Lost Wolf

just my inner thoughts, as far as it goes.

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I feel as though I long for something more that I can see and touch, as if somthing in the universe calls to me. I see a picture of a women left alone in a field, longing for company but the man outside the painting doesnt understand how to get to her.

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What are these words flowing from my mind like pollution, nothing but toxicity corrupting the world around me Realizing the darkness around me is nothing more than my own thoughts, being afraid like a small child lost in the drk. Do I seek light or embrace what i have become. Whats to come of the old me if I abandon it for a newer world. Do I simply forget the lessons taught by those who have burned A touch of malice is all I see flowing from me like a gun shot wound cause by a man trying to save his family through crime alone, because those to scream justice and salvation are more blind to the true turmoil around them Families being lost to he said she said and the thougts of another wavering on ones mind regrets because our society has come to a state where having to live with your desicions is merely an option now.

[inkskinned]

hi, it’s me, and it’s been so long that the idea of me is probably a long-gone garden you once got your hands good and dirty on but i just wanted to see you, i wanted to see if you remember the taste of my tongue at two in the morning when we were both drunk. i wanted to know if you remember my secrets and carry them in the lines of your palms. i wanted to know if your calendar is full of dates that sing of us, of what was, of the night we fell in love, of the day we spent hiking through deep woods, of first touching each other in the gentle shy dark, of the morning it all fell apart.  do you stand like me, paralyzed in parks, overwhelmed by what you lost? do you flinch when the thought of me comes? does it come? do you sleep alone or is there a new person you’re sewing into your heart? do you still steal the covers, do you still get too warm, are you still a little afraid of the dark? do you still drink too much caffeine and got lost in books and love chocolate chip cookies? do you remember me? the things i told you, the things you promised me, the moments that we spent learning each other - do you remember what i did? could you tell me what made you leave? i just wanted to see you. i just wanted to see you. god, i hope you’re happy.

what if i could make myself go see how you’re doing // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

Bueno

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Desiscions

p> I’ve come to realize as of late most of the people I consider close friends never truly acknowledged me as someone who they want to be with. I fine myself wondering if it would just be easier to move to another state ans start over rather than salvage whats there already. My mind on a nightly basis now seems to wonder to darker places of regret and loneliness. In hope for a new tomorrow I trek on as if nothing is wrong but there is.. just can’t figure out what causea my sadness like beforehand.

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Hu