[livingrotten]

told my dad about getting s/a'd when i was 12 and cried so hard i vomited a little

[tgatbc]

[lupineshieldmaiden]

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[puppytweaker]

people talk about "why are some therapists so bad" like hmm i wonder why a job that gives you the ability to feed people false information and take away their bodily autonomy and freedom under the guise of "care" would attract so many cruel/bigoted/uncaring people. i guess it's a mystery....

[engravelives]

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[livingrotten]

being aware that ur a system at like 12 does horrible things to you. how do i have almost 40 alters. this is simply treacherous. why was the ipod touch invented.

[livingrotten]

i have 2 alters that want the exact opposite thing rn and they just made a guy whos whole purpose is to ??? and now i'm mad

[livingrotten]

all of my dreams for the past 2 years have revolved around my mom faking her death to teach me a lesson and im so fucking over it. not even weed makes it stop and i reeeeally dont want to start the med i was on that did work again bc it made me exhausted all the time

[shimejikin]

ill be honest learning more and more about trauma and structural dissociation has made me so freaked out at the idea of electrotherapy and any kind of intense hardcore stablizing medication for ptsd. because that isn't.... fixing the trauma that has to be done manually so relying on things that actively fuck with your brain chemistry rubs me the wrong way so bad. could also be ptsd from medical abuse aimed at treating my ptsd but still. it just feels wrong. you cant electrocute someone into having healthier coping mechanisms, you cant electrocute someone into knowing better. they have to manually learn. how did we get here

[livingrotten]

guy that has DID in a where am i way

[moldavite]

feverish and forsaken. on my second glass of mulled wine. never kill yourself

[thememedaddy]

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[livingrotten]

how do ie explain to someone in the most normal way possible that i need to be heavily distracted or i will probably relapse this week

[livingrotten]

my dad is digging his heels in over both of us being autistic but which one of us has worked in the aviation industry for almost 30 years bc they think planes are cool. bc its not me.

[livingrotten]

beimg 21 so far has just been my decent into severe ocd and like yay its not as much abt my teeth anymore but now im horribly afraid of dying . so. i just spent all day crying and shaking bc im going to die bc we all die bc im human. if you told 10 year old me that the chronic suicidality would turn in to this i think she would've spit in your eye.

[livingrotten]

hmmm part of me thinks that the abuse i went through as a child was, though horrific in nature and not an experience i would wish upon any other child, kinda funny. like your husband had to work 40 hours a week so you made a 6 year old a nurse? like you actually expected that to go well? weird as fuck, i'm making fun of you right now.