you know i don’t think we often talk about how difficult it actually is to suddenly realize that a belief you thought was good and moral and correct was actually really fucking toxic. how you have to look at something and go ‘oh shit, oh i fucked up. oh this is going to take probably years at minimum to deprogram from my brain because of all the little ways this shit pervaded the rest of my beliefs’
so. to all the people picking up all the pieces of a recently shattered world-view and trying to figure out what is safe to keep and what has to be thrown away and started over
to all the people having to relearn how to even listen to other people
to all the people putting in the work to do better while struggling with the guilt that comes from finding out you were the asshole
i’m proud of y’all.
it’s hard to admit being wrong and even harder to change in the aftermath. just keep doing the best you can and just know that the effort is appreciated. everyone can change. everyone can do better. keep fighting.
I've never done this before, but if anyone has 250 dollars they can spare to help me and my family get some food for the next week, I would appreciate it.
I have had to unplug everything from every outlet in my place. The electricity is on the fritz and outlets are sparking when things get plugged in. The electrician isn't available until the second of next month. I can't use the stove or the microwave or anything to heat food, so suggestions of shelf stable food that can be made without appliances would also be appreciated. (Also safe for those with a nut allergy)
I've never done this before, but if anyone has 250 dollars they can spare to help me and my family get some food for the next week, I would appreciate it.
I have had to unplug everything from every outlet in my place. The electricity is on the fritz and outlets are sparking when things get plugged in. The electrician isn't available until the second of next month. I can't use the stove or the microwave or anything to heat food, so suggestions of shelf stable food that can be made without appliances would also be appreciated. (Also safe for those with a nut allergy)
I've never done this before, but if anyone has 250 dollars they can spare to help me and my family get some food for the next week, I would appreciate it.
I have had to unplug everything from every outlet in my place. The electricity is on the fritz and outlets are sparking when things get plugged in. The electrician isn't available until the second of next month. I can't use the stove or the microwave or anything to heat food, so suggestions of shelf stable food that can be made without appliances would also be appreciated. (Also safe for those with a nut allergy)
I know, everyone and their mom is tired of seeing this from me, but I'm seconds away from a total mental breakdown about this at any given moment.
I took all of my money, all of the cash we had in the rainy day jar, and even pulled the < $1 I had from my savings account to pay the second half of rent for the month. After that, I am at -$575.
Because my employer is only giving me $25 a week during my medical leave (< $10 after tax), and I have no idea when I'm going to actually get money from the state. I have another job I'm pursuing (just praying I get called back for the working interview or at least an answer this week), but I won't get paid from that until I actually get the job and, you know, actually start working.
I just want to have positive money at the end of the month, so that rent will actually take out of my account again. It's going to put me back in the toilet after that, but I just want to know we'll be able to keep our apartment in May, you know?
I can't even keep Dashing because my car has no gas in it. I'm not getting Etsy orders. I'm stuck at home while Kit is at work and I hate that I can't do anything to help right now. Any little amount will be helpful, or even a reblog if you can't give anything right now.
After all of this (and thank you so much to everyone who has sent money, I appreciate you all so, so much), my bank is still taking $31 from me every time something takes out of my account (and they won't just let it bounce, for some reason???), so I am at... -$620.
I have not spent any money separately from bills that are still hitting my account (that shouldn't even be getting taken out), I'm not buying food, I'm not buying gas, the movie tickets we had for last night were bought weeks ago with Kit's paycheck when we thought I was going to actually get money. I'm still getting $25 a week from my employer (all of which goes toward taxes and my health insurance premiums automatically, so I don't see a single penny of it). I haven't heard back from the state. I haven't heard anything back from the job I have had multiple interviews for.
I am drowning, and I don't know how long I can keep doing this.
The links above should still work. Reach out to me if you want my ko-fi or cashapp instead. Tips are turned on for my posts.
At this point, I don't even have the money to buy the shipping labels for my etsy sales. I have been doing my best to Dash when I have time, but I don't want to make Kit pay $50+ in gas a week when we can't even afford basic necessities right now. Any little bit helps. If you can't send money, please reblog to help spread the word.
I'm disregarding the goal and math above and setting a new, higher goal. If I don't have money by the end of the month, we won't be able to pay for electricity. I will lose my car and my only form of income. Kit can't afford to pay for rent on her paycheck alone. I am begging for any little bit of help because this health stuff really fucked me over and we still don't actually have any answers.
For those who don't know me, I'm Alex (she/they), and I started the year off with Covid. Because I had to take two weeks off work, I'm really hurting for money right now, so I'm opening up a limited number of slots for crochet commissions to try to fill in that financial gap.
ALL of the materials I use are machine washer/dryer safe
Pictures of my recent work and prices are below. Including: stuffed animals, dice bags, holiday stockings, blankets. As well as: shipping info, custom request info.
For further questions or to request a commission: message me here or email me at [email protected]
When I did my poll, most people voted for stuffed animals, and I recently finished a few that I can show my skills with. The blue penguin is my latest finished piece, with the purple penguin the first thing I ever crocheted side-by-side for comparison of how much I've learned in the last ~7 months. The mouse is technically unfinished because the eyes aren't embroidered yet, but I made it in about a day and a half, for timeline purposes.
I also just finished the above dice bag octopus about an hour ago for my roommate, which took about three hours of non-stop work (I turned on a movie and got through the stitches pretty quick). I can make them in any color you want, with either the plastic safety eyes or embroidered eyes. Most of these can be entirely customizable, just let me know what you're thinking and I'll see what I can do!
I don't have any pictures of any of the hats or scarves I've made because it's been a few years, but I made some stockings for the apartment for Christmas last month, and that's one of my most recent projects. The green one was the last one I made, and probably the most accurate to what my capabilities are now.
If you'd like a stocking for Christmas 2024, let me know! I have an unlimited number of slots for them as the holiday is far enough away that the time crunch isn't so rough.
The least popular item in my poll was the blankets, which I understand. And I'm only going to open one slot for them at a time because they take so long and so much yarn to make. The wave pattern (both blankets pictured above) is my favorite to do, but I have patterns for most simple designs, or I can likely easily google it and put it together for you. Prices are based on the time and materials these take to make, but because they're so much more expensive than the smaller items above, domestic (US) shipping is free.
Baby blanket (top left): $50
Throw blanket/afghan: $100
Full size (length shown in bottom picture): $200
1 blanket slot
Custom requests:
If there's a pattern you've found on Etsy/Pinterest/etc that you want made, contact me by using the contact information above. We can discuss prices or my ability to accomplish that for you. ***patterns must be CROCHET patterns as I do not knit (yet)***
5 custom slots total
International shipping:
Let me know when you request a commission where you are located, as shipping prices vary wildly from country to country. I'll go over the actual cost with you before you commit to the commission and make sure the price works for both of us.
I say this as someone who loves orchestral film scores, but
The Leap of Faith scene in Spider-verse is so iconic for several reasons, one of which is the music. If it was an orchestral score, it would have sounded like any other film ever, especially with the recent trend of film scores relentlessly aping each other into increasingly vague homogeneity. ‘What’s Up Danger’ gives the scene something new, something bold, something striking … and something Miles Morales. This is the story of an urban black kid finding his own identity of Spider-Man rather than failing to fill the shoes left before him. This isn’t just a Spider-Man story, it’s a Miles Morales story, with all the aesthetic choices that entails. The aesthetic of the film oozes the concept of black urban youth, from the music to the street art-inspired visuals. Removing these elements would divorce it from what makes this Miles’ story.
Also, ‘What’s Up Danger’ is a banger, so jot that down
you know i don’t think we often talk about how difficult it actually is to suddenly realize that a belief you thought was good and moral and correct was actually really fucking toxic. how you have to look at something and go ‘oh shit, oh i fucked up. oh this is going to take probably years at minimum to deprogram from my brain because of all the little ways this shit pervaded the rest of my beliefs’
so. to all the people picking up all the pieces of a recently shattered world-view and trying to figure out what is safe to keep and what has to be thrown away and started over
to all the people having to relearn how to even listen to other people
to all the people putting in the work to do better while struggling with the guilt that comes from finding out you were the asshole
i’m proud of y’all.
it’s hard to admit being wrong and even harder to change in the aftermath. just keep doing the best you can and just know that the effort is appreciated. everyone can change. everyone can do better. keep fighting.
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