FANFARE

tell me again about the bones of stars — they melted down to forge your soul, tell me again how the suns of other galaxies shine long after they d i e centuries before we ever think to grieve and eulogize them, remind me that loneliness does not mean extinguishment

[lsejvns]

hvcil !

     as haeil stood there, lifeless as could be, he grazed his eyes across the area they both stood on. the breeze that gently came along was almost disgusting in a way —— seeking of desperation and FAKE laughters —— seeing all those people acting as if they have no problems weighting on their shoulders. right now, that was his own problem: KNOWING the difference between acting and genuine emotions when it came to other people. and only someone would look down on him for having those thoughts, being a hypocrite and having no right to say any of that. sure, he didn’t have any sense of depicting his OWN feelings, but seeing the lot of people laugh along with each other, throwing their heads back and holding their guts for no reason made him all around bitter out of jealousy.      with those OBSERVATIONS still lingering in his mind, the sight of a pink fluff overtook his entire view all of the sudden. instead of taking the offer, he narrowed his eyes to the tall male in his space and shook his head slightly, pushing the dessert in sejun’s way, ensuring the piece would be eaten by himself.      ❛ no thanks, ❜ he sighed while looking around for the large contraption. ❛ eat that while we wait in line for the wheel thing. just standing here —— SUCKS.. ❜

ONE CAN’T SAY HE’S TOO SURPRISED by the reaction he gets, but sejun doesn’t really look discouraged. if there’s any thought he’s giving to it, it doesn’t show — smile does not once falter as fingers come to stuff the sweet treat between his lips. ‘ what’s here that you think doesn’t suck ? ’ sejun asks, but it’s more of a rhetorical question. he doesn’t really expect an answer. he thinks he can actually guess what the answer would be. still, sejun is not giving up that easily. for once he does as he’s told and gestures towards where he can see a small line formed in front of the tallest one of the attractions so they can head that direction. he faintly remembers joking about kissing on top of it, and he’s had the chance with haeil’s lack of understanding when it came to his frequent use of jokes before. it makes him wonder whether that’s something he should be bringing up, but rather than doing that he decides to wait till they are actually there. he continues eating the cotton candy in silence, both hands and mouth sticky as it melts way too quickly. clearly, he is not bothered by it in the slightest. sejun’s eyes find those of his companion. when he speaks, there’s a hint of sarcasm but towards the end it gets nearly hopeful. ‘ i’d ask if you are excited but i can see you’re practically bursting with excitement. ’ a pause.  ‘ can’t you try ? for me ? ’  — and he instantly feels silly for even asking.

[lsejvns]

cordicls !

 – dae had been prepared for this; DRAMATICS and all. the knuckle he’d used to knock only sounding so harsh as it must have because his palm held fast around a thermos. hands laden with the hangover snacks and cures he’d known the man would need the moment he’d received the invite out. and though dae couldn’t particularly accept the B L A M E, he found himself fondly amused all the same. stepping in to lay down the various treats and moving to curl himself onto the bed beside his friend. “ i’m so sorry. ” he huffed, tone softened for the other’s aching head. “ i had a date. but i’m here NOW. and i brought lots of snacks, and i’ll stay with you  A L L  morning to make sure you feel better. ” absently, a hand reached to brush hair from sejun’s forehead – the smile on his lips warm to match the gesture. “ did you have a good time before you went overboard ? ”

EVERYTHING IS TOO LOUD and that results into another pained groan coming from sejun, hands spreading to cover his face entirely as if the daylight was his biggest enemy right now. which, in a way, it truly is because it just plain hurts. there’s a hand on his forehead before he knows it in something of a friendly, soothing gesture — it’s nice, and he lets out a quiet sound that’s supposed to show appreciation. there are several things that caught his attention in what his friend has just said, mainly the mention of snacks, but something else leaves even bigger impression. ‘ you had a date ? ’ it comes out as a gasp, even causes sejun to tug the thick fabric of the blanket down completely so his face is uncovered and tired eyes can squint at the other. ‘ i don’t know what’s more outrageous — the fact that you chose someone else over me or that i haven’t heard about this sooner. ’ a hand comes to clutch his clothed chest, an excessive sigh leaving sejun’s lips. ‘ tell me, are we not friends ? am i not your favorite person ever ? ’

[lsejvns]

wvjins !

the other’s sense of humor is totally charming, and woojin is happy that the other took him up on the offer. all he can do is play along, really. call it his kind nature, or maybe the truth that being cold isn’t really too much of a problem to him, but he doesn’t care. his jacket isn’t that important or special anyways, so if the other ends up taking off with it and he never gets to see it again, it’s no big deal. “catch?” woojin repeated the word slowly, with emphasis - almost as if he’s surprised to hear such an accusation. “there isn’t one, as long as you don’t try to eat in five minutes and then just leave.” he smiled slightly. “i just wanted someone to talk to for a while, honestly.”

SEJUN WAITS, EYES NARROWING as he observes the other, trying not to miss any expression crossing his features. one that could betray him and reveal his real plan — but from what it looks like, the other is really just being nice. and frankly, sejun’s really not the type to eat in five minutes and leave. if the guy wants someone to talk to, he’s more than happy to take this role upon himself. as if a new flame sparked within him, he hops towards his companion, fingers curling around his arm. ‘ sure ! i’m always down for talking about whatever you want. the fact you’re buying me chicken gives you an hour extra, ’ he grins and already tugs the other’s arm towards the door so they can get going. ‘ let’s go. ’

[lsejvns]

hvcil !

     ❛ what the hell —— is spooning.. ? ❜ he wondered. ❛ i mean, i asked you if were hungry already, and now you want me to feed you with a spoon ? ❜      it was interesting, the way the mind worked; especially when it came to a musical GENIUS who had no clue about the meaning behind his works. they just sounded right, and it’s not like that was his heart’s intent. he was naive in terms of gentle touches and soft emotions.      as he let out a slight sigh, he shook his head in a whatever type of motion. it was similar to the reaction he had beforehand, sejun not accepting his high-five for their COMPROMISE, and him feeling the least bit of embarrassment for trying to be positive for once. the shot wasn’t worth it after being rejected too. before haeil could slide back to his desk and tuck his head into his music again, he peeked over the male who questioned their presence. in his mind, if someone asked that question in the first place, it meant there was a part of them that didn’t want to be there. he was a person who respected one’s decisions, so he refused to let himself give a selfish answer.      ❛ do you WANT to leave ? ❜ he retorted. ❛ i won’t stop you if that’s what you want. ❜

THERE IS A MOMENT HE TAKES to just stare at the other, as if he’s trying to guess whether what has just been said was a joke or not. then, he needs to remind himself who this is — and sejun knows the answer before he can give it any further thought. a part of him wishes haeil was joking, but he knows the lack of any smile at the other’s face isn’t there for a genuine reason. sejun waits a moment or two longer as if he’s waiting for a miracle — and an expression of understanding, but it’s useless. the light sigh he catches combined with the barely-there head movement brings a hint of satisfaction; like he’s not the only one having to face some sort of disappointment here. maybe it should not please him the way it does.

now, the words — it’s clear that haeil is just politely telling him that he should get out of here. sejun might ignore subtle hints for what he does and pretend he doesn’t catch them but he knows the meaning hidden behind those words. someone would probably understand, grab their things and bid farewell to spare themselves some embarrassment. it’s an option sejun considers for maybe a second before it gets turned down. perhaps it’s a punishment of sorts he’s decided the other has to go through — his company. dark eyes leave the other male’s handsome features, directed towards the ceiling instead. ‘ no, i’m good, ’ he announces, in a tone that he manages to keep light. ‘ i think i’ll stay. ’ the truth behind that is that he doesn’t really want to be alone, and he opts for being an unwanted company rather than being on his own. it’s just easier. ‘ keep doing whatever you need to be doing, ’ he adds, and this time there’s a hint of something challenging in his voice; as if sejun’s expecting to be told to leave, like he wants to see what is going to happen when he keeps taking an advantage of the hospitality.

[lsejvns]

rheemvna !

HIS thoughts are correct, she definitely does  — and that’s why she hangs around sejun. mi na has been goody two shoes her entire life ( even if entirely by choice ) and this was time for a change. and now heights  — she’s only kind of listening still, eyes still on the food. she has her priorities at the moment. food then mischief. “ heights ?? not really a problem, ” she considers, a contemplative hand to her face. “ it’s the falling i’m not a fan of. ”

HE LAUGHS WHEN HE NOTICES THAT the snack is much more interesting than he is right now  — and he can’t argue, really. the food is possibly on top of the list of reasons why he enjoys this time of the year. ‘ good, ’ he agrees, nodding as they walk off, back into the crowd of people that are slowly making their way around trying not to miss any of the attractions. ‘ we should try some of the rides. ’ he pauses, an expression that’s supposed to be thoughtful settling on sejun’s features. ‘ now that i think of it, i’m not sure if food was a good idea before that, but let’s see. adventure time, right ? ’

[lsejvns]

scjoo !

                  he’s been daydreaming quite frequently. more often than not, it would be about ice skating. the crunch of ice underneath his heel, the comfortable weight of his skates and the utter sense of freedom he has once he glides on ice. but today his thoughts were preoccupied with an invitation to a party the night of friday (which is tomorrow). he had no particular reason to go other than he was invited but no particular reason not to go as well. perhaps the unknown crowd? but he really didn’t mind that. ❝ do you think i should go? should i not go? ❞ he asked out loud, humming after. his indecisiveness is truly the bane of his existence. 

HE LOOKS UP FROM WHERE HE’S BEEN OCCUPIED with his cup of coffee  ( — more like a load of milk with tons of sugar that still held faint coffee flavor ) curious eyes settling on the verson whose voice he’s just heard. sejun studies his companion for a few moments as if he’s trying to decide, as if he’s contemplating all the options. he is not, really, because he already knows the answer. it’s not until few moments and a sip of his drink later. ‘ my answer’s always that you should go, ’ sejun says, offering a shrug as if he doesn’t really care. ‘ unless it’s going to class when there’s supposed to be a quiz. now where are you trying to decide if you should go or not exactly ? ’

[chelseaperetti]

[yngbin]

tough crowd

[lsejvns]

@moonycjun !

‘ WHAT IF YOU WERE TO DIE TOMORROW ? is this really how you’d want to spend your last day, in this room ? ’ plump lips are adorned with a pout as he’s stood by the door, arms crossed over his chest — like a child that’s just been told by a parent that they can’t go outside to play. it is not entirely wrong; sejun just keeps pouting as he eyes the other person in the room, hoping that an addition of puppy eyes is going to change his friend’s mind. he throws his hand aroundin frustration, gesturing towards the mess, huffing afterwards. the majority of the dorm is empty with everyone enjoying the weather and the festival, taking the opportunity to escape the world of classes, assignments and everything else they ened to deal with throughout the semester. sejun just wants to do the same and has every intention to drag yejun with him. ‘ can’t we go out and have decent fun like a pair of responsible young men ? i’ll buy you snacks. one snack, ’  he corrects himself quickly, grimacing when he realizes he’s got one more option left. ‘ please ? ’

[lsejvns]

rheemvna !

WORRIED ?? she believes it, but it’s not too concerning. it’s bound to be exciting today, she knows. she’ll follow bright - eyed and bushy - tailed. but now, now there’s priority. should they be careful about how much they eat with carnival rides ?? she’s already ignoring the thought. a smile crosses her face when she hears ‘ i’m not telling you. ‘ exciting. mi na’s eyes move again to the food, easily distracted as she is. “ yes, but only one ?? two ?? i don’t know. ” she’s about to start rambling. “ two, and tell me at least ─ on a mischief scale of 1 - 10 ?? ”

‘ I’M NOT TELLING YOU, ’ he repeats once more, corners of his eyes crinkling in amusement. he is kind of doing this on purpose as well because he knows she can use whatever excitement in her life she can get — or at least that is what sejun believes, and what his main reason is why he just feels the need to spice it up once in a while. also, he hasn’t been explicitely told to stop just yet so figures he might as well keep it up. ‘ how comfortable are you with heights ? ’ he asks, then, casually, in a tone like he was asking about the weather.

[lsejvns]

hvcil !

     is he serious ? haeil wondered to himself. being the type of guy who never really knew about the sentimental things, it was only right in his mind to question it all. of course that was the TYPICAL offer that someone would make, but he never really could figure out the exact comfort behind it. if he was legitimately afraid of heights, which he isn’t, what would a plain old hand-hold do ? he’d still be in the air, fearing for his life and looking like an idiot. hold my hand ? he scoffed. what am i, a baby ? with those NAIVE thoughts, he furrowed his eyebrows.      ❛ whatever.. ❜ he murmured along with an eye-roll.      as they finally come to a relieving stop, his eyes trailed towards the male once more to pay the leasts of his attention for another slight moment. by eyeing the stand in the distance with not even seconds going by, haeil was PRACTICALLY dragging sejun across a marathon finish line. instead of acknowledging the rhetorical question and wasting his breath with an answer, he lead them both in that direction with no time to waste. aside from that, he could already feel those big dangerous eyes piercing into his soul, so ignoring them would be his best bet. after the few strides he took, the order sounded almost instant after the last customer left the line. AND, to save himself from more speaking, he went ahead and paid for the single treat as well: not that he bothered to even think twice about handing out his money.

THE LACK OF EXCITEMENT DOES NOTHING because sejun is probably excited enough for both of them. he has to admit that haeil’s sudden decision to drag him through the small crowd right towards the stand he’s been eyeing takes him by surprise, but he doesn’t try to resist. if anything, it pleases him, and sejun doesn’t even try to hide the smile that appears on his face. before long, the desired treat is placed in his hand and he watches with big eyes how the other doesn’t hesitate once when he pays for it. sejun could kiss him right now, but he decides against it, figuring that he’s making haeil suffer enough by being here in first place. 

with the pink sugary fluff nearly bigger as his head, this time it’s him that pulls his companion through the small mass of bodies gathered before the stand. he locates a patch of grass that doesn’t have people or trash all over it, and decides it’s a nice spot to settle and decide what to do next. he would probably be the one making the decision, if he’s honest. ‘ you want some ? ’ he asks, tearing a bit of the cotton candy and holding it right in front of the other’s face, not minding it’s melting right away and sticking to his fingers.

[joyceanfartboner-deactivated202]

not everything is about you

that’s fucked up and i refuse to believe it

[lsejvns]

@cordicls !

A DULL ACHE IS THE FIRST THING he’s aware of after he wakes up. it spreads in his head, making it feel like someone’s constantly smashing it with a hammer several times in a row. not that sejun knows what having their head smashed is actually like — although right now, he’s sure it can’t be much different than this. that’s when that sound rings through his ears again, and he wonders whether someone’s trying to run his door over with a bulldozer. turns out it’s just knuckles against wood, someone attempting to get in. a hoodie is the first thing he grabs to put on, not forgetting to tug the hood on his head as well to block any light that might reach his tired eyes. the promise of i’m never drinking again pops up in his mind but he knows such phrases are useless. the door opens and reveals a familiar figure, and sejun needs a couple moments to focus. ‘ this is all your fault, ’ he says, pointing an accusatory finger, ‘ you ditched me yesterday, i had to go alone and i went overboard. ’ overboard is an understatement, and sejun groans as he throws his aching body back onto the bed, peeking at daehyun over the edge of his blanket. ‘ i’m dying. ’

[lsejvns]

wvjins !

woojin knows his deal is too great to resist - just giving him company in return for him buying chicken? almost sounded like a scam. he isn’t one to lie, or break promises if he can help it - especially if it means he has someone to talk to for a while. maybe it’s a naive sort of thing to do, but for woojin, being liked is important. he chuckled softly. “gotta follow that old wisdom right?” he nods, thinking for a moment. “the weather is nice, so might as well take advantage.” he turned towards the other. “it’s okay, i’ll just give you mine if you’re cold, i don’t mind it.”

‘ ALWAYS GOTTA FOLLOW THE OLD WISDOM, ’ sejun agrees, because who is he to disagree ? despite the fact he totally just made that up so it could be applied to the current situation. he considers his fashion choices for a few moment but decides to just go for it, hoping the other’s jacket isn’t too horrendous and he would not mind putting it on if it came down to it. from what he can see, it doesn’t have to be the worst. ‘ okay, yeah. let’s go. ’ he’s halfway towards the door when he freezes, turning around to look at the other, ‘ wait, there’s a catch, am i right ? what’s the catch ? ’

[lsejvns]

hyeraaa !

The PATHWAY was lined with cherry blossom trees and Hyera had to stop for a moment to admire their beauty. Her shaky hands holding onto the camera as if time disintegrate if she didn’t capture this moment. Upon a moment of pondering,sShe wasn’t sure how they first met, but his life was much more interesting than hers & he appeared somewhat accustomed to her PRESENCE. Hyera didn’t usually say much, but the moment seemed too picturesque to keep quiet. So she LIGHTLY tugs at his sleeve. ‘Stop…uh just..just stand there, I want to take a photo.’

ANOTHER REASON WHY this is his favorite time of the year. pink buds all over the trees, the sidewalk littered with those that have already fallen off as well. it’s incredibly pleasing to the eye and sejun thinks he could walk around here for hours. the only sounds are those of their shoes against the concrete buried underneath the dead flowers, sticking to the bottoms of his old sneakers. her voice makes him look up in a genuine surprise, which immediately turns into a mocked one. ‘ who, me ? ’ he asks with a hand on his chest in overly dramatic fashion. he pouts for a couple moments as if he’s thinking before he nods. truth is, he’s never opposed to having nice pictures of him taken. especially with cherry blossoms adding to the aesthetics. ‘ alright, but make sure to get my good side. ’

[lsejvns]

you might have noticed that sejun’s fc is now rowoon, meaning you’ll be blessed with this angelic face on your dashboard, you’re welcome. that being said, i need more plots / threads for this baby, so consider this a starter call !! if we haven’t plotted, i’ll likely slide into your dm’s first. it might take me 84 years but i’ll get to it :~))

[je0nghans]

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