A little bird told me...

Love always calls us out of brokenness into something better

[lovemanatees]

“ I remember when I would wake up next to you and wish that time would stop.”

The sound of a child jumping on a trampoline.

The crickets chirping in the night.

Rosebud sheets. Pretty in pink.

Soft music wafting in the air.

Scent of lilies blooming on the altar.

The comforting smell of your tshirt.

The creak from the wooden step.

You.

[lovemanatees]

You could've told me not to do it, I would've run, I would've run

Tell me what was the moment you decided to give up

You could've told me what you wanted, I would've done, I would've done

Anything

[lovemanatees]

And I can still see it all in my mind

All of you, all of me intertwined

I once believed love would be black and white

But it's golden

[lovemanatees]

TV on in the background, I didn't care about that

Body bare on your chest and my heart in the palm of your hands

Did you realise the power you had over me when you love like that?

[lovemanatees]

Never before, and never since

If you know it in one glimpse

It's legendary

What we thought was for all time

Was momentary

Still alive, killing time at the cemetery

Never quite buried

And I'll still see it until I die

You're the loss of my life

[lovemanatees]

I know that it looked easy for me to let you go

Doing all the things we planned without you

I get how it looks like I kept the best of us

And left the memories with you

I know I'm not allowed to say I'm hurting

'Cause I hurt you and I know that

I know I'm not allowed to say I miss you

'Cause I left you, so I hold back

Know I'm not allowed to feel the feelings I've felt

So I keep it to myself

But I'm still wondering how you're doing

[lovemanatees]

“What is grief, if not love persevering.”

[lovemanatees]

Grief

And I miss you every single day.

There’s a you shaped space in my heart and I don’t know what to do to fill it up.

I think of all the little things you’d do every day and I ache to see that silly face of yours again.

Where does all the love I have for you go now?

Never felt my heart break quite like this before.

It’s so crazy because it feels like ages ago and yet time has barely passed since you’ve gone.

The days go by and life seemingly moves on

Still, each passing day feels wrong because you’re not around to pass it with me.

I’m not me anymore, cos me always had you.

[lovemanatees]

A piece of my heart left us today.

And it hurts like hell.

[lovemanatees]

Most gut punching heart wrenching news.

Trying to keep it together but I’m falling apart.

[lovemanatees]

I wanna turn back time tell you I’m wrong

Don’t wanna waste my nights singing sad songs

I’ll spend a lifetime wishing I’d stayed

But it’s a little too late to tell you that, babe.

How could I let you fall through my hands?

I should’ve held you when I had the chance

I’ll spend a lifetime wishing I’d stayed

But it’s a little too late to tell you that, babe.

[lovemanatees]

“it's a little bit of an ick of mine when i hear people describe themselves as "laid back" or "chill".. like, of course you are. we all are when things are going well for us.

what are you like when you're stripped of your creature comforts? what are you like when you're uncomfortable? when things arent going well? that's where the realest you lives. everyone is cool when they're good. what are you like when shit sucks?”

[stricatul]

People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them bare and their response is “you're safe with me”

-that's intimacy.

[lovemanatees]

You still make me nervous when you walk in the room

Them butterflies they come alive when I’m next to you

Over and over the only truth

Everything comes back to you

[lovemanatees]

And I know you always had to prove yourself.

But never to me. You’ve always shined brighter than anyone else.

As you are.

[lovemanatees]

And if my wishes came true

It would've been you

In my defense, I have none

For never leaving well enough alone

But it would've been fun

If you would've been the one

I have this dream you're doing cool shit

Having adventures on your own

You meet some woman on the internet and take her home

We never painted by the numbers, baby

But we were making it count

You know the greatest loves of all time are over now

[lovemanatees]

To the Water Under the Bridge.

I finally see it now. You already said your final goodbye 4 years ago…

Took me awhile but I think I finally caught up.