Between The Lines

Just the writings & ramblings of a lost soul (Surviving)

[borderlineprince]

[heartlessqueen]

[aroseforno-one-deactivated20221]

do i blame my zodiac sign or my childhood traumas or both

[lostsoulstravelhere]

Apparently my coping mechanism is treating everyone I love like shit.

[radiantquotes]

[olearypoetry]

[lostsoulstravelhere]

I’m always in the mood to run away from home, these days.

[noootitleneeded]

[noorshirazie]

“I find it hard to live in the world,”

— Yevgeny Yevtushenko

[lostsoulstravelhere]

I’m fucking my own life up & it feels good. It feels good to be in control, for once— to feel something.

[lostsoulstravelhere]

I’ve been abused by more people in my life than loved.

[lostsoulstravelhere]

I can’t write anymore. I think everything I needed to say has already been said. No one listened the first time, anyhow.

[mooneyedandglowing]

“I am a restlessness inside a stillness inside a restlessness.”

— Dodie Smith, from I Capture the Castle

[lostsoulstravelhere]

I regret the relationships I’ve found with other people. It only makes it that much harder to go

[lostsoulstravelhere]

Like how can anyone be happy being alive I really don’t understand lmao

[lostsoulstravelhere]

My existence is meaningless honestly

[thefuckingdairyqueen]

Bipolar disorder is fucking horrible it’s not just “oh I’m happy one minute I’m angry the next!” it’s literally hell let me tell you some shit:

Bipolar is getting excited and going on manic shopping sprees only to then regret everything you’ve purchased, and now you’ve lost interest in everything you’ve bought

Bipolar is suddenly crying for no reason, and when people ask you what’s wrong, your lack of understanding only makes things worse

Bipolar is suddenly becoming very passionate about a project, idea, or even person and then spending a long period of time obsessing over it only to suddenly lose interest

Bipolar is a messy bedroom cluttered unfinished projects and guilt

Bipolar is accidentally becoming too emotional around friends or loved ones and scaring them, pushing them away when all you wanted was to bring them closer

Bipolar is not having any set group of close friends, due to the paranoia of them talking behind your back about your episodes

Bipolar is lying on the cold bathroom floor in a friend’s house or unfamiliar place trying to calm down because you’re too afraid to have an episode in front of other people

Bipolar is being afraid to show your emotions because you know if you open up to someone, you might start crying or panicking

Bipolar is making too many promises during your manic states that can’t be delivered when you’re down and depressed, leaving many to think you’re “flaky”

Bipolar is not knowing if you’re reacting appropriately or overreacting to a situation because you’ve never had a “normal” emotional scale

Bipolar is having no one taking your disorder seriously, including your parents, who may or may not still think you’re just experiencing mood swings