I wish I can take all the time back and be where I was before - before all of this.
That moment I knew I was on my limit. I was in pain and was devastated and I was asking God: Why? The floodgate of thoughts were then opened. I was thinking if only did I chose ‘better’, I won’t be here - in pain and suffering. But then God spoke to me and asked me, “How did you know that where you are right now isn’t where I want you to be?”
Being in pain does not necessarily mean that we made wrong choices or poor decisions or we’re somewhere we shouldn’t be in. And for that matter, you probably chose right. You are exactly where you should be: a place that is out of your comfort zone but the right place to experience God’s grace and redemptive power. There will come a time when you’ll want to go back to where you were before - back at your comfort zone, hoping that you didn’t step out of it and stayed perfectly comforted in your own little bubble. But let me encourage you today.. wherever you are right now is where God wants you to be. It maybe difficult, it maybe hard.. it maybe painful but take heart and rejoice. God is stretching you. He is growing you. There maybe times when you see yourself in the edge, wanting to give up. But take a look back, you’ll see how far you’ve gone.
Being in pain does not necessarily mean you are somewhere you shouldn’t be. Eyes focused, eyes beyond. God is preparing you and building you for His purpose.