Been a while since I've blogged publicly, but I feel it's a bit overdue.
Life's been pretty hectic these days.. it feels like there's so much going on that I just don't know where to start. I'll admit there's been a lot of shit distracting me from the mission, so I'm hoping that expressing my thoughts in type form will give me some sort of release.
I think I've been having trouble dealing with the fact that things are different now.. that we're not punk ass kids fucking around in college anymore.. and that no matter how hard I work, there's going to be some things that I can't keep from happening. As much as I strive to preserve all that I hold dear around me, there's some things I just have to let go.. like my innocence, for example.
It's crazy how much your life changes once you figure shit out for yourself. Everything seems to sort itself out immediately; the believers from the doubters, the real from the fake. The real problem is in one's ability to deal with these truths once they reveal themselves, and this is the phase that I find myself in right now. Like everything in life, the answer has always been obvious.. but that doesn't make it any easier to accept.
At the core of it lies this understanding that I have with the enigma that we call sound. It took me about ten years for me to realize that I've been given this understanding for a reason, and to fully grasp the power that I actually have. Never did I imagine that I'd have such a comprehensive understanding of it.. I still remember when I started making beats in middle/high school, hopelessly grinding away to the point of frustration, trying to answer the one question that everyone who makes music strives to answer:
"How do I make my shit sound good?"
Well it's ten years later, and I've figured it out. I've grown past the concept of making music that sounds "good"; now I am merely just telling my story.. by definition, "making history".
The most amazing thing about this life that I chose is that my story will not be the only one that will be told. I've finally been granted the opportunity that I've always wanted since day one: to take someone who the world deserves to acknowledge, and give them that acknowledgment through music.
When you've been working your whole life to reach a certain point, it sometimes gets hard to realize that you're there, floating in it, breathing it in. I'm living my dream.. all I have left to do is to embrace it.
Finally, a shout out to anyone who's connected with our music out there, whoever you are. It's crazy knowing that at any moment, someone could be listening to my shit.. and for that experience alone, I thank you.
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