Nymphomaniacs' Paradise

Hi~ I'm Sera, mun of blessings-of-amaterasu! This is my blog to be me and derp around. Feel free to ask me anything! Especially if it involves breasts! body, a:hover {cursor: url(https://40.media.tumblr.com/57aa04e212f4268d21f2f1a61d0c9543/tumblr_nsjsn9ryPq1up6pmbo1_100.png), progress !important;}

[lolipaidol]

I’m alive but not coming back

I doubt anyone really cares or missed me but I’m typing this out to let those of you who wonder where I vanished to know that I’m still alive. I left tumblr with no real intention of ever coming back. Hell only reason I’m posting this is because I was linked a picture on tumblr and saw a message waiting for me asking if I’m alright. The long and the short of it is no. I’m not alright. But a lot has happened and in the end I hope I will be. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I honestly feel I don’t deserve, he really is too good for me. I’m also looking for a therapist who will take my new insurance, and I’ve started taking anti-depressants. I hope all of the bad thoughts and depression will finally start to go away. Thank you for those of you who care.

[rikorin]

[rikorin]

CINNAMON SQUAD

[braybray-craycray-deactivated20]

@lolipaidol

[lolipaidol]

Just coming back to let you all know not to expect much activity here.....not for a while at least.

[shittywaifu]

[lolipaidol]

lol, can u pls just die already u dumb ho, like… whores like u are nothing but a plague on our earth. lololol plz stop hurting others and just die, itd do us all a huuuuuuuuuuuge favor

Okay so I hurt her on accident, I have accepted this and have been trying to be less oblivious about other people’s feelings.....but....now that I think about it, with you actively harassing me and trying to get me to kill myself...Doesn’t that make you guys much worse than me?

[lolipaidol]

But you do deserve to have friends. You do deserve happiness and to calm down and think about that. You don't deserve sadness or to be bullied because of bad things.

Thank you....I’ll try my best to remember that.

[lolipaidol]

then start by turning off the anons. you did wrong, apparently. you know it. all they're doing is adding on bullshit that you dont need to know. you've fucked up. it's done. now, it's time for you to move on. to grow. to never do whatever the hell it was you did, again.

yeah......

[lolipaidol]

maybe you do. but what happens when it comes? you have it. you feel like shit. you wallow in your pathetic nature. what happens after that? it's one thing to accept deserving shit coming your way. but now you've gotten it. and it keeps coming. so what's the next move? what do you do now?

I don’t know.....all I can think of is try to make my life a little better...

[lolipaidol]

just because they might be correct, doesnt mean they're right.

I know but that doesn’t change that I feel like I deserve it.....or worse....I feel like I deserve much worse...

[lolipaidol]

Sweetie, you need to keep anon asks turned off.

Why? It’s not like they’re wrong.......

[lolipaidol]

i would like to inform u from various sources i have that regardless of the fact nyxis is currently in a home with someone who is breaking objects (including but not limited to- 6 phones and a chair) and threatening to kill both her and her mother she still has nightmares about u.i sincerely hope u hav gotten better over the years. i hope you realize just how large the impact is u have created, the scars that will never heal on that girl.

I’ve done my best to get better.....I know I really hurt her and I feel awful about it....I knew that her home situation was awful.....and I never wanted to hurt her....I didn’t mean to....but I made a huge mistake that I can never fix or take back and I feel like the worst scum on the face of the planet.

[lolipaidol]

hello, we would like to warn u to close ur askbox. my brother and i have decided to back off because we saw other anons who had been sending u transphobic messages (my brother is trans, for reference) and while we do not condone ur behavior AT ALL, and we still think what u had done to our friend, how many times u made her cry and vomit and -suffer- is absolutely disgusting, and u are an abuser, but, my brother and I do not condone transphobic behavior either. so we will warn u so u can b safe 2

Again...I understand what I’ve done was wrong and I still feel really bad about it.....but....thank you. I know I don’t deserve any kindness from you, but I really do want to thank you. I’m keeping my box open for a little longer, just long enough to get a reply from you. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness....but I do want you to know that I’m trying to be a better person....even if I can never make it up to her.....I want to make sure I never hurt someone again.

[boobgrowth]

Reblog if you're into natural breast enhancement (NBE) or have a breast expansion fetish

Let’s find each other :) 🍈🍈

[lolipaidol]

Alright Anons, kiss your asks goodbye~!

[lolipaidol]

I don't know who you fuckers are who are tormenting this cute cinnamon roll, but you all better fucking quit. I am sick and tired of seeing Sera bullied like this for no fucking reason, and the fact you disgusting fucks don't even use/have a tumblr account to do it so you're "safe" makes you a lonely little piss-ant who has no life and desires to make another's far more interesting and fulfilled life hell because you can't stand your own. Fuck off and leave this girl alone.

Significantly more colorful language than I would have used.....but, long story short, Anons, please leave me alone. You’ve not going to chance anything that hasn’t changed since when the first issue occurred. I learned from it and I’ve gotten better. Not that you guys have ever had an actual conversation with me to know that.

[lolipaidol]

I'm a sane person who cares about Sera deeply and wish I could do more for her, anon. Please take it up with me and not her.

Thanks, I’m glad to have friends like you, but I’m not gonna stand idly while you defend me. Anons, if you have a problem, and I know you have a problem with me, don’t bother. You’ve made your point and you’re not going to break me.

[lolipaidol]

wow, i hope u get over ur body dysmorphia soon. actually thinking ur a girl. how sad...

I AM a girl. I don’t care how much you hate me, but no matter what you think, I’m a girl.