Fen'Harel Trash

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[live4h0y]

I have returned to this forsaken app only for Dragon Age/Mass Effect after the new teaser trailers.

I come to bless you with memes.

Yw.

[live4h0y]

Let's Talk About Heartbreak

Caused by your parents.

Today I'm driving home from work right. I keep seeing all these people on motorcycles because it's a beautiful day outside. Every. Single. Time. I feel a twinge of pain even though he is 600 miles away. My dad likes to ride motorcycles, some of these people even have the same look of content on their faces.

My dad isn't dead. My dad isn't sick. He is simply not the same person he once was. He used to call me and check on me, he used to visit me. He used to want to talk to me. Then everything changed.

My parents got a divorce 5 years ago. All was fine for awhile, but then my dad got remarried. He started on this quest for revenge against my mother. He's stripped my younger brother of relationships with her or anyone on her side of the family. Even me. All because I wouldn't take sides.

So everytime I think of some fond memory of him, it hurts me. I think about him teaching me to ride a horse, and I think to myself "will the joy I once felt riding ever be without a hint of longing?". I think about him cooking me cinnamon sugar fried tortillas when I was upset and wonder what changed. I think about that time he bought me a puppy for my birthday because I just HAD to have it, and I just can't comprehend who he is now.

Why doesn't he call me anymore? Why doesn't he call to sing me happy birthday every year like he used to, or even bother to send a card? Why doesn't he ask me to come over whenever I am visiting home? Why doesn't he CARE? Aren't your parents just supposed to love you?

So everytime I see an old college football cap, a guy so happy on his Harley Davidson, someone loving every second of a horse back ride, or someone cracking jokes with their kids about farts at the super market, I think of him, and I hold back tears, because my heart is broken. Because I love him, and I don't understand why he doesn't love me anymore.

[live4h0y]

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[live4h0y]

You know what I HATE? How a societal norm is that men should always just accept that they're wrong and tell their woman that they're sorry/it is their fault.

If you are at fault, it's okay to just apologize. Blame isn't a competition.

[live4h0y]

People without anxiety: walking.

People with anxiety: carefully choreographed steps. Move arms in back and forth motions, is this normal? What do I do with my hands? Are people watching? I think I walk weird, maybe it's my feet.. am I moving my feet right?

[live4h0y]

Psssstttt

Just so you guys know my good friend @superb-mediocrity has been working tirelessly on her Modern Solavellan AU: Sex & Pride, featuring Solas (and other members of the Pantheon) in a rock band.

MUSIC! SLEEVELESS SHIRTS! TATTOOS! DRUGS! Everything you would expect from a bunch of immortal heathens in a rock band.

I am so

Damn Excited

for everyone to be able to read it. I feel so gifted that I get a first hand look into it.. but ya’ll.. this next chapter is amazing. So.. if you haven’t read it yet, time to catch up before the next chapter drops!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[live4h0y]

Update: it's been posted!!! Get on your reading hats BOOOOOIISSS.

[mangomorales-blog]

yall haven’t written the next chapter of ur fanfic and it really shows

[sanerontheinside]

[wishmakersblog]

Hey now, no need for callouts

[live4h0y]

[live4h0y]

Psssstttt

Just so you guys know my good friend @superb-mediocrity has been working tirelessly on her Modern Solavellan AU: Sex & Pride, featuring Solas (and other members of the Pantheon) in a rock band.

MUSIC! SLEEVELESS SHIRTS! TATTOOS! DRUGS! Everything you would expect from a bunch of immortal heathens in a rock band.

I am so

Damn Excited

for everyone to be able to read it. I feel so gifted that I get a first hand look into it.. but ya'll.. this next chapter is amazing. So.. if you haven't read it yet, time to catch up before the next chapter drops!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[live4h0y]

For All the Girls That Don’t Fit

I feel like sharing this and don’t know where to write it so here goes.

I’ve never been a typical girl. I’ve never liked dolls or pretty clothes. I don’t wear makeup and hardly ever wear real jeans. I’m different - an oddball- and thats okay. I never did fit in with the other girls my age, I’ve always felt like I’m missing some fundamental part of being female that everyone else instinctually has. For a really long time I’ve always felt like I’m on the outside looking in at what I’m supposed to be like.

Then I realized something important. It doesn’t matter. I am who I am. I enjoy doing what I enjoy doing, and no matter how out of the group I feel, I’m not changing who I am to “fit in”.

I just want all the girls to know to be okay with who you are. I may not be the prettiest girl, or the skinniest or the one with the best eyeliner wings (i don’t even wear eyeliner), but my husband loves me and my family amd friends love me and I love them. Thats enough for me.

You may be different or tomboyish or whatever else, but you can be you! You’re not alone in being an oddball. Being an oddball is okay. You are loved, and unique, and fuck anyone who thinks you need to change who you are to fit a mold.

Us oddballs are amazing. ❤

[fortheloveofsolas]

… This is so me

Thank you for writing it!

I’ve tried explaining this to people and they look at me confused.

I’ve always felt like I’ve never been “girly” enough. The only time I feel remotely girly is when I’m with guys - but with other girls I can’t girl ™. In a mixed group I don’t fit with either gender.

Your words mean so much to me on a personal level. Thank you for your bravery and encouragement.

[ria-obscure]

Thank you so much for writing this!! As a girl who is on the fence with all things and has boyish interests this means the world to me! We are unique and there are places where we fit XD

[fortheloveofsolas]

@riazures

It’s so nice and comforting to know there are others who feel the same. I’m lucky in a way that my twin feels the way I do. But we haven’t met anyone else who does. Which in a way can still be just as isolating.

In fact, this is the first time I’ve seen anyone describe how they feel and it’s similar to how I feel.

[live4h0y]

I'm so glad that you guys feel comforted by finding other "odd ones". Never change who you are for someone else 😘. Oddballs unite!

[tearsmilk]

[live4h0y]

Anxiety is late night panic attacks because your brain is telling you you're going to die in your sleep.

Anxiety is making sure your SO texts you when they get to work so that you can know they're okay and made it there okay.

Anxiety is having constant thoughts of losing your loved ones in insane scenarios that likely won't happen.

Anxiety is sleeping in as long as you can so that you don't have to deal with the day for longer.

Anxiety is taking naps so that you can force yourself to not worry.

Anxiety is feeling like you have no control at all.

Anxiety is abnormal heart beats, sweating, breathing difficulties, tense muscles, chest pain, body pain, headaches, and difficulty swallowing.

Anxiety is a monster. It's cruel and unrelenting and laughs in your face when you say "that's not true" or "that won't happen".

Anxiety is not "just worrying". It's not just something you can stop doing whenever you don't feel like dealing with it. Anxiety is not a joke and it's not imaginary either.

Some days I even feel like anxiety is me. Like it drives me around doing whatever it wants while I sit in the backseat asking why.

Anxiety sucks.

[geneticmisfit]

BETHESDA ANNOUNCING A NEW IP AND TES 6????

[hinugundam]

“fallout 76 is entirely online”

[wrasslerjedi]

“We break things.”

–Bethany Esda

[miyuki-kazoo]

God I can’t wait for Bethesda to announce Skyrim for the smart fridge

[live4h0y]

New Fics!

@superb-mediocrity and I have been working on a few new fics! Here’s some links and descriptions of our new works.

P.s. sorry about the format I’m on mobile.

Sex & Pride:

A modern AU centered around a elfroot smoking Solas as the bassist in a band.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/11952528/chapters/27024474

War & Tranquility

A spin off of our earlier work “Making Fen'Harel” in which Solas never sends Rihari Lavellan back to the future. Instead the other Evanuris turn her tranquil.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/12026940/chapters/27223968

Spirit of Hope

A modern AU in which Alida Lavellan and the companions head out to the stars in search of a new home after their efforts against Corypheus fail.

Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/11971539/chapters/27074553

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