ghost

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Ghost | 20s | he/him

previously @derangedghost @twistedmultitudes @floatingcloser & more

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General account cw for multiple mental illnesses (mainly an edblr blog though)

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Slowly attempting to put my life back together after falling into heavy autistic burnout and experiencing a year+ long severe mental health crisis

autistic w/a dissociative disorder, ocd, ano/ed, depression (including sh), adhd, and a plethora of trauma (obviously, re: dissociative disorder lol)

You can probably find me pacing and playing monopoly go with Tyler, The Creator blasting

Shit I like: horses, weed, nature, animals in general, reading, music, art, SSS & Drawfee, MLP, Stranger Things

Asks are always open! DMs are open to mutuals <3

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Dinner plan:

Lipton Cup-A-Soup Chicken Noodle

2x Lundberg thin rice cakes

1x mission zero net carb tortilla

.25 tbsp Hellmans real mayo

3x thin deli oven roasted turkey slices

1x mozzarella cheese slice

16x Quaker buttermilk ranch rice crisps

373 c, 17g protein, 40g carbs, 15g fat

^^ idk macros are probably ass but it fits my c limit well & is a decent amount of food for me. Idek if I'll eat the rice crisps... if I don't it'll be 253c, 15g protein, 22g carbs, 10g fat

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Simultaneously incredibly hungry and not hungry in the slightest. Intake is ~100c & I've burned almost 600c so far so I *should* eat. Limited/no desire to do so. I don't want anything.

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SH urges are back :))) idk how I didn't relapse earlier today. And now what.. I just have to be strong and ignore them? Bullshit

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📸 - I look massive idk

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420k steps for the month so far 😎

(I have no clue if that's genuinely a good number steps wise but hey. 420 is 420)

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Ptv save me... save me ptv...

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They should let me crash my car free of guilt & in a way that ruins no one's life & costs no money

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I was supposed to have another hour and 8 minutes. Now I only have 8 minutes. I need to leave I need to leave. I just just got out of the shower. I don't know if my laundry is done yet. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

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Caught up pacing & still haven't showered oops - once I start walking it's so hard to stop

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... still pacing 💀

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I shower now 👍

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Caught up pacing & still haven't showered oops - once I start walking it's so hard to stop

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... still pacing 💀

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Caught up pacing & still haven't showered oops - once I start walking it's so hard to stop

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Going home to do laundry & shower. I need to not binge. I'm bringing some rice crisps & I can make popcorn if I need.

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I like this song a normal amount 👍

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Nectarines are yummy 😸👍

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I gottaaaaa get up. I gotta!

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I feel like if i could just improve my life, my life would improve