'And then you were mad,' Jasper practically whispered, his voice hesitant and quiet. He shifted back consciously, back towards the bar where his desk met the wall, and he realized with a growing uncertainty, a growing fear, that he was trapped. There was no way out except over it- and Jasper was not going to aggravate Lucas any more- or by the looming, taller-than-Jasper, stronger-than-Jasper tattoo artist. He looked down again, avoiding eye contact and shrinking away as far as he possibly could, desperate for some chance to not be behind the desk, not to be in the shop.
Lucas closed the blinds first. Jasper had padded out of the corner as he left, and now stood meekly at the ‘entrance’ to his curve-around desk. Unwilling as he was to be trapped, he was no more comfortable in the open, where he had no walls to back up against, no corners, no familiarity. Then he heard the smooth click of the parlour door lock, the one he was used to hearing when he locked up or opened shop after Lucas was gone, or before he arrived. His posture locked, and his shallow breathing became slightly deeper- still scared, just more resigned. He’d been here a thousand times. No matter how much he’d thought it was over, he’d been here a thousand times. That was what he told himself as he focused on breathing, relaxing his muscles. It hurt more if you were tense.
Actually, Jasper was surprised he wasn’t flashing back. He was rocked off, and he knew it wasn’t going to be good- he had half-decent instincts- but he was still there, he wasn’t in the past. He’d been reaching out to touch his desk lightly every time he’d come close, finding a comfort, a grounding in the object. It worked, for now.
He flinched at every word. Visibly, not just a mental jolt- his knuckles tightened he blinked, and at the harsher syllables, his foot twitched to take a step back. Now, he was trying to mask the fear, but it still radiated off of him like he was some sort of lightbulb, if fear could be light. He thought it was dark, a dark feeling. ‘I- I don’t,’ he whispered, mostly to the ground. ‘I do.. I do work. I order things an’, an’ I do what’cha ask. Y-You can’t. Please- please, c-calm down, I’ll pack my stuff an’ leave, jus’ please…’
He trailed off, his words mumbled and stammered in fear. Lucas was terrifying him, he was terrifying, they had been friends, and oh, god, what had Jasper done wrong? He backed away slowly back into his corner, shaking his head in some sort of gesture. He wished his chair was there, so he could curl up in the blanket that was there, and then he could pretend it wasn’t happening. It wasn’t happening. It was.