some of y'all...
look, i fucking get it. how can i not? i've invested so much time and money in seungri, but it's not just about dividends paid - i invested in him, the person, even moreso than i probably ever did his music/talent/whatever. i've waxed poetic about him and defended him til i was blue in the face whenever the topic of him being underappreciated/overlooked as compared to everyone else in bigbang was brought up. in that sense, i've been a part of the same infantilization of him that's happening now.
but at the end of day, he's a grown fucking man. he doesn't need me or anyone else on tumblr dot com or twitter dot com or wherever the hell else to speak on his behalf or defend any of his actions because he's a 28 turning 29 year old adult who should have learned all about accountability and consequences by now. quite frankly, if all the allegations against him turn out to be true, then neither does he deserve it.
i see so many of you saying that you're not taking his side, that you want to remain neutral until an official sentence is handed out, and then at a turn saying that you're so worried for seungri and that you hope he's doing well and that he deserves better etc etc. that's not neutrality lol. that's you guys taking a side, whether youre aware of it or not. to get all bent out of shape whenever someone calls him a piece of shit is you taking a side; to say that him being "made" to quit bigbang is unfair is you taking a side. all of this information being dug up about literal prostitution rings/breeding grounds for sexual assault, and your first and foremost worry is about seungri's wellbeing? what about the victims? all the women whose wellbeing has been compromised, through no fault of their own (unlike seungri, if the allegations turn out to be true)? what about how they're feeling, what they deserve? not to mention that there IS actual proof out there, building and building, and still some of you are doing the absolute most with the mental gymnastics and claiming that it's stil all just a ploy to tarnish his name.
idols aren't perfect, yeah, true, but who in the ever loving fuck was asking him or other idols to be perfect in the first place? they're allowed to be human, just like the rest of us, but they're also asked, just like the rest of us, to be decent as well. what seungri's being accused of - that goes beyond fallibility/being human. that's a serious act of cruelty and immorality that's inhumane, and i cannot, in good conscience, overlook it as some minor ~problematic~ flaw that should keep the "CANCELLED!!!" crew at bay. this isn't gd and top smoking a doobie with the broskis every now and then in their spare time - this is seungri being accused of complicity, if not willful participation, in the sexual molestation and degradation of numerous - NUMEROUS - women.
i'll probably get the usual braindead reaction claiming that i'm a "fake fan" or "good riddance" or that im "deserting him in his time of need", like any of that shit actually matters in light of everything that's being uncovered; as if it's not as difficult for me to process the fact that the guy i've spent so much time and money and energy supporting wholeheartedly could end up being a reprehensible scumbag, as if i actually enjoy watching sickening news like this be associated with his name. but what i, or any other fan of his, am feeling, doesn't even begin to compare to what the victims have gone through in this whole ordeal. so i'm not going to be guilted for dropping a guy who's looking more and more likely to have committed heinous crimes, and i'm not going to feel bad about wanting to believe the victims first rather than continuing to coddle a grown ass man who i don't know and doesn't know me. if your main priority in this right now is seungri, then i legitimately don't know what to say besides i hope you guys find more empathy in your hearts for victims of sexual abuse and that you achieve that elusive peace of mind that you've all wished seungri to achieve in this moment.
