In an alternate version of 2020, Alyssa and I would be getting ready right now for the first night of @taylorswift Lover Fest West at SoFi stadium. This was the outfit I planned to wear, that I took for a trial run in February when Alyssa and I went to a Lover-themed night at a club in LA. People around the world are facing far greater losses and I sit with that every day. Still, I won’t lie and say I’m not mourning the lost opportunity of seeing my idol perform because I am. I’m mourning that Alyssa and I don’t get to celebrate a girls’ night out a month before what should have been her wedding.
So many of our dreams for this year have been taken from us and, even worse, so many lives. That’s what I love so much about music, most especially Taylor’s—it’s there to comfort you during times of uncertainty and chaos and fear and loss. It brings us together when the divide feels greater than it’s ever been.
This year is hard. It’s okay to not be okay. We’ll get through this together 💗



















