Love V.

'94. Dark Chocolates and Night Sky.

[lovebidabs]

Finally standing in front of the love I always dreamt of and the effort I always wished for. ♡

[lovebidabs]

Ok, so there's this person who has all my attention.. and I hate it cos, of course, I have to keep it to myself. Ugh.

[lovebidabs]

so, yea ummm... turns out, he likes me too. 🙈

[lovebidabs]

the love of my life. finally 🩶

[lovebidabs]

​A year and two days. That is exactly how long it takes for a storm to clear enough to look at the wreckage.

​Today, I think I am finally ready to revisit what happened that day. Not to open old wounds, and not to invite the hurt back in—just to offer myself the final, quiet grace of closure.

​I haven't reread a single chat or looked at a single photograph since last year. I chose the forward motion instead; I moved on, built a life in the afterglow, and found myself in a beautiful, warm place. I am happy now. I am fiercely loved.

​But there is a quiet hallway in my mind where the question still lingers: What went wrong? I forgot the map of how we fell apart because I refused to look back. But the dust has settled, the air is clear, and I am finally ready to take one last look. Just for the last time, to close the chapter, and finally let go of everything.

[lovebidabs]

I'm not gonna find someone better than you, but I'll find someone better for me.

Just as you have.

— Jaymen Chang, I love this version of myself that you brought out.

[lovebidabs]

UGGGHHHHH!!! I think I'm getting why our frkn signs ain't compatible 🙃

[lovebidabs]

Ok, so there's this person who has all my attention.. and I hate it cos, of course, I have to keep it to myself. Ugh.

[lovebidabs]

so, yea ummm... turns out, he likes me too. 🙈

[oncce-againn]

If you can’t calm my heart and soul, don’t even waste my time

[lovebidabs]

I can now say that I'm completely, wholeheartedly, genuinely, finally healed now ♡

[free-my-mindd]

If you feel calmer without them, that’s the answer.

[sahlesummerhill]

[lovebidabs]

ugh.. hello???? I'm right here 😭

[saintmarc]

[lovebidabs]

Ok, so there's this person who has all my attention.. and I hate it cos, of course, I have to keep it to myself. Ugh.

[tkkatherineblog]

[gardenofgod]

Strawberries with Blossoms.

[jenn1fersbody]

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

It kills me inside when I think I have to act cold to protect myself knowing I'm the sweetest and clingiest soul you'd ever meet.