stay safe 🖤

[lovelycherryp1e]

my stats:

height: 5’8

lw: 107 lbs

hw: 182 lbs

cw: 171 lbs

cgw: 160’s

ugw: nothing

age: 18

was forced into recovery at my low weight and it turned into two years of binging, now i’m back on my bullshit

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/18/23

breakfast: apple sauce

- 60 cals

lunch: mini orange and string cheese

- 115 cals

dinner: pork chop and potatoes

- 450 cals

total: 625 cals

don’t feel awesome today. feeling depressed and that always makes me want to binge. don’t trust dinner one bit i had nothing to measure so i guessed. will be suffering for it mentally the rest of the night 😭

[spiderdollies]

my fav insta thinspo! 💖🍽💗☠️💖🍽💗☠️

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/17/23

breakfast: none

- 0 cals

lunch: mini orange and string cheese

- 115 cals

dinner: lasagna and caesar salad

- ~300 cals

snack: vegan beef tips, banana, croutons

- 263 cals

total: 678 cals

dinner was honestly probably a lot less than 300 cals I had literally like 6 bites of food but I had to eat at least smth bc i was at my parents and had no idea what the cals were in it, figured it’s better to overestimate then under but otherwise I feel good about the day!!

[lovelycherryp1e]

have only binged once in over two weeks which might seem kinda shitty but considering I used to have full on BED/bul1m1a i’ll count it as a major win 😎

[lovelycherryp1e]

weighed in at 171 lbs today! means i’m down 7 pounds in 2 weeks, not bad considering I’ve been restricting to about 700-1200 cals a day it needs to be sm more though I’m impatient

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/16/23

breakfast: mini orange and string cheese

- 115 cals

lunch: half sandwich and mini orange

- 182 cals

dinner: burger

- 386 cals

dessert: yogurt and fruit cup

- 40 cals

total: 723 cals

today was hard, was feeling super motivated to OMAD and stay under 500 cals but i got super sick from taking too much medication on accident so I decided to play it safe and stick to around 800 instead. still feel so guilty i know i’m restricting enough to lose weight I just feel like a fraud coming on here seeing so many ppl restrict to like 200 cals a day every day. so so jealous.

[jungskittles]

Having to lose weight you’ve already lost SUCKS

I just wanna see a number I’ve never seen before :(

[tinytwizzler]

black girl th1nspo ❤❤❤

[maiaddictionsposts]

😍😍😍

[lovelycherryp1e]

this is the motivation i needed

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/15/23

breakfast: plain oatmeal (didn’t finish)

- <77 cals

lunch: two string cheeses

- 140 cals

dinner: chipotle bowl

- 400 cals

total: 617 cals

decent day today, not sure how the hell chipotle is so many calories the shit was filling but i got a bowl with only 3 things 😭 otherwise I feel good just wish I had time to exercise

[friendsonfriends]

not eating until I’m light enough for him to pick me up without struggling

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/14/23

breakfast: egg on toast

- 174 cals

lunch: string cheese and mini orange

- 115 cals

dinner: chicken and potatoes

- 384 cals

snack: pancake w whipped cream

- 125 cals

total: 798 cals

net after exercise: 528 cals

not the worst day today, would be an easier to lose if i lived alone and had only safe foods pre-portioned and planned out 💔

[lovelycherryp1e]

tried these today and I’m obsessed!!!

I added some 0 cal sweetener on top bc i don’t usually like the sour greek yogurt taste and it tasted just like dip n dots but only 40 cals! highly recommend the portions aren’t even super tiny either

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/13/23

breakfast: frozen yogurt and fruit bowl

- 40 cals

lunch: applesauce

- 60 cals

dinner: chicken alfredo

- 475 cals

snack: 1/2 banana, blueberries, croutons

- 191 cals

total: 765 cals

net after exercise: 664 cals

okay i was actually very disciplined this morning knowing i was going to have a heavy dinner which i’m proud of. going to post what my breakfast was right after this bc it was soooo yum pre-portioned and filling tasted like ice cream. otherwise feel semi decent about the day just wish that I would actually start exercising again

[lotusisgirlblogging]

sometimes im like "yayy recovery!!!1!1!!" then i look into the mirror and realize that the only thing i have to recover from is OBESITY

[lovelycherryp1e]

miss how skinny i was in ED residential, constantly being surrounded by real life thinspo and being forced to focus on food all day made me sm worse… i’d do anything not to have to go back though it’s why I’m taking it slow and steady this time. consistency is key 💝

[lovelycherryp1e]

Daily Food Log 9/12/23

breakfast: apple sauce

- 60 cals

lunch: ravioli and mini orange

- 185 cals

dinner: steak and potatoes

- 409 cals

snack: mini orange

- 45 cals

total: 699 cals

decent enough day today, have been feeling so guilt over having such a big dinner every night but it’s impossible to restrict without getting noticed if i don’t have at least a few non-healthy foods