HARD TO LOVE

don't be a binx

[lo-contrapasso]

7/13/26

note to self

what is it about suffering?

[th0rns]

Cold Stream

[lo-contrapasso]

pretty good

i have that song he wrote for me

stuck in my head

it was pretty good

i think of that line -- the unopened box on the top of my shelf -- was that how it went?

slow down it was called

twelve and a half years later

he makes goth synth music

in l.a.

it's pretty good

6.15.26

[lo-contrapasso]

little dark age

when i go for walks during the work day i like to look at all the people my age, women my age, and think what are you all doing out here

do you have jobs

some women are in little matching bike short sports bra outfits, in that baby blue and that dark red that are so popular now, headphones on, gold necklaces layered and i wonder if maybe they don't, maybe their husbands (so heteronormative of me!) work, maybe they are trust fund babies, maybe they are unemployed but just making the best of things, making time for a walk at 3pm

maybe they are "working from home"

some women are in work wear, in slacks as i am, taking a walk by the river during downtime, taking a late lunch hour -- when i see women walking in twos or threes i wonder what it would be like to have someone at work to walk with --

6.15.26

[praying]

[unit-02]

[wastedjackpot]

[lo-contrapasso]

i’m here

[lo-contrapasso]

just letting you know

[lo-contrapasso]

i’m here

[lo-contrapasso]

5/21/25

how silly

of me —

i forgot

to tell you

i was dying

[lo-contrapasso]

5/21/25

it just occurred to me: maybe i have not spoken about this enough

but! newsflash :

i am giving up

no need

to be alive

i am not living

i am barely

here at all

[lo-contrapasso]

will you watch me die? without saying anything?

so sad, so tragic —

voyeur,

perfectly fine

with farewell

[lo-contrapasso]

5/21/25

maybe i actually died back then, thirteen years ago

maybe this is hell in other words

[70sscifiart]

Uncredited 1980 cover art to ‘A Wind in the Door,’ by Madeleine L'Engle

[70sscifiart]

This one’s probably by Richard Bober, since he did a long-uncredited cover to A Wrinkle in Time in a similar style. I actually mentioned this cover to the same radio host who interviewed me about the Bober cover, and she passed the question on to his family - they agreed it looked like his style, but they didn’t have any records that could confirm it was him.

[visual-poetry]

[visenyaism]

Through has got to be my least favorite way out

[generic-art]