*·˚ ༘ ➳ ♡ heartbreak hotel

[lovesaintalice]

🎀 20s ♡ she / they ♡ bi 🎀

❗❗TW: ed, mental illness, body imagery, dark content. ❗❗

pls proceed w caution! block, don't report!

#pro recovery ♡ #recovery resources ♡ #mental health resources ♡ #positive ♡ #self care & harm reduction

⊘ minors dni! 18+ only! ⊘

#alice's diary ♡ #alice's food diary ♡ #my insp ♡ #insp ♡ #food insp ♡ #aes ♡ #vent ♡ #anti binge

₊˚⊹♡ stats

🍓height: 5'1" 🍓bmi: 42.7 🍓hw: 238 lbs 🍓lw: 120 lbs 🍓cw: 226.2 lbs 🍓1 gw: 200 lbs 🍓2 gw: 180 lbs 🍓3 gw: 160 lbs 🍓4 gw: 130 lbs 🍓uwg: 110 lbs

₊˚⊹♡ rules

🌸omad, let others know you've eaten 🌸veggies and fruits are only things you don't have to track cal of 🌸measure out food before you eat 🌸keep track of everything you eat each day 🌸cut out all sugary foods, no desserts, etc 🌸fast at least 16 hrs a day 🌸no sugary drinks or snacks between meals 🌸eat mostly veggies, avoid carbs when possible 🌸don't talk about food otherwise, as little as possible 🌸exercise for at least 30 mins each day (includes cleaning)

₊˚⊹♡ safe foods

💗outshine popsicles 💗baby carrots 💗cucumber 💗tomatoes 💗bell pepper 💗popcorn 💗veggie straws 💗boiled eggs 💗veg only salad 💗rice crackers

[lovesaintalice]

i keep abandoning this account because i know it's not good for me, but i also know i've gained weight, i had a fckin pregnancy scare which was fun, struggling with relationship stuff, started pmsing again, and i'm terrified i've gained all the weight back that i lost. part of me is like fck yea i'm fat fck this society and system trying to make me starve myself in order to control me and fit this mold i wasn't designed to fit. but then, it works on me. i hate looking in the mirror, how people treat me when i go out because i've gotten so big.... when does the shit stop? i dream of moving out of the us one day, having a good job, making a difference, having friends that i can talk with and go out and do fun things with, feeling at peace with myself..... that's not today, though. idk if i should be on here or not.

[hollywood-noir]

[siix-eyes]

Inside Mari | Boku wa Mari no Naka - chapter 24

[mia-lu1800]

[lia20wannab3sk1nny]

Remember: that snack won’t fix your mood it’ll just sit on your waist

[xxb1opsychos0cialxx]

harm reduction tip!!

please, please, please try not to isolate yourself. don’t choose your ed over people you care about. if you feel yourself starting to get caught in a pattern of that, do your best to stop it. if you push away all the people who could potentially pull you out, you will be drowning forever. maybe it feels now like you want that, like you would rather be lonely forever than be “fat,” but i promise you won’t want it anymore once you get it.

make plans with your friends. you don’t have to tell them about your ed, you don’t have to start hard conversations, but be together with people you care about if you’re lucky enough to have those in your life

[feral-ballad]

Tawanda Mulalu, from Please Make Me Pretty, I Don't Want to Die: Poems; “Good Long Poem”

[yourlilbrunette]

[brindye]

Please let my thoughts stop, they are consuming me.

[nobodyjustsoul]

Dr Pepper th1nsp0

[lovesaintalice]

sorry disappeared again. gonna get back to this. i need to.

[lovesaintalice]

really heartbroken and disappointed to realize that most people say and do things out of the desire to be seen, exert control and influence, and not to connect on any meaningful level.....

[9e978e]

[jellyfish-greentea]

[cigarettenymphette]

[petitte]

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