Bucky Barnes

Tired and lost my universe destroyed but I still have my baby, Alpine made it or not. friendly mostly but grumpy and tired too. ( marvel OCish rp blog by Dean age 20+)

[lost-buck]

Not my universe But it's home:

Originally from another universe that was destroyed by my Hydra and this Hydra. There were very few survivors that made it here I was one of them.

Name: James Buchanan Barnes but, please call me Bucky or Buck.

Age: that is classified

Disclaimer: I am friendly but if you mess with my family I will kill you. If you're mean to Winter the other entity that lives in this body I will hurt you... And if you hurt my Alpine I will not hesitate to kill you....

{Under the cut a little backstory and family members and Friends}

After escaping to this universe was captured by Hydra. Tortured, experimented on, and starved eventually escaped and ran to Stark Tower where Tony Stark helped him. Him and winter both are trying to make friends and a home in this universe.

Tonys who have adopted blue winter: @unofficially-tonystark @man-of-iron @stark-technology-inc

Best friends ( and siblings to Blue winter) that they would die for and kill for: Bucky Barnes @the-winter-soldierr Peter @smarterthantonystark Katie stark @katiestark Lyra @subject734 Bucky Barnes @iwasmadetobeasoldier Steve Rogers @soldier-from-brooklyn pre surem Steve Rogers @punk-from-brooklyn @steve-g-rogers

Crushes and lovers: Sienna @ancient-siren Wade/Deadpool @merc-with-a-mouth-69 Tony Stark @stark-technology-inc Steve Rogers @stuffandthangsandangelwings

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled "You broke traffic laws? For me?"

[lost-buck]

"Of course I did I love you and your imaginary pink giraffe that dances." Bucky snorted softly he found a small stool and pushed it over to Tony's bed and sat down next to his bed.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony snickered "I got that high?!"

[lost-buck]

"Yep and you really thought it was hilarious when I suggested it could play with a green hippopotamus. Tony you scared the shit out of me I'm still so scared but, I'm not leaving even if something is discovered." Bucky said the last part really quietly hoping that Tony understood what he meant by that.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony understood and held Winter's hand

[lost-buck]

"I don't know if they'll keep you overnight but, if they do I'm not leaving I promise." Bucky squeezes Tony's hand gently.

"Tony's going to die isn't he?" Winter whimpered inside their head.

"Shh, winter he'll be ok I promise you. When the nurses leave us alone for a moment I'll let you take over and see for yourself." Bucky thought back to Winter.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled, the nurse leaving to let them have a moment alone so Tony could feel better

[lost-buck]

When Bucky sees they are alone he flinches slightly and his eyes shine even sparkle for a moment as winter takes over.

"Tony please don't die.." Winter whimpers out tears starting to escape his eyes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony put a hand on Winter's face "Honey bun, I'm not dying. If i were, they'd tell you" He gently wiped Winter's tear with his thumb

[lost-buck]

"It was so scary and I was happy he knew to take you to the hospital. We won't leave your side I know it's not that good of a disguise but we did the best that we could. Miss the hair already but, had to cut it we love you. So Buck didn't lie you will be ok?" Winter leans into the touch a little

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled "You broke traffic laws? For me?"

[lost-buck]

"Of course I did I love you and your imaginary pink giraffe that dances." Bucky snorted softly he found a small stool and pushed it over to Tony's bed and sat down next to his bed.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony snickered "I got that high?!"

[lost-buck]

"Yep and you really thought it was hilarious when I suggested it could play with a green hippopotamus. Tony you scared the shit out of me I'm still so scared but, I'm not leaving even if something is discovered." Bucky said the last part really quietly hoping that Tony understood what he meant by that.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony understood and held Winter's hand

[lost-buck]

"I don't know if they'll keep you overnight but, if they do I'm not leaving I promise." Bucky squeezes Tony's hand gently.

"Tony's going to die isn't he?" Winter whimpered inside their head.

"Shh, winter he'll be ok I promise you. When the nurses leave us alone for a moment I'll let you take over and see for yourself." Bucky thought back to Winter.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled, the nurse leaving to let them have a moment alone so Tony could feel better

[lost-buck]

When Bucky sees they are alone he flinches slightly and his eyes shine even sparkle for a moment as winter takes over.

"Tony please don't die.." Winter whimpers out tears starting to escape his eyes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled "You broke traffic laws? For me?"

[lost-buck]

"Of course I did I love you and your imaginary pink giraffe that dances." Bucky snorted softly he found a small stool and pushed it over to Tony's bed and sat down next to his bed.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony snickered "I got that high?!"

[lost-buck]

"Yep and you really thought it was hilarious when I suggested it could play with a green hippopotamus. Tony you scared the shit out of me I'm still so scared but, I'm not leaving even if something is discovered." Bucky said the last part really quietly hoping that Tony understood what he meant by that.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony understood and held Winter's hand

[lost-buck]

"I don't know if they'll keep you overnight but, if they do I'm not leaving I promise." Bucky squeezes Tony's hand gently.

"Tony's going to die isn't he?" Winter whimpered inside their head.

"Shh, winter he'll be ok I promise you. When the nurses leave us alone for a moment I'll let you take over and see for yourself." Bucky thought back to Winter.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled "You broke traffic laws? For me?"

[lost-buck]

"Of course I did I love you and your imaginary pink giraffe that dances." Bucky snorted softly he found a small stool and pushed it over to Tony's bed and sat down next to his bed.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony snickered "I got that high?!"

[lost-buck]

"Yep and you really thought it was hilarious when I suggested it could play with a green hippopotamus. Tony you scared the shit out of me I'm still so scared but, I'm not leaving even if something is discovered." Bucky said the last part really quietly hoping that Tony understood what he meant by that.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony smiled "You broke traffic laws? For me?"

[lost-buck]

"Of course I did I love you and your imaginary pink giraffe that dances." Bucky snorted softly he found a small stool and pushed it over to Tony's bed and sat down next to his bed.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The doctor said people often didn't see the signs until it was too late, and that Tony was lucky to have him. Tony looked over at Winter with hazy eyes

[lost-buck]

"Hey Tony it's going to be ok I'm here I'm not going anywhere I promise. I hope I got him here quick enough. I mean I drove as fast as I could and ran multiple red lights." Bucky shot Tony a gentle smile letting him know he was here and wasn't going anywhere.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

The charge nurse sent them back immediately, explaining SNRIs were a type of antidepressant. Tony was placed in a bay, and was being given activated charcoal and Narcan

[lost-buck]

Bucky watches them closely but, stays out of the way as much as he could.

"Ok antidepressants with a lot of alcohol that sounds really bad. God this is my fault I should have watched him more closely and I shouldn't have bothered him with my problems." Bucky said out loud mainly to himself his stump was moving up and down nervously underneath the long sleeve of his shirt.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded and kept mumbling as the charge nurse asked what was going on, before she froze

[lost-buck]

"Mr Stark here is having a bit of a crisis he's drunk an absurd amount of alcohol and taken some kind of pills he said they were his s-n-r-i-s I'm not even sure if that's the real name or something you just told me but I thought I would spell it out for you. Also Mr Stark means a lot to me and I'm not leaving his side." Bucky stated firmly but politely.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He laughed as he kept talking about the pink giraffe, saying it was dancing

[lost-buck]

"That's nice Tony I want you to try and remember that I love you when you get tickets in the mail from me running all these red lights. I just know that there's cameras on all of them so you're bound to be getting tickets." Bucky grumbles softly and keeps driving sighing in relief when he finally pulls into the hospital.

He Parks the car, puts the key in his pocket, runs into the hospital really quickly driving a wheelchair, comes back out, and gently but quickly puts Tony in the wheelchair.

"Aye, I'm not leaving your side ok?" Bucky asked pushing him inside of the hospital up to the front desk.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was just mumbling, something about a pink giraffe

[lost-buck]

"Ok keep on talking about the pink giraffe maybe they can play with the green hippopotamus. I just want you to keep on talking to me." Bucky keeps up the speed and runs red lights just praying that they don't get pulled over.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony mumbled that the key fob was in the dish on the table in the foyer

[lost-buck]

He carefully gets the key mumbling and cussing underneath his breath.

Bucky ran with Tony down the stairs instead of taking the elevator. He didn't want to risk it malfunctioning or something as bad as his luck has been lately.

He quickly gets to the garage and gets Tony fastened into the front passenger seat.

Bucky gets in struggles with the seatbelt for a moment before finally getting it and starting the car.

"Tony I'm going to drive like hell I need you to stay with me. Keep talking ok?" Bucky started to drive as fast as he could

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

He mumbled something about his best Mustang being automatic

[lost-buck]

"Mustang right ok got it and got you." Bucky automatically flopped him over his shoulders doing the fireman's carry.

"Shit fuck! Ok Tony where are the stupid keys?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

His shoes were in the closet

[lost-buck]

Bucky retrieves Tony's shoes and puts them on Tony.

Bucky then grabbed a pair of scissors and cut off quite a bit of his own blue hair so he was able to hide his hair underneath a baseball type cap he found in Tony's closet and he took his arm off putting it in the closet. He then gets a longer sleeve shirt from Tony's closet and puts it on to cover up the metal base.

Bucky takes off his glasses placing them in the closet also he hated this but he knew he had to conceal his identity as much as possible.

"Hey Tony I'll carry you to a car and I'm driving you to a hospital. I need to take a car that's automatic because I can't really shift without my metal arm. I most definitely can drive with one arm I've done it multiple times before. Which is the best car to take?" Bucky sighed and took a deep breath.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

"Uhhh... my SNRIs..."

[lost-buck]

"I don't even know what that is I'm taking you to the hospital." Bucky mumbled scanning the room to locate Tony's shoes.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

Tags: @emiliakanebarnes @merc-with-a-mouth-69 @prplhawk @lost-buck

[lost-buck]

Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

Tony nodded weakly

[lost-buck]

Bucky sighed picking up Tony and carrying him to his room and placed him in the bed tucking him in gently.

He carefully sits on the foot of the bed next to Tony's feet.

"Tony talk to me please, besides alcohol what else have you taken?"

@stark-technology-inc

[stark-technology-inc]

TW FOR: spiraling, alcohol and drug abuse, and panic disorder including possible suicidal ideation

Tony had barely been keeping it together, he had been in his head all day, drinking a lot of alcohol, and downing a couple pills after the alcohol, only to throw up after.

He was leaning against the bathroom wall, staring at his razor he used to shave. Something in his head was pulling him toward it.

Why did he feel like this was the only way? Why did he want to disappear? Why did he want to drink more? Why did he relapse?

Ever since The Green Goblin had come back, nothing felt the same anymore. His panic attacks were worse now, he now needed therapy in person. His thoughts muddied as the pills kicked in, maybe just one cut would be ok...

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Bucky noticed that Tony was starting to spiral of course he did mainly because he wasn't allowed to leave the tower.

So when he walked in on him he immediately took the razor from Tony. He put the razor in his own pocket and he immediately sat Tony down on the ground and stuck on his lap facing him taking both of Tony's hands into his own.

"Tony no I'm not losing you especially not like this I'm not losing another person I love." Bucky keeps his voice low and steady.

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Tony was shaking so bad... his panic was hitting hard, like a train

"I'm losing everyone to that green bastard..." He was still in a spiral, gripping his chest where the arc reactor was

[lost-buck]

Bucky grabbed Tony's hands again holding them tightly in his own.

"Hey, you won't lose me look at me we can stop him." Bucky says softly gently kissing Tony's hands as he holds them.

Bucky was keeping his voice as soft as he could and was trying to use, positive touch to ground him.

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Tony was slowly coming back to reality, but his panic remained, a headache beginning to form

[lost-buck]

"Tony hey can I move to bed? I'm not going to leave you but, I need you to tell me everything you took ok?" Bucky wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him tightly.

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