My (in)sanity remains between the pages

L | she/her | 🏳️‍🌈 get to my ao3 here: https://archiveofourown.org/users/lolathestoryteller/works

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[lolathestoryteller]

I am rather self-confident; I can confidently say that I’m a marvelous example of a problematic human being.

[lolathestoryteller]

I rewatched atla (for the dozenth time) and well, I wrote this instead of sleeping — guess who?

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A young woman in a flame lit room, her hands burning blue, the walls scorched anew,

thus once again, like she does with all good things, she’s ruined this too,

No matter whether she was fourteen or two, the young woman was not honest, not true,

She lies, always lies.

A ruined child, a broken soul,

This woman, no matter how strong, will end as she began,

Screaming and alone.

[vexheart]

[mournfulroses]

María Casares, from a letter to Albert Camus, featured in Correspondance, 1944-1959

[loveridden1999]

[starcroww]

sirius black core

[literaryvein]

L. V., exhumed writings

[mournfulroses]

Clarice Lispector, from a letter in translation to Tania Kauffman, featured in All Letters of Clarice Lispector

[petaltexturedskies]

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

[petaltexturedskies]

But I do feel strange—almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. It's a mystery. Always startled to find I've survived.

John Steinbeck, Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters

[petaltexturedskies]

John Steinbeck, Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters

[petaltexturedskies]

Bram Stoker, Dracula

[petaltexturedskies]

୭ৎ

[petaltexturedskies]

Oscar Wilde, De Profundis

[lolathestoryteller]

I often feel less rested after a good night’s sleep than before it.

And that confuses people, but I think it makes perfect sense.

However does one expect me to shut off my thoughts whilst sleeping?

When dreams are where all my best adventures happen.

[lolathestoryteller]

I saw the white rabbit and followed him quick,

down to a world many thought was a trick.

But I know it’s real, every bit,

the hatter, the Queen, the cat, all of it.

I fall

and I fall

and I fall,

‘till I reach Wonderland,

the best place of all.

[shakespearesdaughters]

sylvia plath