive distance he is referring to "they're still hella bright to come all the way here for us to see them, and that is pretty awesome, right?" there is only a few people whom he can grin so widely for, Mika the first one on that short list of people, in fact the only one Yu can smile that brightly for.

"And I think you're as bright as them Mika, heh. Stars are meant to guide people, right? And you're kind like... My guide. My life guide. Kinda like a light and gravity all together I guess. Basically," he points at the other "You're hella important and bright."

[littlxlamb]

He was so predictable- at least his pattern of behaviour was. Say something dumb, double down on that dumbness, and yet despite just how egregiously dumb it is, Mika would still blush. The young vampire was more than convinced that his red-faced retaliation was more about being confounded by his dumbness. Nothing more.

He stared at the boy for a short while- though it could have been longer than that, he was unsure. "I'm pretty sure stars are just balls of dying gas, Yuu-chan..." Mika cleared his throat and pulled his gaze away to the view before them. "And if by guide, you mean 'you need to be supervised so you dont do something dumb', then yeah that probably is my role." Dumb. Dumb dumb dumb.

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb

Even the night sky looks somehow brighter since that unnatural crimson tint has finally faded. It his perhaps the very first time he is truly paying attention to the different patterns the stars are creating above their heads.

"That constellation looks kinda like you." his index points somewhere north-east, emerald eyes glancing at Mika briefly before focusing back above his head.

[littlxlamb]

Mika tried to connect the dots, see where even something resembling a face could be seen but alas his imagination had never been as colourful as Yuu-chan's. "It er just looks like a bunch of little white specks to me."

[kuroheishi]

Their first encounter was not the best beginning to start any kind of acquaintance: a particular dark night in Sunnydale, Yu's worn trainers were wet as he makes his way down the alley and he had no time to avoid the puddles that were still scattered on the ground after a long heavy rain from the day before.

He knew there was somebody following since before he had decided to take a quiter route, a safer path in case he had to take care of the matter. The figure had followed him through, catching his bait, perhaps hoping for the same at this point.

Even that night,, Yu had felt some kind of unsettling energy emanating from that guy: despite such elegant features, delicate like moonlight, Yu knew better than trust such a docile attitude. He caught the item thrown at him out of reflex after a small banter, and yet he finds himself wearing it even now, days after that odd first meeting.

The blond's comment has him frown further. Who the fuck is this guy? A demon? His nose is not catching any particular scent, in fact he doesn't smell bad actually. Too sweet maybe, or is just the drinks people around them?

But he's not that stupid to not realise that whoever this guy is, or whoever sent him, is there for him.

Not for Yuichiro, bur for the Slayer.

His hand raises automatically, fingers wrapping around the wrist of the young male who has just taken too much confidence for his own taste.

"And I don't like to repeat myself either: learn personal space." The other's hand is yanked away before he releases it, a last glare before Yu does the exact opposite of the person has just said.

"Nah, didn't your parents teach you to not follow strangers? I don't even know your name." if the guy has heard him, Yu doesn't even really care as he turns his back on him and starts walking away on the opposite direction. He can play this game too.

[littlxlamb]

He couldnt particularly blame his hostility. He was sure by now the young slayer had faced his fair share of otherworldly creatures trying to lul the guy into a false sense of security. Though if his hours of stalking and research was right, this boy as about as green as you could get a slayer. If anyone was to come get him now would be the time. Though, that wasn't what he was here for, the opposite in fact.

"Does my name really matter? There's something coming. Something big. And it doesn't seem like you're concerned in the slightest. Either you're the most arrogant slayer thats exsisted or the most stupid."

His tone wasn't angry, more just disappointed and disapproving, though it was all bravado from him, given his situation. Light blue eyes looked over the boys bright green ones. Maybe he was being to harsh. "Mika. My name is Mika. Now will you come with me?"

[littlxlamb]

@kuroheishi / cont.

Did this guy even care? Anyone could have convinced Mika that wasnt the case. Every other Slayer he'd encountered had been bright and ready, vicious and calculated. The only calculator it looks like this kid had ever encountered had been when one was probably thrown at his head. "At least you know the meaning of something." Mika quipped over the noise taking a few steps toward Yuu. "I didnt realise you had so much free time." A glint of the necklace he had given the boy poked out from his clothes, with his gloved hand he reached for it, holding it in his fingers as he admired both the trinket and the boy who wore it for a moment. "It suits you. Makes you look like you know what you're doing." He smiled, letting go of the silver cross at the boys neck. "That being said, I hate to repeat myself but you need to come with me."

[littlxlamb]

"You see, the problem with that is that you never listen to me. So if you won't listen to my voice, maybe you'll listen to your own. You do have an inner monologue right? The brain capacity required for that might exceed your abilities." Just put up a static wall and stop complaining.

[kuroheishi]

"Sorry what did you just say Mika? Somethin' about a monologue?" it's called selective hearing.

[littlxlamb]

Mika pokes him aggressively "You heard me, don't be an idiot."

[incorrect-owari-no-seraph]

Mika: If you have 10 cookies, and I ask for 5, how many would you have left?

Yuu: None.

Mika: …Yuu-Chan, this is basic math, it’s not that har—

Yuu: I would give them all to you because I love you.

Mika:

Mika, visibly holding back tears: Disgusting, absolutely repulsive, get out of my house.

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb replied to your post “"Uhhhh..." humming loudly helps him to think. "So...”

So what if we started using our inner voices to start thinking before we ask questions like this?

"Aren't our minds kinda connected now thought? You're the one spying on my mind all the time huh." Rude, not even privacy in his own mind.

[littlxlamb]

"You see, the problem with that is that you never listen to me. So if you won't listen to my voice, maybe you'll listen to your own. You do have an inner monologue right? The brain capacity required for that might exceed your abilities." Just put up a static wall and stop complaining.

[kuroheishi]

@littlxlamb mwah

"Hey Mika..." it was a warm day despite it was only the beginning of spring. Even the sun seemed to have brightened up once the sky had bleed out and let the blue take its original colour.

It didn't look wrong anymore, instead his eyes could not let go of that beautiful view as if he were to look away at any point he was afraid it would disappear once again.

Freedom did not seem to be just a dream now anymore.

"If I were to die, would you remember me?" his voice was as gentle as the lazy afternoon breeze, his smile calm and warm like the rays they were bathing in. He had never feared death for himself, perhaps instead looked for it more often that he had ever admitted aloud to anyone. His comfort was to keep Mika and his family safe, even if that meant to sacrifice the whole universe to achieve that goal. That was the purpose of his pitiable existence.

He had promised him this time they would solve the map together, that he would not leave his precious family behind... However, in the darkest depths of his soul Yuichirou had always been aware that he was just a mere disposable piece of someone else's game.

If it was for them, he would embrace the scythe of death with open arms.

[littlxlamb]

Mika hadn't yet found the lack luster in the same rising sun or long nights that older vampires had grown so weary of. But he could feel it within him, this emptiness that crept into his bones, a particular kind of boredom that nothing could satiate. If his late parents were right and there is a God let him never know that kind of absence, let him never know what life would be without a feeling of any kind- hell he almost missed the painful desire for blood. Almost. Very very almost. Though he couldnt say he remembered how it felt bar the memory of the feeling. As though all those years of torture had become dust in that supermarket.

But of what of his humanity was still in tact, he had Yuu, had his family. And all the love and pain he felt for him. Including when stupid questions like this would leave his lips like it was the most simple ask. What a juxtaposition; the cold unyielding hell that conjured such a statement and the warmth of his features that kept what little feeling Mika had left alive.

Yuu's suicidal ideation always took him aback slightly. It hurt him like a knife to the heart despite his knowing this wasn't a knew feeling for his family. Mika could protect Yuu from the world, he was confident in that fact, but not himself.

It took a moment for Mika to reply, cast in the shadow of the building to protect himself from the harsh sun's rays (his UV blocker protected him from the worse but it was still mildly uncomfortable to stay under it for too long).

"If you die I'll kill you." He joked with a flat tone, the uncomfortable feeling in his chest growing until he could feel it in his throat. "I don't want to live long enough to know if that's possible."

There was a silence in the grim reality of what could be. Mika hated living in what ifs and might be, but his imagination sometimes over came him. And it was quick to remind him of his failures, of how he could continue to fail, how his immortality was killing him. There is a timeline that Yuu dies and Mika is left all alone. The thought made him ill.

Mika smacked his company around the back of the head. "Make me human again and don't ask stupid questions."

[nekokoaaa]

(emoji of mother craddling son) my baby he'd do no wrong

Little render practice :] sorry if its messy

[littlxlamb]

He sometimes forgets that Yuu is so dumb he can get hurt from something as inconsequential as a little jab as that.

"If I see you so much as put a blade of grass near your mouth I will cut off your hand and feed it too you."

[kuroheishi]

"I guess then-" he crouches down, only to rip some green blades from the field "we should start from cleansing your mouth first. Maybe that's why my blood tastes so bad huh!" he is getting dangerously close to Mika with his big sunshine grin.

[littlxlamb]

Yuu's attitude as always was quick to change. "One more step and it'll be your last." He meant his threats as he holds a hand out and takes a step back.

[okkottsus]

I did find one. I have a reason to live. I have you, Mika.

for @hayakaws.♡