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18, HE / HIM - BLOCK DO NOT REPORT, this is a safe space for me UGW: 58/ 55 KG CW: 68KG

[not-th1n-y4t]

An apology

I'm sorry if I help fuel your ed

I'm sorry if this account is one of the reasons you have an ed

In sorry if you looked on my page out of curiosity then stumbled down the rabbit hole

I'm sorry if my page influenced your ed in anyway

But let me say something

It might be too late for those people but please I'm BEGGING you if you don't have an ed and are at the "curiosity" stage let me tell you the saying "Curiousity Killed the Cat" has never rang more true, so LEAVE. I'm not asking you nicely I'm telling you FUCKING LEAVE.

I don't care if I seem rude to you, get the fuck off tumblr RIGHT NOW. I ignored these when I saw them and I regret it this disorder is one of the WORST things that happened to me, you know anorexia is the most deadly mental illness ? If you don't recover you will DIE.

I want to scream through my phone, I am so fucking angry, I don't want to influence any eating disorders !!!

As the sister of a recovered anorexic being their family member is horrible, seeing someone slowly deteriorate, hearing the fights escalate, not knowing when you would see them for the last time, wondering why they won't eat this. When I was 8, my parents FORBADE ME FROM WAKING MY BIG SISTER UP IN FEAR I WOULD SEE HER DEAD BODY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?! THEY THOUGHT A CHILD, A BABY, WOULD SEE THE PERSON SHE LOOKS UP TO DEAD.

THIS ILLNESS IS NO JOKE, NOT A SKINNY DISNEY FAST PASS, NOT A CUTE QUIRK, IT'S DEADLY.

And as an anorexic let me tell you, it's even worse. You will cry in front of the mirror, pinch your "fat" until it's red, shower in the dark, the scale will be your best friend and worse enemy, you will hate yourself so much more, you will MISS FOOD, you will miss being able to eat fries or pizza or spring rolls or crisps or potatoes, you may be thinking "I'll still let myself eat them from time to time" NO YOU WON'T, you will probably have a breakdown when you have them on your plate, you might purge, you might starve for the next day or more. Your personality will dissolve, you will be constantly angry and irritable.

Oh and also, if you have siblings or cousins I would like to inform you that people are more likely to have an ed if a family member had one and I KNOW you care about your family. (I am not accusing any one of purposefully influencing family members it's just for information)

If you have an already existing ed you can stay, if not then get the FUCK OFF MY PAGE YOU BEAUTIFUL PERFECT HUMAN BEING AND GO HAVE A SNACK. This illness is not beautiful and aesthetic, it's torture.

[bunny-recipes]

🍲Sinigang🍲

Filipino Tamarind Soup

I could wax poetic about my love of Sinigang for days. Most kids latch onto one food for a while and refuse to eat anything else and for me it was Sinigang. For like 8 years I had sinigang at least once a day everyday, to the point where all my family would tease me. It’s sour and filled with nutritious vegetables. I still like to make a big pot sometimes and just eat it thougout the week. Here’s a serving for two so if you’re not a big fan. Sinigang packet mix is normally found is Asian food stores with other dried soup products. This isn’t the most traditional recipe tbh just my low cal version.

Spray oil (16)

1/4 of an onion (10)

2-3 cloves of garlic (4)

1-2 cups water

2 oz ground turkey (80)

1 cup/3 oz cabbage (26)

1 oz of diced tomato (canned is fine 5)

1 tbsp of Sinigang packet mix (definitely go with your own tastes as this can be sour don’t be afraid of adding more or less)

2 cups of green leafy vegetables (I usually use spinach but bok choy or kale are good substitutes 14)

Other veggies options to add: string beans, hot peppers (jalapeño and banana peppers are good),okra, eggplant, and radish

In a soup pot fry onions and garlic with spray oil til brown and fragrant. Add turkey and stir fry til it’s gets nice and brown. Add water, tomato cabbage and bring to a boil. Try adding the Sinigang mix a tsp or so at a time to see how much you need/ prefer. If you add to much you can always add more water to your soup. Right as your about to serve add leafy greens and voila!

Total:156

🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘🍲🥘

[provigilpowered]

"dOn'T rEwArD yOuRsElF wItH fOoD yOu'Re NoT a DoG" okay explain this then

alternate title: unless you are a Dog with a Blog (tm) you will not gain weight eating this much in a day folks

[rat-carcass]

Tag yourselff!!!! Omggg im spanish like the dog breed I got!! ≧◡≦ Hehe

/very sarcastic

[provigilpowered]

lmaoooo the notification got cut off before the tone indicator and I was like

🤨

[lowkeywannaeatmyselfup2]

This account is so dead, how’s everyone doing?

[feministism]

compare.

[yourdarlingdaisy916]

THIS is what I wanna see in our history books.

Highlight the injustice and inequality. Stop erasing it.

[thin-as-flowers]

5 Calorie Chocolate Cookies! (70 calories for ALL 14 COOKIES!!!)

Seriously! these cookies I made are 5 calories EACH. Very very good size. The recipe/way to make them is very similar to meringues but they don’t look or taste much like them, they’re just like regular cookies in my eyes. keep reading for recipe🍪

INGREDIENTS:

• 3 egg whites (50cal)

• 3-4 tbsp Splenda (0cal) or any 0cal sweetner

• 1 tbsp cocoa powder (20cal)

• baking powder

makes about 14 cookies of this size. (you only see 13 on my pan….that’s because I ate some of the dough😂)

Directions:

Beat together your egg whites and gradually add in Splenda. Beat the egg whites until they reach a peak.

Add in your cocoa powder and beat until it’s mixed in well.

Form cookies on a pan and MAKE SURE YOU SPRAY THE PAN. This is so important or the whole recipe will fail.

Bake at 250 FARENHEIT (sorry my spelling sucks ass). For 15-25 minutes. Just keep an eye on them. Times often vary.

Enjoy!!!

Finished product!! 🍫

Chocolate Cookies!!!!😋

[ptsdconfessions]

Therapist Red Flags

Therapy is important and can be really helpful, but not all therapists are good at their job. Here’s a few things to look out for when you’re seeing a therapist:

Not listening to what you tell them

Ignoring confidentiality (except in emergencies)

Making you feel judged or ashamed

Ignoring or trivialising your needs

Consistently being late

Making fun of your needs / accomplishments

Being judgemental or critical of you

Not taking your feedback on sessions into account

Condescending facial expressions or body language

Ignoring what you want to do / accomplish in therapy

Talking too much about themselves

Making you feel like problems are all your fault

Being insensitive to your culture or religion

They’re making you feel bad about yourself

Using the phone or getting distracted during your sessions

Attempting to make romantic / sexual advances on you

Making you feel stupid or invalid for what you say or how you feel

Forgetting important details about you / your life

Pushing you too hard before you’re ready

You wondering if their behaviour is a red flag. If you’re looking it up then chances are you already feel uncomfortable in therapy. You should never be forced into seeing a therapist who makes you feel uneasy. There’s no shame in leaving and finding a different therapist.

[scallioncreamcheesebagel]

a couple more. these are all things i have actually encountered with my past therapists.

misgendering you or others, making excuses for doing so (ex. “they/them pronouns are too hard to use”)

manipulating you into staying when you try to leave (ex. by saying no other therapist will want to take your case)

shortening the length of your session but still charging you the same / shortening the length of your sessions without consulting you

do not hesitate to leave a therapist if you are not getting what you need from them.

[skinnyxrobo-blog]

Chocolate Chip Cookies

16 servings, 8 cal per serving

You will need:

💮 Sweetener (0)

💮 Pinch of salt (0)

💮 3 tbsp cashew milk (5)

💮 16 chocolate chips (32)

💮 2 tbsp oat flour (37.5)

💮 ½ banana (53)

Directions:

1) Preheat oven to 325 degrees Fahrenheit and spray cookie sheet with Pam.

2) Mash banana, adding in milk and sweetener.

3) Combine salt, oat flour, and chocolate chips.

4) Mix banana mixture with oat flour mixture.

5) Seperate into small bite sized pieces

6) Bake for 3-7 minutes or until golden.

Original recipe found here: https://ohnoregrettio.tumblr.com/post/161249028830/chocolate-chipsugar-cookie-dough-bites-5984

[dearbisexual]

dam…….. that website “you feel like shit” (it’s like a questionnaire / troubleshooting guide for when you feel like shit) really works………………….. im not even all the way thru it and i even half-assed a lot of the suggestions and i already feel loads better

[dearbisexual]

for some reason, with this website, i was able to complete small tasks ive been fruitlessly bugging myself to do for weeks??

anyway, i feel almost good now :^)

[dearbisexual]

im glad this got some notes!!!! i hope it helps y’all find some measure of peace or comfort <3

[fuckyeahsnackables]

This is astonishing. I’m going to use and save.

[disabledprincesses]

There are no rules on when to be productive.

If you cannot function in the morning

You can do your work, homework, chores, etc. at 3am

You can go grocery shopping at 11:29pm on a thursday

You can shower, make your bed, brush your teeth at 3pm

You can write an essay in your bed at 9pm and go to bed at 1am

Don't force yourself to wake up at 5am to be productive and then think the day's ruined when you wake at noon

Doing something in a weird way is still doing something

[lowkeywannaeatmyselfup2]

Wtf, I haven’t use this account in ages. I guess this is an update:

In April I ignored my ED for 2 week cuz I felt like begin high all day, but I gained weight and on 4/20 i stoped, I kinda felt like I replaced temporarily my ed with weed / prescription pills so idk

I stopped counting the amount of cigarettes I smoke in a day, I think it’s been up to 7/8 a day for a while now, and I honestly don’t have the energy to do so, I’m not weak but my head isn’t just here anymore

I’m not sad, I’m not happy, I don’t how I feel, I just deeply wish I was someone else, in a different country, with a different face with a different body, I’m sick of who I am and i can’t take it anymore…I’m fine Tho, 16-fast

[phantomrose96]

Day 286 of quarantine I have discovered www.webstaurantstore.com

It is, I BELIEVE, a website intended to be used by restaurants for bulk ordering food and utensils. And this is bringing me such unbounded delight scrolling through and recognizing that I, a single individual, ALSO can order ridiculous obscene enormous offensive-to-all-common-sensibilities shipments of BULK FOOD, to my LITTLE LITTLE APARTMENT, for PENNIES on the dollar. I have this god given power to flood my entire living space with bulk grains and it is one single button click away from my reality.

30 POUNDS of chocolate for $100. 20 POUNDS of peas for $13?? $13!!!! I will wake up every single morning from now on knowing that a box of donuts and a sack of dried split peas heavy enough to bodily injure someone both carry equal monetary weight. 25 POUNDS OF ONION POWDER for $50. Do you understand the enormity? the accessibility? the potential here? With the single click of the button I can put myself in a position of bequeathing more than a humanly comprehensible amount of onion powder in my will. AND IT WOULD ONLY COST ME $50 TO MAKE THIS A REALITY.

But what gets me

What truly gets me

is the 50 POUND BAG OF RICE 

FOR LESS THAN $20

Do you know how much that kills me? How much I’m losing my mind? that I can order MYSELF WORTH OF RICE for something to the tune of $50? I can OUT-RANK MYSELF WITH RICE, DEMOCRATICALLY OVERRULE MYSELF WITH RICE, IN MY OWN APARTMENT for the fucking PENNIES that is $50

I’m so sorry for the normal person I’ll be after quarantine because the cabin-fever version of me I’m inhabiting right now is perhaps just uninhibited enough to follow through on this dream I’ve just discovered of out-ricing myself.

[closet-keys]

real talk though, if you had a large number of people in your community who wanted a particular food item and couldn’t afford it (for instance if you’re in a food desert and need produce or if you’re a part of a large disabled and/or overworked community who all need prepared frozen food), you could pool funds and get an order from a supply store like this.

it requires organizing for finance management, ordering, transport, and distribution, but if you build a stable mutual aid network, it’s genuinely within the realm of possibility.

[anarchopuppy]

This idea is called a buyers club (or buying club, buying coop, etc) and it’s a great time-tested method of mutual aid. And there are guides and tools for starting your own at managemy.coop

[angeirreel]

The sketch ending of a book/artistic novel im currently working on

[woodmossbones]

The terrifying thing about my ED is the way it makes me feel like my mental health is actually improving the more weight I lose. I’m starving myself but every pound off feels like freedom. The thinner I get the more I feel comfortable enough to get dressed in the morning, to be able to go out with friends and feel a little less disgusted with myself.

But then I eat more than I had planned and I’m crying, screaming, punching my walls and feeling nothing but hate for myself. Then I remember that I’m still sick.

[babby1]

this is exactly how i feel described

[rippingattheseams]

ive never something so accurate

[metapianycist]

autistic self diagnosis is valid

[actingnt]

a person: i’m autistic. i don’t have a professional diagnosis.

a neurotypical: you can’t! self diagnose! autism!!! onLy a dOctor can do that!!!

most doctors: don’t know what autism looks like in people other than nonverbal white cis boys

most doctors: recommend abusive therapies for autistic kids and teens

most doctors who specialize in diagnosing autism: refuse to evaluate adults

an autism evaluation for a minor teen who wants one: requires having supportive parents who understand that autism is not a tragedy and looks different for every autistic person, and that many autistic people can talk, have friends, do okay in school, and otherwise fake looking neurotypical

an autism evaluation for an adult: very expensive and often not covered by insurance in the U.S., also extremely difficult to get in France

an on-record autism diagnosis: can be used to deny you custody of children, to have your kids taken away, to forcibly institutionalize you

autism advocacy orgs that actually help autistic ppl like ASAN, AWN, AANE: Here are some resources for figuring out if you could be autistic. Professional diagnosis is a very personal decision and is not required for knowing that you’re one of us. We support you as an autistic person even if you don’t have a paper diagnosis.

a sincere autism self diagnosis: harms no one even if it’s incorrect, enables the person to feel part of a community of people with similar issues and learn more about autism, a gateway to learning about autism acceptance movements, often the first step toward self acceptance and self esteem

[ethan---green]

Okay, this post actually helped me a lot a while back. Idk if I’m ADHD or autistic, but either way, super helpful

[aprotestforyourheart]

This post is really helpful!

[shade-romeo]

Anyone know of any of those self diagnosis resources they talked about-?

[metapianycist]

here you go (the coding of the original post got weird, I’m the op of the long chat post section, not actingnt):

About Autism

Autism is a neurological variation that occurs in about one percent of the population and is classified as a developmental disability. Altho

AANE adopted the term Asperger profile to describe a range of neurological differences characteristic of over one percent of people in the U

Asperger/Autism Spectrum Fact Sheet – The Asperger / Autism Network (AANE)

Learn the signs and symptoms for Aspergers and the Autism Spectrum. Learn why women and girls with Aspergers or autism are under-diagnosed.

Asperger and Autism Spectrum diagnosis in adults. Symptoms and signs of Aspergers and autism. How to get an Aspergers or autism diagnosis. W

[confuzzledmiomio]

I…wait..really?

It’s, fine..? Because Ive always been so scared of like, calling myself autistic or smth because I don’t have a proper diagnosis and I don’t want to offend people.

[metapianycist]

it’s fine. there are actually very few autistic people who will be assholes about self-diagnosis and they’re usually the ones who most strongly support medical authoritarianism (and most paper-diagnosed autistic people don’t like them either)

[cxffeeandteaforme]

cravings masterpost

over the years, i have been taught what certain cravings mean and how i can replace them in a healthy way. so i figured, why not share it with you guys? 

if you crave chocolate…

your body needs magnesium. a quick fix for this is raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave sweets…

your body might need some of the following: 

-chromium - have some broccoli, grapes, cheese, or chicken. 

-carbon - chow down on some fresh fruit. 

-phosphorus - chicken, eggs, legumes, or grains can help. 

-tryptophan - similar to magnesium, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave bread or toast… 

your body needs nitrogen. have some high protein foods such as fish, meat, nuts, or beans. 

if you crave fatty foods… 

your body needs calcium. broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help. 

if you crave alcohol… 

your body might need some of the following:

-protein - think seafood, dairy, or nuts. 

-avenin - chow down on some granola or oatmeal. 

-calcium - broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.  

-potassium - bitter greens or seaweed usually do the trick. 

if you crave ice cream/shaved ice… 

your body needs iron. some suggestions are fish, greens, seaweed, or black cherries. 

if you crave burned or grilled food… 

your body needs carbon. chow down on some fresh fruits. 

if you crave soda and carbonated drinks… 

your body needs calcium.  broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.

if you crave salty foods…

your body needs chloride. goat milk (yes i know that’s a little odd) and fish help. 

if you crave acid foods (burgers)… 

your body needs magnesium. just like chocolate, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave cool drinks (milkshakes or malts)… 

your body needs manganese. some suggestions are walnuts, pecans, almonds, pineapple, or blueberries. 

if you’re PMS-ing… 

your body needs zinc. red meat, seafood, leafy greens, and root vegetables are helpful. 

if you’re overeating… 

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds are a quick fix. 

-tryptophan - eat some cheese, raisins, sweet potatoes, or spinach.

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements should do the trick. 

if you crave tobacco…

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds help, but stay away from refined starches. 

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements or red, orange, or green fruits and veggies can help. 

disclaimer: i am not a health professional in any way, this is just advice i have been given over the years. 

[cringykidnextdoor]

step 1: have that stuff at home

step 2: remember that this post exists

[lowkeywannaeatmyselfup2]

After ignoring my Ed for a good 2 weeks and smoking my days off, I’m finally back to my bullshit. I needed a break but I’m back.