[tristealven]

“Forgetting it is important. We do it on purpose. It means we get a bit of a rest. Are you listening? We have to forget. Or we’d never sleep ever again.”

— Ali Smith, Autumn

[losingfarther]

Happily we run away from even the brightest and best things in our lives, because we are curious about what else is out there. And what else is out there? just more of the same, whichever way you look. Whichever way you turn, its the same life you're facing. It's the same life that's facing you.

Sheila Heti ‘Motherhood’

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CbtlK5mrU8O

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbgwgo6vzuC/

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CbXb2DcqciU

[losingfarther]

Miles said early on that we must always put the other one first, and that if we both do this, everything will be fine.

‘Motherhood’ - Sheila Heti

[losingfarther]

I am a blight on my own life.

‘Motherhood’ - Sheila Heti

[losingfarther]

This is all anyone needs to know, finally - if you can resign yourself to losing, you may win.

‘Cassandra at the Wedding’ - Dorothy Baker

[losingfarther]

What is at stake here is not mere decorum but efficiency in a wide range of social relations. A society in which 'anything goes' is one in which nothing goes well

‘Manners from Heaven’ - Quentin Crisp

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CYSUhmNPj2_

[losingfarther]

I realised that fate was a ladder on which, at the time, I could not afford to miss a single rung. To skip out on even one scene would have meant never making it to the top, although it would have been by far the easier choice.

‘Kitchen’ - Banana Yoshimoto

[losingfarther]

I realized that the world did not exist for my benefit. It followed that the ratio of pleasant and unpleasant things around me would not change. It wasn't up to me.

‘Kitchen’ - Banana Yoshimoto (transl. Megan Backus)

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CVk3ZgOPSCQ

[losingfarther]

Break open a notebook at any point and be reminded of your own reality, because a notebook is a series of proofs that life has continuity and history, and (this is most important) that any point in your own past is still within your reach

Maria Stepanova, In Memory of Memory

[firstfullmoon]

I am thinking now of grief, and of getting past it; I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings.

— Mary Oliver, from “Starlings in Winter”

[filmgifs]

The Green Ray (1986) dir. Éric Rohmer cinematography by Sophie Maintigneux

[disc80s]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CT3kcq5JLjr