` ABANDONED .

dash only gavin reed  /  side blog to @obliquarter

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i reblogged that fucking rk900 pic to the wrong blog didn't i. you ever reblog smth so icly

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gavin  ?   a  top  ?   gavin  ?   a  bottom  ?   just  gavin  ?   oh  yes  ,

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this  blog  will  be  mostly  quiet  until  i  move  /  get  my  desktop  back  so  i  can  make  proper  icons  !

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gavin gets cold real easy… him buryin up to his bright ass nose in a scarf and his ears all pink and cheeks flushed and him just, shaking, aggressivsely, “fuck! fuck it’s so cold!”

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meanwhile fucking s/b: you realize you're wearing a scarf in summer -

gavin: yeah well im as fucking gay as I am cold what do you want a god damn medal?

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gavin gets cold real easy... him buryin up to his bright ass nose in a scarf and his ears all pink and cheeks flushed and him just, shaking, aggressivsely, "fuck! fuck it's so cold!"

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you should save yourself before it’s too late.

there  will  be  blood  .          /  @kmskis

   DEAR  GOD  ,     he  writes  in  an  endless  ,   open  letter  ,   what  the  fuck  did  i  do  to  deserve  him  ?

                        teeth  bare  in  endless  scorn  ,   those  same  matching  silver  eyes  ,   stolen  from  those  dead  or  lost             forgotten  ,   he’d  assume  in  brother’s  place  ,   for  what  could  he  remember  but  his  own  shut  door  and  those  tinkering  hands  ,   cold  tone  ?

                                                                                      GOD  DAMN  YOU  ,   SELF  PROCLAIMED  MAKER  !

               gavin  knows  what  he  sees  in  those  hands  ,   against  the  dressed  silk  of  an  invested  family  that  collapsed  under  it’s  own  weight  ,   whatever  worth  it  had  spent  in  him  .   GAMBLING’S  A  SIN  ,   YOU  KNOW  ,    but  what  is  a  brother  to  god  but  failure  ,   all  in  the  face  of  his  own  marvels  ?

                                            reed  is  not  a  religious  man  .   he  never  will  be  .   but  when  he  looks  into  the  eyes  of  the  very  creature  who  has  never  turned  his  back  since  the  last  time  he  left  that  broken  archway  ,   he  sees  the  reflections  of  a  FANATIC  ,   devout  in  one’s  own  ways  .   he’s  going  to  hell  ,    something  says  ,   and  you’re  going  with  him  ,   brother  .

                       `  From what?  ”     the  words  are  poison  ,   spit  from  his  mouth  into  the  cold  air  .   fists  close  ,   open  ,   repeated  like  a  flower  continually  blossoming  only  to  die  .   but  the  damage  is  done  ,   isn’t  it  ?   kamski  -   elijah  is  a  genius  .   he  replicated  humanity  ,   so  when  he  strikes  out  against  the  deepest  fears  in  gavin’s  spine  ,   ringing  out  like  thunder  ,   there  is  little  to  stop  him  from  lashing  out  .

                                                                 `  I’m already doing the damnest I can to stay away from you.  ”                                                                                                             and  to  gavin  ,   that’s  safe  enough  .

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considerin  making  gavin  really  only  attracted  towards  guys  ?   like  straight  up  Gay  Only  here  .  .  .

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nah  i  lied  he’s  pan  too  but  just              heavy  lean  into  guys  .    more  a  romantic  interest  in  them  than  gals  ,   lbr

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considerin  making  gavin  really  only  attracted  towards  guys  ?   like  straight  up  Gay  Only  here  .  .  .

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ha  !   me  ?   forget  to  open  my  inbox  ?   no  .  i  just  don’t  like  any  of  you  .

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THERE WILL BE BLOOD (2007) as requested by anonymous. feel free to change details and pronouns as you see fit. some nsfw and triggering material.

you can lose it all if you’re not careful.

we’re wasting time.

there’s too much confusion.

i’m not going to waste your time and i’d like it if you didn’t waste mine.

what church do you belong to?

i’d like it better if you didn’t think i was stupid.

just give me five hundred dollars in cash right now.

i wanna go now. i wanna leave.

remember your silence.

thank you for your hospitality, ___.

we don’t have any money.

how much money can we make from this?

i love you.

that’s not successful.

god bless us all.

i like your new dress, ___.

this makes me want out of this stupid miserable business.

how can you help people if they don’t help themselves?

that is the way we do things.

to hell with your ideas of what is right.

it’s a miracle.

go fish.

my faith is stronger than yours.

i think you are a weak little man.

you’re lucky the day i showed up here, ___.

i want you to stay away from me now.

you alright? you alright?

what happened? what’s wrong?

i can’t hear my voice.

you’re alright. just calm down.

please make me hear my voice.

can you hear me?

i have important work.

you shouldn’t have done that.

you’ve got something else coming to you.

you are such a stupid man, ___.

i will tear you apart for what you’ve done.

can i help you?

i wanted to find you.

i’m starving.

have you ever thought of going back home?

are you an angry man, ___?

are you envious?

i hate most people.

there are times where i look at people and i see nothing worth liking.

i just want to survive.

i don’t have the dedication to things that i once had.

you’re being lazy.

i want to make enough money that i can move far away from everyone.

i see the worst in people.

you should save yourself before it’s too late.

what are you doing to us?

one night, i’m gonna come inside your house, wherever you’re sleeping, and i’m gonna cut your throat.

have you gone crazy?

why are you acting insane and saying you’re gonna cut my throat?

you’re a sight for sore eyes.

i’m your friend.

i’m not trying to hurt you.

don’t you dare hit me.

are you a sinner?

i am a sinner.

i was lost but now i’m found.

how many can say they have known the love of their life since they can remember?

i have reached a crossroads in my life.

can we be alone?

i would rather speak to you in private.

i am leaving here.

it is time to make a change.

you are making such a misstep.

you’re stubborn and you won’t listen.

i know you don’t mean that.

i’m going away from you.

your home is a miracle.

we’ve seen ups and downs, haven’t we?

it’s a lie. 

say it like you mean it.

you’re a fraud.

i broke you and i beat you.

stop crying you sniveling ass.

you lose.

don’t bully me, ___, please.

how dare you come to my home?

i’m finished.

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I’VE  HAD  THIS  MUSE  A  DAY  AND  HERE’S  THE  RUNDOWN  .

yeah  uh  ,   gavin  hates  androids  more  as  an  outlet  due  to  the  fact  his  fucking  half  brother  abandoned  him  to  take  care  of  their  shit  parents  .  my  gavin  isn’t  nearly  the  bland  piece  of  shit  cage  wrote  ,   but  has  just  so  much  resentment  built  up  for  elijah  and  the  fact  he  looks  at  him  with  such  disappointment  when  it  was  gavin  who  listened  to  the  way  he  could  hear  his  alcoholic  dad’s  knuckles  leaving  blue  -  black  bruises  for  kisses  on  his  mom’s  face  ,   gavin  who  clenched  his  fists  and  stood  down  to  a  silent  black  eye  telling  him  no  ,   i  still  love  him  ,  gavin  who  let  his  schooling  suffer  in  order  to  help  bring  in  money  ,   spent  time  with  friends  and  any  possible  moment  out  of  that  house  ,   who  TRIED  to  be  a  good  brother  but  was  shut  out  at  any  and  every choice  .

gavin  ,   who  at  16  kamski left  home  and  left  him  with  well  wishes  and  most  of  their  saved  money  to  start  college  ;   gavin  ,   who  found  no  note  when  his  mother  just  up  and  dissapeared  ;   gavin  ,   who  got  little  to  no  help  from  kamski  -  nor  a  shred  of  fucking  empathy  that  his  mother was gone  ,   and  apparently  so  what  his  brother  now  too  ;   gavin  ,   who  was  left  with  their  deadbeat  dad  who  continued  to  cling  to  him  like  a  bad  aftertaste  even  after  he  got  out  of  there  ,   went  to  school  ,   joined  the  force  .  gavin  ,   who  watched  this  sick  fuck  slowly  die  with  lung  cancer  as  it  tore  him  apart  and  just  fucking  wished  he  would  die  already  ,   how  can  the  spirit  of  someone  haunt  him  so  badly even  in  life  ?

gavin  ,   who’s  terrified  of  becoming  him  ,   not  just  his  alcoholic  dad  ,   but  a detached  kamski  who  looks  to  others  with  disappointment  in  his  eyes  .

so  uh  .   yeah  ,   gavin  fucking  hates  androids  because  he  fucking  hates  kamski  ,   he’s  REALLY FUCKING  empathetic  to  others  ,   really  fucking  insecure  ,   and  really  ,   really  gay  .   he  used  to  self  harm  ,   he’s  got  the  scars  (  most  of  which  he’s  tried  to  cover  with  tattoos  )   ,   and  he’s  been  skipping  out  on  both  meds  and  therapy  for  a  long  ass  time  ,   because  so  long  as  he  can  pass  his  psychiatric  eval  for  work  ,   who  cares  ,   right  ?

do  i  follow  the  canon  rule  that  he’s  such  a  vehement  racist  against  androids  ?   no  .   lmao  ,   fuck  no  .   does  he  trash  talk  them  ,   avoid  them  ,   take  out  unjust  anger  on  them  ?   yes  .   but  it’s  not  personal  ,   it’s  the  misplaced  anger  and  trauma of years  .   he  can  absolutely  warm  up  to  an  android  given  enough  time  .  just  don’t  expect  it  to  come  easy  .

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if  you  .  .  .   eventually  want  a  starter  ,   kill  me  .   or  leave  a  like  ,

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          HA !  and  here  u  thought  i  couldn’t  get  over  seemingly  irredeemable  characters  .  .  .   turns  out  you’re  right !   anyways  if  you  like  fuckfaces  like  gavin  reed  getting  humanized   (  meaning  i  will  completely  deconstruct  the  absolute  shit  cage  handed  us  and  make  him  into  a  proper character  while  absolutely  ignoring  canon  )   then  you’ve  come  to  the  right  place  !   all  that  usual  rpc  jazz  ,   independent  /  private  /  everything  -  friendly  ,   this  blog  is  a  SIDE  BLOG  TO  @obliquarter  ,   DASH ONLY  ,   with  gavin  being  adored  by  AMOUR  !