lofticriex

holly • 24 • uk

[cyberxbattalion]

[dropovers]

[erikapurringtnn]

branded to kill (1967), seijun suzuki

[compulsive]

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i’m so unhappy

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do not understand how i’ve been eating like 1,200 calories a day and i’ve put on weight....??????

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i wouldn’t change my brother for the world but i just wish i had a sibling that actually liked me and wanted to spend time with me i know it’s just who he is but it just kills me because i adore him so much, he’s my favorite person in the whole world but knowing i’m not the same to him fucking breaks my heart

[depsidase]

[hype]

[davediscoballs]

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im 5’2 and my 6’4 boyfriend is only 5lbs heavier than me lmao that’s how fucking fat i am now lol i hate me why is everyone in the world fucking skinny now apart from me

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i need hellppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

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i mean is wanting to be skinny even an eating disorder like people go on diets all the time and they don’t have disorders. don’t even know why i’m in a fucking group for this shit i just want to be skinny it’s not like it’s a fucking mental condition. i don’t need to talk to these other fat fuckers about their problems i don’t give a fuck about them. and i don’t want them to know my shit

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started a therapy group for my eating disorder and literally five minutes in i had an anxiety attack and had to quit and now i can’t stop crying

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called my doctor yesterday as i’ve been struggling with my eating this week and her advice was “oh you just need to eat something”

🙃🙃🙃

like

wow thanks doc you’ve cured me !

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although i feel fucking horrific because i have no energy at all in my body

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actually kinda scared to eat now which is cool