[amontageofhell]

Having BPD is like,

Me to my friends : Yes, I get hurt and cause a fit over small things bUt thAt doeSnT meAn yoU shOuLD fEEL liKE yoU'rE wAlkiNG oN eGGsheLLs wiTh mE

[dunflower]

u know someone is having a rough day when their favorite song plays and they don’t sing along

[calolz-deactivated20240409]

sometimes we dont even understand ourselves, how are we supposed to explain ourselves to others?

[tellmybodyidied]

[svnddlsnts]

Day 9 - A Hidden Face

[lovbelt]

[localbpdfella]

i’m emotionless to the point where thought of disappearing doesn’t leave me feeling guilty. for the first time i feel like i’m ready and that doesn’t even scare me. i’m just empty. just empty. empty.

[konoko]

[scooby-doo-whereareyou-deactiva]

I only know how to exist when I am wanted.

[optimistnudist]

Replaceable

The thing is, we’re all replaceable. We are not as special as we like to think.

If I were to disapear, I know you would get over it. I know you would find a new one. And even though it’s great for you to be able to love again, it hurts to know how easy it would be to replace me. I am nothing special. I am average, not different from anybody else. Boring.

I think that is what hurts. To know that I could replaced right away if I were to disapear. 

[the-blair-witch-coven]

Does anyone else kill their phone battery just to make it seem like they aren’t on social media/ are not responding to people because they have a life?

And then as soon as it turns off put it on the charger & let it get completely charge to stop yourself from checking to see if anyone has contacted you/ messaged you back/ checking for notifications?

And you don’t want to message/send multiple messages because you feel annoying & feel like they don’t wanna talk to you because you think they find you annoying? Or you feel like a massive burden?

They are probably busy, they shouldn’t be bothered right? Right…

[lonelygrungesarah]

I feel lonely

I feel replaceable

I feel like I’m not enough

I feel like I don’t matter

[duke605]

[daisyyyyy]

“Does anyone here feel so unloved that you attach yourself to anyone who shows in you even a slight interest? Who once texted you first? Who just listened to what you were saying without judgement? Who didn’t outright ignore you? Have you ever been so thirsty for solace and someone who would just listen that you try reply to their texts immediately eventhough they take days, hoping that they will reassure you, tell you not to kill yourself, that you are actually not just disgusting suicidal vermin, because you have a tiny flicker of hope still remaining in your heart? Even if they are complete strangers? Even if you have met them for the first time? Because i have. And i hate myself for it.

~excerpts from a suicide note i hope i never write.

[depressing-heartbrokenstuff]

I’m sorry if i ever seem clingy or annoying or i message you way too much

I’m just so used to everyone leaving me and replacing me and i really don’t want that to happen this time, because you are by far the most amazing person i’ve ever known, and that feeling fucking hurts, and i know it’ll destroy me if it does happen…

[meyouchoosenottosee]

The most painful feeling in the world is feeling replaceable by the people you love the most. That feeling of at any second they will switch up and find someone to take your place & realizing you never meant a thing... I’ve felt that too many times to count.

[dying-hbu]

I honestly don’t care if I die anymore