catdad

late 20s, he/him

[livorde]

you left. you stayed gone. and yet, every night, there you are. in my sleep. tell me what i’m supposed to do with that.

[lunamonchtuna]

— Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares featured in Correspondance (via lunamonchtuna)

[livorde]

what if it was a trojan cat?

so the Greeks build a giant wooden cat instead of a horse and leave it outside the gates. it's inside the walls before lunch, because who's going to argue against a cat. in all likelihood, they'd probably think she is athena's favorite.

by evening she has a name and people are leaving food out for her. Odysseus and his men inside are starving, so obviously they eat it. and then they keep eating it, because Trojan food turns out to be incredible.

the Trojans wake up to empty bowls and take this as proof the gods are pleased, so they put out more. this goes on for a while. and they just get bored and decide it's not worth the war.

[infectiouspiss]

when god closes a door you reach your little paws under it and go mrrwwaaaooow mmreeaaow

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Maria Eugenia Calderara, from Poems of Exile; “I Still Don't Know Your Name,”

[livorde]

the heart is not a reasonable organ. it will ask for the thing it cannot have, and then act surprised. show some restraint, my heart.

[livorde]

the yearning, it never leaves. and it just hits you on a random 4am.

[livorde]

I had my face cut with a thousand needles. The things i do because i trust my doctor a little too much.

[livorde]

the doctor was right, i was wrong. doctor 1, me 0.

[djotime]

Obsession 2026, dir. Curry Barker

[livorde]

this wasnt the horror i was expecting, but i’ve been thinking about this movie since last night. and it still creeps me out.

[livorde]

there's a cattochan who comes to my balcony. uninvited, unbothered, with those 4 tiny grey and white paws. comes by often.

he sticks his head through the railings, tail wiggling. he reminds me of those retired grandpas who finally have the time to enjoy life a little.

today i opened the door without checking. our eyes met. his went huge. no longer unbothered, i was his next kill. i mean, i ruined his little joyous moment, that i did.

i was the intruder. we held the moment like two people who had walked into the wrong meeting.

i closed the door slowly. don't mind me. you enjoy your view. i'm not even here.

i'd like to think he forgave me. maybe i will befriend him. it's june after all.

[livorde]

how do i tell someone that the alleged drunk text that i sent them, i was fully sober when i sent it.

[livorde]

i was craving something spicy. soo i dumped chilli into a midnightyy snack i made.

then it was all chilli, no salt. added salt.

now it tastes terrible.

still hungry. and salty about it.

[livorde]

Rajat patidar has this very Madhya pradeshi swag! A subtle mix of arrogance, and sweetness.

[livorde]

okay so one month ago i made a list. seven things about myself i wasn’t happy with. personal stuff. professional stuff. the works.

didn’t tell anyone. just wrote it down and started working on it.

and as a direct consequence, i ran my first 5k this morning. 38 minutes. not fast i know. dont care. i did something i never did before. i am proud. a lil too proud.

[livorde]

my favorite month is here!

[laterkiss]

guys what happens if u are full of love

[livorde]

oh you, my poor summer child