You're never gonna see this so Idk why I'm typing it butt.......
lol its a blog thats what its for anyway right? #thefeelsnoonewillknow
Lets just start at the beginning then shall we?I'm not fucking okay nor will i ever be okay because this was nothing like what i was accused of.  You should know that i would never be that type of person or the kind to do something like that to you. but before i get into the bigger details I'm just gonna say this. It was never about the money nor will it ever be about the money i could fucking care less if you didn't have a single fucking cent i'd still be just as in love with you as i am today. I miss you every single fucking second of every single fucking day and honestly everything that i had fucking said and will continue to say to you has been nothing less than the truth. You seriously were my whole world and honesty you still are im so beyond lost now that you're gone and idk what to do about anything. Every single plan that we've made is just gone and it's not okay because I can't go on without that. I don't want too. Now lets get into this more shall we. If i was going to do that? I wouldn't be stupid enough to put my fake profile in the top friends of my real profile? that makes no sense. So lets just get into it. That's my cousin my younger than me by one year cousin. and back then when myspace was a thing i went by my middle name "leanne audre" you know that thing you could never remember? haha. I went by audre (i may have also thought i was kelly clarkson)  because i didnt want my name to be the same as hers when it was searched or said since we hung out with relevant friends. Secondly? You've talked to people that know me in real life? Chris? Why the fuck would i invite fry to meet me if i was fake? Why the fuck would i plan all of this out with you if it wasn't going to happen or wasn't the truth. How could you even thnk for one second that was true i just don't get it. Or atleast give me a chance to explain. We've known each other for 7 years thers no way you can fake a profile for 7 fucking years. iowefjowjefoijwfe I just don't get this.  You've seen me naked. You've seen every aspect of my body and spent every second with me theres no way i could even fake the things i've told you or fake the things that ou've seen in pics and the stories behind them.
My aunt says she'll call and explain so will my cousin but its not true. I'm me and I always have been....
I may have had a little too much to drink tonight but i needed this off my chest and if you ever do miss me ever do decide you wanna speak to me again or talk about this just know that i want you back and i will every second of every single day that passes. And idc about any of this all i care about is you so if you ever wanna come back just know im begging you too. Im praying for you too when i don't even believe in a god.Â
None of that is true and just yeah.Â
But you'll never read about this you'll never even understand this or know this but i guess it's good to get off my chest.Â
















