Infinity is a CYRCLE

Disjointed Little Musings Because the darkness squeezes you inside yourself, you get cut off from the outside world, the imagination takes over. The hours go by and you lose your gyroscope; your mind starts to roam. You think about darkness and all those fears. You try to block it out but you can’t. You blink and shake your head. And then later, after enough time passes, things start to get bad.

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The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear. And the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown. The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. That is not dead which can eternal lie, And with strange aeons even death may die. #vsco #hplovecraft #author #book #necronomicon #photography

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A Winkle in Time . . . . . . . . .#book #novel #vsco

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Memories of a sunny day. . . . . . . . . .#vsco #photography #nofilter #vancouver #canada #garden #throwback

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"Ang kabataan ang pag asa ng bayan." . . . . . . . . #vsco #igph #herakut #wallart #art #photography #structure #joserizal #hero #vscocam #architecture

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. @_picolo #repost #picolo400k – After all this time? – Always Rest in Peace Alan Rickman, also known as Professor Snape in the HP movies.💐 #harrypotter #illustration #doodle #alanrickman #ripalanrickman #tbt

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Artsy. . . . . . . . . #linecamera #artsy #crafts #ribbon #gifts #giftwrapping

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Sometimes, I stop and think then I realize, I don’t trust myself at that moment. 

Have you ever felt to out of yourself that you begin to doubt your “everything”? 

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you can only keep things bottled inside for so long until you snap.

ancient proverb (via lnfinitelycryptic)

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I am unravelling

you

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How can someone be such a total train wreck?

I thought this was only in movies and in books. 

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You 

What have you done to your life? 

What are you doing with your life right now? 

I can’t even ask you what you plan on doing. 

I’m scared of failing even though I already am. And I keep pretending I am not. I don’t know how to fix myself. I badly wish for a reset button or “restore to factory setting” and do things all over again. 

Would I have done things differently? Who the hell knows? 

When people say, “new life”, “start over”. I wonder what they mean by that. Because I have no idea how to restart mine. I don’t know where or when to start. 

People will advise you to start today or tomorrow. But every “day” and every “tomorrow” is all the same. I can’t hardly distinguish the difference. It’s as if time stopped for me. Like I am drowning in dark waters. I’m not trying to be philosophical here. It’s literally how it feels like. I am trapped in a massive black hole. 

I probably trapped myself, most definitely and I effin forgot to put a doorknob making it impossible for me to get out. 

I don’t even know what I want anymore, or maybe I do but I feel like I can’t. I am just so fucking tired of everything. Why does living have to be so tiring? 

Why?

Why?

Why?

Why? 

Why do I even bother writing at 3 am on tumblr? Maybe, I’m trying to look for some form of redemption from other people? A chance encounter on someone I could annoy world’s apart from me? 

Because it’s so much easy to talk when you’re anonymous? *too cliche* I’m cringing. 

As I’m writing this, I’m rereading what I have written so far and I am not making so much sense. I’m giving myself a headache. But who cares? (bollocks! Who am I kidding? I am so afraid people I know irl will read this -- some of them are following this blog. Wooooh. I feel like crying. But I’m too lazy to make another one just for my rants. ) 

If I don’t end this now, I feel like this post would go on forever heading nowhere getting more senseless as it goes. 

So I’m stopping today but not ending it. 

If I find some strength to write again, you will most definitely hear from me again. 

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"Where dwell the brave at heart,their daring, nerve and chivalry set Gryffindors apart." . . . . . . . . . #notebook #journal #moleskin #vsco #jkrowling #gryffindor #harrypotter

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The Joker . . . . . . . . . . #vsco #comicbook #joker #superhero #villain #dccomics #batman

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1984 ー George Orwell #book #vsco #glasses #classics

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"I always wanted to be in a place where the little things matter. " #art #herakut #wallart #vsco

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Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them. #harrypotter #jkrowling #vsco

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“If we date there will be moments when I will just stare at you and smile, know that in those moments I’m appreciating everything about you.”

— Brentknows

~ link me to the original work since I can’t find it to give proper credits. Thank you.