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lucy baker thirty-three single trauma surgeon salem, ma based penned by brooke

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Lucy looked at him as he talked. She wanted this, this is what she wanted. Was for him and them to talk. They needed too. Maybe her pushing was a way to finally get through to him. Taking a deep breath, she swallowed the lump that was forming in her throat and Lucy sighed. “Then what do you want to talk about?” She questioned him, now sitting on the edge of the bed, legs crossed she faced him. Hands in her lap “hmm? If you wont talk to me.., if you want to talk to me about the baby or anything else that has happened then what are we going to talk about?” It used to be so easy between them, talking. Now it felt like they couldn’t even do it at all, and that hurt. No she lied. That. That hurt. Him saying they had sex once, as if they wouldn't have sex again. As if that one time was their last time. “What? You didn’t like it?” She asked him, bitting down hard on her tongue. This was killing her. She didn’t wan to turn this into an argument but that seems to be where they ended up now. “I’m trying here Wes. I’m trying really hard here. You won’t talk to me and I need you to tal---” Stopping herself, she looked up at him when he told her he didn’t care about that. That. As if the child they lost nearly existed. That hurt and that hurt bad. She was all choked up now, and Lucy’s lips began to quiver “If you dont.. if you dont care then Ill stop. Ill leave you alone. Maybe I should go. You just clearly don’t care and I clearly have no idea what Im talking about Wes.” You could hear the hurt and pain in her voice now. “Just---” Standing up now, Lucy looked at him and shook her head, putting her hands up in surrender “Then Ill stop.”

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She knew he wanted this, and Lucy wanted it too so badly but this, doing this the way they were doing it hurt way too much. It was hard to explain to him and the blonde wasn’t sure if she was ever going to be able too. The blonde wasn’t sure if he was ever fully going to be able to understand. Taking a deep breath, Lucy bit down on her tongue that drew blood when he told her that not every thing had to to be healthy. She laid down on the bed in silence for a moment, looking up at the ceiling with her arm rested on her forehead. Letting out a breath, she finally sat up as he rolled off of her “I know you don’t want to talk and I get it. Trust me, I get it but Wes believe it or talking helps.  This however, this---” Stopping herself for a moment, she pushed her hair out of the way and looked at him “Fucking each other into oblivion doesn’t help. As much as we think it does, I don’t know if that’s true.  You’re hurting. I’m hurting and I think we both just want to feel something. I think we both just need to feel something. It’s okay to admit that you’re hurting. It took me a long time to admit it, but once I finally admitted it, it felt a little bit better. It didn't make me feel better, but it felt like. a weight was lifted off my shoulders” Lucy said quietly , and the looked at him for a moment. She wasn’t sure why she had to ruin every perfect but non perfect moment with him. “This wasn’t just my baby, or our baby.” Taking a deep breath she paused for a moment, and then looked at him again “This was your baby to. You lost the baby too and Im sorry. I’m sorry.” she turned to face him now, and leaned in to press her forehead against his. 

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She knew he was drunk, and she was a little buzzed too but this was not the way to fix this. As much as Lucy wanted and needed this, his touch and the feeling of him inside her, she knew this wasn't right. Lucy knew this wasn't healthy. Maybe it was and the blonde was over thinking things, but right now this needed to stop. With his hands entangled in her hair, Lucy closed her eyes for a moment and moaned. She always loved it when he ran his hands through her hair. When he told her now, Lucy pulled away for a moment "Wes, stop.." Trying to catch her breath she swallowed the lump that formed in her throat. He kept calling her baby and she loved it, she wanted him to call her that always. Lucy kissed him harder one more time, savoring every minute before she finally pulled away "Wes it's not healthy. What we're doing isn't healthy. I want this I do, but not this way." She whispered but then swallowed another lump that formed in her throat. As he continued to press his lips against her neck, Lucy moaned loudly again but finally pushed him off of her. "Wes. We can’t. Stop."

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“How could I forget? I may have had a few drinks but my memory still works.” He smirked. Maybe, he was slightly drunk now but once he got to this point he turned more flirty. If somehow that was even possible. “It’s dark out. Plus, Halloween isn’t even that great.” He shrugged. “No way.” Weston raised an eyebrow. At this point he wanted to go home. He nodded when she brought up kids and immediately wanted another drink. “No….” Weston then had an idea. Grabbing her hand he pulled her closer till they were touching. His hand finding her back and his lips greeting hers softly. Slowly pulling away. “Let’s get out of here,” he whispered against her lips. 

They somehow end up at Lucy's home this time instead of Weston's. His place was nice, it was his apartment but there was something about a house, something about them and houses that she just couldn't 't quite figure out. As she was on her bed, he was on top of her. Kissing him deeply, she sat up for a moment and bit down hard onto his lips. When his lips trailed from her lips to his neck, Lucy closed her eyes and took a deep breath "Wes. Stop. Maybe we should stop. We should stop." Her hair hit the pillow softly, as she tried to lean back down, but Lucy kissed him deeply again "This isn't healthy. We can't do this." She wanted this, she wanted this so badly but this wasn’t the way and Lucy knew it. She moaned softly, but then kissed him one more time “Wes..” 

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Syd rolled his eyes but shot her a lazy wink. “Can do. I know my limits… and I’ve got to work tomorrow anyways.” He sighed, releasing smoke through his teeth as he exhaled. He glanced over at Lucy from where he was laid out on the wall, one leg crooking a bit and raising his eyebrows. “Isla? I mean, yeah, we’re buds, sure.” He said. He chatted with her every once in a while but it wasn’t anything major- and he wasn’t sure why it was being brought up. “Nervous about her hanging out with someone who smokes cannabis?” He fake-gasped, putting a hand on his chest. “You know it’s legal in Massachusetts, right?”

As Syd mentioned he had work the next morning, Lucy raised her eyebrows at him and continued to fold her arms across her chest "Dude, how the hell do you get down from the high? In all honesty, Iv never been high before and I don't understand how it works. Humor me." It was true, sure she drank alcohol, drowned herself in it sometimes but the blonde never smoked or did drugs of any kid. She heard the horrible things it did to people, she was a trauma surgeon and saw it everyday. She continued to stand, but her feet were killing her so the blonde ditched the heels. Feeling more comfortable, Lucy listened to him talk "Yeah Isla. Short, adorable blonde." Listening to him talk still, she shook her head "No. I'm just.., she's my little sister so I'm being the protective older sister here." Shrugging her shoulders, Lucy shook her head "Never mind. Forget I said anything about Isla. Have to remember she's twenty-four and not six anymore." Now Lucy fully understood her mother when she meant it was hard letting go. "Yes I know it's legal." Bitting her lips now, Lucy finally sat down “You still hungry?” 

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Weston nodded. “I absolutely need a new drink.” Although, he was completely buzzed already but one more wouldn’t hurt. He took the drink from her. “Thanks.” He smiled. “You look beautiful.” Weston took a sip of the drink. “No, i’m secret service.” He held up the sunglasses and shoved them back in his pocket. “I can’t believe you convinced me to come here.” He took another sip of the drink. Looking at the liquid he decided to just finish the drink. Downing the whole thing he looked back at her. 

She wasn't sure how much he had to drink already, but Lucy lost track of how much alcohol she consumed tonight as well. She was fine though, she was taking things slow and was making sure she ate. "Whiskey Sours are kind of our thing, remember?" Lucy questioned him, bitting her bottom lip but then took a deep breath. In general it was just Whiskey that was their thing, well alcohol really but she pushed down the memories. Now she wished the alcohol was back in her hand. She forgot how good he looked in a tux. "Thank you." She said quietly when he called her beautiful. Swallowing the lump that was burning in her throat, Lucy laughed a little when he took out his sun glasses "Oh come on man, you gotta put the sun glasses on otherwise people will mistake you for a Butler." She joked and stepped a little closer to him. Taking a deep breath, Lucy smiled softly "Oh come on, I know you secretly love it. I'm glad you decided to come though." Lucy said quietly, and then looked at him for a moment "After all, Halloween a couple years ago was when we had the talk about everything. Kids, marriage. We were drunk per usual, but it was fun." Bitting down hard on her tongue, Lucy shook her head and looked at him "I'm sorry.” This was going to be so hard. “ You eat anything?"

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“Well, look who it is. I thought you didn’t do Halloween?” She smirked. Cassie knew that Lucy wasn’t that big into Halloween so she was surprised to see her here. “I’m Shego, obviously. From Kim Possible. Come on, Luce.” She teased. Although, she figured that Lucy just didn’t know who Shego was. Cassie could’ve easily bought a Shego outfit but decided instead to make it her own. She had most of the things at home anyways. A green shirt, fishnets, a black crop top and she even put clip ins of green in her hair. 

"Long time no see, stranger." It truly has been a while since she's last seen Cassie. Their schedules as first responders have just been extremly hectic and every time the two tried to plan something, something else would always come up. However, the blonde was glad she was able to meet with Cassie right now. Even if they were dressed in ridiculous costumes. "Oh I'm not into Halloween. But we do live in Salem, so I feel like I'd be shunned if I didn't dress up." It was true, this town was known for Halloween and if she didn't dress up then she felt like weird things would happen to her. "I might be a little to old for Kim Possible, but she does sound familiar and you do look kind of hot." Shrugging her shoulders Lucy took a sip of her drink and let the alcohol burn down her throat "So, how are things?"

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Sophie: How about we even drop the ice cream try and find out what everyone is freaking out over..

Sophie: Are you even here, I haven't seen you all night!

Lucy: Oh i'm 100% down for that. I think it might be the clown for IT that's walking around town right now.

Lucy: I'm here! I've been roaming. You want to meet me somewhere? I'll come to you, just tell me where you are.

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“Luce, please. We can’t keep doing this. I’m begging you.” Weston knew it was hard for her but it was hard for him, too. She couldn’t keep doing this right now. He needed to move past it and she kept dragging the past up. “Can we make a new rule?” He asked her as he leaned back into his seat. “Now we’re what? Finish your sentence.” Weston really could not believe this was still going on. He really, at this point, wanted to go home and sleep. Weston listened to her speak and he rested his head against the head rest. When she was done talking he looked over at her. “I miss you, too. It’s time to see a therapist. I can’t keep doing this with you.” Weston was beyond frustrated with her right now. 

Letting out a shaky breath, she looked at the window for a bit and watched as half of their friends were starting to leave the party for the one year old. Swallowing hard, she listened to him talk and Lucy chewed on her lips "Okay." Was all she could say, if he really couldn't keep talking about it, then Lucy would stop. "Okay. New rule. If you don't want to talk about us, or the miscarriage then talk to me about what happened when you were under cover." Lucy wanted to know, he was stubborn just like she was but she wanted to know what happened so she could be there for him even if he didn't want her to be "You can't keep it bottled up inside Wes." The woman should really take her own advice. Licking her lips for a moment, she looked down but then up at him when he told her to finish her sentence "We're back to fighting, and I don't want to fight." Couples fought and she knew that, but she didn't want to fight with him. She could tell how exhausted he was and maybe the blonde should stop talking and just drive herself home. "Then let’s see a therapist." Was all the blonde could say, she reached out her hand and placed it behind his head, running her hands through his hair. Sitting in silence for a moment, Lucy stopped but then looked at him "If we're seeing a therapist, then I want you to talk about your undercover gigs. You never talked to me about them. If you aren't going to talk to me about them, then please talk to the therapist we're going to see. Please.”

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Weston wanted to get some fresh air after a few drinks he needed to cool off. Plus, it was getting a little crowded inside. He didn’t mind crowds but right now he just needed a break. He stepped out and leaned against a wall. The air was chilly but it was perfect right now. He pulled out his phone and was looking through Instagram of his friends back in Chicago. He missed them but this was for the best right now. He heard the door open and almost got hit by it putting his hand out to stop it. Looking to see who it was he shoved his phone in his pocket. “Sorry.” 

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He was dressed up in a tux, all decked out but simple like her. She saw him standing there up against the wall, and Lucy sighed. He truly didn't deserve what she was putting him through. He deserved so much better. Taking a deep breath, Lucy held the Whiskey Sour in her hand and took a sip, letting the alcohol burn down her throat. Glitter was on her face, her lipstick was red and the white wings were glowing in the light. As she watched him apologize to the person who opened the door, Lucy walked up to him and smiled softly "Excuse me sir, but I think you deserve a Whiskey Sour."  She said playfully but then swallowed hard. The blonde felt the cool air hit her body, it sent shivers up and down her spine “Hi.”  Lucy said quietly and finally looked up at him, handing him her drink “You look handsome.”  She told him and pushed her hair behind her ears “Let me guess, youre supposed to be a butler?” This was hard, it was going to be hard and she knew it. Though Lucy was willing to fight for it, for him, for them. 

[judexwilson]

who: open to all where: village tavern

The festival’s well underway and Jude managed to get himself out of the apartment. Sitting at home with his work helped as a distraction but with Halloween around the corner he didn’t want to lose out on experiencing the spooky fun which goes with this holiday. The tavern, decorated with bats, spiders, skeletons, witches…what have you, really turned on that haunted house charm. There were a few themed drinks on the menu but Jude opted for his usual beer. At the jukebox he tried to decide which song to go with, the selection seemingly endless. “What do you think I should go for?” he asked the person next to him. With so many in the bar he didn’t want to pick a godawful song. Not on his own at least.

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She needed a brake from walking around in high heels. Why Lucy decided that high heels was a good fit for her costume was beyond her. The wings needed to come off as they started to feel a little heavy on her shoulders. She was decked out as Juliet Capulet and the blonde was kind of proud of her costume even if it was simple. Decided to head into Village Tavern, she sat at the bar with her wings still on, and ordered a Whiskey Sour. Lucy was surprised at how she hasn't drank anything since being here yet, but the blonde just screwed it all up. Once getting her Whiskey Sour, she spotted Jude and smiled softly once he asked his question "Thriller." Lucy shrugged her shoulders and took a sip of her drink "It's a classic."

[breannesamaya]

Status: Open

Where: Fall Festival

“I should probably like… go watch Rocky Horror right? Especially if I’ve never seen it…” Breanne mused. There were a million things to do and it was a bit crippling trying to pick one and go with it. Except the hay maze. That was just not a vibe. This statement felt like something that she shouldn’t admit out loud. Everyone seemed to have seen the movie. They could quote the songs and lines perfectly. There were some dances involved that seemed to catch on… But Breanne was clueless. “But what about the face painting? I kind of want my face painted. Get a little pumpkin on my cheek…” 

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Lucy's mouth opened just a bit. Who hasn't seen Rocky Horror? It was such a cinematic classic an to say that Lucy was shocked was an understatment. Although, she is talking to the girl who hates corn mazes. The blonde hated corn mazes as much as the next person, but to never see Rocky Horror Picture Show was a disappointment. "Bre, you seriously have never seen The Rocky Horror Picture show?" She questioned the girl seriously, and raised her eyebrow. Laughing a bit as Breanne changed the subject quickly, Lucy nodded her head "Yes get your face painted. You know, I worry about you sometimes."

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“Why would you want me to treat you that way? I would never do that.” He wanted to say he would never do that to anyone but he decided not to say that part. It would only make her more upset and that was the last thing he wanted right now. “Luce…. we need to move past this. I’m not saying forget the baby i’m just saying we need to stop arguing about this.” He sighed. Weston felt like he was going crazy. “You can’t go back now. We just have to move forward.” If she couldn’t move past this he wasn’t sure if they would make it or not. It was hard enough as it was. “I never said that.” Weston ran a hand through his hair and looked over at her. He was getting angry with her. “Do I love you? Really? That’s what you want to know? You’re crazy. God, Luce. If I didn’t love you would I be sitting here right now. Would I be fighting for you right now? People told me i’m dumb for talking to you and wanting you back. You know that? What you did…. it sucked. It was terrible. No one deserves that but here I am because I can’t walk away from you. Yet, you think I don’t love you? Just because I haven’t said it. I don’t want me saying I love you to be the thing that makes you think this is going to work. I want this to work because we actually work on it and not those three words being the thing that holds us together.” 

Lucy took a deep breath. She seemed to be doing that a lot lately, taking deep breaths, trying to remind herself that everything will eventually be okay. To most people it didn't make sense on why she wanted Wes to hate her. To her though it made sense. It was easier, it felt like it would be easier if he just hated her. "Because sometimes I feel like it'd be easier that way. If you just hated me for what happened. I feel like it'd be easier for me." Swallowing the lump that formed in her throat, she pushed her hair out o her face. She was exhausted mentally and physically. "I'm trying Wes. I'm trying to move past it, but every time I look at your face it kills me okay?" She felt tears well up in her eyes again. "I look at you and I think of what he or she could've looked like." Bitting down hard on the inside of her tongue, she so wished she kept this whole thing to herself. "It was all I ever wanted with you." As her voice got choked up, Lucy looked down and felt tears fall from her eyes again. She covered her face with her hands for a moment. "I'm trying. I'm trying to move forward and I was. Then you showed up here in Salem, and now we're just--" Stopping herself, Lucy listened to him talk and her heart felt like it was beating five thousand miles per minute. They never got angry with each other, they did but not like this. She looked at him for a moment, exhaustion and sadness written all over her face. Continuing to listen to him talk, her heart broke all over again and Lucy bit her lips "I want it to work Wes. I want to fix this. I'll se a therapist if I need to. I'll--" Stopping herself, she tried to catch her breath "I still want everything with you. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I miss you, I miss us." She whispered, and leaned in a bit closer to him. She wanted him to drive home. She wanted him to take them home. "I'm sorry." Lucy whispered, and let the tears stream down her face “I miss you. I miss being with you. Being wrapped up in your arms again the other night I---” She swallowed hard for a moment “I felt happy and safe and at peace.”  Lucy said quietly but then continued with “I felt at home. You are home to me Wes.”  She pushed her hair out of her face again and placed her elbow on her leg “I want to fix this.”

[queencobraeva]

Status: Open

Location: Fall Festival

Once upon a time Eva would have jumped at the chance to have a table at the Fall Festival. She’d done it the past two festivals and made a pretty penny. This year she decided to lay low. Opting to make her own festive earrings and spend her money at the vendors this year. And spend she would. Eva was stuck at a local farmer’s table. They had jars of fruit preserves and spreads that were calling her name. There was also a jar of organic honey. “I th…think I ma…made a good decision this year. I’m not stuck behind a table.” Eva said as she waited for her jars to be rung up.  

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This was her first year at the fall festival here in Salem, and to say that she was enjoying it was an understatment. Lucy knew that she moved to Salem for one reason and that was to get a fresh start, she was doing it. This whole town is exactly what she needed. Walking around dressed up in her costume, the wings on her back were getting quite annoying but she didn't wan to take them off yet. Lucy had met up with Eva at the farmer's market. It was one of her favorite places in town, and right now it wasn't to crowed. Picking up a thing of fresh flowers to take home, and some fruit, she placed them in her bag and smiled as Ava talked "You definitely did. I mean it's grate to earn some money, but at least you get to fully enjoy it this time."

[cassiekato]

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Location: The Bar

Cassie came dressed to impressed. She hated feeding into the whole spooky Salem thing but Cassie loved Halloween, for different reasons then most. She loved to dress up and have an excuse to be someone else. Thankful that her shift was getting covered so she could attend tonight. A good excuse for her to dress a little slutty as well. This year she decided to go as Shego. Once she got inside she walked right to the bar to get herself a drink. Ordering her drink she waited for it to arrive. Pulling out her phone to send her a mom a quick text when someone bumped into her. “Hello?” 

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It's been a couple of years since Lucy dressed up for Halloween. She swore to herself she wasn't going to do it this year, but the woman lived in Salem so it felt like she had too. She wasn't going to go all out like she used to do, but something simple this time. One of Lucy's all time favorite movies was Baz Luhrmann's,  Romeo & Juliet, so the blonde decided to be Claire Dane's version of Juliet this year. Simple, white dress with white wings. She didn't have to get to dressed up this year which was nice. She was also lucky she had some time off right now. Deciding to meet Cassie a the bar, the woman spotted her and walked over, bumping into her "Hi you." She sat down and ordered herself a beer “Who are you supposed to be?”