Lucius Malfoy

18- Seventh Year

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sereinmuse‌:

Much to someone’s dismay, Orion had only slept with Laertes and the other Slytherin he hooked up with about a month prior. However, he was quite a natural when it came to kissing. However, kissing Lucius different from the other times, including Belby. Lucius felt natural, like he had been doing this with the man for ages already. Orion already found himself nearly melting into him upon feeling him grip his curly hair. He shuddered at his touch, nibbling down on his lower lip before letting Lu pull away from him. Orion let himself breath, looking at the blonde like he was a dream. Everything felt so perfect until those three words fell out of his mouth. He felt frustration, disappointment, and confusion by his words. He had to take a moment to collect his thoughts and pulled a little further away from Lucius. There was a string of doubt in his mind, followed with thoughts about Lucius playing a cruel joke on him or finding the absolute perfect time for him to experiment. But, he kept his mouth shut. As much as he wanted to ask, the Claw really didn’t want to stir up more drama. Especially when it involved something he could actually keep in his head this time. After these thoughts seemingly passed on by, Orion almost immediately thought of about ten witty remarks that were laced with the perfect amount of sarcasm. But, again, he really was not in the mood to get hexed. So he just sighed, deciding it was best to be mature and rational about all of this. Whatever this was. 

“You don’t have to be…you don’t have to label any of it, not right now.” he whispered, giving him an understanding smile. Deep down, he knew almost exactly what Lucius was feeling. “Or…or ever….” quickly correcting himself. “Just go with what feels right for you now, you don’t need to justify shit to me. Whatever this means for us, you’re still one of my best friends. I’m not going to just let you suffer alone, what kind of person would I be? I accept you for who you are now, in the present. Your past and your future don’t matter right now, just do what feels right.” 

Lucius only pulled away to take a moment to clarify things in his head and between them. He didn’t want Orion to go further away, which is why he wouldn’t let Orion go too far. Orion’s words touched him in a way that the Ravenclaw would probably never know. Lucius was always a man of many words, talking being his best form of communication, but words were failing him right now. How could one of the only wrong things he could do feel righter than anything else? “You feel right,” he said quietly, closing his eyes as he rested his forehead against his. “I... I have no idea what this means,” he admitted with a slight chuckle.

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sereinmuse‌:

“L-” Before Orion could do anything, Lucius roughly gripped his shirt and impulsively pulled him into a kiss. It was not like he didn’t want Lucius to kiss him, because he very much did, he just wasn’t expecting the other to actually do it. His body nearly froze as Orion frantically tried to find a way to react, eagerly kissing back without a second to think of whatever repercussions he could make up in his head. He found himself placing his hands over Lu’s shoulders as he deepened the kiss, never wanting it to end. 

Lucius had kissed one person before back in third year when all of his friends kept asking questions he didn’t have answers to. It had been short and felt like nothing with some friend of a relative over the summer, but he did it to say he had. He never thought a kiss could feel like this. It was obviously because he was kissing him, but he still never imagined it would feel this great. Then again, any time a thought like that popped into his head, he had futilely tried to suppress it. His fingers started to grip the other boy’s curls, completely running on instinct for a while before he used Orion’s hair to pull him away and to take a breath. He simply looked at him for a moment, taking him in and catching his breath before saying “I’m not gay.”

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sereinmuse‌:

Orion felt the heat rush up to his cheeks almost immediately. His heart was nearly in his throat after he had started speaking. The Claw felt himself lean back into his seat, wanting to do anything to get out of this situation he had put himself in. “You’re a clever guy, do you think you’re wrong?” directing back, wishing that Lucius was wrong. “I like you,” he faltered, finally giving in and admitting his own feelings out loud. 

Lucius was always a mentally motivated individual. He prided himself on never letting his emotions force him into making rash decisions, knowing it would only lead to regret in the long run. However, those three words out of Orion’s mouth turned his brain completely off. Before he could rationalize and stop himself or think for a second, he found himself grabbing Orion by the shirt and roughly pulling him in for a kiss, bringing his other hand up to grip the back of his head. It was the most impulsive, rash, and without a doubt the stupidest decision he had ever made.

And he had never felt so happy in his life.

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sereinmuse‌:

Orion just kept his mouth sewn tightly shut. Even though part of Orion really wanted Lucius to know, he knew he couldnt just tell Lucius how he felt. He did feel guilty for hiding something from him, though feeling bad about hiding things from Lu was not a foreign thing. He always felt terrible about not telling the man anything and everything, even if it was the most irrelevant thing in the world. But he absolutely abhorred beating around the bush too. He knew how stupid he must be sounding right now, silently beating himself up inside. “I told him I also had feelings for someone else….” he said silently, gaze once again holding onto Lucius’. He sighed and began to speak, “I’m developing feelings for someone who will probably never feel the same, someone who may even be disgusted that their best….their friend may like them in such a manner.” He stated, hoping Lucius was smart enough to put the pieces together. Orion slipped his hands into his robe pockets, his fingers touching the tip of his wand as he waited on the edge of his seat.

Lucius could feel his heart pounding harder than he’d ever felt it before. Lucius was a very smart guy, and he knew it, but right now it felt like he was struggling to catch up. The way Orion was speaking sounded an awful lot like a confession. Lucius blinked a few times, still trying to process. “Ri...” he said, starting a sentence he had no idea how to finish. The pounding in his chest could be heard in his ears, and the sound was overwhelming him. He could feel himself leaning forward even more, as if his body wasn’t under his control anymore. “Tell me I’m wrong,” he begged, though he could barely hear himself over the sound of his heart. “Tell me it’s not me, tell me I’m misunderstanding, just...” He took another shaky breath before asking “... am I?”

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sereinmuse‌:

Orion knew he was probably being a little over dramatic right now. There were obviously larger things happening around him that he should be paying attention to, but the world outside the castle walls terrified him. He sat back and observed Lucius’ body language, trying to decipher what the boy was really thinking. He was almost sure Lu had just about enough with him and his petty drama. However, he felt the need to talk to him, even if talking meant ruining their friendship and his reputation. 

“I rejected him…”

He admitted in a soft voice, unable to believe it himself. Words wrapped around his mind as he thought of a way to tell him the rest without really telling him the truth, thinking maybe he should have went to Xeno with this problem.

“Perhaps a few months ago, I would have reacted differently, not that the outcome would be any different.” He knew Laertes probably would never want a proper relationship with him, or really anyone. “I don’t quite feel the same way for him as I used to.” His eyes flickered to meet with Lucius for a second before looking down. “I admitted something to him and our conversation did not turn out so great. I feel like such a horrible person for hurting him, and I’m not quite sure how to face him.”

I rejected him.

Three words that immediately relaxed Lucius’ jaw and left a slightly sadistic gleeful feeling. However, that was quickly replaced by confusion. Why would he reject him if Orion had feelings for him? Then he continued, and just that glance of eye contact put butterflies in his stomach. Orion admitted something. Something? Orion was hiding something from him, which Lucius did not like. Sure, Lucius had his secrets, but the only things he kept from the other boy were things that would ruin the friendship if he knew. So he felt perfectly justified. “Apologies, Orion, but I’m still confused,” he said, leaning forward subconsciously. “I’m more than happy to simply be a listening ear, but if you want me to be of any help, you’ll have to be far less vague.”

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celeste-wilkes‌:

“At least someone has done something.” Celeste muttered quietly. She didn’t want to be impatient, she really didn’t. But she had made her choice and having to just sit around and wait was driving her mad. And the fact she was starting to feel guilty for her choice wasn’t helping either. “At least they are scared. As they should be. They needed a reminder that they aren’t safe and they sure as hell got that.”

“I disagree,” he said with a shake of the head. “Now, everyone is on high alert but with no loss of life to warrant it. They should have either killed them, or simply done nothing so that the next attack would be completely by surprise. Warning the filth only gives them a fighting chance, and why would we want that?”

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narcissenoire‌:

“See, in order to answer that I would have to know what I’m looking for, and I don’t.So…” Narcissa was starting to regret asking this - what were they supposed to do, play 20 questions? People didn’t just get to know each other like that, though how exactly they were supposed to do this, she would like to know. 

“Do you want to get coffee - at Hogsmead, I men, whenever they let us out again… “ Then they could have another one of those enlightening chats. Hopefully by then she’d have figured out how to act in this situation. 

This was already a rocky road. Of course, Lucius didn’t believe that he would immediately get along with his fiance, but he hoped conversation would be at least somewhat easy. Perhaps this was just one of the rare times where Lucius wouldn’t get what he wanted. “Sounds like a great idea,” he said with a charming smile, leaning back to get up from his chair. “Feel free to come find me if any questions pop into your head.” He reached down to take her hand and place a kiss on top of it. He felt empty doing the gesture, but he did his best to give the impression that it was genuine; no point in fighting this, so why not get her to like him? He would learn to love her eventually.

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celeste-wilkes‌:

“It does sound nice. I mean they truly are just a waste of space. Like that idiot Hufflepuff. With all the trouble he caused he could have at least turned up dead.” Celeste very rarely actually voiced the real thoughts running through her head. They usually only came out when she and Lucius were alone. Which mean that everything she kept bottled up could sometimes come out harsher than she intended. “I don’t think I’d know what to do with you being that happy.” She joked. “Let’s just hope that day comes sooner rather than later.”

“Seriously,” he agreed with with an annoyed eye roll. “Him and Evans. Two completely half-arsed jobs in less than two months. I don’t know who did either, but they need to be fired.” He took a drag from his cigarette before adding “Merlin, the Dark Lord deserves better than this. I can’t imagine he authorized such lazy work, these had to have been rogue players.”

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narcissenoire‌:

“A Black is probably the best match anyone could make,” Narcissa answered.  “Another way to look at it is that we have plenty of time to do that later, but yes, I suppose we should. So, what do I need to know?   ”

He was going to make a comment about certain people bearing the name Black but decided against it, given that she might’ve taken offence or misunderstood or both. “Need to know?” he repeated with a shrug. “What do you wish to know?”

[celeste-wilkes]

“People are idiots,” Celeste said for perhaps the tenth time just that day as she sat there in a huff. “I can’t wait to get out of this damn school so I don’t have to listen to their stupid whiny voices and their idiotic problems. Honestly, how can people not see the world would be so much better without them causing so much noise?”

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“Agreed,” he said with a knowing smirk. He loved these conversations with Celeste. She was one of the few people he could be one-hundred percent himself around, so they were like a breath of fresh air. “Once this is all over, Hogwarts will be so much more civilised like it used to be. Can you imagine? A mudblood free environment would be so fucking serene, I don’t even know what I would do with myself I’d be so happy.”

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18, 32

18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

Ambition. He doesn’t respect people without some sort of ambition. What good is wisdom if you don’t use it to better your situation?

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

The “Never Have I Ever” game with Laertes and Orion made him more uneasy than anything else he’d ever experienced. 

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Character Development Questions: Hard Mode

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Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

What does your character like in other people?

What does your character dislike in other people?

How quick is your character to trust someone else?

How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

How does your character behave around children?

How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

How does your character behave around people they like?

How does your character behave around people they dislike?

Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

How does your character treat people in service jobs?

Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

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sereinmuse‌:

“If it makes you feel any better, he hates me as well, I hate fighting but I’m not just going to stand there if we do get into it. However, I try to be the bigger man.” Orion shrugged it off, knowing whatever his problem was probably was none of his business. At the moment, Orion had already felt like he had further tainted a reputation he made up in his head. There really was no point in trying to dispel any rumours about him right now and felt lucky he was with Lucius. At least Lucius wouldn’t allow him to do anything reckless. The silence that usually would bug Orion actually felt soothing. When they arrived, Orion waited on Lucius to close the door before facing him. He fought every fiber in his being that wanted to hug him. He took a seat and waited on Lucius to sit, unsure of how to tell him what happened while leaving out certain details. “Laertes….confessed his feelings.” He began, pulling his knees to his chest. “I’ve liked him for so long and wanted to be more than just someone he sleeps with, but I never believed he’d actually feel that way.”

“I don’t care whether he hates me or not,” he said, completely numb. He was forcing himself to feel that way, otherwise he knew he would just be feeling pain. He didn’t want to think about Sirius Black anymore. Lucius sat down across from him, leaning his arms on his knees to listen. Then, those words registered in his mind and he had to put all of his focus on keeping his face neutral. The feeling in his chest and stomach could be so easily identified as jealousy but he couldn’t be he couldn’t be he couldn’t be...

He was.

He tried a new tactic, since even his mind wouldn’t accept his lies anymore. His next tactic was to ignore it. He was jealous. Whatever. Why bother wasting his time feeling it when he could do nothing about it? Simply ignore it and focus on Orion’s problem, though... it didn’t sound like a problem. “I have yet to hear a problem,” he said before swallowing, doing his best to relax his jaw. He hadn’t even realized he had clenched it.

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sereinmuse‌:

“I…” he thought for a moment before finding he was unable to argue against that. “Makes sense, I guess, did you two get into a spat?” Orion was rather curious, however part of him didn’t want to reflect on calling Lucius perfect. Because he was perfect to him, though there were some things he’d like to change, but Malfoy could never know how he felt. Orion cursed at himself for smiling too big at his words. “I’m glad, I try not to be.” And he really did try, Orion often found himself trying to act in ways that would make Lucius like him more. However, he knew deep down that the Snake would like him just the way he was. He couldn’t help but blush at the other’s statement, especially not when Lucius smirked like that. “Sounds great.” He then illuminated his wand and began walking away from the dungeons and towards the library. The Ravenclaw stayed at Lucius’ side subconsciously, unsure why he didn’t want the other walking behind him.

“Yeah, but when don’t we when we’re forced to interact?” he said with a nonchalant tone. It really wasn’t a big deal to him, or at least that’s what he was forcing himself to feel. He noticed Orion walking next to him, how could he not? He was worried for a moment about Lockhoart or Skeeter or one of their minions seeing them before realizing that it was the middle of the night and they were two prefects walking the halls during patrol hours; people would have to stretch the truth pretty damn far to get something out of this. The silences between the two of them were never awkward, but they were... off. Lucius didn’t mind the silence anywhere else but with Orion, there was always something strange in the air that made it more difficult to breathe. When they finally arrived, Lucius opened the door for the Ravenclaw, waiting for him to walk inside before he followed suit and shut the door behind them.

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sereinmuse‌:

His heart almost skipped a beat when he took Lucius’ hand. He wondered if Lucius felt the same but instead concentrated on the cut. “Perfect,” the word slipped out almost as quickly as the healing spell he had casted. “I mean…the cut, it healed perfectly.” He said as he tried to gather his thoughts. “Did he threaten you or something?” He asked, hoping there was a valid reason for the fight. Either way, he knew he was going to ask Sibella if Sirius was alright later on, but Lucius didnt need to know that. It was when Lu asked Orion if he wanted to talk was when he noticed that he had just been staring at his lips the whole time. His question almost made Orion want to cry but he knew he had to hold it together. “I’d love to, actually.” He admitted, wondering how he was going to tell without admitting his feelings. “I didnt want to be a bother to anyone, and I’m sure my brother’s housemates are tired of me staying over.” He looked around, “Where can we go that is private?”

“He took the first swing,” he said simply, reaching up to touch his newly healed lip before giving him a small smile. He thought his chest was going to burst at the word “perfect,” but surely it was just a misunderstanding on Lucius’ end, and his heart was just being fucking pathetic. “Thank you,” he said, subconsciously licking his lip before he nodded. He admitted “You’re never a bother to me,” then mentally scolded himself for letting such heavy words slip over such a small statement. “How about that study you showed me a week ago?” he asked, standing up and putting out his cigarette on the bench. “Then we won’t have to bother anyone’s housemates.” He smirked a bit before placing both hands in his pockets and nodding down the hallway. “Lead the way.”

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sereinmuse‌:

It was only when Lucius stepped closer that Orion had noticed the cut in his lip. “Are you alright? What happened?” He asked almost frantically, about to pull out his wand to heal him up. “I went to the party,” he stated before taking Lucius by the hand and leading him to the bench. “Anyway, what happened?” He said, trying to concentrate on Lucius being hurt in order to distract himself from what just happened. 

“I’m fine,” he tried to wave off but still allowed himself to be pulled to a bench anyway. Thank Merlin it was dark, because he felt like his cheeks were getting warm from even the brief moment his hand was held. Lucius noticed the tone Orion had when he talked about the party, but he wasn’t sure if he should ask about it. It almost sounded like Orion wanted to talk about it but couldn’t, which only made Lucius more curious. “I got into a bit of a row with the disgraced Black,” he finally explained as nonchalantly as possible. He then looked up through his eyebrows and asked “Do you want to talk about what’s upsetting you?”

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sereinmuse‌:

Orion needed some form of fresh air and the Claw Tower was not cutting it. He felt horrible for upsetting Laertes like that and couldn’t bring himself to sleep in the same dorms as him. Yeah, his bed was around the corner, but Orion still knew it was there. He still knew Laertes was in it and he couldn’t deal with knowing he upset someone he liked that badly. As he walked he noticed a flicker of light followed by the smell of smoke. Sighing, he quickened his pace and was ready to reprimand them before seeing who it was. “Oh, hey.” He smiled, “you’re out late, thought you were some kid. I got something stronger you could smoke.”

“Figured I could use a cigarette before ending my rounds for the night,” he shrugged. He smirked at the offer and shook his head. “I’m alright, thanks.” Once he was closer, Lucius noticed the slight sadness in Orion’s face. “You alright?” he asked, trying to not sound as concerned as he was; he didn’t want to sound like a “boyfriend” or anything. They hadn’t spoken since before the truth serum entered their systems, and Orion was the main reason Lucius had hid out in his room; he had no idea what could have leaked out of his mouth. Lucius noted the irony of him asking about Orion’s well being when he was the one who had just gotten into a fight, but Orion was a bigger priority than his split lip.