Finding Myself? What’s That?

Recently discovered having DID and recently merged with the previous host…so yay :/

[lost-0r-found]

Things I didn’t realize were strange most of my life…I didn’t look in the mirror much and when I did, I’d look directly in the eyes cause I didn’t relate to the person staring back. I have a memory of saying my given name over and over and each time it felt more foreign to me like it wasn’t even a name, like it was losing meaning. I even mentioned it to my dad once and of course he laughed at me. But maybe that was his standard reaction cause I once told him I hated being a girl

[the-withering-system]

Brain hits the time to remember trauma button way too often, petition to have a time limit installed

-N

[lost-0r-found]

I’ll sign…idle times are the worst for us like doing dishes (not that i do them) [but now explains why we’re avoiding doing the dishes so much...well fuck] or trying to sleep, so we end up staying awake until its morning and by then we’re so tired we pass out. Fun🙃

[lost-0r-found]

We’re a newly discovered system and life is so fukkin HARD!! Sometimes I wonder if it was positive or not to find out i had it but then the idea of still living in the prison I once called ‘home’ is absolutely horrifying but why is nothing i dunno…manageable. Took ME long enough to realize I was the new Host not even realizing we Merged and its so confusing and im a dude in a woman’s body and I don’t have an emotional connection to most people now and im supposed to ‘Adult’ and dont know who’s who anymore but there’s a Little that’s lit more positively grown up than me…i mean fuck im so tired

[frogmonster-from-hell]

this is mostly just a reminder for myself but i feel like other people might need to hear it too

you shouldn't need any more justification than "i like it", "it feels like me", etc to choose a particular flag/label/pronoun set. as long as it isn't actively hurting anyone, you should be able to identify however you goddamn please and whatever way makes you feel most comfortable without judgement.

there are no strict rules or requirements for identifying with any label that makes you comfortable, and people need to stop imposing their own rules on others when it really shouldn't concern them.