hi...

[lotfa]

hi...

Lala(looking for a name) - 25 - he or she is fine - white+mixed i am a (p/m)age of rage, and i believe that ly'lac is a page of doom. :*)

long time fan of homestuck, new time fan of HSBC. homestuck has been my special interest since i was 11 and i have developed a lot of strong opinions and feelings towards it... i am also a kinnie + a system. up until now most of my kinning was the captors and jake english, but recently i have absorbed lylac into my personal schema. this is my blog for ly'lac kinning... ^_^ I have a couple fictives of the captors, jake english, tavvy, AA + others all floating around who might stop by.

i have a lot of strong opinions on the characters and use a lot of hyperbolic language... if you ever want an explanation or elaboration on something i've said, i'm more than happy to tell you :*) please ask me! in my text posts i may sound aggressive, but it is mostly a tonal issue. i am just usually very excited to talk about things. when i say i "hate" a character i rarely mean it, except for rufioh nitram. i actually hate him.

i also have a lot of thoughts about kinning. i am not spiritual personally but i'm also... not not spiritual? i used to be very into spiritual kinning due to my families beliefs in reincarnation and my time on kinblr growing up. but now as an adult the beliefs have morphed into more of an artistic philosophy. i may bring up kin memories, but they can be understood as analogous to "thing i convinced my nervous system it was real." i like to be a little fish.

Fictive lists. Just for funsies. i believe i am what is called "polyfrag"(?) and have more than what is listed. They have their own blogs though.

Me - Ly'lac of the Final Applause.

Killian - Jake English + Mituna Captor

Hass - Jake Harley

Cable - Sollux "The Helpsman" Captor

Lucky - Mituna Captor

Judas - The Psiionic

Sulfur - Sollux Pyrope + Stelsa Sezyat

Kaleidoscope - Mituna Peixes

Lazarus - Originally Sollux Makara from Don't Name It, currently absorbed Tavvy Crocker.

Karma - Kankri Vantas/The Signless

Paisley - The Imposter

Luna Exe - Aradia Megido + AA(hsbc)

Sidney - John Crocker (HOD) + Aranea Serket

Kurloz - .....Kurloz. HAHA.

Castle - Charun Krojib + Mituna Makara

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i am an ICT/CSA/INCEST survivor and am physically disabled and have a TBI. if i come off as antisocial or struggle to concisely communicate something, that's likely why! my bad. but this is also my blog to be free on. im a fish in the sea....

[pikaole]

🐟 Seahorses 🐎

[lotfa]

i dont think im going to be continuing to read homestuck bc after that update to be real but i am going to be keeping this account up and posting about lylac stealing oc-style kinnie style. if youd like to unfollow feel free to ^_^

[aliquid-de-magis]

in her blankie!!!

[shimejikin]

OH GREAT SO THE BLACK TRANSFEM GETS TO BE A "FAKE NYMPH" AND IMMEDIATELY GET CRUSHED BY A MASCULINE PATRIARICHAL BUST TO DEATH BUT THE WHITE TRANSFEM GETS TO RANGLE AND HAVE FUN SEX WITH LITERALLY THE FIGURE OF PATRIARICHAL MASCULINITY AND EVERYONE IN THE FANDOMS LIKE YAAAY YAAAAAY THIS IS AWESOME. WHAT THE FUCK.

[shimejikin]

i get what theyre TRYING to do. i get it. delfi is the idea of a Homestuck Author. she is hussie but she is also the rest of the teams self insert. she is the Idea of the type of person who Makes Homestuck. shes transgender, shes racist, she uses 4chan, she has vile disgusting outlooks on life and that is being represented in her depictions of gamzee and john. her drawing Gamzee as a gross representation of tranfeminism IS i believe intended to be understood both as Delfis "dysphoria monster" (like i personally believe Gamzee was to hussie) and also an understanding of Delfis world view. She sees herself as a "fake satyr" so she takes Gamzee and makes him a "fake nymph." its meant to be a reflection of transmascs too im sure, the large amount of transmen on tumblr who take their favorite blorbos and go hes so WOMANNNN to me while only meaning it to be misogynistic and take their weird sexual complexes out on a transfem body. it is meant to be "commentary" about people like Delfi. this IS intended to be DELFIS mistake in HER OWN art.

but that doesnt change the fact that a real grown adult artist drew this, and said this, without enough narrative clearance to make any kind of fucking sense because they refuse to aactually use words like gender or dysphoria or whatever the fuck. and because homestuck as a base comic is already so inherently racist and ties racism to gender, there IS no way to depict delfi doing this shit WITHOUT actively being transmisogynistic and racist yourself. i GET what theyre trying to say. I GET IT. but with the pre-existinf EVERYTHING arounf gamzee they dont just GET to do whatever the fuck they want with his character. theyve already proven themselves to want to make him into a racist caricature from DAY ONE so any attempts to do ANY of this just plays into the racist transmisogynistic garbage homestuck is made out of. this doesnt feel like a reflection of DELFI, this feels like a reflection on what the homestuck team thinks about gamzee and what to do with him moving forward and the level of transparent racism in ALL of this is so gross and painful to read its like pulling fucking teeth. i actually cant believe they fucking did this when trying to prove they arent racist and transmisog6nistic anymore. gross. just gross

[lotfa]

yeah man fuck no offense but if theyre not only doing the bioessentialist garbage of having nymphs and satyrs be COMPLETELY OPPOSITE And never ever ever biologically the same and are literally two different species AND trying to tell a trans story AND HAVE NOW depicted gamzee as "lying" and "pretending" to be a nymph as way to "reject his role as a living weapon" its like oh okay. okay. so homestuck beyond canon is just bioessentialist transmisogynistic slop. they COULD'VE made it so the nymphs and satyrs were simply defined by arbitrary rules but instead have gone the bioessentialist species route and now are committing to the transmisogyny 2fold. its bad! its REALLY bad!

[sacrosanctitty]

Don't front with me girl. I see your smiling squid face

[etcstims]

Little fish who wants to kill you | source 💦

[lotfa]

its really hard for me not to read lylac as a hospital kid. that has to be what they were going for.

[lotfa]

i think something i do want to rotate more in my head is the connection between lylac and terezi. that interests me more than anything right now i think. even being a jake guy- and frankly, often a terezi disliker- theres a lot more there i'd want to explore than whatevers going on between jake/karkat and delfi. i feel like that's just so obvious to me. maleness and the desire to be masculine despite what your body allows you to, killing your true self for who you want to be, choosing to worship systems that hurt you in the hopes they'll stop if you prove yourself well enough.

instead, i'm far more interested in the tie between lylac and terezi due to what it implies about lylacs understand of morals and the justice system. of course there is some gender parallels i will also think about in more extent about how terezi is one of the more "outwardly nonbinary coded" characters i've ever seen and how that leans into lylac seemingly being nonbinary or bi/trigender coded. but what im more interested in right now is the fact that lylac seems to have a huge belief system around "good" and "bad" things, she decides what does and does not have value. bad things deserve to be treated bad, good things deserve to be treated good. but instead of being uppity about it, like someone with a tendency to try to look like the good guy or a perfectionist, they are focused on surrounding themselves with bad things. she loves terrible cartoons, and she is certain they are art. in fact they are such art that everything that ISN'T them is BAD! she doesn't want a better computer because then it would be bad that she hits it and smacks it around and treats it terribly. it's ok though, because it's a bad computer. gold is fundimentally useless, lead is valuable and useful. she is just so, so so excited to really terribly fuck it all up this time. to cause real damage, to really break everything down. to be every bad thing everyones ever said about her. she deems herself bad and is into it, to her being good seems valueless. it doesn't have texture, grit. it isn't entertaining, it's horribly boring. but also her entire life she has been mediated into "being good." placid, average.

it's going to be fascinating to see terezi try to juggle this with her own morals, mx "i killed my best friend because she was evil and thats what good guys do but actually i immediately realized its much more nuanced than that and regretted my actions forever after." mx "i wanna be the first alternian nonbinary cop."

[lotfa]

its funny talking on a blog that i know has followers that dont follow my main hi........ before lylac i was a jake guy if that wasnt clear. thats why all my posts here are about jake.

[lotfa]

jakes outfit is so yucky i love that hes ugly. i wish he didnt sound like a completely different person

[lotfa]

hes like if dave strider was vriska serket

[lotfa]

god delfi is going to be a little rock in my shooooeeeee for this entire comic

[lotfa]

i just keep noticing that everyones like POOR DELFI... HE LIVES IN THE MOST BIOESSENTIALIST WORLD EVER. and its like. true. the world he lives in is bioessentiallist. but. also so is he. KDMSHGDSJOIGMNHSDUIHAHAHA

[lotfa]

this is just hearing a transman tell you what manhood is after only watching anime and manosphere influencers and porn and kalvin garrah.

[lotfa]

literally hes just making up random bullshit