Rachums

I'm Rachel. Traveling from beach town (Santa Monica) to beach town (UC Santa Barbara). Recent college graduate that now works as a Special Education Paraeducator while studying for the GRE so I can go on to get a masters or PhD in School Psychology. Believe in music, love, mistakes, fixing them, and just trying to be as positive as possible. I'm also vegan and a huge fan of Farm Sanctuary. No animals were harmed in the making of this body.

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Coco, you had your quirks, but you were the best first dog I ever could have asked for. It’s only been a day, but I already miss your cuddles and silly faces so, so much 💔

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Welp.

My ex threatened legal action against me in regards to the dog we adopted together. That or we share her month-to-month. I can’t afford legal actions, and I don’t want her being shared because she’s older and I just don’t think it’s fair to her.

So tomorrow I’m giving my dog to him permanently. So the dog I’ve paid 95% of the expenses for, that has been the most, if not only, positive force in my life since the split, and that I have taken care of by myself since the split is now going to him. I don’t think I’ve never felt so much hate towards a human being before, and I’ve never felt so much regret for my past self not getting my name on that adoption paperwork.

This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I have no idea how people do this with human kids.

God, I’m already missing her so much.

[cantcontrolthegay-deactivated20]

*gets hit with feelings i thought i was over with* mmm i see that we’re recycling now

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The Last Five Years is officially my favorite thing at the moment (except I’ve only seen the movie, whoops). I think I’m supposed to hate Jamie, but honestly I sympathize with him the most (minus the *spoiler alert* cheating part).

Also, Anna Kendrick is great, but Jeremy Jordan is DIVINE.

It’s absolutely perfect for my winter break bordom + wine + musical + post break-up mood.

[bichaotic]

I don’t remember where I saw the post, but someone once made a very good point about how reproductive autonomy is not tied to one’s genetic relationship to the fetus.

If I, a woman, donate eggs for another woman, who then has them fertilized by her partner’s sperm, I have no say in whether or not she chooses to terminate that pregnancy later on after implantation. Yes, I would be that child’s biological mother, but it isn’t my body that will go through the process of pregnancy, and therefore my input would be irrelevant.

So far no dude I told this to has been able to justify why they thought they, as the father, should have a say in what their hypothetically-pregnant partner chooses to do.

Nature did not distribute the reproductive burden equally between men and women and our legislation on reproductive issues needs to take this into account.

[oatmealtrash]

“Nature did not distribute the reproductive burden equally between men and women and our legislation on reproductive issues needs to take this into account.”

YES!!

[1millionlovesongs]

may 2018 bring you

• clear skin

• pure love

• good grades

• recovery

• genuine happiness

• a better year than 2017

[jungkookio]

honestly it would be nice if 2018 was just… a good year

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I’ll settle for decent, honestly.

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2017

Honestly, this year was really rough.

My grandmother passed away in January, and on the same day I started a stressful journey at work. I honestly loved that job, but was very thankful I was leaving when I did for grad school.

Grad school would be one of the few positives of this year: getting accepted, getting a grant, and now having made my way through the first semester. However, it didn’t come without a few hiccups. The person writing one of my recommendation letters flaked at the last minute, meaning I had to scramble and find someone else only two days before I needed to mail them off. And while I’m thankful for everything it offers, grad school is still super stressful and can be a little disorganized at times.

Moving back home has been good in some aspects, but it meant leaving behind my boyfriend, friends, and students back in Santa Barbara. And a gnarly new commute to school.

Then there was the car accident.

And to cap it all off, four weeks ago I became single after being with my significant other for three years. And while I wholeheartedly believe the split needed to happen, that doesn’t make it any easier.

So, what now?

As cheesy as it is, I learned a lot from experiencing all of these things. So here’s to taking those lessons and hopefully making 2018 a hell of a lot better 🤞🙏

[fatemobitch-deactivated20180213]

this year tried to kill me but im still here bitch

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I’m a little too obsessed with this mug #bighero6 #stillworkingonsmiling #themughelps

[different-landscapes]

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My mental health is such trash right now...

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Sleepless in Milwaukee 😴 (at Milwaukee, Wisconsin)

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Required reunited picture 😘

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Normal day: hair sticks out in weird places. Today, where I'm inside doing a million pages of reading: hair does exactly what I want it to do. Go figure.

[amell-daily]

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Got Coco's teeth cleaned yesterday and she didn't have to get any teeth pulled! So much better than when we adopted her from that "rescue" last year and she had to get FIVE pulled! Take care of your pets, folks! Also, she was super high from the anesthesia afterwards and couldn't keep her eyes open or her tongue in her mouth 🐶😆 #prouddogmom