I don't trust myself

••• just a blog where I can share all the thoughts I'm too afraid of to say •••

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

oh tell me

please, please tell me

will it be over

one day?

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

Guys I don't know if I'm able to get to you, BUT:

It'll get better. You'll learn how not to be too harsh with yourself.

You'll heal.

You'll find someone who will understand and help you to love yourself better.

I think I've found a suitable path for me.

Mental health is a tough thing, but I know you'll made it.

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

Mind-update: too afraid to actually think about what's going on in my mind

(it's not there, right)

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

This feeling...

I need affection

I want someone to hold me

I need love

I want to feel wanted

But it feels like there is nobody that would like to do me this favor

[thatislandershawty-deactivated2]

Still tryin to heal from things I don’t speak about

[luckyfaeth]

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

it's too

m u

c h

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

I thought I was okay

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

I am this close to cut myself again

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

And here I am again, no fuckin idea what I should do to feel the hell better

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

Everyone puts pressure on me to fulfill their expectations but the biggest pressure I receive from is my fucking mind

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

bought my first cigarettes and smoked one

I hope I use the them only at parties or stressful situations..

[perrfectly]

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

I fuckin hate myself I mean I could cut my fuckin skin off and scream till I fade

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

I have so much

love

to give but

no one for it

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

is it still worth it?

[lostinmythoughtsurl]

I wanted to fall in love

                      it was so close

                               I thought I had a chance

                                                        but you did not give me a single one

[makeuphall]