Lorelai Haas

[lorelai-haas]

two for the show | L * M

Sitting at the bar, Lorelai watched the woman at the end shuffle her top down, exposing most of her cleavage as she leaned right over the bar. I’ll have a double vodka, please. She spoke to the bartender, who was almost drooling on her. Absolutely, on the house. He commented, which only made Lorelai let out a laugh as she looked the other side of her. “Shame? What’s that these days?” she chuckled, smiling at the unfamiliar male. 

@micahsloan

[lorelai-haas]

friends in dark times | L * N

Spotting what she thought was a familiar face, Lorelai skipped over the road to get closer. She had been here a month now and still felt on edge about everyone and everything, so seeing someone who was possibly an old friend would be a welcomed distraction. She only caught the side of her face, but that, along with the way she walked was more than enough confirmation. “Natalie...” she called out, being just a couple meters behind her. 

@natalie-de-rossi

[richard-izatt-blog]

As she spoke, Richie smirked. “Of course not. Why care about a stranger’s health?” he asked rhetorically with an amused look on his face. At her request, he pulled out the pack of cigarettes and pointed the opening of the box in her direction. Once the little drug was between her lips, he took out his lighter and lit the substance. “I’m not own to deny a beautiful woman something she wants,” he told her as he lit her cigarette.

[lorelai-haas]

Chuckling in response, she shrugged her shoulder and leaned forward, taking a smoke from the box. Seeing that he wasn’t going to hand the lighter, she put the bud between her lips and once it was lit, she leaned back on the bench. A smile graced her face as she blew out the smoke. “Power like that can be a dangerous thing in the wrong beautiful womans hands, you’re either brave or crazy. Possibly both” she joked, lifting her brows in amusement. “Lorelai.”

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[kenna-haas]

Kenna was at a loss for words. Seeing Calvin react to her the way he did, only made her wonder how he would react to her mother. Then again, she couldn’t allow for her not to try. “I’m glad you’re here, mom. I am. I missed you. A lot. Too much. Okay? I can’t tell you how you couldn’t have picked a better time because I needed you now more than ever… it’s just- yes, I do see him getting really mad if and when he sees you but it’ll be a lot worse if he doesn’t. A lot worse for the both of us… so I just… I really need you to try and if you want… I can be there too… but only if you want because like I said I need some time. Away from him.”

[lorelai-haas]

Puffing out a breath, Lorelai dropped back onto the sofa and leaned forward, resting her arms on her legs. “You’re going to give me gray hair one day, Kenzie” she sighed, rubbing softly at her eyes. She knew herself Calvin wouldn’t be welcoming her, if the tables were turned, she would be pissed off too. “No--” she looked up, the word coming out all too quickly. “I don’t want you to be there. I always told you how he treated me, like I was all that would ever matter, the way he looked at me like I was his world” she smiled faintly, giving a shake of her head. “That’s how I want you to think of us. I don’t want you to see him speak to me the way he’s probably going to, so it’s ok. You take as much time as you need and meanwhile... Well, heaven can’t help me now so, I’ll try and speak to him.”

[richard-izatt-blog]

Although the narcotic didn’t have the same effect on him as it did on mortals, or even younger vampires, Richie still found himself putting the cigarette between his lips. He took a long drag, noticing someone staring at him as he did. “If you’re going to tell me that this is killing me, don’t bother,” he told the person with a slight shrug of his shoulders. “But if you want a drag, that’s a whole different subject.”

[lorelai-haas]

“Hm?” Lorelai refocused her vision, coming to realize she had been staring at the male whilst her thoughts ran away with her. “Telling you that would imply I care about your health” she shrugged her shoulders. She wasn’t a smoker, not really, but stressful times and all -- “Well are you offering or are you just going to tell me to buy my own?” she curled her lips up into a smile. 

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[lorelai-haas]

kenna-haas  :

“Then…” She suddenly jumped up from the couch, still facing her mother. “Then why did you come back here!?” She hissed. Surprised herself by the way she was speaking to her mother, she managed to lower her voice. “I mean… you don’t get it… he already is mad at me for not telling him… now you have me in a position where I actually saw you after 5 years and you want me to not tell him? That… now that would kill him. As much as I wished for some beautiful and romantic reunion… I know it probably wont happen but talking… that’s the least you could do.”

Lorelai widened her eyes as Kenna jumped up in a small rage. Of course she’d seen all her tantrums before, but this was quite clearly very different. “For you, Kenna. I came here for you” she frowned, dropping her head into her hands as she let out a sigh. “Talk...” she whispered, laughing sadly as she looked back up at her. “You think he wants to talk to me?" Lorelai shook her head. “I know he will hate me, I’ve accepted that - but to see that hate... that’s something else entirely” she crumpled her nose, standing up slowly. “I’ll think about it, okay? Just -- just don’t tell him yet. Let me think about it with a few buckets of alcohol” she half laughed, brushing the hair from her face. “I mean, this is assuming he even wants to look at me, never mind speak to me.”

[lorelai-haas]

Quotes:

- And I don’t care if nobody else believes, ‘cos I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me. 

- It’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I, because baby now we got bad blood. 

- I won't run, I'm not afraid. I'll look them in the eye, gonna hear me say it's my life, my love, my sex, my drug, my lust, my god it ain't no sin. Can I get it? Can I get an amen. 

- Lovers, into friends, move onto strangers. Let go, no more us. Move on, I'm trying. Denying, saying time will heal, keep lying, to make me feel I'm okay, so you believe I'll forget you... Seriously? Really, are you kidding me? You're out of your mind to think that I could keep you out of mine.

Bad habits: 

- Ignoring her own heart. 

- Hiccuping when she’s nervous.

- Twirling her hair when she’s bored. 

Secrets:

- Never falling out of love with Calvin. 

[lorelai-haas]

Your Ghost | Calvin & Lorelai

[lorelai-haas]

calvin-shaw   

Finding himself in the bar, Calvin walked around a bit in order to make the rounds and share small conversation with other members of Marcel’s little club. The only reason the vampire found himself at the local bar, was to get complete intoxicated and then somehow find his way back home. The last thing he intended to happen was to stumble across his ex lover from decades ago. The lover which was supposed to be dead, but instead she was standing right in front him. There wasn’t enough alcohol in his system for this conversation. His emotions were too wild, but running away wasn’t an option. Besides, she was the one in the wrong, not him. “Lorelai.” He replied back in a bitter tone, his arms crossing against his chest in order to help him resist the temptation of running towards her. Even though years had passed, she was still as raidient as she had been during the war. Calvin felt his breath hitch as he continued to stare towards her. “What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be dead?”

She swallowed harshly at the way he said her name, not that she had expected anything else. Her eyes only glanced to his for a couple seconds before shifting away again. That was it. The look she had dreaded seeing in his eyes, the reason she tried to tell Kenna she didn’t want to see him. “Yes, well -” Lorelai paused, sighing as she didn’t really know what to say. “I’m here because Kenna needed me. I haven’t purposely bumped into you.” Believe me, she thought. As the waitress placed her drink and nuts down on the bar, her eyes floated between them and the door. She knew she should leave, but if she left now, there wasn’t a chance in hell she would dare seek him out again. “We need talk about Kenna” she mumbled, but made it clear she wanted to skip any talk about everything else. She shifted to the stool and sat down, clasping her shaky hands around her drink. “She told me what happened and I understand why you reacted the way you did, but you broke her heart and... I need to know if you plan on fixing it because I don’t want to be the reason she holds onto lost hope.” Lorelai breathed out, quite pleased with herself for not stuttering her way through her words. She didn’t look at him as she spoke, fearing if she did she would dissolve into a pit of misery. "I’m not trying to pressure you, Calvin, I know you need time - but I need to know what to do in that time and frankly, if you decide you don’t want her then good because if that’s how you feel then you don’t deserve her or her love.” The vampire scrunched up her nose, feeling slightly- no, very, pissed the more she thought about it. "I’m the one you should direct your hate towards, don’t take it out on her - she deserves better.” 

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[lorelai-haas]

kenna-haas  :

“Listening to her mother as the two were led to the couch, Kenna almost felt bad for how she felt but she couldn’t help it. "Wait, What? You mean… you’re not going to see him? Are you serious? no!” Her eyes widened. “you have to see him. He’ll be…he’ll be SO mad if he knew you were here…he was already furious with me for not telling him sooner who I was and that you were alive… seriously, mom. If he found out you were here… there’s no telling what would happen.” She said in one breath, her chest rising and lowering with each sharp inhale. “Please… can you please do this for me? Please.” She clasped her hands together, begging. “Please, see him." 

Widening her eyes she shook her head furiously. "Kenna, no. Absolutely not. I can’t, I’d probably pass out!” She protested, sighing as she slouched her shoulders. “I wouldn’t even know what to say. Sorry? Like sorry will make up for what I’ve done to him? When you told me you wanted to find him, that was the day I accepted that he would never forgive me, and I’m ok with that, I deserve that. I just wanted you to get the chance to know him, and for him to know you but that’s all.” The vampire frowned at the sight of her daughters expression. “I’ve never been so nervous in my whole life. I was in the war, and I think I’d sooner go back to that than see your father again” she puffed out her cheeks, lowering her gaze. “I just dont think I could handle seeing the hate in his eyes, I don’t want to see him look at me in any other way than he used to. Please understand.” Lorelai shuffled on her spot, knowing if her daughter was to protest again she would end up caving in to her wishes.

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[lorelai-haas]

kenna-haas  :

Kenna looked into her mothers eyes, she always had a way to give comfort with even just a simple look. Forcing a smile, Kenna relaxed as best as she could. “Can I tell you something?” She asked. “I know it’s hard for him. I can’t even imagine…I’ve watched him mourn you for the few years I’ve known him and it sucked that I didn’t say anything sooner… but I’d think he would want to see you…right away… I figured he’d at least want me around after learning what I told him. Instead- he went nuts… and literally just let me leave.” She said with a shake of her head. “The way he reacted was so-” She clenched her fists at her sides. “I don’t want to talk to him. I don’t want to see him…not for a while. I need time.” she admitted. Rolling her eyes at the mention of Lexie, Kenna simply shrugged her shoulders. “I guess she’s… okay. He likes her… or whatever I don’t know. It’s obvious he will never be over you but he’s so… ugh!" 

“Anything” she nodded, smiling softly. Her eyes drooped when she spoke about how Calvin mourned her, the thought alone making her guilt ten times harder to push down. Lorelai shook her head slowly, taking Kenna’s clenched fist and moving to the sofa. “I know you imagined his reaction a thousand times, the one he gave you wasn’t the one you wanted, but that’s not to say you won’t get a better response when he’s had some time. You know everything, I’ve told you why we didn’t get to be the family you always wanted and you know he thought I was dead. It wouldn’t surprise me if he hates me for what I’ve done and if he does, then I accept that. That’s fine, but you...” she sighed, placing her hands on Kenna’s knees. “You need to consider how much this changes his entire life. I’m not saying his reaction is all justified, I’m just saying don’t give up.” Lorelai smiled, blinking away the water that had built in her eyes. “Listen, Kenzie.. you.. you know that me being here doesn’t mean anything, right? I’m here for you - I’m not planning on seeing your father. I’ve been dead to him for decades now, he’s had so many years to leave me in the past and that’s where I should stay - especially now he has a girlfriend. Let him be happy with her” she chewed on her lip, knowing Kenna had always dreamed of a complete family. She didn’t show it, but even now, the thought of Calvin with his arms around anybody but her made her seethe. “You have fire in your heart, Kenna, at least now you know it’s not all from me” she let a smile grace her lips. “ich liebe dich.”

[lorelai-haas]

Your Ghost | Calvin & Lorelai

Sitting in the far corner of the bar, when Lorelai first arrived, she was eye stalking every person who entered. She felt uncomfortable and paranoid, but she had been cooped up in her hotel room for two days, she just couldn’t take it anymore. Now, five drinks later, she was feeling a lot more relaxed. Lorelai was never a big drinker, five glasses was enough to make her feel tipsy. “Can I have another, please? Over at the bar. Oh and do you sell those salted nuts? Love those” she lifted her head up, smiling politely at the waitress. The vampire got up from her corner with her glass and walked over to the bar, taking a seat on the stool. Just as she was about to place her glass down, she smashed it in her grasp and turned her head instantly away from the voice to her right hand side. “No...” she choked quietly, the word slipping from her lips. The waitress began to fuss, but Lorelai didn’t speak, she merely waved her off and wiped the blood from her fingers. Of all the bars, in all the city, what were the chances? With her eyes screwed shut and her heart trying to climb out her mouth, she swallowed harshly. There was no way in hell she mistook that voice. Sure he had heard the commotion, she didn’t know if he would recognize her with her head turned away. Maybe she could make a great escape? Run to the toilets and Rachel Green it out the window? She cursed in her head for being so messy. That wasn’t like her. She was organised and head strong, always had been. So why was this so hard? Kenna sprung to mind, the thought of her and how he rejected her made her blood bubble with hurt and anger. Hurt her, sure, but don’t hurt her baby. With her liquid courage, she stood up, taking a deep breath she didn’t pause for thought before turning herself around, her breath catching in her throat at the sight of him. “Calvin...” Lorelai whispered, despite the fact she wanted to sound more firm. 

@calvin-shaw

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[lorelai-haas]

kenna-haas  :

Kenna held onto her mother for as long as she could, slowly letting go to look at her mother. “I told him.” She said in a low, dry voice. “I told Calvin.” She cleared her throat, turning slightly away from her mother and leaning her back against the wall. “I told him everything…about me. About…you.” She confessed, lowering her gaze to the ground then back up to her mother. “He was kind at first when I told him I was your daughter… then flipped out when I told him I was his too.”

“Oh” she formed the shape with her lips and slowly walked further into the hotel room. Her heart was in her mouth, feeling like it was taking a century for her daughter to get her words out. “…everything?” Lorelai whispered, but nodded her head as she did so. Of course it was best he knew everything, but best for who? The only reason she was so understanding was because she knew seeking out Calvin gave Kenna peace of mind. “Well you already knew I didn’t get the chance to tell him about you…” she rubbed at her arm nervously, a small frown on her face. “I’m sorry, Kenzie. I wished that you would get the response you always hoped for. You’re so smart, you don’t need me to tell you how difficult it must be for him to process. Calvin buried me in his past decades ago… All that time thinking I was executed... For it all to come rising to the surface again with the added addition of a child.. well, I can’t imagine how that must feel.” Lorelai sighed quietly and moved towards her, resting her hands on her shoulders. “Don’t lose faith. Just give him some time” she smiled softly, stepping on her toes to press a kiss to her forehead. “I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner. Truthfully, I was afraid of bumping into him. I don’t think I’ll ever be ready for that and I’m sure he doesn’t want that either. Especially not now he has a new love…” She pushed a smile, hiding the bitterness she felt. “Speaking of though…” Lorelai chewed on her lip, hinting for Kenna to tell her more about the girl she mentioned in her emails.

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

[lorelai-haas]

kenna-haas   :

Sitting on an empty bench in the park, Kenna watched everyone roam around the park. Laughing, being joyous. Part of her envied them all. The little kids who got to hold both their parents hands as they skipped through the grass. If only she too could have had that chance. Even if she didn’t have the chance then, why couldn’t she have it now? Why were her parents so stubborn? Sighing deeply, her eyes suddenly flashed to her phone. Eyes widening at the 4 missed calls on her phone from her mother. She reached her hand out for her phone, about to call her back when she saw she had a voicemail. Putting the phone up to her ears and listening to her mothers voice, her eyes suddenly widening at the information she had just heard. “Oh my god!” She shouted, tucking her phone into her back pocket and sprinting to the hotel. She thought about using her vamp speed but of course she couldn’t. She just simply couldn’t wait. How was it that her mother was there? Was it the fact that Kenna’s emails seemed sad about the Calvin situation? Whatever it was that brought her mother there, she was grateful. Jumping through the doors, Kenna ran towards the elevators. Pacing inside until she finally made it to the right floor. Jogging to the door she knocked loudly. “Mama…. Mama! Mama it’s me-” Once the door opened, Kenna’s shoulders relaxed. A soft smile on her lips. “Mama.” She leaped into her mom’s arms, hugging her tightly. “Du bist hier.” She whispered.

Skipping up to her hotel room, she closed the door and finally relaxed her shoulders. She slipped her jacket off and began to pace up and down, shaking her hands about with nerves. Honestly, she knew coming to the same city as her ex lover was going to be hard, but she had no idea she would feel so . Hearing the knock on the door made the vampire jump, but as soon as she heard her daughters voice ring through her ears, she flashed forward and swung the door open. “Kenna.” Lorelai breathed out, wrapping her arms tightly around her. Just how she remembered, every detail the same, even the smell of her hair. “Yes...I needed to see you. Hugging my laptop with your email open just wasn’t working, and I got so wound up I couldn’t sleep, so I packed a bag and here I am” she chuckled, letting out a soft sniffle as she pulled back, brushing her hands over Kenna’s cheeks. “Beautiful girl, is something troubling you?” Lorelai tilted her head to the side and gestured for her to come inside so she could close the door. Truthfully she was worried that Calvin now knew the truth and he didn’t react in the way their daughter had hoped, knowing his rejection would break her heart, how could she not come and see her?

[lorelai-haas]

For you, my baby * L & K

“Damn, Kenzie - One day you will answer your phone.” Lorelai sighed as she shifted through the streets of New Orleans. She waited till the beep came on the voicemail and smiled to herself at the thought of her daughter hearing her voice. “Hey, baby girl. Don’t freak out, but I’m here. In- uh, in New Orleans. I know, I mean I - well I missed you. I missed you till it hurt and then I missed you till I cried and I didn’t want to miss you anymore. So here I am, and I’m shaking because all these people are just so… well there’s so many people. Please get back to me when you hear this. I’ve checked into the hotel just off of .. erm.. near bourbon street.. I think. Room 132. Come see me when you can, I’ll be here. Just uh.. well you know, don’t.. say anything to - .. anyone. I’m just here for you so.. um.. yeah. Love you, bunny.” Lorelai breathed out, brushing her hood down when she entered the hotel, letting out a deep breath. Honestly, her dead heart was beating out it’s chest, scared she would see the person she was trying desperately to duck and cover from. She just wanted her daughter. She needed to see her baby and know she was ok and fine, then, she could leave again, all would be well, nothing need ruffle her quiet little world.

@kenna-haas

[dailykmara]

[aliciavikand]