north field for boys

an iphone blog run by a trans man who needs to be sent to the slaughterhouse

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

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all i need to do is live by the ocean and i’ll finally be fixed

[luntfontanne]

cannot stop thinking about this tweet… AUGH 😭

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i never understood the hype around this song until just yesterday. the lyrics just clicked in my brain. you really do have to leave all your love and your longing behind. florence machine i love you.

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you know things are bad when i’m thinking about using this blog again. i havent thought about you in a year what the hell

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he said i have a heart shaped face. and he said that he enjoys every song i show him. and he liked my story of two cats kissing

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stop talking to me about how big your legs have gotten and how you cant even fit into your pants anymore stop stop youre asexual and im trying to be so respectful rn youre making this so difficult for me

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i told him about my favorite song of all time and he’s listened to it over a hundred times in the past week.

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i cried into my soup just now while listening to this song on loop. i showed it to marshall on monday as my favorite song of all time and i’ve caught him listening to it on loop multiple times since then. this morning when i saw he was listening to it he told me he fell asleep to it the night before. i think i started crying because of how good life is right now. i may be a bit stressed but generally im so happy. he’s invited me to a deftones concert and we’ve made plans to go trick or treating for halloween together. he was gonna go to a party but he chose hanging out with me over that. im so glad he’s in my life and i finally feel secure in his presence. he has even started sitting at my bench in the morning before i get to school just to wait for me instead of walking around with dice. and he sits next to me every day in taglianettis.

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just played minecraft with him over facetime and he told me that he is genuinely really upset that i’m missing school tomorrow my heart Will explode

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i feel really bad every time we go out together cause he always spends money on food for me. but also i like hearing him worry about me because there’s something wrong with my head

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stop calling me little bro im trying to flirt with you

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update he has not called me this in about a month so i think im in the clear. he might still see me as that though. he is very supportive and protective over me so this either means one of two things

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his tendency to change his spam account’s bio to whatever we talk about or are into at the same time has bewitched me body and soul

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as much as i genuinely hate abel i kinda miss the feeling of getting out of the shower and putting on a leather jacket after everyone else has gone to sleep

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stop calling me little bro im trying to flirt with you

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lets make out with blood on our lips and see how it spreads