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[lreitsema]

So, I’m sitting here, at 9 pm on a Saturday night, listening to all the people in the rooms above and below me, and walking outside, laughing and drinking and having fun, while I watch cheesy girly movies in my dorm room all by myself.  Yes, I could get dressed up, go pre-drink with some friends and go out to the clubs, but there are a few problems with that. 

I am really comfy in my sweats and putting on proper pants is too much work. 

Since most of my friends went back home after their exchange last semester, I literally only know one other person on campus. 

All I really want to do is snuggle up with some hot chocolate and Belgian chocolate ice cream and watch Dr. Who or some action movie with my boyfriend, then go to bed early.  

But there is also a problem with that. He’s not here this weekend. I know, I sound like a clingy girlfriend who can’t go a few days without her partner, and maybe I am a little clingy, but the truth is, I just really love him.  At least I think this is love. For a girl who has been hurt by all sorts of boys in all sorts of ways, I have actually had a few good relationships, but this, this is different.  when he looks at me, I feel like I am the only girl in the world, and when he tells me he loves me, I melt inside.  I know things will be complicated since we are from opposite ends of the world, and it would make my life so much easier if we ended things, but who likes easy, right?  So you see, I’m not clingy, I’m just in LOVE.